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Watching my self being a lover girl era again, but this time with a private and a mature man i know this peaceful and healthy relationship with this man was worth all the suffering i went through🥹🌀

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inner child: you are not too sensitive, your best is enough, you can always try again, i am proud of you, you are not a problem.

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Juno in the 9th Sagitarius♐️🌀✨🤏🏻

Juno in the Signs & Houses

Juno was the third asteroid to be discovered. Juno is the wife of Jupiter. She has some similarities to Venus, but while Venus sparks that initial attraction, Juno makes the commitment. She sings of soul mates. As she moves through the sky, the face of relationships change, but she still stands for commitment of one kind or another.

Where you find Juno in your chart is where you may meet someone that you will remain with for a long relationship. She covers marriage, fashion and beauty. She is the patron of relationships and true love. Diplomacy is part of her sphere.

She has influence with the weather, flowers, fairness and female genitalia. She also dealt with many of Jupiter’s infidelities and thus has influence over the negative issues of spouse abuse, powerlessness, women’s rights (both positive and negative), rage, inferiority complexes and unfairness. She may also affect issues of denial, betrayal, inequality and of course bitterness.

Juno in Aries

Juno in Aries needs their own autonomy. If they don’t get that in a relationship they may end up with migraines or other physical displays of upset. They tend to be attracted to partners that are aggressive or dominant. While they want their own freedom, they also want a mate who will be an authority figure. They may see their partners as someone to compete with. They like to go adventuring together. They may need to learn how to develop balance in their relationships so both partners can pursue their own needs. 

Juno in the 1st House

If Juno sits close to your ascendant, being married or committed could be tied to your identity and self-image.

The first house rules our approach, appearance and the way we look – Juno found here can make marriage super important – your partner could be the centre of your universe!

Juno in Taurus

Juno in Taurus wants a sturdy relationship built out of material security and loyalty. They want someone reliable and trustworthy who knows the value of a dollar. They want a harmonious relationship at home that will last a lifetime. They enjoy a sensual relationship and truly want to share their goals with their partner. They are dedicated and faithful forever, and they expect the same from their partner. They may be possessive or controlling or attract these same qualities in their partner. They are willing to stand up for their ideals as long as they have a steadfast partner at their side. 

Juno in the 2nd House

Juno could lead marriage and partnership to be intertwined with money, possessions or the way you value yourself – self-esteem.

The second indicates what we value in the material realm, so the person with Juno in the second could be ‘married to their things’, with a love of accumulating more, including money. Marriage could be desirable as something to increase a sense of self-worth.

They could also view their marriage partner as something to be owned or a source of wealth.

Juno in Gemini

Juno in Gemini needs a partner who can communicate with them. They want a partner who is expressive and mentally stimulating. They like to share activities together. Sometimes they prefer to have multiple relationships instead of just one; conversely, they may prefer friendship to commitment. They like to play. Relationships may end up with one partner being more advanced in education or socially while the other is more dependent. They may also see their partner as capable of pursuing their own dreams. When they can’t communicate clearly they may get nervous and high strung. They need to clear up all misunderstandings right away and be able to have clear communication at all times to be happy. 

Juno in the 3rd House

For the person with Juno is the third house, marriage will come with a focus on communication. Perhaps a partner will help this person to express themselves more easily or the relationship will be about ‘being heard’. The union will benefit from being able to talk with one another. 

Juno in Cancer

Juno in Cancer needs emotional intimacy and a warm home environment. They nurture others by feeding them good food. They are attracted to partners who are nurturing and caring. They may appear to be dependent upon them or to be clingy or moody. They may use emotional blackmail to get what they feel they deserve. They can often manipulate others in very subtle ways. They feel strongly that justice must be served. They want a partner who is traditional and values the home and family. They like to care for their family and be cared for in return. They feel a strong need to commit to their relationship with all their might. They may need a lot of attention and may feel unfulfilled if their needs are not met. They are highly committed and loyal. 

Juno in the 4th House

The person with Juno in the fourth will be attracted to a marriage partner who is domesticated and attached to the home environment, one who loves to nurture, cook and nest. With this placement, the native could become more home-loving after marriage. Another possibility is that the person is wedded to their home life, with an importance of building a family brood.

