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To all my girlies and guys out there with emotionally difficult, often manipulative, parents. I see you. They are tough, they make your life miserable with their constant grappling at control over your life and that is UNACCEPTABLE.

Do not let their power plays and meaningless threats (with marriage in my case, been listening to it since I was fucking 17) and cheap attacks (for eg, at your career and education) shake you. What they do is dominate, not love. What they want out of you is obedience without respecting you or your opinions one bit. And again, that is UNACCEPTABLE.

Do not let their hurtful actions affect you. Use that rage and anger as YOUR POWER.

Study. Study hard.

Study for your future, for your own self, for your financial freedom, so that one day you may look back and finally be able to tell them what they did to you without fearing any consequences. Do it directly or let your success and independence speak for yourself. Have it your way.

Channel your anger and rage into input and output. Inhale knowledge, skills, talents, and exhale results, confidence and discipline.

DO IT FOR YOUR OWN DAMN SELF. WORK SO HARD THAT NO ONE WILL EVER HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER YOUR OWN LIFE.

I see you, I feel you. And we got this.

We are unstoppable.

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Realisation hit me like a 100 ton concrete yesterday. I don't have a lot of time anymore 😭😭.

No, not GONNA DIE.

But applications are open for unis abroad. And i realised i should rather focus on that. Than python or creating video lectures or writing blogs, but I really wanted to to do that too 😭.

I'll give myself solace in the fact that I will do all those things once my internship ends. So, the new direction from now:

Pharmacology everyday still

IELTS practice (have less than a month now to ace it, so need to spend 4 hours minimum daily)

Contact potential supervisor (soul eating, moral breaking work)

All this till I give the IELTS exam.

Post that, collecting documents, researching unis, and applying.

WISH ME LUCK 😭.

Adios.

Oh yes, woke up to rain btw.

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9th July 2025

Been busy with some intern work, so experiencing ups and downs in my own productivity.

Today's to do list:

Pharmacology morning revision (30 min)

IELTS practice writing task 1 and speaking

Post lunch, before workout and post dinner cology revision

Write script for lecture on GPCRs.

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Update on learning method

Realised that pointlessly moving through pharmacology chapters ahead and making their flashcards is not gonna do me any good. So, instead of the time I devote to learning new material while the previous one remains ignored, I have decided to focus only on the chapters that I have yet to completely revise.

How will I do that? (Mode of revision: anki flashcards while walking, that way I will also get my 10k steps in, probably, hopefully).

Devote the morning half hour after breakfast to revising. Then practice for IELTS the rest of the morning.

Post Lunch revision (15 minutes)

Before exercise revision (10 minutes)

Post-dinner revision (15 minutes)

Total time spent on revising pharmacology- 1 hour 10 minutes (minimum ideally)

Will continue with newer chapters only when I know the previous ones by heart.

Knowledge for the sake of knowledge people.

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Hollaaa amigooos,

7th July 2025

Back again after taking a 2 day break due to the monthly hell.

Today's battle plan:

Pharmacology: Start with host defence chapter

IELTS- Writing task 2

IELTS- Speaking practice

Neuroscience (refer from book)

Contact my own professors for update

Refine my 3rd article and post on substack

LET'S DO IT 😤😤😤

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5th July 2025

Working on my paint by number. Winds with sand, a little bit of rain and lots of clouds.

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4th July 2025 (evening snapshots)

Revised pharmacology

Got a little better at writing task 1 of ielts. Realised have to practice these everyday along with writing task 2.

Prepared content for my 4th video lecture of pharmacology - on ion channels (realised i dont have to follow the structure of the book, so will release it (IF I EVER WILL) along with contraction, secretion and excitation stuff.)

Tapped into reading part of IELTS. Easy stuff, need only a bit more practice.

Had an insanely good short 20 min yoga session.

Then my energy dwindled down possibly due to PMS and treated myself to a yummy toast pizza.

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Social media and capitalism has ingrained this one thing so deep inside my brain - outcome in terms of profit. Very few things remain that I do with the purpose to gain pure bliss, or to live in the moment, or to do it just for the sake of doing it, simply because I want to.

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A thunderstorm is on the way today.

Today's to-do list:

Pharmacology: Excitation

Definitely have to study neuroscience today

IELTS: Reading and writing

Prepare content for the video lecture

Light yoga or walk

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Completed all tasks except video editing and studying neuroscience. Overall productivity -80%

Finally published my first blog ever on substack 😚

Ending my day with a light mythological reading 🌙

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Today's to-do list:

Pharmacology- Revise Calcium mechanism + excitation

Neuroscience - 1 video lecture

IELTS- speaking and listening

Finally wrap up the video lecture

Research unis

Blog (if in the mental capacity)

Vinayasa yoga (gotta keep the body in check)

Late start to the day, wish me luck 😭

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Revised GPCRs and Kinase linked receptors ✅️

Attempted some writing tasks of IELTS ✅️

Researched universities for masters program in Switzerland (could not find many and suitable for me) ✅️

Cleared my head regarding my future and the forces (aka my parents) that I can't control ✅️✅️✅️ [super important task of the day by the way]

Overall productivity - 60%.

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Creating a simple weekly to-do list with spaced-out activities after failed attempts of trying to fit everything into one day. Here's to something new. PS. That rainbow was in the middle of a thunderstorm. Much like my soul, ma heart, haha, anyways.....

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Morning session study with a lush green view.

Found that stem cells from the bovine (aka. buffaloes, cows, etc.) have been used to grow so called no-kill beefburgers. And one burger costs an ASTONISHING £250,000!!!! And the authors of rang and dale are funny enough to point out that only professional footballers can afford them. 🤣

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Welcome to coffeeandconcepts with... let’s say, Kiki.

You won’t find packaged productivity or aesthetic perfection here. But maybe, just maybe, you’ll find something that sticks. A phrase, a thought, a habit. Something that settles into your study table, your 5-minute break, or the way you take notes on a Tuesday afternoon.