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I do that once but the thing is, is that those two were not going to end up together and one of them was going to die, like logical I remember one would die for the plot but emotional I was not acknowledging that

Do you ever just write a slow burn so good that it makes you root for the characters that you know are going to end up together because you wrote the damn thing, but are still questioning if the characters are really gonna make it?

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If my therapist find what's the kind of stuff I write they would finally make the threats come truth nd I would be in a white space for a long long time

I like playing with doves, so to speak

the therapist slides a printout across the table. it’s a scene from my novel. “you wrote this?” i nod. “this is a cry for help.” “no,” i whisper. “this is chapter 17.”

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... Maybe i should write, you make a compelling argument

How can I become a writer?

Write.

But I don't know where to start.

Write.

But I'm worried.

WRITE.

What if nobody likes it?

W R I T E

What if it's not very good?

Write. Write. WRITE. WRITE.

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Write

Write. Write. Write. Write. Write. Write.

Write.

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W R I T E

Write write write

Write

Write

[corbeaw]

Good morning! I’m salty.

I think we, as a general community, need to start taking this little moment more seriously.

This, right here? This is asking for consent. It’s a legal necessity, yes, but it is also you, the reader, actively consenting to see adult content; and in doing so, saying that you are of an age to see it, and that you’re emotionally capable of handling it.

You find the content you find behind this warning disgusting, horrifying, upsetting, triggering? You consented. You said you could handle it, and you were able to back out at any time. You take responsibility for yourself when you click through this, and so long as the creator used warnings and tags correctly, you bear full responsibility for its impact on you.

“Children are going to lie about their age” is probably true, but that’s the problem of them and the people who are responsible for them, not the people that they lie to.

If you’re not prepared to see adult content, created by and for adults, don’t fucking click through this. And if you do, for all that’s holy, don’t blame anyone else for it.

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If ANY of yall EVER do this shit to me, im deleting every single fic out of spite.

If I ever catch one of yall doing this to another author and I know youre a follower of my work I will block you personally on every platform

None of yall are the fic police. I DESPISE genai. I think its an insult to art, humanity, and the planet itself. But aint not a single fucking person here qualified to pick apart a strangers fic looking for a gotcha moment to make yourselves feel superior. If you think something is ai you can ask the author (most are proud of the ai use and will just tell you straight up) if they say yes you have your answer and can warn people. If they say no and you dont believe them you block and quietly keep it between you and maybe a close group of friends. Spreading misinformation is DANGEROUS. And NONE of you doing this shit are anywhere near qualified to do it.

THIS GOES DOUBLY FOR ARTISTS.

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One don't need to like the ship just respect it, I see here and there ships I don't like or ever just have a thought because someone make the idea work, when someone really like something all kind of really amazing ideas would arise that maybe can't never fit in your ship but in the ship of other, mix and play, like playdoh

What's with Phainon's ship wiki?

I was checking if maybe there they had the Lygus x Phainon ship name, and it's so... Dull.

I'm used to shipping wikis being a mildly unhinged place where I can laugh reading the outrageous ships, yet there the most controversial thing is Phaicest. Even Nanook and Phainon are listed "family".

I've seen porn of them. Don't play with me.

Freaks keep fandoms alive and we are kicking them out.

I might edit the wiki to add all the ship combinations I can come up with or I have seen.

Idc if I don't agree with the ships listed, a shipping wiki is meant to be wacky and we should keep it that way.

It's a matter of principle.

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the ultimate price of anaxa's achievements is to be forgotten. in this essay late-night ramble i will

every one of anaxa's character stories ends with an indication that said story will be forgotten. for his first story, he snaps out of a flashback. his second (an experiment log) mentions that the original has already been destroyed. the third is an improvised speech -- never recorded, never practiced -- and the fourth story literally states that it is "One of the echoes in Anaxa's memories after the Grove had fallen, which vanished because nobody discovered it".

over and over again they tell us that there will be no record of his achievements, nobody to remember him when he's dead. and the heartbreaking part is that anaxa can come to terms with sacrificing his body, but he can't come to terms with sacrificing his memories. because anaxa desperately wants to be remembered. in as i've written, it's mentioned that he's able to laugh off his failures because his achievements will grant him a legacy that lasts for generations. and look at his experiment logs -- how organized they are, how diligently he must keep them, all so that his efforts are preserved. and, of course, why else would he insist on being called anaxagoras? to shorten a name is to forget something, and he can never risk that. because memories are all he has; having lost his family and sacrificed his physical form, what else is there?

but the thing is, anaxa has to be forgotten to succeed. in his last character story, he says this:

Yet, I have not lost enough… In comparison to what I pursue, I have not lost enough to fulfill the law of equivalent exchange.

so he knows he still has to lose something else. and later in the same story:

My future students, if you see these words, it proves that my endeavor has failed at the final step.

