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NAMGYU X READER

Game 1: Red Light Green Light

You wake up with the annoying lights bothering your eyes. This is strange because the lights in your apartment are always dim and this generic music isn't playing. Fuck—this ain't home.

You open your eyes to see hundreds of beds stacked on top of each other, and everyone, including you, is wearing blue tracksuits. Yours has 099 written on it. You look down and realize that whoever put you on the top bunk doesn't know you're afraid of heights.

You rush downstairs, and the people around you look just as confused as you do. How did you get here? The last thing you remember is looking at the card given to you by the handsome man playing ddakji.

The large doors opened, and armed men wearing pink tracksuits with geometric patterns on their masks entered. Everyone gathered.

(lets skip a little because you know what happens)

A man told everyone to line up, and you did so. Were you going to be killed as he said? You weren't sure, after all, the environment was very dystopian. It was like a sick joke.

But before you had time to worry, a girl was shot. She was very beautiful, it was a pity. But don't worry, because there wasn't much time to feel sorry for her.

You felt something at your ankle, glanced back discreetly, and saw that some bastard had pushed the people behind you, creating a domino effect. If you had stood a little closer to the others, you would have died too. The knife was now at the bone, and you realized the seriousness of the situation.

About 50 people died in the game. You were terrified of the guy behind you; after all, his sudden movement could have cost you your life. But you successfully completed the first game.

As soon as you returned to the room with the beds, you yelled at the guy with purple hair.

"YOU IDIOT!! I COULD HAVE DIED BECAUSE OF YOU!"

The guy turned to you, looked you over, then made a gesture with his hand to tell you not to come any closer.

"Yo, what's the matter? Why are you messing with Thanos?"

You were ready to continue the argument, already familiar with the prospect of getting beaten up. Whether it was luck or bad luck, I don't know, but Thanos spotted another enemy at that moment and pushed you aside. You realized you needed to step back.

Thanos returned there after being beaten up by a middle-aged man. You decided not to get involved with him, as you had no friends here. It might be best not to start a fight for now.

"Hello, señorita, I am Thanos."

"Ye-seul."

"Okay. This is Nam-su."

"Nam-gyu."

You turned to Nam-gyu and looked him over carefully.

"Nice to meet you."

You had to vote in the evening. Were you going to stay or leave?

Your debt was 97 billion won, and if you played one more game, you could have won even more than that. But was it worth losing your life? Other people had much more debt than you, especially that old man. That's why it was decided to continue the game. If you didn't want to continue, would there be a fight? Player number 456, the one who partially saved you in the first game, pressed "no." He had played these games before...

You turned to Nam-gyu.

"What will you do with the game?"

"Of course we'll continue, Ye-seul. All or nothing."

All or nothing... It was because of this mindset that you lost so much money gambling. You were only 24 years old, but the games you entered with your friends for fun had brought you here. In your first game, you had won a lot of money thanks to your superior arithmetic skills, so why did you end up with so much debt? Because that’s the nature of gambling. As Dostoyevsky said, no matter what happens, the odds are always the same. Winning in the previous game didn’t change that. It was this addiction that brought you here. Number 099, Kang Ye-seul.

And this addiction was still active. When it was your turn, you pressed the blue button that said "O," and you put on the patch that was given to you. That was what brought you into Thanos's team. You're a bit of a reckless person. And indifferent. But that's what made you different. You couldnt sleep, at least yet.

At midnight, Namgyu woke up cursing. You stared at each other for a while.

"Fuck! Why are you staring at me?"

"I couldn't sleep."

"If you don't sleep, you'll screw up tomorrow's game. We can't give you pills."

"What pills?"

"What pills?"

"I'm asking you the same thing."

“Fuck off and go to sleep, Ye-seul.”

“Do you believe this player 456?"

"If he is telling the truth he is stupid for coming back."

"Maybe they forced him to come back?"

"Why would they? They wouldnt want us to know all games and all survive."

"Thats right. There is things we dont know, i would say."

"Now shut up and go to sleep before Thanos wakes up too."

Game 2: Six Legged Penthatlon

In the morning, you woke up with a feeling of shaking and Namgyu's voice.

