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cryinggameff · 7 years ago

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Seventy-Five

Randi

Cameron’s crying woke me up early in the morning as usual. I started to get up but Cayden mumbled, "I got him," and got up from the bed. I looked over at the clock. It was 8am. Cayden would be leaving for work soon and I'd be going to drop Cam at my moms. I was trying to slowly get back to going to work, a couple of times a week anyways. Cayden worked a normal 9-5 schedule now, the ride share app he had invested in had blown up and now he was a cowener in a big time company which kept him busy. He really loved what he was doing which made me happy. I was co-owner of 2 salons now. After almost 2 years of back and forth, a second location was up. That required me putting in more regular hours though, which meant leaving Cameron. I felt guilty about working for months after He was born, but now a year later, Cayden and Ms. Williams,my therapist, both convinced me that working was good for me and that i wasn't evil for doing so. He was 1 now and I felt better about leaving him with someone else. I wasn’t breastfeeding anymore and he didn’t need 24/7 attention. But i couldn't deny being a mom came first on my list of priorities and consumed most of my time and thoughts, and i was fine with that.

"You going into the salon today?" Cayden asked, coming back in the room with Cam. I smiled reaching out for him. Seeing him in the morning was the best part of my day because after sleeping for a few hours I missed him. His face lit up when he saw me and he giggled, bringing out his cute dimples. When I looked at him I thought about the fact that I almost missed out on this because I was set on not having kids. I also thought about everything I went through to give birth to him and the fact that I’d do it all over again.

"Good morning mommy's baby," i cooed, nuzzling his face. "Yeah, i'm going in. I have so much to do for tax season," I said.

"My mom taking him this week?" he asked. I nodded. Our parents switched who would watch him. It was perfect because they all didn't work anymore. God knows i couldn't leave Cam with strangers. Cayden took his shirt off to go shower, revealing his perfect chest, well perfect except the gunshot wound under his right peck. He leaned down to kiss me and i met him. He kissed me for a long time and Cam started crying.

"You need to get ready, and i gotta get him some food," i said. We went separate ways and went about our morning routines.

At the door Cayden gave Cameron some last cuddles then handed him to me. He kissed my forehead.

"Imma see you tonight beautiful," he said. I smiled and nodded. I watched him get in his car and go. Then i had to get Cam and myself in my car and drove to Cay's mom's house. On the way there I thought about how normal life was now, Cayden going to work in the morning, to a legit job, m dropping of our kid, and going to work. Life was so different now.

I got to the salon later in the morning and went back to my office. I sat down and immediately checked my phone. It was habit now whenever someone else was watching Cam. I checked for texts or calls about him. When i saw nothing i reluctantly got my computer on and started pulling up my files. I worked for about 2 hours before i cracked and checked grabbed my phone to call Cay's mom. She didn't answer my call and i put my phone down angrily.

"He's fine Randi," i said to myself, turning back to my computer. The separation anxiety i felt with him was hard to explain. It was different than with Cayden. When he wasn't with me i got that feeling like when you think you're forgetting something really important, but constant. It was weird not hearing him cry or laugh for so long, it put me on edge. I wasn't sure how Cayden was able to just go to work like it was nothing.

Jada came in then.

"Hey, I put all those receipts on your desk, did you see them?" She asked.

"yeah," i said with a sigh. I glanced at my phone again.

"Whats up with you?" She asked.

"It's Cameron," i said.

"Why is he sick?" she asked with a frown.

"No. But Cayden's mom won't answer my calls. I just want a picture of him so i know he's ok," i said.

"She's probably busy watching him, it's a good thing she not on her phone," she said. She had a good point. "You worry too much," she said, leaving the office. I knew i worried too much, i didnt wanna be like this. It just came with the whole mom thing.

Later a knock came at my door and i looked up. It was a delivery guy.

"Mrs. Jones?" he asked.

"yeah, thats me,"i said. He gave me the clipboard and i signed it, looking around for the package.

"Package is out front," he said. I thanked him and went out to the front desk to check what is was. China turned to look at me.

"I hate you," she said. I was confused, then i saw the huge bouquet of flowers. I smiled like an idiot, jumping up and down a little. I picked up the card.