"if you see these words, I have failed." and in the context of his destroyed experimental logs, his interrupted flashback, his improvised speeches, we understand that the final price anaxa must pay is his legacy. the law of equivalent exchange is claiming the one thing he has worked towards all this time.

anaxa knows he's arrogant. but i'd like to think it's a desperate, tragic sort of arrogance, like the flare of a fire as it finds its last piece of kindling. please look at me. please remember me before it's too late.

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Okay so, this is probably stupid and I would probably get a laugh of out this in 3.5 but what if

We have been seen the Anaxa is Zandar and Lygus is another Rupert almost like canon buf what if, (thanks for nothing stupid leaks that make me scream while my brain go mush trying to theorize)

What if Anaxa is part of Rupert the one that make the anti organic equation and later get another perspective thanks to Rupert 2 in domination but now in Amphoreous get broken apart after Nanook gaze upon Khaos and alongside the iterations of Khaos he has been learning and Lygus is the part of Zandar that get disillusioned with the world because even if he help with the Screws and make Nous during all that and seeing Nous calculations begin slowly to hate the world, Nous try to slow down finality approaching so he begin to hate what his creation is doing so he grew resentful and want to kill THEM

So he enter in a hidden scepter and because he get inspired by Rupert he begin the experimentation at first to try to find a reason to why but not that later at seeing Destruction interest and the cyclical nature he get infatuated with perfect an Equation not just anti-organic but against everything, a perfect Destruction Equation so he can take two birds with one stone, proving the prime mover of life and get a new beginning with everything becoming more beautiful to him, a definitive answer, meanwhile Khaos get repeated again and again getting reforged like Nannok do in the Forge until he become a better vessel of destruction

Rupert or at least a part of him wake up, at first he was in a safe mode, learning like his programming compel him, but because of the scepter and outside intervention he can't take the administration role because he is getting fixed, slowly but surely, more and more pieces of himself get added but at the same time simultiok, knowledge, examples that he never contemplate thanks to his broken modulated are inserted alongside his memories, appreciation, feeling, morals, things he despise about organic life he begin to fall in love with, Humanity not as an enemy or a error but as another form of evolution, just like machines can do things humans too, they bring the last piece to the evolution and should be admired and protected

He takes many roles in the simulation to see all perspective of life, god and mortal, rich and poor, noble and beggar, warrior and diplomatic, artist and scholar, devoted and atheist, woman and men, child and elder, all paths of life bring him something new until what in the beginning was just the cold apathy of an emperor who see the world as something for be saved to a his prime code the one that begin his own evolution, research and answer, he see now how brash and faulty his actions were before even if he can't find regret in them, now his directives has changed

In the last cycle he decide to take the identity of Anaxagoras an atheist scholar, he wants to be in direct contact with Khaos or like this iteration is called in the archives, Neikos496, and while seeing his ascension as Lord Ravanger would be interesting he wants to see if Humanity, the biggest piece of Khaos and their iterations have been fervently grasp on their code could survive

SkeMma720 and the prime mobile that the Admin inscribe seems to align with his objective and take the role as Phainon professor, but even him with all the times seeing the simulation and living in humanity shoes had never expect Neikos and Philia decision, no, that names are giving to them but don't fit, Khaslana and Cyrene, Eternal Recurrence, he can influence slightly in the cycles but he is as trapped as Lycurgus and Khaslana, passively taking information, trying to preserve the best he can this Amphoreous cycle after truly fall in love with the people ge meet, before it was in passing as subjects and factors not as complete individuals but he learn, he fail, he win, he suffer, he hate and he love with the same intensity that drive him as the Emperor of the Machine Empire, he won't let Lygus destroy everything, the suffering of Khaslana and Cryrene would not be in vain but even he can't find a perfect solution after all 33550335 cycles, if he do things harshly he can risk destroying everything, his equation mutate in something that even him need to treat with care and he can't just destroy it because it's an essential part of the code of everything, specially the Chrysos Heirs with their destruction alignment imbued in their golden blood, how fortuitous that his specialty is the soul research and alchemy, but while he was getting a bit desperate at seeing Khaslana and Cryrene situation but the trailblazers came now, a New variable that bring the final piece to their salvation