"Ye-seul, get up. I told you to sleep at night, you idiot."

"okay okay im waking up"

You get your breakfast and sit next to them.

"This 456 man is saying he knows the next game."

Namgyu said.

"And what did he said the next game is gonna be?"

"He said its dalgona."

"Dalgona? As in...the cookie game?"

"Yes shithead."

"Dont call me that you fucker."

"What did you just called me?"

Thanos gets included.

"Calm down guys. And how old are you, Ye-seul?"

"24."

"Then you should respect Nam-su, y'know. He is older than you."

"Do you know each other?"

They tell you how they met etc.

You enter the game and they find two other teammates, turns out its not dalgona game.

Namgyu is a little hot headed because he doesnt want Minsu and Semi in the game.

"The fuck...we already have a girl in our team. And we dont need that loser guy too."

"Thanos doesnt seem to care."

"Well its his fucking fault if they mess up."

"We wont mess up. I always win."

"You must be our fucking good luck charm then."

You play ddakji in the game and you know how it ends.

You go back to the main rooms with your new teammates. You should vote again. You press O. Your debt can be covered now, but you realize you dont want to get in Namgyu and Thanos bad side.

At night you realized Namgyu is now sleeping on the bed next to Thanos. Which makes you far away from them and Semi & Minsu. You started to observe them.

You realized Namgyu coming to you, he yells from down. Youre on one of the highest bunks as i said.

"Come down here!"

"Why dont you come up?"

Namgyu scoffs and climbs up to next to you.

"Youre lucky youre cute."

"Can i ask something?"

You say, trying to ignore how he said youre cute.

"What is it?"

"Last night you said something about pills."

"Thats not a question."

"Youre not gonna answer?"

"What the fuck are you talking about? Pills and shit?"

You realized that he wasn't going to answer your question. It was time to use your head. He mentioned pills to you. Also, Thanos always acts crazy. Namgyu keeps following him even though he's always rude to him. Could that be what connects them? Or maybe it's just because they knew each other before. After all, it's reassuring to have someone you know here.

You didn't have many people you could trust either. You had a medallion around your neck, a gift from someone you loved, but they took it off when you came here. But... what about the cross necklace around Thanos's neck? Why didn't they take that off? Did Thanos hide it somehow? That doesn't seem possible. Someone must have overlooked it. You're really smart.

"There are pills in Thanos' necklace, and you want to use them. The reason Thanos almost killed me in the first game and pushed the people in front of him was because he was under the influence of the substance. Right?"

Namgyu seems speechless.

"Damn. Just damn."

You smirk, you love when youre right. And you always are.

"You should keep your mouth shut when youre sleepy next time, "cutie.""

You look at each others eyes for a momment. There is tension.

"Youre gonna sleep right next to me tonight."

"The fuck?! No i wont."

"Youre understanding it as how you want to. I meant you to come sleep on one of the beds close to us. Youre a part of our team."

"I don't need anyone to take care of me."

Still, you liked that very much.

"Oh i am not."

You go to where their beds are. Noticing there isnt an empty bed next to theirs. Namgyu goes to an old man.

"Get out of here pops."

The man refuses at the beggining but Namgyu forces him and now you have a bed next to his.

"Good job bullying old people, Namgyu."

"Youre welcome."

"You know, youre not so bad after all."

You chat with others and have a nice time, then you all go to sleep. You liked Namgyu, he seemed like a nice guy pretending to be an asshole.

Little did you know what would happen to you...

Game 3: Mingle

You wake up with that annoying music again. You were the first one to wake up this time. You shake Namgyu.

"Hey, hey. Wake up. Lets go to the breakfast line first."

He opens his eyes slowly.

"Oh, were a duo now? I thought we were a five person team."

"They didnt wake up yet. Thats not our fault."

He smirks, you think he is so handsome. You get up and get in line.

"Hey, Ye-seul?"

"What is it?"

"Why do you have debt?"

"Well...im a gambler."

"Whoaa!! And here was i thinking you had some kind of student debt or something."

"At least i have a cool debt, huh?"