--->To my beautiful wife, because i can't stop thinking about you. Im sure you're thinking about Cam not me but that's ok. P.S he's fine, stop worrying. From: Cay and Cam

I teared up and held the card to my chest. I loved how thoughtful Cayden could be. That gave me the motivation i needed to get through the day.

I picked Cam up around 3 and made my way back home. Cole called me on my way saying that he was coming over. He beat me home and was waiting in the drive way when i got there. He helped me get Cam out of the car.

“My little man!” He said, taking him from his car seat.

“He just put on a show on the way home, cried the whole ride. He's so tired.” We went inside.

“You on your own?” He asked.

“Yeah, Cayden still at work.”

“Damn, he really taking this CEO shit serious. You can always leave him with me if you need a break,” he said.

“I’m seriously gonna take you up on that, but anyways, so bachelor party. I have everything set, just need to know what time you want the limo.”

“Like 10 probably. I plan on being drunk by then so it don’t really matter,” he chuckled, letting Cam play with his fingers.

“Ok. I still need an outfit, I’m always scared to be out dressed by the strippers,” I said. I was gonna be the only girl at the bachelor party, I wasn’t planning on staying too long anyways, I knew I’d be missing Cameron and I wanted to let Cole hang with his buddies.

"Aint that weird? Going to a strip club with your man?" He asked, putting Cam's pacifier back in his mouth.

"Not really. Im used to it," i said, "but he doesn't even go anymore. This will be the first time he's gone since Cam was born. But why are you going to a female strip club when you don't like girls is the real question?"

"Male strip clubs aint the same," he shrugged. "Only thing is i know Ty attracted to females so that's gonna be a bit weird." I went around the kitchen making something to eat for all of us. I started cutting stuff up for a salad and warming a bottle for Cameron. Cole came to sit at the island.

"Im sure he'll behave himself," i said. "He's marrying you, so clearly he's not checking for anyone else, male or female" i assured him. He nodded.

“Did you get nervous before your wedding?” He asked. I nodded.

“Hell yeah. You know i was a mess leading up to it. I had a panic attack day of too," i laughed remembering. "You getting nervous bout it?"

"A little," he shrugged. It was odd to see Cole unsure or worried about anything. He was always so care free, go with the flow type of guy.

"It'll go away once you see him on the day," i assured him. He nodded in agreement.

"One more week to go," he said.

Cayden

I was in meetings all day today which was tiring. Sometimes this job was more tiring than drug dealing, which i ever expected. I really liked doing something different though. When i thought about it, i kind of did the same thing when i was in charge of the warehouses, i handled all the business behind the dealing. Negotiated with cartels, contracted people, allocated supplies. That's pretty much what i did now, just not with drugs. I was really into the whole tech thing too, the dudes i worked with were crazy smart, inventing apps and shit.

After my meetings i went to my office to check my emails. I checked my phone too and saw the message from Randi thanking me for the flowers.

There was also a message from Keisha which I opened. It was a photo of her son after a basketball game. Yes, i had stayed in touch with her, because that was my nephew, and the circumstances didn’t change that. Randi was all for it and we’d even have him over sometimes. So I’d see him here and there and she kept me up to date on what he was doing. I chuckled a little at his big gap smile, he looked so much like Trey it scared me at times. The more I was getting to know him the more I saw Trey in him, and that made me feel like my brother was still here.

After replying some emails I finally made my way home. It was an hour past Cameron’s bed time which meant I wouldn’t get to hang with him before he slept. I walked around downstairs and when I didn’t see Randi I went upstairs. I could hear her in the nursery. I walked over quietly and stood by the door. Randi was bouncing Cameron in her arms while he was fussing. She was so small he took up her whole torso now and he was only 1.

“Shhh, Mommy’s got you Cam ” she said softly,rubbing his back in circles. He finally got quiet and she went to put him back in his crib. She turned on the rain machine for him because he loved that shit and couldn't sleep without it. She finally turned towards the door and she jumped when she saw me, putting her hand to her chest.

“Jesus Cay, how long you been standing there?”

“Not long, but I can watch you with him all day,” i said, going up to wrap my arms around her waist.Her hair was all messed up, coming out of the bun she had, and she was wearing sweats, but she still looked fine. I looked over her head to Cam in his crib. “I tried to get home before he went to sleep," i said. I had stayed at the office later than usual.