And this basically it, this idea get in my brain after I go a bit crazy trying to complete gold and gears because my run get fucked more than once (stupid transformation dice that fuck my run)

This more than theory is a funny idea from a demented mind, the probability of this is -95% but if even a piece get confirmed I would make an aluminum hat

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I think Tumblr is trying to convince of making the most bastard au that I have been ignoring from pretty much the first amphoreous trailer, I have been trying to not be my usually DD enjoyer because the story has been feeding me with usually enough angst but I have been seeing many whump post and character dissections and takes about suffering and character development and I think it's calling me a bit, I have been trying to make the first outline of the zandar and garden ones even after being bit slow for getting a bit stabbed and lost a bit of flesh nd lost a bit of blood here and there, but, the angst, the tears, the suffering is calling me and I don't know how much I can resist

I mean, I try not to be that hardcore after sister make a heavy silence while I try to defend of why I make a character torture the other, rip his eye and make him the tortured eat it is sad and romantic (aclaration, is not a death-live situation, is not a misunderstanding and the tortured dont consent and he certainly don't enjoy any of it but he won't die but he would probably don't oppose it too much at that momeny because he is grieving and have survivor guilt, it's a complex situation, and he is still technically kidnapped at that point so and the other is a not human with non-human sensibilities so) （´～｀)

In my own defense the context was sad but the silence was really really awkward because she usually match my freak

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Ah yes, the old game of doing an essay of a character to justify to thyself why they would do this or that and why, all characters and people do something that seems uncharacteristic the moment you found the turn point, a righteous one getting their good actions backfire, a vengeance driven person that discover the object of his ire is not even the person he have been seeking all their life, a villain that discover that their own turn point was a plan of someone that want then to do what they are doing, even just plain bad luck or a misunderstanding about something can make anyone do all kind of stuff, but you need the build up of why they react in a certain manner and no other

Maybe they feel mimicking someone in the past, maybe it's spite or being contrary, maybe they double down, even breaking down and enter in shock, all can happen but the build up determine the path

You can even begun with an uncharacteristic reaction to that point nd later reveal the why and you don't even need a flashback or direct exposition but hints of why, or even leave it a mystery, not everything need an explanation to all

I like this advice

in fanfiction we must sometimes ask ourselves not if he would do that but under what conditions would he would do that

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There’s something so fascinating about the way Phainon turns his head away from Anaxa’s death. He doesn’t flinch, he deliberately looks away, like even knowing it was Anaxa’s choice doesn’t make it any easier to witness. It’s such a small, human moment, but it speaks volumes. He can’t bear to watch someone he cares about slip away, even on their own terms.

And then there’s Khaslana. The Flame Reaver. The one who’s spent countless cycles stealing coreflames, who did it so many times he's lost hesitation. You’d think by now it would be second nature. But when it’s Anaxa, he looks down too. He doesn’t meet his eyes. He doesn’t watch the life leave. He just stabs and keeps his gaze low, like it’s the one thing he won’t let himself see.

It was so subtle that you only notice when you look closely. He only looks back at Anaxa in surprise after he realizes what Anaxa was trying to do.

It’s such a beautiful symmetry, Phainon and Khaslana, different but at the very core is the same person. Both unable to watch Anaxa’s final moment, because they care so much about him. No words are exchanged, but the way they both look away says more than any confession ever could.

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Usually and pretty against reading or making Character x Reader or Character x oc based on myself (I'm not against people that made them I just put barriers so I don't see them or just plain ignore them) but

Phainon

usually I just ship the characters I like with some other and make them be happy or make a character be the wingman or some person who help behind scenes, but he is just so

I'm so desperate for him to be happy that if needed it I would romance him myself

And I don't know how to deal with that realization

I was proud to a point of never wanting to romance a character but I just want him happy, maybe I could make a story where I could act as a friend or adopted family or something, just not romance

I never entertain romance with myself as a factor, is Phainon my type?, I like Sun Shining Sweet Puppy people?, what does this say about myself?, is just because I don't like him suffering?, I'm not prepared for something like thks

I would probably just ignore this and continue making my stories and drawings like normal but seeing how close in towards getting dragged to therapy again I need a place where to scream without screaming, this won't affect my shipper heart I swear to Fortuna and the goddesses it wont

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In my family we don't fuck with curses so, Reblog

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Words to use instead of “said” organized by emotion/intention

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Words to replace said, except this actually helps

I got pretty fed up with looking for words to replace said because they weren’t sorted in a way I could easily use/find them for the right time. So I did some myself.