You enter the new game. It starts kinda fun, Thanos and Namgyu dancing and shit.

Until the lights go out and you hear"4 players"

Everyone looks at each other for a second. Then Thanos looks at you.

"Youre out!"

He kicks you and they all ran away. You are so scared you almost shit your pants. But youre not a quitter. You get up and quickly find another group of people and complete the whole game solo.

Now you hate them.

When you go back to the main room, They approach you and try to apologize but you dont talk to them.

When its time to sleep you go back to your top bunk. Namgyu grabs your arm before you can.

"Dont go."

"Let me go you asshole!"

"Look i didnt wanted it!! Thanos was high as fuck. He asked about you two minutes after!"

"You could have pushed, i dont know, Minsu!"

"I would! But Thanos pulled me and i had to act quick."

"Okay. Now leave me alone."

"No i wont. I have an habit where i like to annoy pretty girls."

You cant help but smile.

"Fuck off, seriously."

"Fine. But you better watch out."

After you take food and open it you see kimbap and fork. You realize how dangerous that is. And youre alone. You decide to hide as good as you can. You sometimes catch Namgyu looking at you from far away.

And the bathroom fight happens. Thanos dies.

You cannot understand how Namgyu feels. He looks neutral. Thanos death was the first death that you actually recognized.

You decide to watch and observe from away. And decide what you are gonna do.

When the fight begins, you get scared and dont know what to do. You never killed someone before. Fuck, you always hanged up in college!!

You sit on your top bunk. Watching people kill each other anxiously. Someone is climbing to your bunk. Its a man. You cannot do anything. You have your fork but would that even work?

You hold it up against the man.

"Go the fuck away! I'll drive this into your head!!"

The man keeps getting closer. You realize you fucked up. You do not have the courage to kill that man, do you? Maybe you do.

You hear a familiar voice from down.

"JUMP! ILL HOLD YOU!"

Namgyu standing there, his arms opened. You dont even think about it and and jump. If he doesnt holds you, youre so dead. But thankfully he does.

You hold onto him like a lifeline. Then he puts you on the ground and holds your hand.

"You killed someone before?"

"Fuck, no!"

"Then get ready for it."

Then he runs away. You see him killing Semi afterwise. You actually liked Semi. But at this point you knew you had to bound with Namgyu.

You saw Minsu on the top bunk, holding something. Will he throw it on Namgyu?

You ran there and climbed.

"Minsu!! Dont!"

You grab the thing in his hand and get down.

This is how the night went.

The Rebellion

During Gi-huns plans, you both stay in. Youre both hurt.

Youre sitting on the same bed.

"Namgyu."

"What?"

"What are you gonna do when the pills are finished?"

"There is enough."

"Be prudent."

"I will."

"Namgyu?"

"What?"

"Are you sad that Thanos is dead?"

"No. I never liked...that man. He couldnt even get my name right."

You knew he was lying. But decided to keep quiet.

You didnt talked. You just sit next to each other. Lay down, just stay next to each other. But you were much more anxious than him. He noticed it.

"Dont think much."

"There is no way. Im shaking."

"You cant survive here if you overthink."

"Its easy for you. Youre high."

"You wanna get high too? Ill give you one if you keep being a good girl."

"Fuck off."

"Cant you go to sleep or something? Youre annoying me."

"I am trembling."

"Then press X on the next voting."

"...if i am alive on the next voting i will. Are you gonna press O?"

"Yeah..."

You decided to keep quiet.

"What are you gonna do with the money if you win?"

"I dont live planning."

"I want to open a casino."

"Wait, seriously? Thought you would be done with that shit."

"Its just a thought..."

You have chit chat even thought he just pretends to listen half of the time.

Thats what you did while Gihun and his friends were fighting.

Game 4: Hide and Seek

You went to the playing area. Lots were drawn. Namgyu was on the red team. You were on the blue team. Even though you didn't show it, you were afraid that he might betray you. He didn't say anything to you.

And so hide-and-seek began.

From the moment you entered here, this was the first place where you thought your intelligence might come in handy.