“You just missed him. He woke up from a bad dream,” she frowned.

“I know what you’re thinking. We didn’t give him bad dreams Ran, he’s a baby, probably just wanted some attention” i could read her mind. Randi had this theory that Cameron inherited bad dreams from us because sometimes he would wake up crying or screaming. We both had a history of bad dreams so maybe it was possible but I still assured her that wasn’t the case.

“You don’t know that,” she mumbled. I tugged a piece of her hair.

"Come on, you gonna wake him up," i said, pulling her out of the room. I dragged her into our room so i could change. "I talked to Ty today, the suit is ready. Can you pick it up tomorrow for me?"

"Yeah, i have to go pick up my dress anyways," she said. "I'm so excited, I can’t believe this is finally happening" she smiled, folding her legs.

"Im just surprised neither one of them backed out yet, i thought for sure Ty would have wigged out by now," i said, taking my shirt off.

"Cole is the one I was worried about. He came over earlier, he was freaking out a little," she said, grabbing my shirt and straightening it out. "But i told him that was normal. I was loosing my shit before our wedding, but if i made it down the aisle, he can."

"True. I deadass thought you weren't gonna show up to our wedding,"i laughed remembering.

"Thought about running, my dad dragged me out of that room though," she laughed as well.

"Your ass lucky i still married you after making a nigga self conscious and shit," i mumbled. It was easy trying to lock her down. She grabbed my arm.

"I been lucky since the night you drove me home from the club," she said, referring to the first time we met. I thought back to that night and where we were now. "Even though you didn't say one word to me that whole car ride."

"I was having a bad day," i chuckled, "it wasn't personal. And i showed up to your house the next day didn't i. And day after that, and pretty much everyday after."

"You were,” she nodded. I sat down beside her and pulled her in to me. “I think that’s why I liked you. You were consistent, and I needed that,” she said like she was deep in thought. “Who would have thought back then that we'd be married and have a kid together?"

"I thought so," i said with a loud laugh. She looked at me like i was crazy. "Dead ass. I knew after that first day, that was it, you was the one. I never just wanted to be around someone all the time before,” I played with her hair.

“Why do you say all the right things?” She said softly, looking back at me.

“I also say the wrong things sometimes,” I reminded her. “You was just mad at me yesterday.”

“That’s true,” she gave me a side eye remembering the petty argument we had gotten into. We didn’t really fight like that anymore. Having a kid together made other things seem irrelevant, and we had a different level of respect for each other now as his parents.

“You know what’s weird? Like a year ago we probably would have been sorting through duffle bags of coke right now,”I said randomly. She laughed.

“Yup, I’d be counting, estimating profits,” she shook her head, “that feels like a life time ago.”

“You was really ride or die for a nigga,” I said, “even when shit was hot,” I looked at the scar on my rib and thought about how she had taken care of me.

“I knew what I signed up for. It was hard for me after the shooting though, I can’t lie. After that day...I knew I was done. Then I got pregnant, and that just pushed me to say what had been in my mind for a long time, it was all about Cam from that moment on,” she played with my hand in hers. “Do you miss all that?”

“Nah. I was done with that part of my life. I was already starting my plan to get out before you told me, but that just made it that much more important to do it. I knew the life you wanted and I wanted to give it to you, and to our kid” I looked over her face. She nodded and we sat in silence for a little bit. After some time she looked down and put a hand to her stomach.

“Sometimes I miss having him inside of me,” she smiled. I raised a brow.

“Does that mean you ready for a second one?” I said excited, pulling her closer in to me.

“Hey don’t get excited. We talked about this, we said next year,” she reminded me, pushing me away.

“We gotta start now if we gonna get 5 out the way before we old,” I said. She leaned back and looked at me like i was insane. I tried to kiss her and she was trying to run away.

“Cayyyyy” she complained as I planted my lips on her neck.

Cole

***a week later***

Today was the day, and to say I was nervous was an understatement. I had never been this nervous to step out on the football field, or even when I came out to my family. This was different. I knew I wanted to be with Ty forever, but it was the idea of ‘marriage’ that made it all so fucking scary.

It was funny to me because this was all Ty’s idea. He had asked me to marry him. It had crossed my mind too but I wasn’t sure he wanted all that. I was happy to just be whatever we were. Living together was the main thing I had wanted and I got that.

