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It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia is a wild show because it says, here are a group of terrible, irredeemable people who are codependent in unimaginable ways. They will never, ever get better - in fact, they will get significantly worse. But there will be moments, little moments of genuine love and affection between them, and it will drive you crazy. And you will bear witness to times where the trauma they experienced as children possesses their body and they turn into scared little kids again. And then they will continue to be deplorable, and you will laugh your ass off, because this is a comedy! But inside you will also feel something tugging at your soul.

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maybe we’re ok kid? (warsan shire)

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my friend just told me she used to like me in 10th grade and tried to spend more time with me outside of school but i always shut her down cuz i wanted to watch hannibal

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If a girl is to do the same superman thing where he takes off his disguise, we just look pervy. Not the same effect

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im 21 and im still so affected by my mother and its so frustrating shes been raising me like this - completely ignoring and ghosting me for weeks at a time as a form of punishment - for all my life and i should be very very used to it since ive definitely inherited this disgusting habit and now do it to my friends as well but im working on it and its so much better than it was like 2-3 years ago but anyway she keeps ignoring me and she hates me and i dont know why im so hard to love i think about her all the time and i cry and i struggle with it so much and it doesn't even bother her a little bit shes completely fine hating me and then i internalize this and start ignoring myself and my needs i go hungry and thirsty and i realize how unhealthy this is but i cant even go out of my room when i know shes home because it still hurts me so much but it shouldn't i should be used to it im so pathetic and unlovable and weve never even had that good of a relationship ever i dont even know what im mourning i dont know i dont know

update i had this in the drafts for weeks and its been like 7 weeks of my mom completely ignoring me and making me feel like she absolutely hates me and ive gotten used to it and ive been better for the last couple of weeks and a few days ago i got angry at my dad and my mom talked to me for the first time and she was like "talk to ur dad he doesnt deserve this from u and i dont either" and she was like "i dont want u to ever talk to me dont talk to me until i die if u want" like she said that word for word and today like 20 minutes ago she came into my room cuz im leaving for a vacation tomorrow and she wanted to say goodbye and she came in LAUGHING and she hugged me and told me she loves me and i scoffed and i was mean and so angry and im just so angry and im going insane because she always always does this always makes me feel like im the worst person alive like she hates me despises me and then whenever she feels like it acts like it was nothing and we were just joking for 2 days ignoring each other and like everything is okay and i just i cant have that and i dont want her to be involved in my life again i cant deal with her ever again im going insane

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Can we tho?!

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its so funny that the writers wanted to make sam and dean macho straight men but instead they made a trans woman and a butch lesbian

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thank u.

someone PLEASE find me the drawing of dean and cas (or it might just be 2 random people) looking at each other (?????) and theyre both thinking in bubbles but one is thinking about holding hands and the other is thinking about buttsex please for the love of god i dont remember the exact meme but PLEASE

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it won’t be like what you imagined. maybe you get the road trip to the beach with coffee in your hand and the radio playing, maybe you don’t. but happy shows up. it’s in a 2 AM game of jenga with your new college friends. it’s curling up for another marathon of netflix. it’s meeting the person who will be your best man at the wedding. it’s 4:45pm in the library when the girl in the study coral across from you quietly whispers “i’m going to set everything on fire” and then turns to you and asks if you wanna take a break for dinner (say yes, she’s very nice and you both need a moment away from the stress). it’s the mornings they have omelettes and in good books and in a puddle that looks cool. it’s sometimes picturesque, but more often it’s full-belly laughter at stupid things on the floor of your friend’s house while in the background someone is debating the best way to win settlers of catan. 

i know it gets dark early now and the tired is setting in and everything sort of feels blank and hazy and you want to spend ages staring at walls thinking of nothing

but happiness will find a way in. it will be small moments. look for them.

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someone PLEASE find me the drawing of dean and cas (or it might just be 2 random people) looking at each other (?????) and theyre both thinking in bubbles but one is thinking about holding hands and the other is thinking about buttsex please for the love of god i dont remember the exact meme but PLEASE

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Please take a few minutes to watch the video and read this post.

I am writing these words after losing hope in everyone… except for you, my friends. Tumblr has a very large number of users, estimated in the millions . That’s an enormous number! But imagine, with all those of people, how would you feel if people saw you and ignored you? You’d feel deeply disappointed, right? Or maybe you’d even wish for death.

Have you ever wished for death? For me, I feel like I’d rather die than be ignored by everyone. If I wasn’t in desperate need of help, I wouldn’t ask anyone for it. I really need help.

Imagine for a moment that you have a small child you love dearly, and you’re forced to watch her suffer in front of your eyes. This isn’t just an imagination for me; it’s my reality. My family and I live this pain every day.

Please, be our hope. Be our voice. Be the ones who save us from despair. Don’t ignore us. Donate, even if it’s just $5 .

There are so many people reading this post right now. I beg anyone who sees these words to donate if they can, and if not, to share this post. Please, don’t leave us behind.

Be our family, or think of us as members of your own family, and save us from this suffering. No matter how small the amount, your help means the world to us. And if you can’t donate, share this post and add a few kind words to inspire others to help.

Thank you so much, everyone. I wish you all the best.

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On Love and Community

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you're allowed to be held.

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I'll Call Your Mom

call your mom - noah kahan/please stay - lucy dacus/unknown/unknown/unknown/call your mom - noah kahan/unknown/kavaya dixit/please stay - lucy dacus/call your mom - noah kahan