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[clxudyxuan]

this post also got me so bad

Sometimes when I’m trying to actually focus on one thing instead of just letting my brain wander, the light catches windows just right despite the black covering, just enough to wash my face over with gold and yellow beams, enough to fill the room with it that so that everything seems to be smothered in a sunset filter and that’s when I feel like I’m 10 again, fresh and free from exhaustingly draining math equations that I could use a calculator, more so my brain to solve now, in my house where my back-once-a-year dad is laying on a not-really-red-nor-pink mattress in the middle of the tiny cramped box that we merged as our living room, study room and dining room as my mom tried locking the front door, i can still hear her behind me fumbling with the keys, cursing under her breath, trying not to let me hear whilst trying to find which is the right one, then the air filled with silence and im just left there standing against a wall, my shoulder still holding onto my book bag and i just stare dumbly ahead to the balcony where all the light seems to be shining on in and i cant bring myself to go near because here was just fine. i dont think i even blinked.

Then the light shifts and I’m back into my room, in my new house despite having moved here for 2+ years, feeling queasy but not dizzy. Hollow, but not quite empty. I know, that when I’m an adult, and have moved quite far from this house and this life, when the light hits my windows like that again I won’t blink. Because by then those memories would no longer be missed as much as they are now, but sometimes when that colour bleeds into the sky and fills the atmosphere, while I’m sure everyone including I would marvel at the moment, that little part of me wanders back to that small apartment building, that squishy oddly shaped room, where bits and pieces won’t be quite remembered, and that’s probably when i made the realisation that I was happier when it was just me by myself.

[clxudyxuan]

Sometimes when I’m trying to actually focus on one thing instead of just letting my brain wander, the light catches windows just right despite the black covering, just enough to wash my face over with gold and yellow beams, enough to fill the room with it that so that everything seems to be smothered in a sunset filter and that’s when I feel like I’m 10 again, fresh and free from exhaustingly draining math equations that I could use a calculator, more so my brain to solve now, in my house where my back-once-a-year dad is laying on a not-really-red-nor-pink mattress in the middle of the tiny cramped box that we merged as our living room, study room and dining room as my mom tried locking the front door, i can still hear her behind me fumbling with the keys, cursing under her breath, trying not to let me hear whilst trying to find which is the right one, then the air filled with silence and im just left there standing against a wall, my shoulder still holding onto my book bag and i just stare dumbly ahead to the balcony where all the light seems to be shining on in and i cant bring myself to go near because here was just fine. i dont think i even blinked.

Then the light shifts and I’m back into my room, in my new house despite having moved here for 2+ years, feeling queasy but not dizzy. Hollow, but not quite empty. I know, that when I’m an adult, and have moved quite far from this house and this life, when the light hits my windows like that again I won’t blink. Because by then those memories would no longer be missed as much as they are now, but sometimes when that colour bleeds into the sky and fills the atmosphere, while I’m sure everyone including I would marvel at the moment, that little part of me wanders back to that small apartment building, that squishy oddly shaped room, where bits and pieces won’t be quite remembered, and that’s probably when i made the realisation that I was happier when it was just me by myself.

[clxudyxuan]

Fun silly lil facts!!

Isabelle has respect for every single God and Author, whether born out of fear or genuine admiration. This applies to generally every character that has the title ‘God Of -‘ / ‘Goddess of -‘ or is powerful enough to be a god. Authors are self-explanatory.

Note that if a character’s respect level is 100%, it means Isabelle will make 0 attempt to even approach them. She doesn’t think someone like that would want to be friends with her.

Anything over 70% total means Isabelle generally looks up to them (in terms of power anyway). Anything below 30% means she thinks they’re kinda meh.

Here’s a couple silly examples from the top of my head. d:

Florence De Rozalene : 80% Respect

- 20% Admiration

- 60% Fear

Note: Respect born out of fear. Isabelle remembers Florence as a god before a parent. She knows that they did try their best but… sometimes the distance between them just can’t be bridged anymore. Florence always has to look down to see her, never at her.

Daisy Daisy Bell : 85% Respect

- 70% Admiration

- 15% Fear

Note: Isabelle thinks it’s pretty impressive (and kinda ego-bruising) that Daisy is such a powerful God at the age of literally 17. Double digits!!! Even Florence had to be at triple (or was it quadruple?) digits before ascension.

More often than not, she thinks Daisy really shouldn’t be worrying about things like this though. She’s supposed to be figuring herself out at this age, not figuring everyone else out.

Artemis : 80% Respect

- 79% Admiration

- 1% Fear

Note: She thinks Artemis as a very close friend *cough family cough* before being a Goddess (thus the very small fear factor). But then again, she still thinks Artemis is pretty good at the whole God thing. The only reason Artemis has 1% Fear is because Isabelle is worried Artemis is going to get nuked… again.

these two are the first that came up in my head lol lmk if you wanna see what she thinks of your characters >:))) //

[clxudyxuan]

“Oh, don’t be such a downer S! Come, have a dance with me.”

“I don’t even have a say in the matter, do I?”

@circusfreakster @acrobat-harunii d:

[clxudyxuan]

Thank you to Xuan ( @clxudyxuan ) for this fanart!