Our families now loved each other and we were both in good places with them. My mom and I were the closest we had ever been, which I wouldn’t have expected 3 years ago after all the family drama. But this wedding was a big part of why we came together. She wanted to be there for me and was happy to see me happy. She was helping me tie my bow tie, and crying while doing it.

“I’m really happy for you Cole” she said, “I can tell Ty is in love with you, and it’s clear you love him.”

“I do,” I said.

“All I’ve ever wanted was this for you. I know it may not always have seemed like it. I just hate that we weren’t on good terms for so long,” she wiped a tear, “when you’re my only son. I know now that I was wrong,” she said.

“I was wrong too mama. I was so angry I couldn’t put my pride aside and fix things with you,” I admitted.

“Well, that’s all in the past now. The important thing is everything is how it should be now. Just me and my baby,” she said with a smile.

“I love you mama” I said, kissing her cheek.

“I love you too baby,” she patted my cheek. “There, you look handsome as ever. That Ty is so lucky he scored you.”

“You ready to walk me down the aisle?” I asked, holding my arm out. Both of our mothers were walking us down. Ty was supposed to go first and I knew he was already there and waiting for me. That made me excited. The music started playing then and my stomach flipped.

“That’s our cue,” my mom said, opened the doors to the ceremony room.

I could see Ty standing there on a suit, something I hadn’t seen since Cayden and Randi’s wedding, anxiously waiting. He was touching the cuffs on his shirt but then looked up and made eye contact with me. We both smiled and the nerves and anxiety melted away.

The reception was lit. We had a DJ and all our friends and family were on the dance floor. A slow song came on and Ty grabbed me to dance with him. I had been separated from him for a while talking to people.

“I feel like I haven’t seen you in forever,” he said. I smirked.

“Awe you missed me?” I said. He rolled his eyes.

“Maybe,” He said.

“Well you bout to be stuck with me for a real long time now if that makes you feel any better.”

“I still can’t believe we’re married, that’s kind of lame,” he said, looking at the ring on his hand.

“Yeah but it’s cute. We still gonna be the same so,” i shrugged.

“Yeah, I’m glad we did it. For our families too,” he looked around at the people around us and I did the same. There was a lot of people happy to see us happy, and that touched both of us since not everyone was ok with our life style. I spotted Randi then, standing just off the dance floor holding Cameron on her hip. Cayden had his arm around her. I winked at her and she winked back. Both our lives had turned around in a matter of a couple years, and we were happier than ever. It made a nigga a bit emotional. I had been at her wedding and now she was at mine, that was some movie shit.

“I hope your winking at your mother, or else I’m throwing hands,” Ty said, following my gaze. “Oh it’s Randi.”

“You jealous?” I teased.

“Y’all petty niggas deserve each other,” he said, shrugging. “The friendship still confuses me though,” he said.

“Me too. But I just know she been there for me like nobody else, other than you. She was my family when I wasn’t on good terms with mine,” I explained.

“I get that,” he nodded.

“Now i have it all, my family,my friends, and you,” i smirked. He smiled back at me and pulled me in to kiss me.We kissed like it wasn’t a room full of people.

Randi

I was standing watching Cole and Ty be cute when my mom came and took Cam from me.

“You two go dance,” she said, nodding at the dance floor. Cayden took my hand and pulled me in that direction. He put his arms around my waist and I put mine over his shoulders.

“This reminds me of our first dance,” I said, grinning like a little kid. “I’m just missing the dress, and I have an extra 30 pounds on me now but other than that,” I laughed. He slipped his hands to my butt as if we weren’t in public.

“I like the way you look now,” he said, “you sexy as hell to me,” sliding his hands around to my hips, “Shit, i been thinking about taking that dress off all night,”

“Thank you Baby,” I said, “you make me feel sexy.” He really did, even when I was pregnant and blowing up, or now when my body was still not the way it used to be.

