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call me a dirty communist radical but I think everyone should know if they live near toxic waste

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how to be alone, a lonely person's guide:

1. make a mug of tea, try to appreciate the silence. you can hear every bubble in the kettle if you really try. hold your cup gently, press it against your body. feel the warmth spreading. graze your knuckles against it, feel them sting. forget about it until its cold. sometimes tea isnt even about drinking it, it's just about having something to keep you company.

2. go out to lunch, because you decided you were going to. you dont need a reason to get your favourite food, youre allowed to do it! when the waitress asks you if you are waiting for someone, try not to cry.

3. realise how quiet lunch is when it's just you. you didnt bring anything to do, that was stupid. what was the plan? just eat too quickly, leave even faster. maybe next time bring a book or something, you know one of the ones youre always pretending you will read? yeah that one.

4. go see a movie! movies are a great way to pass the time. try not to look at the couples and friend groups. noone cares that youre alone, they probably dont even notice. try not to think about it. theyre not laughing at you just stop thinking about it.

5. take up a hobby, tumblr blogging or journaling or knitting or hoarding. it helps fill the time. arent the days just so long? its crazy how much time you have. youre looking at the clock too often, stop doing that! seriously, it just makes time go slower. why cant you just enjoy yourself? do you even like knitting? what do you like then? whatever i guess you can just go to sleep early.

6. take a sleeping pill, take a few. have a drink. why not? its not like anyone is keeping track. pick up smoking again, because you forgot why you quit in the first place. it feels good, whats wrong with just wanting to feel good sometimes? youre young it doesnt even matter. tomorrow will be better. tomorrow you will be better. figure it out, it wont always be this hard. tomorrow will be better.

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Ok so my kid had an ear infection, right? As kids often do.

The doctor scraped out a bit of earwax to have a better look inside.

I was sent a bill for $200 PER EAR for this 5 second procedure which I did not give permission for them to do.

That was key- they did not ASK me if they could do this "procedure". And, as I OWN a medical practice (it's me. The medical practice is me, sitting in my house on video calls) I knew to call them when this bill came in to be like "You did not obtain informed consent for this procedure, and it was not en emergency procedure. You had full ability to gain my consent and didn't. I'm not paying."

And the massive hospital who owned the bill said "yuh-huh you do have to pay."

And I said "I own a practice. I know these laws. I do not owe you money for this."

And they conducted an "internal review" and SURPRISE! Decided I totally owed them money and they had never done anything wrong ever.

And so I called my state's Attorney General office, and explained the situation because, as I mentioned, I know the law. The AG got in touch within a couple days to say they were taking the case and would send the massive hospital conglomerate a knock it off, guys letter.

Lo and Behold, today I have a letter where said hospital graciously has agreed to forfeit the payment.

"How not to get screwed over by companies" should be part of civics class.

Know your rights and know who to call when they're infringed on. This whole process cost me $0 and honestly less effort than I would have expected.

May this knowledge find its way to someone else who can use it.

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honestly going off my last post- I know my body can do good things.

it has given me a voice to comfort my friends, hands to hold my old cat, etc positive shit

but like. I feel so sick. I keep gaining weight and there will never be a time I feel at home in this body until the weight is gone.

who does this stomach belong to? who do these broken, blurry eyes belong to? who do these fading collarbones belong to?

I think I'd find that person, the owner of this body, somewhere underneath the fat of my stomach and my thighs, and I think they must be beautiful. I feel like a walking, breathing missing person poster.

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anyone else just keep eating and eating and eating and eating and eating and eating and eating and eating until you wish your stomach would rupture and let the earth swallow you whole so your body can be consumed in such a way that it will become fertilizer and finally do something good

...no just me, okay

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my partner made some guro art of me but wtf I look so much thinner in the piece - definitely totally not using this as thinspo to hate myself. definitely not. yup.

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This is a great blessing from you that you shared my story. I am sorry and very embarrassed to ask you to also donate $20, which equals 220 Swedish krona.

I am very sorry, but I don't have the funds to donate right now- or any funds at all, really. I pray that some others are able to help and that you reach your donation goal, friend.

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please

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Supplements you should take when restricting<3 (part 1)

Calcium - you don't want your bones to break or teeth to go bad, they won't grow back when lost

Vitamin C - really important for your imunity, especially when you don't eat fruits and veggies a lot

Beta-carotenne (sorry for my spelling) - it makes your skin colour look healthier<3

Zinc - nails, skin and hair

Powdered fibre - constipation ain't fun and makes your stomach large

Omega-3 - it makes your brain work better

Magnesium - helps with cramps, feelings of tiredness and brainfog

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Me when… me when… the identity is horror. Who are you? Can you be replicated? Is that replication you? If someone looks just like you, acts like you and is interpreted by others as you, are they you? Do your thoughts count for anything? If everything you actually think stays in your head and never comes out then you die do people grieve you? Do you respond to your name or to any name?

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@maximasmac added the necklaces im going to cry for sixty hours

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Note: My old account was terminated. Please share again

Dear, free world: Apathy No More!

When piles and piles of people are apathetic when it comes to the genocide unfolding in Gaza, be the source of relief, hope, and support for the stranded helpless besieged people there. Astonishingly, our life in Gaza turned upside down in an instant?! We woke up one day to realize that a massive-scale war was to be launched against more than 2 million people in Gaza. My Facebook timeline was filled with countless posts in which Gazans publicly asked for forgiveness before their expected imminent mass murder. Can you imagine what it feels like reading all these scary posts and wondering if you should say a final 'Goodbye'?!

Then, Gazans ventured on their own version of Via Dolorosa (Way of Suffering) which included multiple forced displacements, acute life-threatening shortages of water and food, lost jobs, humiliation, mass destruction, injuries, and murder.

It is beyond shocking and sickening how desensitized our world has become to see all the horrifying images of children's body parts scattered everywhere and not lift a finger to stop this ruthless and inhumane genocide. I can say with all certitude on behalf of my people in Gaza that we have lost hope in all the vile desensitized regimes and politicians of the world.

However, we still have strong faith in the lovers and supporters of our just cause who never cease to shower us with their heartwarming words of support and uplifting wishes. Our belief in your humanity and support for our just cause drives us to ask you for help in this worst crisis in our history since the Nakba.

[Vetted by el-shab-hussein. # 151 on the list of Vetted Gaza Fundraisers List] 🍉���🍉

@ibtisams @riding-with-the-wild-hunt @90-ghost @vakarians-babe

@fairuzfan @sayruq @sar-soor @fallahifag @el-shab-hussein @tamarrud @humanvoicebox @plomegranate @queerstudiesnatural @commission4aid @nabulsi @stil-lindigo

@soon-palestine @communistchilchuck @palestinegenocide @ghost-and-a-half @northgazaupdates @northgazaupdates2

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@bilal-salah0 is the new account of the individual who previously had the account bilalhammad.

He's legit, but tumblr deactivated his account.

Another tumblr account that was deactivated was ma7moudgaza, who's now at @ma7moudgaza2

At this rate I'm going to start keeping track of all the Palestinians who've had their accounts unjustly removed, who've been censored in the midst of a horrific genocide while they beg for survival. Tumblr keeps taking a cruel and unusual situation and making it infinitely worse.

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This is going to ruin the tour