You had a triangular key. You immediately realized you couldn’t enter every door. You wandered around, trying different doors until you encountered a red one. When you encountered a red one, you entered the nearest triangular room and hid. You explored at least half of the entire area. Time was running out, but finding the right door was now just a matter of time.

In one of the corridors, you saw that the woman who claimed to be a shaman and those with her had been killed by Namgyu and 333. Killing just one of them would have been enough! This wasn’t necessary. But you’d expected the same from Namgyu. 333 hadn’t noticed you yet. Namgyu looked at you, looking like a monster; he must have just taken the drugs. He gestured for you to leave. You shook your head and ran away.

When you found the exit room, you saw that you needed two more keys. You left to find the other keys and found a knife belonging to someone from the red team on the way and took it. You had very little time left.

In one of the rooms, you saw Minsu. He was part of the red team.

"Why didn't you let me protect Semi? Where is Semi?"

You saw the cross necklace in Minsu's hand. At that moment, the only scenario running through your mind was that Namgyu was dead.

"WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM, YOU IDIOT!!"

When Minsu started walking toward you, you had no choice but to kill him. It was the first time you had killed someone directly.

Time ran out, and you survived. You took the cross necklace and were taken to the common room.

When you saw Namgyu, the guards were holding him down on the ground. Seeing him alive made you very happy. You felt safe, somehow.

Namgyu waited until he spoke to you. Drugs were so important to him that he didn't even notice you. You were still feeling the weight of killing someone.

"Hey, Ye-seul. Have you seen my necklace?"

"I killed Minsu."

"Okay. Great. Did you see my necklace?"

"My hands are covered in blood..."

"I DON'T CARE, FUCK IT!! I HAVE TO FIND THAT NECKLACE, DO SOMETHING!"

"Minsu had taken one of the drugs."

"IS IT ON HIM?? IS MY NECKLACE STILL IN THE HIDE-AND-SEEK AREA?!"

"Namgyu..."

"Please tell me."

Your sadness had passed. His helplessness and pleading felt erotic to you.

"Are you really begging?"

"Yes. I'm begging."

You brought your face close to his.

"You know, you're actually a very handsome man. I wish you weren't so stupid, because the pills are with me."

"Give them to me. Please. Please. Please, Ye-seul. I'll do anything you want."

"Would you really do anything I want?"

"Yes. Please. I'll do anything. I'll protect you."

"Do you see the irony? A couple of days ago, you told me that if I was a good girl, you'd give me the pills. Now I'm telling you the same thing."

"I'm a good boy. I'll be a good boy."

"Get down on your knees."

Namgyu kneels down, literally on all fours.

"Fuck—no woman, not even a man, has ever dominated me like this."

"Open your mouth..."

As he opens his mouth, you look at each other, maintaining eye contact. You take a pill from the necklace and put your fingers in his mouth, pushing them in firmly.

"A-agh!"

"Suck."

While your fingers are in his mouth, he swallows the pill, then sucks on your fingers a little. You pull your fingers back.

Game 5: Jump Rope

You arrived at the rope jumping game, and you were both quite confident now.

"Haha. This will be very easy."

And so it was. You went one after the other, sometimes pushing those in front of you, sometimes pushing those behind you. So that game was quite easy.

When you returned from the game, you were now finalists.

You put on your formal attire for the banquet and dined with the other players. You were in high spirits.

You did not drink alcohol at the dinner. You told Namgyu not to drink either. After all, you needed to stay sober.

You woke up at midnight and saw Gi-hun holding a knife above number 100. You watched silently and saw him step back. You stood up.

"456, give me the knife."

Gi-hun refused. You had to manipulate him.

"We’ll never harm the baby. Give me the knife."

Gi-hun absolutely refused to give you the knife.

"Alright. Then I'll do what I know best."

You took the pillow from under number 100's head.

"This man is such a pig, he won't even be able to make a sound."

Gi-hun watched you expressionlessly. You knew he was no longer in a position to fight back. You pressed the pillow against the man's face, and after a while, he tried to move slightly. You didn't let him. You pressed harder.

"Die... die."

And Player 100 was eliminated.

