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i’ve got a new song out go take a listen

inspired by best coast

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thats all, really.

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this art is so ugly why am i still getting notes on this

buildermon buildermon buildermon buildermon

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art fight? more like FART fight anyway yeah im preparing

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a love letter

First day of tour starts tomorrow and I’m seriously so excited to not only reconnect with so many longtime bunnies but also to play 9 new tracks for the first time in nearly 3 years. The last time we had a headlining US tour was coming off the pandemic pre-emotional creature and I was extremely burnt out and depressed from the aftermath of Covid. I’m thrilled and almost in disbelief that I get to experience touring from a place of stability. Whenever I feel lost I turn to music and in so many ways this record was all about that very journey. It feels really special having so many beloved songs to pull from when deciding what would be the final setlist. This team has worked for incredibly hard to give y’all the best show possible. The set design is unreal, I have a Polly pocket wardrobe, and re-learning every chord for this new chapter has filled me with so much gratitude. I feel unbelievably lucky. Thank you in advance for showing up. I don’t fully understand the impact I’ve made on you the reader - but as a music fan I know how important art can be. When I first started this journey I never expected to turn my love for writing into a career - your encouragement over the years has moved me in so many ways and I love our little community. I feel lucky to have supporters that always make me feel safe and respected, that should be the standard but I recognize that isn’t the case across the board. My intention for tour is for all of us to feel seen and to connected. All of this is so much bigger or me 💕 see yal tomorrow

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waiting sooooooo patiently for album number 4

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he’s gay and purple and dating a robot

don’t mind the design discrepancies

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PLLUSH // San Francisco, CA

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snagged this from the discord

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

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OH MY GOD

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

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IACCIDENTALLY JUST BLOCKED YOU INSTEAD OF SOMEONE ELSE IM LIEK HALF ASLEEP SO SORRY BEKLP ME

LOLOLOL

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musings on announce

Lately I’ve been feeling hopeless, not just hopeless but numb. The state of the world is horrendous and I’ve been consumed with the news, practically swallowed whole. We just announced our third album I should be thrilled - I’m not. I’m just going through the motions. From a personal standpoint I worry about how I’ll find my footing. I use to be so confident in what I was writing, now it just feels like creativity is pointless - maybe everything feels pointless (I know that’s not true). I’ve been comparing myself a lot lately to numbers and career moves. No matter what achievements I cross off it feels like I’m always chasing something bigger than myself, a feeling? Maybe I’m expecting to feel something I’ve never felt before. Maybe you don’t feel new emotions at a certain point. Is the excitement I felt winning a trophy in gradeschool the same excitement I felt headlining a fest? Hard to say. I worry my audience is slipping away even though they sellout shows and send me love letters. I feel anxious about how songs are performing when my label, manager, and booking agent all assure me “everything looks great”. My mom told me the other day when you’re at your peak it’s easy to see how far you could fall - maybe that’s what this is. I had no control over my Initial virality and now I’m trying to hold on with white knuckles. I feel guilty - guilty for being ungrateful, guilty for whining, guilty for getting jealous, guilty for not being excited - so many people would kill to be in this position. I think above all else, I’m afraid. I can’t control what’s happening to the world & maybe I’m projecting that unease onto my career - something Ive convinced myself I can micromanage. My ego’s in the drivers seat. If I tune out that could make me complacent. The discomforts a good thing… right?

I worry if you the reader - if you’ll like this album - we’re old friends meeting up for coffee after a couple years of radio silence. It’s awkward because from my end it seems like we had a falling out, but on your end maybe it feels like we’re just picking up where we left off? I can’t tell. Are you mad that I changed? Are you upset that I was distant for a couple years? Do you understand I needed some time to work on myself? Do you wish I would go back to the old me? It’s embarrassing to be insecure…I’m not always like this. But my goal is to capture how I’m feeling authentically, and as of February 15th, a week after announcing Tunnel Vision, I’m not feeling like my best self

I wrote a lot about these worries on the record - lack of control, overthinking, letting go, jealousy. I thought if I could capture those emotions in a song I could exorcise them from my body. I need to remind myself I am not my emotions, I am not my career, I am not a machine. Just a girl in Chicago trying to make some artwork about the complexity of the mind and the hardness of world. I thought at this point in my career the jealousy and comparison would be over and done with. I hope I can convince myself this body of work is important, I hope I can stop checking in, I want to not care about how it’s received. I wish I didn’t care what you think.

I should be proud I made something I truly like, with messages I still stand by, and songs I think are cool. That has always been my philosophy, where’s that now? Where did she go? I feel whole when I’m in community, when I’m watching a show I enjoy, when I’m listening to Lana and eating a bagel, I feel whole when I’m praying before I fall asleep, I feel whole when I sing karaoke, or play a gig, or when I make a new friend, or when I get to reconnect with a loved one. I feel whole when mimzy sleeps on my head and eats my hair, or I’m hugged so tight all the air leaves my lungs, I feel whole when I drink a glass of water and put on sunscreen. Checking doesn’t make me feel full, it empties me out, lowers my vibration, casts a shadow on my confidence. I need to let the art exist without holding a gun to it, I need to let myself relax without assuming the world is ending

xoxo beach bunny

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HIIIII CJJJJJJ HIIIII CJJJJJJ HIIIII CJJJJ HIIIIII OH NO HE IS GOING TO C THE J AAAAHHH AHHHHH AHHHH CAR CRASH SFX BUILDINGS FALLING PLANES EVERYWHERE nudge nudge wink MASS GENOCIDE PEOPLE DYING BLOOD COATING THE STREETS LIKE CHOCOLATE OVER A STRAWBERRY FAMILY GUY DEATH POSE ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE THE WALKING FUCKINF DEAD AAAHHHHHHHH IM EATING BURRITOS RIGJT NOW AND THEY ARE SOOO GOOD IM GONNA CRY I LVOE EATING FOOD EVERYONE SHOULD EAT FOOD EVERY DAY 3 MEALS A DAY BREAKFAST LUNCH AND DINNER

Im doing my Wednesday dance.

hi safari

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hey um i put out a song

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KILL YUORSEL

thanks safari

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my favorite bfdi season 1 character!!!

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i love animating these little freaks