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the biggest problem with tos’ episodic format is that the episode usually ends pretty quickly after the conflict resolves and then they never really talk about it again - no matter how intense or harrowing it was

which means that we don’t get to actually *see* the interpersonal fallout of bones being diagnosed with and cured from a previously-incurable terminal illness (that he didn’t even want to tell jim and spock he had), and then just four episodes later drugging them so that he can go be tortured (and likely die) instead of spock, and so jim doesn’t have to make the choice between them.

did they talk about it? beyond just a standard debrief and a “never fucking do that again bones i swear to god i mean it this time”? did they make it the captains’ quarters for the debrief, only for mccoy to be pulled into a crushing, trembling hug as soon as the door shut while jim tried to assure himself that bones was still here, was still breathing? spock hovering nearby - a hand gently coming to rest on his shoulder?

why didn’t mccoy want to tell them about the xenopolycythemia, anyways? to try and hold onto a few more normal-ish months before every time they looked at him their eyes would be filled with grief - mourning a man they hadn’t yet lost? the same reason he ran away; to spare them what he went through with his father?

only for him to immediately turn around and throw himself back to the wolves to (almost) die right in front of them anyways

i don’t really know how they handled it. whether they talked about it and attempted to soothe the hurt, or just resolutely tried to bottle it up.

but i do know this: spock eventually came back from gol because jim simply (though accidentally) called out for him in a moment of need. bones only came back because jim personally drafted him back into starfleet

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getting PTSD flashbacks because of gravity falls is diabolical

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jon looking for the single page of g. henle verlag urtext floating inbetween all the sloppily filed facsimile and interpretive editions in the conservatory archives anyways u want to listen to the entirety of my fledgling conservatory au playlist in chronological order sooooo bad (smile)

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“From whence you came” is a classic place to send back a foul beast

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game developers you are banished to wii hardware limits until you learn your lesson

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I do not believe that anyone who takes "the US has always been a bully, especially to the global south, and if you are only now starting to be ashamed of it then you need to read more into its history" as a personal attack is actually "fighting for things to be better" like they claim, because you need to have an awareness of reality to fight effectively.

If I saw someone say "Canada is a genocidal settler-colonial state and always has been" you're not gonna see me go "NOOOOOO THERE ARE GOOD PEOPLE HERE WHO ARE ALSO OPPRESSED AND TRYING TO FIGHT"

I would just agree because it's true. It's neither a personal indictment nor a demand that I leave when I didn't choose to be here. It's just a demand of awareness.

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in a polyamorous relationship with the oxford comma and the em dash

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if i don't look at my to-do list it can't hurt me! [i wink dramatically and begin a magical girl transformation, complete with poses and tons of sparkles. when it finishes and the light fades i look exactly the same but worse]

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The ends justify means vs means justify ends dynamic Vincent and Harry have got going on truly keeping me up at night. What do you mean the only time Vincent puts the well-being of something (someone) above his end goal it kills him,,,, what do you MEA N,,,,,,,

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Ace Attorney 1 nostalgia trip drawings

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the sweet and humble sudoku: here’s some numbers to get you started :) please enjoy my puzzle <3

the nefarious minesweeper: why don’t you just Guess. fucking Guess.

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This counts as vent art.

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ooomg do you remember me we were created in the same unethical lab! yeah i was like 2 green tubes down from you! i knew you looked familiar