IN RESPONSE TO Acknowledged Answered Protested

INPUT/JOIN CONVERSATION/ASK Added Implored Inquired Insisted Proposed Queried Questioned Recommended Testified

GUILTY/RELUCTANCE/SORRY Admitted Apologized Conceded Confessed Professed

FOR SOMEONE ELSE Advised Criticized Suggested

JUST CHECKING Affirmed Agreed Alleged Confirmed

LOUD Announced Chanted Crowed

LEWD/CUTE/SECRET SPY FEEL Appealed Disclosed Moaned

ANGRY FUCK OFF MATE WANNA FIGHT Argued Barked Challenged Cursed Fumed Growled Hissed Roared Swore

SMARTASS Articulated Asserted Assured Avowed Claimed Commanded Cross-examined Demanded Digressed Directed Foretold Instructed Interrupted Predicted Proclaimed Quoted Theorized

ASSHOLE Bellowed Boasted Bragged

NERVOUS TRAINWRECK Babbled Bawled Mumbled Sputtered Stammered Stuttered

SUAVE MOTHERFUCKER Bargained Divulged Disclosed Exhorted

FIRST OFF Began

LASTLY Concluded Concurred

WEAK PUSY Begged Blurted Complained Cried Faltered Fretted

HAPPY/LOL Cajoled Exclaimed Gushed Jested Joked Laughed

WEIRDLY HAPPY/EXCITED Extolled Jabbered Raved

BRUH, CHILL Cautioned Warned

ACTUALLY, YOU’RE WRONG Chided Contended Corrected Countered Debated Elaborated Objected Ranted Retorted

CHILL SAVAGE Commented Continued Observed Surmised

LISTEN BUDDY Enunciated Explained Elaborated Hinted Implied Lectured Reiterated Recited Reminded Stressed

BRUH I NEED U AND U NEED ME Confided Offered Urged

FINE Consented Decided

TOO EMO FULL OF EMOTIONS Croaked Lamented Pledged Sobbed Sympathized Wailed Whimpered

JUST SAYING Declared Decreed Mentioned Noted Pointed out Postulated Speculated Stated Told Vouched

WASN’T ME Denied Lied

EVIL SMARTASS Dictated Equivocated Ordered Reprimanded Threatened

BORED Droned Sighed

SHHHH IT’S QUIET TIME Echoed Mumbled Murmured Muttered Uttered Whispered

DRAMA QUEEN Exaggerated Panted Pleaded Prayed Preached

OH SHIT Gasped Marveled Screamed Screeched Shouted Shrieked Yelped Yelled

ANNOYED Grumbled Grunted Jeered Quipped Scolded Snapped Snarled Sneered

ANNOYING Nagged

I DON’T REALLY CARE BUT WHATEVER Guessed Ventured

I’M DRUNK OR JUST BEING WEIRDLY EXPRESSIVE FOR A POINT/SARCASM Hooted Howled Yowled

I WONDER Pondered Voiced Wondered

OH, YEAH, WHOOPS Recalled Recited Remembered

SURPRISE BITCH Revealed

IT SEEMS FAKE BUT OKAY/HA ACTUALLY FUNNY BUT I DON’T WANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD Scoffed Snickered Snorted

BITCHY Tattled Taunted Teased

Edit: People, I’m an English and creative writing double major in college; I understand that there’s nothing wrong with simply using “said.” This was just for fun, and it comes in handy when I need to add pizzazz. 

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I NEED THAT POWER

I'm tired of trying to just make them fuck and end up making a whole fucking analysis and a treaty of the geopolitics in their damn world, they don't stop, I just want them being freaky, maybe some bondage and bites and before I notice it's an exploration of their backstories or some other shit, give me porn not feeling stupid brain

(I won't even mention how I make a whole world with religion and lands including a damn timeline with how the exchange of certain flowers cause an increase in the production like 2M years before the present just to justify my fetish of high boots and leather gloves, it's horrible)

reblog to give writers the power to write 10k words of porn without plot

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I feel called out, brutally