Juno in Leo

Juno in Leo wants romance and excitement to be happy. They want a partner they can be proud of and who will admire them as well. They don’t like to feel ignored or rejected. They can become rather selfish or use inappropriate means of getting attention. They like things to be equal. They are natural showmen and want to share the spotlight. They feel strongly towards their mates. They may be arrogant or immature and rather bossy. They can also be very generous and loving. They are decisive and seldom change their minds once they are made up. 

Juno in the 5th House

Those with Juno in the fifth will want a partner with whom they can play, be romantic and get excited with. Children are likely to play an important part in the marriage, and its union can improve the creativity of the native.

Juno in Virgo

Juno in Virgo has high expectations in their partners, as they do in everything else. They will organize their relationships and expect them to remain efficient. They want perfection, and if their partner can’t reach that pinnacle they may be overly critical. They are attracted to partners who are efficient and oriented to the tasks at hand. They have their own sense of justice. They appreciate a partner who is ultra clean and who is unassuming when in public. Health is very important to them, so they want a partner who is also interested in healthy habits. They want stability, and in return will be loyal to the end. 

Juno in the 6th House

The person with Juno in the sixth might have their most important relationships in work or through the workplace – or they could be married to their work! Co-operation is important in the relationship – these people need someone they can work with day-to-day, someone that’s reliable and attentive.

Juno in Libra

Juno in Libra wants balance and equality in their relationships. They want someone who will share the chores of making decisions and who will consult with them on everything. They are attracted to good manners and an attractive appearance. They want them to share their interests in social activities and artistic things. They love romance. They tend to become competitive when the relationship becomes unbalanced. 

Juno in the 7th House

Relationships are key for those with Juno in the seventh. Placed in the house of partnership this person might seek marital, business or professional relationships to last a lifetime. They will be the cornerstone of life.

Juno in Scorpio

Juno in Scorpio needs an intense relationship with a lot of deep intimacy and sex. They may become manipulative and jealous, using sex as a way to control their partner. They want passion, loyalty and strength. They may be possessive and must learn to trust over time. They like mystery and power. They may be demanding or high maintenance. Once they are won over, they are loyal and dedicated, though they may always be a bit suspicious. 

Juno in the 8th House

For those with Juno in the eight, sex is likely to be an important part of partnership, trust and power too. Marriage could be a transformative force, deeply emotional and intimate. Situated in the house of other people’s money and finances, your partner could regard you as a possession. 

Juno in Sagittarius

Juno in Sagittarius wants intellectual stimulation in a relationship. They also want to share their belief system. They want a travel buddy and love adventures. Liberal and philosophical, they may be outspoken or competitive. They like independence and personal freedom, so a relationship with someone who wants a partner night and day would not work well with them. They want a shared camaraderie that will support each other’s freedom and yet strengthen their commitment. They prefer sports, law, philosophy and the outdoors. 

Juno in the 9th House

The person with Juno in the ninth might wed a foreigner, someone born far away or with a different background, or they might have a wedding abroad!

They will need a partner with whom they can travel or go on a spiritual journey with, or someone to philosophise with about what they’re learning or have gleaned.

Juno in Capricorn

Juno in Capricorn is committed and traditional. They may base their relationship more on social expectations than on sharing their emotions. They want someone who is practical and good at organizing. They are not overly emotional. They are conservative and responsible and expect the same from their partners. They want someone they can trust. They are very loyal once they commit to someone. They may marry later in life. They are very captivating to the right person, in an earthy way. 

Juno in the 10th House

Marriage for those with Juno in the tenth could be beneficial to career matters.

A partner could help in work, improve their social standing or the way the person is perceived and s breakup could affect career matters. Alternatively, the person could be wedded to their work!

Juno in Aquarius

Juno in Aquarius wants a relationship that gives them their freedom. They are rather unconventional and may prefer open marriages or other alternatives. They may also remain single yet enjoy the whole “friend with benefits” concept. They aren’t necessarily for equality in a relationship. They may either play the adoring mate or want their partner to be subservient to them. They appreciate eccentricity in their partner. They are progressive and friendly instead of passionate. They may be rather insecure at times. They are spontaneous and impulsive. They want someone who understands them and their needs and goals. 

Juno in the 11th House

The person with Juno in the eleventh house could marry a friend or have a strong sense of friendship develop after marriage. They could be very involved in a social cause or activity, and the relationship might be based on a shared vision. These people are likely to value freedom in marriage. 