When we got home I wanted to take off my makeup and shower so Cay signed up to put Cameron to sleep. I took a quick shower and then went to peak in the nursery wondering what was taking him so long. Cayden was sitting in the rocking chair with Cameron in his lap and a book in his hands. I stood outside listening for a while and i laughed quietly at the voices he gave all the characters. Creating a human with someone changed the relationship forever. Yes i loved him even before i had his baby, but loving Cameron together on top of loving each other was a strange and powerful thing.Plus him being caring and protective was such a turn on and made me wanna give him 5 more kids. He was such a hands on dad too, which i knew he would be. When Cam was first born all I really did was breastfeed or pump, Cayden changed all the diapers, got him cleaned and dressed, and took him when I needed sleep. That’s the kind of husband and dad he was.

"Randi I know you eavesdropping" he said once he was finished the book.

"What?! how did you know?" I moved into view and then walked inside the room.

"I could hear your ass laughing," he said, "You just salty he likes my reading better."

"You are really good at story time," i smiled, sitting on his lap beside Cameron. I looked at his adorable face and took him in like i did several times a day in disbelief at how perfect he was. The best part was he now had freckles coming in slowly just like Cayden’s. I touched his cheek and then Cayden's, comparing.

"Why you not in bed?" Cayden asked.

"Well, I had to tell you something really important," i said seriously like i was gonna drop some big news. His brows came together in confusion.

"What?"

"I been wanting to say this for a while..." i said, dragging it out. "But i wasn't sure how."

"You can tell me anything," he said, rubbing my arm. I sighed then paused.

"Ok, here it goes," i said, "Cayden, i...love you" i grinned. He kissed his teeth and tried to push me off him. I laughed and grabbed on to his neck to stay on. "Babe!" i pleaded, fighting to stay on while he was pushing me.

"Why you waste my time like you was gonna say something important," he said annoyed. He was really mad. I giggled and cupped his cheek.

"Im sorry," i said. "But i really have been wanting to tell you how much i love you," i said. His face changed to a little less mad. “I know I don’t always show my appreciation for you, and I’m not good at the romantic stuff like you, but I just wanted you to know that i do thank God everyday for you. You keep me grounded, and you're my rock” I finished. His cheeks were pink which was so adorable. He hated being complimented and never knew how to respond. He closed the space between us and kissed me tenderly.

“I told you i always got you, and I love you too." Cam grabbed my shirt then and i smiled down at him and picked him up. I held him close to me and he immediately closed his eyes. I looked from him to Cayden, and then back at him and i felt everything I couldn’t years ago during the darkest period of my life. I was filled with hope, and joy, and a fierce love for life.

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cryinggameff · 7 years ago

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Seventy-Four

Randi

I woke up in a lot of pain that morning, just pain all over my body. I could barely get out of bed which was not normal. Cayden wanted to go to the doctor right then and there but I told him I didn’t want to be sitting in the hospital all day. So I decided I would get into a bath because that always relaxed me. He ran it for me and helped me inside.

“I still think we should go,” he said, looking down at me.

“If I don’t feel better soon we can go. The bath is helping though,” I said, closing my eyes.

“Aight,” he said, “imma be in the room.”

In the bath my muscles released and the aches were better. I sat there for a long time, until the water was cold. My stomach had started hurting again. And I figured warm water would help. I opened my eyes to let out the water and add some warm water but stopped short when I looked down.

“Cayden,” I said in a shaky voice, on the verge of losing my sanity and giving into panic. The cramping suddenly intensified and I clutched the edge on the tub. The water was bright red like paint, or some kind of fruit juice. After a bit Cayden finally strolled into the bathroom and saw me frozen in the blood bath. All the colour left his face and he froze too where he was.

“Randi, what the fuck,” he stammered, coming to the tub to see. I started to panic then and I began to cry because I was terrified. That seemed to shake Cayden out of his daze because he started running around the bathroom, getting towels, pads from under the sink and a bunch of other stuff. I was still scared and confused.

“Don’t worry, I got you,” He said, trying to comfort me, or himself, I wasn’t sure. I remembered him saying those same words to me when I told him I was pregnant. I was scared then, but this was a new level of fear. I was just sobbing and shaking when he reached in and picked me up in his arms. I screamed out in pain because moving hurt. I could feel burning and immense pressure at my pelvis that could only mean one thing at this stage. “We gonna get you to the hospital. Let me grab some clothes,” he tried to let me go and I clutched on to him for dear life.

