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You shouldn't have done this, Dave. They could put you in jail. I don't care. Come here. What about your family? What happens to them if you go in jail? You don't know nothing about jail. Now, thanks for what you've done, but you get out of here. I don't understand. I don't understand either, but just get out of here!

NEWSIES (1992) dir. kenny ortega

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source: @noma-is-here

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disability pride month is july and im on vacation and have not checked tumblr in a week but here is some love for people with personality disorders <33 because yes they are disabling and it sucks. SO:

i love you people with npd

i love you people with bpd

i love you people with aspd

i love you people with hpd

i love you people with stpd

i love you people with szpd

i love you people with ppd

i love you people with avpd

i love you people with ocpd

i love you people with personality disorders

i love you people who were told they feel nothing when they feel too much

i love you people with scary feelings

i love you if you call yourself a narcissist or just say you have npd

i love you people with disorders that make people flinch

i love you people with the big scary disorders

i love you people who spiral because they didn't text back in a few minutes

i love you people who feel safer when hidden behind a mask

i love you people who always mask and i love you people who don't mask and i love you people who can't mask

yall are amazing and i love you so much

you are deserving of love and appreciation and understanding even if you aren't "healed"

love, a pwPDs

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you're messing with a god.

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C!Ranboo

Very cute Oreo

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RISE UP!!!

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Why did you guys make me do this.

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wei ying in post-canon jiang and lan robes!!

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Newsies chibis

buy them as stickers here

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oh sorry I wasn't thinking lol

https://www.tumblr.com/paranoid-and-pretentious/716323199456034816?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/mauso-leum/705182303361646592/frankenmonsterkin-a-term-for-individuals-who-are?source=share

Frankenmonsterkin, Spotted Hyena Kin, OCkin

Godkin, Deitykin, Demigodkin

Time Traveler, Elfkin, Reality Shifter

DNI is listed within my pinned post. Please go read it before interacting with any part of my content. Ask to tag!

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Xie Qingcheng, my sweet boy (thoughts on a sexy, polarizing, emotionally constipated man)

He’s cold. Distant. Represses every emotion until it turns into precision-cut cruelty. He gaslights, detaches, and punishes with silence so sharp it leaves scars.

Objectively? He’s a walking red flag.

Subjectively? He’s one of the most devastating characters I’ve ever loved.

He’s my emotional roman empire. And I hate how much I understand him.

I think Xie qingcheng is one of those characters you don’t casually like. You either want to sit him down with soup and a blanket and tell him it’s safe to rest… or you want to shake him until he admits he has feelings. or both. often both.

And that’s the thing: he’s polarizing because he doesn’t perform vulnerability in the way we’re used to seeing it in fiction. He doesn’t cry on cue or scream in rage. He shuts down. He walks away. He intellectualizes his grief into something clinical and unapproachable. And to a lot of people, that reads as unfeeling. but for some of us? it’s heartbreakingly familiar.

This is a man who has loved deeply and lost brutally. and instead of falling apart, he’s decided the best way to survive is to be untouchable. to control every expression, every attachment, every need. because to need is to be exposed. and to be exposed is to be hurt again.

So he builds a life on being useful, being rational, being fine.

But as we all know, he is anything but.

He’s loyal in ways that ruin him. he carries burdens he never voices. he protects people by shutting them out and then wonders why no one stays.

it’s tragic. it’s frustrating. it’s human.

But then, enter He Yu.

He Yu, who is the exact opposite. emotional. impulsive. needy in a way that xie qingcheng refuses to let himself be. he’s a mirror and a challenge and a threat. he pushes. he prods. he insists. and it’s only through him that Xqc starts to unravel. Slowly, painfully, beautifully.

I think for some this is confusing. Maybe they see He Yu as invasive or (justifiably) too forceful. Others hate Xqc for being emotionally withholding, for making connection so damn difficult. For being bound by his own hubris, even as the people who loved him asked for nothing more than a place at his side.

But for me, that’s exactly what makes xie qingcheng and he yu’s dynamic so rich. Because it forces everything to the surface. it doesn’t ask nicely (cough cough Chen Man). it drags buried emotion into the light and dares you to look. it holds a mirror up to the reader and asks:

What happens when love meets emotional repression and can sincerity crack through walls built for survival? (Can people change?)

Do you think love should demand vulnerability? Nakedness? or do you flinch and run?

Maybe XQC is polarizing…because he requires patience. because his story is about learning to want again, learning to trust in longevity and that someone will stay if you let them in. And maybe people don’t want to read that kind of slow, painful thaw. (Books 1 and 2 will deff have you believing the man is just a perpetual ice queen)

But for those of us who’ve lived behind those same emotional barricades, especially as a result of repeated trauma… Reading Xqc’s story is oddly cathartic (like Meatbun can’t be all the way sane) Because beneath all his cruelty and all his detachment, is a man quietly unraveling under the weight of a love he never believed he could have, let alone deserve.

Ultimately, xie qingcheng is a character who says:

I’ve been hurt, I’m scared and I don’t/wont trust easily. But somewhere deep inside, even unbeknownst to myself, I still want to be loved. I may be broken and disfigured, but please, could you still want me. Could you still need me?

and if that isn’t devastatingly human, I don’t know what is.

In closing (and because I did mention sexy):

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i drew @markets ‘s c!tommy outfits !!!

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Fallen Angel by Alexandre Cabanel

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saw another local newsies production

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you know what, gihun and inho would roleplay the unmasking during sex.