Juno in Pisces

Juno in Pisces wants a special, spiritual bond. They want to share their ideals with their partner. They are attracted to those who are intuitive or sensitive. They enjoy sharing music, spirituality and poetry. They tend to withdraw when they are frustrated or want to escape into a fantasy world. They can use their subtle charms to manipulate others to their way of thinking. They may play the victim in some cases. They may use their imagination to create the perfect partner. They are very emotional and may have a problem dealing the world’s harsh realities. 

Juno in the 12th House

With Juno in the twelfth house, marriage could feel like a bit of a non-entity! The marriage and commitment asteroid sits in a bit of a blind spot. Or there could be a karmic quality to relationships, a feeling of destiny or significance in a marriage union. Suffering and sacrifice could be involved, helping and supporting the partner, or perhaps the native could play the part of the victim in marriage.

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Barangkali, yang ditinggalkan tidak benar-benar sembuh.

Pagi ini, tanggal 01 Agustus 2024 diingatkan lagi dengan satu kenangan duka 13 tahun yang lalu. Manusia yang datang dipaksa kembali mempelajari bentuk sedih. Untuk ribuan duka atas perasaan ditinggal, manusia tak akan pernah mahir menerima dengan tangan terbuka. Maka, manusia kembali belajar. Belajar untuk mengecap rasa sakit, belajar untuk mendaki rasa pilu, belajar untuk menjelaskan alasan kepergian seseorang pada seluruh orang yang datang dengan gulungan membiru.

Demikian, ribuan air mata tumpah. Isak tangis manusia menjadi proyeksi atas rasa sakit yang selama ini ditahan. Perihal ketakutan atas ditinggal pergi mulai dicuri sebagai senyata-nyatanya bentuk paling kejam. Rasa cemas mengambil tempat paling besar. Bagaimana melanjutkan hidup sementara seseorang sudah tak lagi menetap tinggal di bumi?

Manusia terluka, bahkan murka.

Beberapa manusia, datang dengan kantong bunga yang terikat sesak. Beberapa menyempatkan untuk memeluk, beberapa berbisik di tengah badai curam. "Tidak apa-apa, semua akan tetap baik-baik saja. " Kalimat paling bohong yang ingin sekali kupercaya.

Tidak ada yang baik-baik saja setelah ditinggalkan. Dunia tetap berjalan meski aku memeluk lutut sendirian atas luka yang ditinggalkan begitu besar. Waktu tetap merangkak meski aku berteriak kencang agar dipahami masa dukanya untuk menangis lebih lama dan tak akan melakukan apa-apa. Tapi, dunia tetap tidak ingin mentolerir meski jiwaku berbentuk pecah belah.

Yang terluka, dipaksa sembuh. Yang terpuruk, dipaksa berdiri. Luka kemarin sore, terpaksa dikemas agar bangkit dan tak menetap lama.

Hidup tetap berjalan. Matahari tetap menghangatkan ketika terbit di pagi hari. Penjual di pasar tetap membuka hari sejak pagi-pagi sekali. Kucing di jalanan tetap berusaha untuk memerdekakan rasa laparnya. Lalu-lalang kendaraan akan tetap hidup di sudut jalan.

Ketika waktu milik orang lain berjalan, manusia yang ditinggalkan tengah menjeda waktunya. Terkurung di dalam ruang untuk dipenuhi rasa sedihnya, untuk kembali menangis saat menyadari satu orang pergi dari bagian hidup mereka, untuk dipaksa sembuh atas luka yang tak pernah punya obat penawarnya.

Barangkali, yang ditinggalkan tak pernah sembuh. Kita hanya punya jeda waktu untuk tak mengingat lukanya. Atas rasa sakit yang kembali datang, ditinggalkan akan menjadi luka yang tak pernah menutup.

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Um ok this is unreal?? I just wanted to say to anyone who listened to my music this year, anywhere in the world, thank you. Getting named Spotify’s Global Top Artist in 2023 is truly the best birthday/holiday gift you could’ve given me. We’ve seriously had THE MOST fun this year out there on tour and now this. Are you serious. So I was trying to think of a way to thank you, and a lot of you have been asking me to put “You’re Losing Me (From The Vault)” on streaming… so here you go! You can finally listen EVERYWHERE now 💋

https://taylor.lnk.to/YLMfromthevault

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It's a good sign btw☺

#12112023

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The truth is — healing is not linear. There are going to be days where you wake up and your bones are full of light. There are going to be days where it feels like your heart has finally settled into its new form, has finally mended the wounds. There are going to be days where you leap towards something you would have run from in the past, and those moments will be so gratifying — life will feel beautiful and hopeful and bathed in growth.