“I think the baby is coming now, like right now,” I cried, scared out of my mind for my baby. I had to bend over, I couldn’t stand up straight or close my legs. All this couldn’t be normal and I wasn’t in a hospital with doctors telling me what to do or what was wrong. It was a few weeks early, but I knew now with everything in me that this baby was coming today.

“Shit. Okay, that’s fine,” he said, picking me up. He walked out of the bathroom and put me down on the bed, putting all the pillows behind me. “I’m gonna get my phone and call 911, see if someone can help us, ok?” He said. I nodded quickly. He started to walk away and I grabbed his arm. “Imma be right back baby,” he said, kissing my forehead. He left me to go get his phone downstairs and when he came back he had it pressed to his ear. I couldn’t really pay attention to what he or the person on the phone was saying. I was just screaming. He tapped my legs for me to open them and I did which hurt. I heard him say something about the head and crowning and I lost it.

“My baby,” I cried, hopeless. He was really tryna come out. There was no way we could do this on our own and I just felt hopeless.

“Randi, I got you, ok? I got you, just lay back,” he said. “The lady is gonna talk me through it and he’s gonna be fine ok?” He said sternly. I nodded, needing to believe him. I could hear the lady talking and Cayden saying yes, yeah, or mhm. I drifted out of it for a while, focusing on breathing through the intense fire spreading all over my body and when I opened my eyes again Cayden was yelling my name, I guess he had been calling me for a while.

“Stay with me Ran, the lady said you gotta start pushing when you feel a contraction,” he told me. I nodded. I couldn’t even think about how weird it was that Cayden’s face and hands were currently all in my coochie and god knows what it looked like down there right now. A few minutes later a contraction came and so I started pushing. I was gripping the pillows.

“You doing good mama,” he encouraged. I pushed again and it felt like I was actually ripping in half. “His head is out, he has so much hair,” he said. That gave me motivation to push even more but the contraction ended and I had to wait. After a while another contraction came and I began pushing again.

“She says I gotta pull him out, this gonna hurt,” he warned. I shook my head.

“I don’t care,” I gasped, “just get him out,” I told him. Sure enough that shit hurt. There was one serious moment of absolute pain and horror and I could feel him coming out. I collapsed back on the pillows, head spinning. I couldn’t believe this was happening. A loud cry filled the room and I laughed in relief. “Is he ok?” I asked Cayden, trying to sit up.

“He’s perfect,” He said, and he lifted him up so I could see him. He was very small and perfectly caramel with very curly hair. Cayden put him on to my chest and I held him close to my chest where he belonged, not caring about all the gunk on him. I felt a sense of relief and calm wash over me. It was like I instantly knew how to be a mother.

“Shhh,” I cooed as he cried, I put a sheet over him so he wouldn’t get cold, “mommy’s got you” I said, looking up at Cayden who was smiling like I’d never seen him smile before. He leaned down to kiss me. I was overcome with joy and love, but my head was still spinning. I’d lost a lot of blood.

“Can you hold him,” I whispered, when I felt myself start to fall. Cayden took him from me, asking if I was ok. I knew I wasn’t but I nodded anyways.

“The ambulance is almost here okay? I can hear it, “ he gripped my hand in his.

When the paramedics arrived they cut the cord and put me in the stretcher after setting me up with IVs. The baby was on my chest while we rode in the ambulance and i just took in everything about him, his smell, his body temperature, his slow breathing. I also took in the feeling of Cay’s firm grip on my hand, safe and secure, daring anyone or anything to separate us. For the first time ever I felt…a complete and total love for life and all it’s ups and downs. If it meant having this, then it was all worth it.

They said they had to separate me and the baby so we could both get checked and taken care of but leaving him gave me anxiety, especially after I’d feared for his life. He was so small.

“Go with Cameron” I said.

“What?” He asked, baffled.

“That’s his name,” I said. He looked like he wanted to cry and I lifted my hand to his cheek. “I don’t want him to be alone, ok?” He nodded and hesitantly followed the nurses with the baby while I was wheeled into the operating room.

It was a whole week later when we were finally able to leave the hospital with our baby. He was bigger now, which was the best thing to see as a mom. Cayden drove us home and my mom was already there and waiting. God I had never been so happy to see her. She was staying to help us for a while. My mom helped me upstairs while Cayden got Cameron from the car. I wanted to get some things from the nursery which I hadn’t even got to finish, so Cam could come in our room. To my surprise, when I opened the door the nursery was decorated and set up. The walls were painted and all the furniture put together. There was pictures on the walls and stuffed animals everywhere. I wanted to cry.

