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this makes me feel a little better about my boobies:) i still wish it would be more normalised tho

what in the world are TUBULAR BREASTS?

well, nobody really knows for sure! but they’re pretty common and i really wish to see them normalized 

many people seek surgery, even though they don’t pose a direct threat to health (however it may be the source of issues with breastfeeding)

more info:

https://www.healthline.com/health/tubular-breasts

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/320309.php

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tuberous_breasts

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sometimes i’m afraid i’ll relapse. i’m afraid i won’t have enough energy again to do simple things. like talking to my friends. or walking to the bus stop. i’m afraid my brain will be occupied by my self destructive thoughts again.

but my therapist told me: "being recovered doesn’t mean to never have bad times again. it’s about being able to handle those times"

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knowing that my crushes girlfriend is jealous of me keeps me alive tbh

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everyone is hating on cassie and i can’t help but see myself in her.

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hey you,

yes you!

you deserve to get that gingerbread latte with regular milk and extra whipped cream. you don't have to drink black coffee. liquid calories are not wasted calories. you deserve to drink what makes you happy.

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i love how pictures of extremely skinny girls don’t trigger me anymore. i don’t feel like i have to look like that or that my body would be less beautiful than theirs.

i love how i wake up, look in the mirror and don’t pick up on my insecurities. i see myself and i love what i see.

i love how i don’t feel the need to eat less than others. i don’t care if i’m the only one going back for a second slice of cake. i eat to enjoy food.

i love how i can go out with friends again. i have enough energy to actually do something. i am not afraid of drinking way too much wine or eating at 12pm at mcdonalds. i don’t compare my body to the body of my friends. i simply just enjoy time spent together.

and that’s why recovery is so worth it. because you get excited again. you learn to love and to live again. and most importantly you finally learn to accept and love yourself.

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I luv being a teenage girl♡~

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i just got the cutest cream leg warmers but i have no idea how to style them.

please can some ballerina-swan lake-ice skating-winter fawn-alana champion-nina sayers-earmuffs-hot chocolate girl help me?

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does anyone know any good hair growth subliminals or knows what to do with french-girl-length hair?

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this year i will romanticise winter so i don’t fall into depression and i can stop hating this season.

because there so many cutesy things one can be excited for: ice skating with friends, drinking mulled wine and hot cocoa, long walks through the snow, earmuffs and huge scarfs, christmas gift shopping, being the best dressed at christmas markets, snuggling up in a cozy corner and watching christmas movies or reading a book, waking up and seeing the snow first thing in the morning, baking christmas goodies, warm oatmeal.

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love how this doesn’t mention anything ed related!

plaid skirts , iced coffee, pinterest, lily rose depp , paris chic , gucci tights , lanas unreleased music ,cigarettes, lipgloss , subliminals , 90’s models, gossip girl, doc martens, online shopping, lace tank tops , vanilla perfume ೄྀ࿐ ˊˎ-

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currently studying geography while drinking lemon&ginger tea and listening to a complication of russian classical music

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last year as the leaves turned red and fell to the ground, the worst months of my life started. that’s why i am beyond afraid of the colder days this year but i wrote a little something in hopes of making me as well as others feel better about fall.

imagine you wake up in the morning. you instantly get up as you feel excited about the day that lies ahead. you make yourself a hot beverage and eat a filling breakfast. as you sip your drink you think about how grateful you are for that day. as you leave the house the first thing you smell is that fresh scent after the rain. while walking to the bus stop you see all the leaves in every shade of red and yellow and orange. you make a step and hear the sweet crunch of the leaves under your feet. once you get home from school you make yourself a cozy hot chocolate and study while you listen to soft jazz music. as soon as you finished your schoolwork you snuggle up with a good book and light a candle, your only source of light. and as you fall asleep you think of all the beauty you have witnessed today.

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i would love to carpe diem but i also have strict parents

i would love to carpe diem but i also have anxiety

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"sorry English is not my first language" I say. As if I make any sense in my first language

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not 2 sound whiny but i wish more attention was given to the importance of art and literature and philosophy and other humanities again so they'll return to being a really great part of what shapes a decade or an era instead of being seen as useless because they don't fit into the capitalist ideal of a productive society

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I wish dark academia would be a bit more inclusive. dark academia is not about rich white kids going to private schools and reading all day. it’s so much more! dark academia is basically the art of loving to study and being keen on learning more.

dark academia is usually focusing on literature, history, language, art and music (in hungarian we call them humán tantárgyak->human subjects). let’s not exclude science, maths, psychology and all the others. these are just as dark academia as literature.

i also feel like poc get very little representation within the dark academia community. not to mention dark academia books. i encourage everyone to read books written by poc, learn about racism, so we can make our community a more welcoming place for poc.

lastly, i just really feel like we should make dark academia more inclusive towards all classes, skintones, genders, sexualities and interests.