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A Day in My Unemployed Mid-Twenties Life

I start my day by cancelling alarms set from 6 am to 10 am at 30 min intervals.

I finally wake up at 10 am and scroll through twitter for half an hour.

I fold my blankets, fix my bed, and brush my hair.

I go downstairs to brush my teeth, scrape my tongue, wash my face and pee.

I come upstairs to do my skin care. My nose piercings hasn't healed yet.

I go downstairs again in the search of sustenance. There's bread. I make peanut butter-jelly sandwiches. I want coffee.

Theres no milk. I get changed and walk to the grocery store.

The worker who got fired last year is back. He says hi.

I walk back with milk and change again. I make coffee. I warm my sandwiches. I eat them while scrolling instagram.

I do the dishes in the sink. I wash my father's water bottle.

I come upstairs to scroll some more instagram. My father shows me a newspaper article on fatty liver.

I choose an outfit to change into, walk downstairs, and turn the geyser on.

I wash my clothes and take a shower. It's still too cold for a cold shower. I hear the cuckoo.

I leave my clothes to dry and walk into the puja room. My grandma isn't home so its my turn to be a good religious daughter.

I pluck flowers. Hibiscus and marigold and more hibiscus and more marigold. My basket is full.

I fill water and I change our idols' outfits. I serve them food and light a diya.

I follow the few other steps and close the door. My skin is white I need lotion.

I apply lotion and open my laptop. I check my emails. No specific reply to my job applications. The one that has a reply requires me to clear 6 steps. I ignore.

I search for PhD scholarships. They are hard to get by and I am stupid.

I drink water. Hours pass. I open linkedin and I hate it.

I need to have lunch. Its late. I rush downstairs to eat. I wash the dishes. I come back up.

I am on Instagram again. I need to accompany my mother to the market. I get ready.

Its evening. The sun has set. We walk in an unwalkable town. Theres filth and humans and traffic everywhere.

We reach the jewelry shop. Gold prices have risen again. What was 25k a week ago is 28k now.

Jeweler tells us the price of gold from 3 years ago. We gasp! There's nothing to do though. Gold is expensive we can barely afford it.

I am glad to have saved this much from laundering house ration funds. My mother deserves a little gold.

We buy vegetables, we buy necessities for my father. We walk back. The weather is pleasant.

My father is sceptical about the purchases. He doesn't want us to spend money. But his clothes are old and torn, their colour faded.

Mother and father decide to go on a walk. I get back on my bed to reply to a few texts.

I don't have many friends. I apply for more jobs. I havent received any reply from the one's I applied for yesterday.

I get a call from my phone operator. Giving me an ultimatum to recharge. I won't. According to regulations I don't have to recharge for another week.

My parents are back. I go downstairs to the kitchen and boil some water. I wash my face.

Father wants the water too. He recently recovered from a horrible cough and cold and wants to gurgle.

I walk upstairs and apply my skin care. I make a tentative schedule foe studying. I download PYQs.

I am not hungry yet. I wonder if i have ADHD. I am just lazy.

I pick up Asako Yuzuki's butter. It's been lying on the printer, gathering dust for weeks.

I write a few lines in my journal.

to be updated the day hasnt ended yet.

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while trying to convince me to watch house md people should have started with how fuckable house is. the fact that hes gay for wilson is a whole diff matter

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you haven’t truly experienced the full spectrum of human emotions until you’re sobbing because your favourite character just died and then fucking memories by maroon 5 starts playing

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absolutely hate the fact that i will never love anyone as all consumingly as hualian or ranwan. literally fuck real life conventional casual relationships and SITUATIONSHIPS

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Day 22: Wedding

Hualian invented love, after all-

This is also my apology for having Hua Cheng kiss a statue a few days ago. He gets a live and well Xie Lian today. Unseen behind the scenes: Tyeth crying for 30 minutes trying to figure out how and where to crop the pose. Hua Cheng got severely cropped hahaha...

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daylight doesn’t need any saving. i do

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can someone recommend me ranwan fics please? i will send thoughts and prayers towards you for 2 months straight. im starving i feel like i have read everything

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something about modern au chu wanning as mo rans professor just tickles me right. like yea they are disciple and shizun in every universe

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wondering how one makes friends in their mid twenties

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once again im desperately wishing for spring to stay