[clxudyxuan]

i never know how to pronounce your username and my brain autofils Xuan to Juan for some reason 🥀🥀

Ive probably had at least 5 different readings of my name and none of them are correct lmao- :’)

Which is how I got the name ‘Shein’ 😃 because some people really didn’t want to learn to proper way to say my name even when I tried teaching them

Xuan is actually supposed to sound closer to ‘Shi-u-an’ AKA closer to S than X (the u is pronounced very fast)

(This video for example: https://youtube.com/shorts/ZWCc3IpbBD0?si=9WljEHwwaqTGrcjw )

[clxudyxuan]

EMBRACE THE RAINBOW PEOPPLLLEEE

[clxudyxuan]

should we shove a pride flag in his nostrils

PRIDE MONTH

GAY TIME

LESBIAN TIME

TRANS TIME

NONBINARY TIME

BISEXUAL TIME

Ace time

Aro time

Pan time

+everyone else time

Mb chat I got tired of doing the colored text thing and already had the rest copied but yall valid asf too

I WILL DEVOUR DONALD TRUMP

THE POWER OF TRANSGENDER COMPELS YOU

FEEL THE RAINBOW

@cheezitsenjoyer @chernobylcatfish09 @starboy2461 @sparklystarrrr @playwr-nb @prettybugsinbandages @raineondrugs @demonusenjoyer @redheadedsilly @seeleleech @dollcorvid @anord @twistedtalestory @redheadedsilly

[clxudyxuan]

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE!!! :D

I can't begin to explain how thankful I am about my first event! A lot more people joined than I expected but it was really exciting nonetheless :D

Once again, thank you!!!

Xuan

( There's a couple more people who joined, I.E. Harvey ( Artemis + Seth ), Dayfare ( Red-haired gal ) and Ell! )

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+ a couple photos of Zailyn (@abagofstalechips) being tiny >:))) Feel free to use this as blackmail against our local Seraphim.

[clxudyxuan]

|| You are cordially invited to attend Florence's Birthday Festivities!

Everyone is invited to attend, as it'll be hosted at 8:30. The venue will be at Somewhere Above, where food and drinks are accommodated for. We hope to see you there!

( More specifically, I, Xuan, hope to see you guys there :D )

[clxudyxuan]

!!!!!!! EVENT IS ON!!!

It'll be hosted on 30th of May around 8-9 PM EST !!

Hope to see y'all there!!!!!!!

@literallyeveryoneiknow

Silly Event ! ! !

Florence's ( A.K.A Isabelle's Guardian Figure ) Birthday is coming soon on 30th May!! So Florence is hosting a small celebration for it!!!

I'm kinda nervous about actually hosting a actual event because the really awkward scenario is that it's just gonna be me in the server by myself lol. Another really awkward scenario is that I might not be able to host at all due to timezone issues and will have to cancel.

(I live in GMT +8 which is 12 hours ahead EST unfortunately.)

Soo, just to be absolutely 100% sure that I don't kick myself in the day of; I'd like to ask if anyone would be interested in coming!!! It'll mostly just be talking/hanging out. I'm not sure if there's going to be a super story-changing event but maybe some fun shenanigans. d:

It'll mostly be an introduction to Florence / Flora seeing as I never really went into games as them much.

I think that's mostly all the event will really hold, so it'll probably be pretty boring in terms of drama. It's mostly just a silly happy beginning lol. Will be pretty good downtime for rest in general. Event will be hosted around 8-9 PM EST.

[clxudyxuan]

[ I get more and more convinced Unus is starting a bodypillow collection and I don’t like that. ]

ANOTHER JOKE

"-Hey so author made a.. bodypilow of me FOR ME as a joke. Does anyone wanna see ittt.. Although I can already guess the answer - HELL NO."

Gulp.

[clxudyxuan]

Silly Event ! ! !

Florence's ( A.K.A Isabelle's Guardian Figure ) Birthday is coming soon on 30th May!! So Florence is hosting a small celebration for it!!!

I'm kinda nervous about actually hosting a actual event because the really awkward scenario is that it's just gonna be me in the server by myself lol. Another really awkward scenario is that I might not be able to host at all due to timezone issues and will have to cancel.

(I live in GMT +8 which is 12 hours ahead EST unfortunately.)

Soo, just to be absolutely 100% sure that I don't kick myself in the day of; I'd like to ask if anyone would be interested in coming!!! It'll mostly just be talking/hanging out. I'm not sure if there's going to be a super story-changing event but maybe some fun shenanigans. d:

It'll mostly be an introduction to Florence / Flora seeing as I never really went into games as them much.

I think that's mostly all the event will really hold, so it'll probably be pretty boring in terms of drama. It's mostly just a silly happy beginning lol. Will be pretty good downtime for rest in general. Event will be hosted around 8-9 PM EST.

[clxudyxuan]

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...okay then. Thanks?

[clxudyxuan]

Added some silly references for Isabelle + Florence d:

Also updated some stuff in games to fit their dynamic.

[clxudyxuan]

|| Log #932

Friday, 19:50.

I think Daisy's House is not only insane, but the people in it are also absolutely crazy. Don't misunderstand me, lots of people are very kind and interesting there. It's also worth mentioning no one judges anyone there since we have a multitude of species and occults there.

(TWO MOST IMPORTANT THINGS WHEN MEETING A PERSON, IF THEY ARE NOT KIND NOR INTERESTING LEAVE.)

But they can still be absolutely ranged from mildly delusional to in need of Jonah's Facility someone PLEASE send them there at your EARLIEST convenience. WE LISTEN AND WE DON'T JUDGE BUT WE WILL BE POINTING OUT FACTS.

...

I witnessed someone hugging a VENUS BODYPILLOW.

[clxudyxuan]

Hmmmmmmm. Is there a thing such as too much?

Nah.