But there will also be days where you take ten steps backwards. Where the wound is scratched, where the hurt resurfaces, where you race so quickly towards your hope that you stumble over it. You will feel like you have moved on, and then you will hear a certain song, or you will realize that you have forgotten what your mothers voice sounded like, or you will see something that flashes nostalgia into your chest, and you will be reminded that the ache is still there. That it is still tender. And that is okay.

Healing happens in waves. It is a process. You peel back the layers. You move forward. You find new rooms within your healing, within your heart, that you are scared to go into and you learn how to open those doors. Healing is a lifelong journey. We aren’t ever actually void of the experience, or the memory. But slowly, we learn how to control the way those memories affect us. Slowly we learn how to approach the hard days, we learn how to let those emotions pass through us like rain, how to face the parts of ourselves that no one else claps for. With time, we learn how to believe in the foundation we have built within our healing, how to remind ourselves just how far we have come, how to have compassion for ourselves — how to believe in our growth, even when we cannot feel it.

At the end of the day, you should be proud of the way you have fought to be here. You should be proud of the way you have tucked hope into yourself for safekeeping, of the way you have believed that there is more to experience at the hands of this life — that the beauty you have yet to feel exists in this world. At the end of the day, you should be proud of the way you survived. You should be proud of the person you are becoming.

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Beau Is Afraid (2023)

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“He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭147:3‬

DailyWellSpiration

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What's Love Got to Do with It? (2022)

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enjoying my single era until love is worth risking for💃

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"It's me, hi, I'm the problem it's me" anti-hero is officially the anthem of my life!

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Every move has to be intentional. No more living in limbo & “let’s just see what happens.” This is how you wake up, 30 years old with no real accomplishments. This is YOUR life, make sense of it.

• Get serious about your career choice.

• Get serious about what state you choose to settle in. Then check out qualifications to become a homeowner there.

• Start dating for peace & to marry (not just to have someone).

• Start setting healthy boundaries & be willing to walk away from those who violate.

• Start a money management journey & stop impulsively spending.

• Start taking your credit seriously (if you can’t buy it cash & are already living paycheck to paycheck, stop letting these companies take $100-$200 out of your check for the next 24-72 months… making your checks shorter long term. It’s NOT worth it.)

This is the BEST ADVICE I can give to y’all going into 2023.💕

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Why are these things dangerous to people’s mental health? Does not knowing if something is real or not cause them to go insane? Genuine question.

There are some mental health issues in which a person may experience delusions or instances of derealization in which they either feel detached from reality, or actively hallucinate distressing scenarios which may prompt them to do things they wouldn't normally do.

I do not experience these things as part of my mental health disorders, so I cannot speak on their behalf. What I can try to explain to you is how I experienced psychotic symptoms from certain medications.

I was very detached from my physical sense of self, and did not realize I'd injured myself several times because I could not feel my body. I also suffered from distressing visual hallucinations out the corner of my eye, as well as terrifying dream-like states where I didn't know if i was awake or asleep. My sense of rising paranoia had me convinced I was being stalked and in danger, and my flight or fight instincts wanted me to run off and hide and not tell anyone where I was because I didn't know who I could trust. Hopefully you can see how dangerous that could be to a vulnerable person in an altered state.

Fortunately, I knew what was happening, and was able to come off the meds causing the issue fairly quickly. Others are not so lucky, and have to be vigilant about what could trigger an episode.

For some people, being gaslit or being made to doubt their perception of something--like whether a 1970s Gangster movie that suddenly Everyone is talking about as though it is real-- can be a destabilizing experience.

Obviously not everyone experiences these things the same way. Mental health issues are a spectrum.

But that doesn't mean we shouldn't be kind and mindful of others who do experience things this way, especially when they are expressing distress and requesting that people clarify things or, in the instance of Tumblr, tag them so that they can avoid them.

I hope that helps.

Also, if I got any of the language wrong, someone please correct me. This is not something I am as well versed in as other areas of mental health and I will gladly make corrections with apology where necessary.

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“He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭147:3‬

DailyWellSpiration

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for me, listening sad songs often has a way of healing a situation. it gets the hurt out in the open into the light, out of the darkness.

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*don’t say it, don’t say it OKAY I’m saying it:* I’M FEELIN 32. And Alana is feeling 30. Don’t worry we tested everyone! Thank you so much for the birthday wishes, I love you all so much 🥰🎂