But you knew you couldn't kill everyone. Because in tomorrow's game, at least three people had to die, and the game could only be played with at least four people. If you killed everyone, Gi-hun, the baby, you, and Namgyu would still be alive. But for the power to be in your hands tomorrow, one or two more people had to die.

You lay down on your bed as if going back to sleep, and when Gi-hun fell asleep, you woke Namgyu.

"Don't make a sound... Gi-hun has a knife. I want you to take it. Then we'll kill that Mg Coin guy and one more person."

That’s what you did. Gi-hun knew that if he tried to fight Namgyu now, it wouldn’t end well. After a little resistance, Namgyu grabbed the knife. First, you killed 039. Then 333. If it were up to Namgyu, he would have killed everyone, but you explained the situation to him.

Then you went to sleep.

Game 6: Sky Game

When you went to the game area, you understood the game immediately. You weren't very physically strong, so last night's deaths were a good thing.

On the first platform, you eliminated player 353, on the second player 125, and on the third player 203 and 336. Gi-hun didn't do much.

And that's how the four of you became the winners. Player 099, player 124, player 222, and player 456.

After Game

After the game, they dropped you off in separate cars. You didn't know anything about Namgyu, nor how to find him. But your psyche had taken enough damage. Maybe it was better to be alone for a while. Even after paying off your debt, you were still a billionaire.

But you rented a motel room for a while and stayed there. You were thinking about what to do, where to spend your money. You hadn't even taken a shower in a week. You weren't eating properly either.

Maybe you would start living in Gangnam. Right now, you were living in Incheon.

When evening came, you decided to take a shower. You had to mingle with people a little tonight.

There was a bar next to the motel. You went in there. You spent the night drinking eccentric alcohol and talking to people. But these interactions didn't feel human at all. It was as if you knew the secret of the universe, but they didn't. The alcohol was starting to upset your stomach.

For a week, you tried to go to different places and meet different people. But no one could reconnect you to normal life.

That's when you decided to find Namgyu.

You found a few panelists online. But the only reliable information they could find about Namgyu was that he had lived in Seoul before entering the game. After the game, he must have gone into seclusion. He wouldn't have done that by going to a city he didn't know, right?

You went to Seoul within two days. You went to the bar where Namgyu worked and talked to the owner. Namgyu hadn't been there in months. That is, after entering the game.

You didn't know where to look. No one knew where his family was or where he had gone. Only the people running the game knew everything for sure. But it was impossible to talk to them.

One evening, while wandering around the city, you entered an amusement park.

Being among people made you feel safe, even though you felt like a stranger.

You saw a familiar face at the amusement park. It was one of the players who had joined Gihun in the rebellion.

It was the first time you’d seen someone from the game outside of it. He noticed you too. You’d once been in the same room as him at Mingle.

You immediately went and sat in front of him.

"Sir..."

"You're alive."

"How did you survive? All the rebels are dead."

"What do you mean? Did you... win the game alone?"

"No. Four of us won. The Baby and Gihun are also alive."

"The baby? Which baby? Or..."

"After giving birth to 222, they counted the baby as a player. But how did you survive?"

"I don't know if I can trust you enough to tell you."

"The island exploded. You can tell me. I was a player too, you saw."

"I understand. But I've already... reintegrated into real life. I'm taking care of my daughter. Please, you should also leave the past behind."

"I'm looking for a friend. Player 124. He won with me, but I can't find him anymore."

"The guy who kicked you in Mingle? The crazy one?"

"His friend."

Player 246 remained expressionless for a moment. He thought.

"My break is almost over. If you'd like, we can sit down somewhere quiet and talk."

"I'd be very grateful."

Half an hour later, you sat down at an unpopular café in the amusement park. After talking, Gyeong-seok had to go back to work, so you didn't leave.

He told you how he was saved.

"That guard must still be alive. He's the one I need."

"I don't think you'll be able to find him. I don't know if it would be good for you to find him either."

"Please, Mr. Gyeong-seok. This is important to me."

"I don't know how you're going to find him either."

"But the reason he protected you must be because he knows you. And some of the things he said made you suspicious about this."

"I don't know many people..."

"That makes our job easier. What was the guard's number?"

"011."

