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BLACK TRANS WOMAN SEEKING MUTAL AID!

I have to go back to the dental surgeon on Tuesday (I think I have dry socket fun) and I need help with the cost of travel and paying for yet another CT Scan so please donate if you can I honestly am very overwhelmed I haven’t been able to get any paid gigs and they denied me for food stamps so any sort of donations would be helpful (OR you could buy something from my Depop or if you know anyone who could actually book me for anything creative that would be super dope thanks)

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it’s hard being this goofy and fuckable all the time, i just want to rot

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Mullet update

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Gonna try out sharing my ramblings here a bit more often as Twitter Circles goes away, lol.

Been talking to this guy, he's really nice and talks to me daily and has a lot of the green flags I'd look for in anyone. We met on Grindr, but he's also kind of looking for friends in the area. I'm not really sure what he wants, and that's hard. I'm not sure what I want, and that's hard.

Regardless, he's been really kind. Asked about how I am during some tough weeks. Just texted out of the blue. Kept track of my interests. Really small things that I used to think were really impossible. Am I reading into things a little much? Yeah. Am I trying not to? Also yeah.

I don't want to "scare" him away or anything, or make him hate me, or whatever else. I'm nervous about being too earnest, or too forward, or suggesting something that's irrevocably going to tip the scales too much, show my hand. It feels like I'm so used to feeling like I have to commit some major act of subterfuge to keep a man's attention, and when I don't, now, it feels...idk? Too good to be true.

I'm not even saying I want a relationship with him. I mean, it seems like it'd be nice. But we've known each other for like, 3 weeks. That's not a long time. I'm trying to just stay in the moment, while also acknowledging my fluttery little heart that's happy to just feel warm again for a little bit. And that tension is hard. But it feels worth trying for, because this is the first time in a while where I've felt like I have anything close to normal feelings for a guy.

I don't know where this is all intended to land, and honestly I'm just writing it out for my therapist when I see her on Tuesday. But wow, what a lot of stuff in my brain for such a short amount of time interacting with this guy.

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Remember calming cat? Remember when tumblr was this color? If you don't that's fine. I just feel old and alone.

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It's that time again 🤔

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If Taylor Swift used her power for good she would be such a great stochastic terrorist. She would post on Instagram "Hey guys, Tay here. Just wanted to say that whoever delivers me the head of Ron DeSantis on a platter will get free Eras Tour tickets. #ShadeNeverMadeAnybodyLessGay." It would be at her doorstep in two hours.

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just because its a bromance doesnt mean you cant kiss him with tongue. follow for more nontoxic masculinity or else

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Old, but still relevant

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Lol my large and handsome pig didn’t find Anything of interest in your yard

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Imagine cumming in my ass. Now imagine life as a sheep eating grass in a field

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Honestly the funniest and most bizarre Pokemon tcg card I’ve ever seen is the one where it seemed that an aether employee is having a causal conversation w a registeel

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have u lost ur goddamn mind

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