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sorry for expressing emotions incorrectly. having feelings was considered "acting out" when i was a kid

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if a psychiatric medication dulled your creativity, your “spark”, took away your energy, damaged your personality, your brain, or your sense of self, u are valid. you are not being dramatic, you are not making things up, you are not a “bad patient”, you are not romanticizing mental illness. it’s normal to want to feel like yourself and be able to think clearly.

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Just give it one more day

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There is something cruel about the peace-craving that often comes with chronically overwhelmed individuals (see also: mentally unwell) in chaotic families.

Always having to be the most rational in the room, without any of the space to completely allow your mind to unravel, despite its desperate attempts to do so. You must remain unwavering. My head hurts

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It kinda sucks that a version of me who didn't experience years of continuous sexual violence fails to be me altogether

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Ideas of reference... Having a name for this shit is nice and all, but damn if it's not weird anytime it comes up now.

"That oddly specific and not often used term came up twice in one day? Fuck, I wonder what it's trying to tell me now. What's the code here?"

"... Wait, it's the goddamned idea of reference thing again!"

Doesn't even stop it from pestering the back of my mind, neither. It still sits, casually gnawing back there taking up brain bandwidth. I don't know, brain are weird.

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I know it is my fault

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Can we forget this happened?

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wait for the green light.

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do you?

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"Ibbur"

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and it's so deserving