You searched for Kang No-eul for a long time. You hung around the amusement park for a long time. You gave Gyeong-seok a large sum of money, even though he didn't want it.

One day, a woman showed up. She was having Gyeong-seok draw her portrait. You watched them. You listened from a distance. Gyeong-seok recognized the woman. She was also kind to Gyeong-seok's daughter and gave her candy. You decided to question this woman. You followed her until she left the park. She must have noticed.

"Can I help you?"

"Yes...may I ask your name?"

"Kang No-eul."

"Ma'am...could you be..."

"Yes?"

"I don't know how to say this. But are you... 011?"

Of course, No-eul knew you were a player. But she wouldn't reveal that she was a guard.

"I don't know what you're talking about. I'm not an athlete."

You decided to try something. You attacked No-eul. She immediately knocked you to the ground.

"Yes, you're not an athlete. Because you're a soldier!"

"I have to go now, ma'am."

"No-eul, please!! I'm looking for someone, someone very important."

"Who?"

"Number 124. Namgyu."

"All the archives are gone. You can't find him anymore."

"Are you serious? You... can't do anything?"

"No. I suggest you build a new life for yourself."

"I have to find him."

"Good luck."

"Kang No-eul?"

"Yes?"

"This is my number. If you need anything, money that is."

No-eul didn't accept it.

"At least I'll stop by here from time to time. Please do the same. See you later."

"I'm going to China. I won't be here for a long time."

"Then we'll meet when you come back."

"Good luck."

And so you couldn't find Namgyu again.

And finally, you decided to go to Gangnam to clear your head.

You rented a nice apartment in Gangnam. You put some of your money in the bank and opened a term deposit account. It was a boring solution, but so be it.

You bought yourself some nice clothes. You got your hair done. You went to fancy places in the evenings and had dinner. But nothing made you happy.

And then, one evening, you decided to go to a crappy bar, because the rich people you had met so far didn't really suit your taste.

And in that crappy bar, you found a familiar face. Namgyu.

You've traveled so much around the city, and in the end, he showed up in the place you first thought of going to. And he looked quite happy. But this time, he wasn't working there. He was buying the most expensive drinks, drinking them all at once, and drawing attention to himself.

"Is there anyone in this whole Gangnam who can compete with me?!"

The people around him were encouraging him even more. You left your coat somewhere and walked toward him.

"I'll race you. And I always win."

You had said those words months ago when both of you were billions of won in debt and on the brink of death. Life was so strange.

Namgyu couldn't believe his eyes when he saw you. His face showed a lot of surprise.

"Damn it!! Ye-seul?!"

You sat down across from him.

"I'll beat Namgyu in this race! Bet on me!"

And you turned it into a gamble. Not everyone, but some people bet on you.

"So what shall we drink, my lady?"

"I don't like volcanoes and fireworks like you do, sweetie. Let's drink tequila."

Now everyone was watching you. In what was probably the worst part of Gangnam, two rich people were having a tequila drinking contest and bets were being placed. The bar owner was very lucky.

Shot glasses were lined up. A large bowl of lemon and salt was also brought out.

"Go!"

You licked the salt in your hand, downed the shot, and sucked on the lemon.

You licked the salt in your hand, downed the shot, and sucked on the lemon.

You downed the shot, sucked on the lemon, and licked the salt.

You sucked on the lemon and downed the shot.

You downed the shot.

By the seventh shot, your stomach was churning. You’ve never had a particularly high tolerance for alcohol.

You don’t remember anything after the eighth shot.

You woke up in a luxury motel. Namgyu was smoking next to you.

"You idiot... do you know how much I searched for you?"

"Yes, I know. You told me everything when you were drunk."

"I feel sick."

You ran to the bathroom. While you were vomiting into the toilet, Namgyu held your hair and rubbed your back.

"Okay, okay... make yourself some coffee."

"Shouldn't you be making it for me?"

"But I don't want to. Besides, you're the woman here."

"You bastard..."

That night, you made love, and the next day too. And the day after that too.

You didn't know what to do next, but you were rich now. So you had become the king and queen of gangam nights.

That was your story.

[cridiary]

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