“How…?”

“Cole, Jada and China worked on it all week,” my mom said with a laugh at my surprise. The tears came rolling, I couldn’t help it.

“Everything ok?” Cayden asked, now at the top of the stairs.

“They finished the nursery,” I said around my tears.

“Oh ya, I knew. Who do you think let them in?”

“I’m so lucky,” I said, thinking of all our friends.

“Come on sweetie, lets get you into bed,” my mom said. I left the nursery and went into my room. I set up with a hundred pillows and then Cayden handed Cameron to me so I could breast feed him. He was wearing this stripped onesie and I just wanted to eat him. I played with his tiny feet while he ate and took in his smell. Cayden went to open the curtains and my mom left to go make us some food. Suddenly I remembered the last time I was on this bed.

“You cleaned everything up” I said. Cayden chuckled.

“Ya, the whole mattress had to go,” he said, sitting beside me and rubbing his thumb over Cameron’s full head of hair.

“I can’t believe I gave birth on our bed, and that you delivered our baby. How were you not freaking out?” I looked over at him, remembering how strong he had been. Things had been moving so fast that we hadn’t really had a chance to talk about it all.

“Trust, I was freaking out . But I just did what I had to do,” he shrugged.

“Most guys would have fainted, are you traumatized now?” I teased.

“It was weird as fuck, but I mean it wasn’t my first time down there,” he shrugged and I died of laughter. That kind of hurt and I winced. Everything past my waist was just sore, but apparently that was normal. “You ok?” He asked, concerned. I nodded.

“Seriously though, what would I do without you?” I leaned up to kiss him and he met me since I couldn’t really move with Cameron on me.

“You did all the work. Seeing you in pain like that…” he shook his head. “Women really are amazing. YOU, are amazing,” he kissed me again. “And Cameron is amazing, thanks to you.”

I smiled down at the beautiful boy in my arms.

“He is Amazing,“ i whispered. It was crazy how natural taking care of him was and it was scary how much i loved him. It was even more intense than what i felt for Cay, which i didn’t know was possible.

Cayden

When she was finished feeding and burping the baby I took over so Randi got to eat too. After that she was yawning like crazy. She was understandably tired.

“Go to sleep Baby, you need to rest,” I told her.

“I don’t wanna miss anything,” She said, yawning.

“He gonna be the exact same when you wake up,” I told her. “Me and him are gonna watch some basketball. Gotta start em early.”

“Ok just an hour, wake me up” she said, leaning back into her pillow fortress. I leaned over and kissed her forehead, then left with Cameron so she could rest.

I let Randi sleep for more than an hour because she needed it and so far Cameron hadn’t started crying for food yet. I switched off with her mom to get some food because I still hadn’t eaten. I was feeling tired too but I knew it was nothing compared to Randi.

After all the shit she had been through I really owed her everything. She went through so much pain and took it all like a beast, no medicine or nothing. I didn’t think it was possible but I loved her even more now. Cameron was everything I imagined and more. It’s impossible to describe looking down and seeing me but also Randi.

I was watching TV with him on my chest when he finally woke up, looking for food. I was about to go upstairs and wake Randi up but she came downstairs first as if she sensed that he was awake and looking for him.

“I was about to get you, Cameron just woke up,” I said.

“He must be hungry, and my boobs are leaking,” she said, pointing to the huge wet marks on her shirt. She sat down and I handed her the baby, wrapping my arm around her. This was exactly where i wanted to be.

I started thinking then that i was glad i had left all that street shit behind. I had a family to take care of and that life was too dangerous. My focus now was just being here and taking care of them, and giving my wife and son the best life possible

****two months later****

I woke up with Cameron like I usually did, while Randi slept in since she was up at night with him. That was our routine. I would get him washed up and changed, and give him a bottle. Then we chilled for a bit while Randi got ready.

My parents came over that morning and it felt good seeing them be grandparents. They were over all the time, and i hadn’t seen them be this happy in a long time.

“He’s getting so big,” my dad said, holding Cameron.

“He eats like crazy,” I said.

“That was you as a baby,” my mom smiled. “That makes you happy though as a mom trying to figure out breast feeding and making sure your baby is healthy.”

“Where is mom?” Pops asked, talking about Randi.

“She’s getting some rest upstairs,” I said simply. Truth is I wasn’t sure what she was doing, usually she would be down by now but she hadn’t left the room yet so I figured she was just really tired.

“I’m glad I raised a sweet boy who helps his wife so much,” my mom said, pinching my cheek. I smiled.

After my parents left I went to put Cameron down in his room and to check on Randi. She was in the bathroom getting ready in front of the mirror.

“Hey baby,” I said.

“Hi,” she said, tying her hair in a messy ponytail. I could tell something was up.

“You ok?” I asked.

“I’m going a little crazy honestly” she said. I wrapped my arms around her waist.

“I think you need some time to yourself, you spend so much time taking care of Cam. You can go out if you need to,” I told her. I felt bad because I got to leave whenever i wanted but she usually had the baby attached to her all day.

“I can’t be away from him for a long time, what if he gets hungry?” She said.

“There’s bottles in the fridge,” I said. “Go,” I said, “I got this.”

“Ok. Just for a little bit…” she said. I smacked her butt.

“Good, because I already called Cole and he’s coming to pick you up.”

Ty came to chill with me while Randi and Cole were out. I was laughing at him because he always refused to hold Cameron.

“Man he too small, i can’t be doing all that,” he said.

“You his uncle, you gotta hold him” I said, trying to hand him over, "how yall gonna bond if you never hold him?”

“Bruh babies scare me, we can bond once he’s not so…fragile” he shook his head.

“You killed niggas but you scared of a little baby? Here,” I said, pushing Cam into his arms. He looked so uncomfortable which made me laugh more.

“I guess it ain’t that bad…” he said, adjusting.

“So what’s good with you and Cole?” I asked. They were living together now, and he was finally being serious about being with him for the long haul.

“Things are good…really good. Our families met each other for the first time, and nobody fought so, that was good.”

“Honestly, I never would have guessed you and Cole ending up together man,” I shook my head. That still blew my mind.

“It surprised me too…we were really just friends first, then It started feeling different than, like you and me. I didn’t wanna believe I was falling for a nigga, and it was…way more intense than how I ever felt for a girl,” he explained.

“That’s how it was with Randi, intense. It kinda makes sense tough, you was always suspect,” I shrugged.

“Fuck you Cayden,” he threw a pillow at me.

“Man if you weren’t holding my kid I’d beat your ass right now.”

When Randi and Cole got home me and Ty were playing 2K in the living room. They walked into the living room but we were too into the game.

“Hey mama,” I said, eyes glued to the TV.

“Hi,” she said.

“Did you have a good time?” I asked.

“Mmhm. I really needed it,” she said. I finally looked up from the game and that’s when I saw her hair. It was shorter now and the ends were a blonde colour.

“Woah” I said, taking it in. She blushed.

“Do you like it?”

“You look hot,” I said, putting the controller down. I went to grab her and she giggled. I kissed her and forgot where we were or that Ty and Cole were there. Randi and i hadn’t done anything since Cameron was born, first because she was still recovering. But once she was healed she still wasn’t feeling like herself and we hadn’t done much other than kiss. Something was different today though and that same energy we had before was back. After a while Cole cleared his throat.

“Should we leave or….?” he said. Randi pulled away but I couldn’t stop looking at her.

“Sorry,” she said with a laugh. “How was Cam?”

“Easy, only woke up twice to eat, other than that he been chilling.”

“I’m gonna go upstairs and… check on him,” she said, looking at me meaningfully.

“Imma come with you…” i said, looking her over.

“Ew. Ty let’s go, before they smash right in front of us,” Cole said.

“I wouldn’t mind,” Ty shrugged. Cole grabbed him by the arm and dragged him to the door.

We got upstairs and immediately came back together, our lips connecting. We moved to the bed and just as we were getting into it and i got Randi’s clothes off, crying came from the baby monitor. I groaned, putting my face in her neck.

“This is gonna be our life now isn’t it?” I said. She laughed.

“Yup, mommy duties call” she said. She grabbed my shirt and put it on.

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