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little update under cut

so i do plan to be back here soon! im in the last few weeks of this semester and am rly trying to power through. my cat unexpectedly passed away and it's really left a hole in my heart, so im trying to.... feel a bit better. ive been mostly on my ruan mei blog & will be finishing setting up my aerith. it sounds silly but i relate both of these characters a lot to my kitty (she always cuddled my Ruan Mei cat cake plushie & listened to Aerith's theme), so it's easier for me to focus on right now. as for here, i will likely be, unfortunately, cleaning out my drafts/inbox/starter calls; i feel so late to so many of them, that it feels easier for me to just open up new interactions. I'll likely post that tomorrow and work on building things up through the week.

hope you've all been doing well, thanks for sticking around with me 💜

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hiiii it's been a while but i hope u all are doing well 🥹💜 ive had a rough past few weeks n am still adjusting to my medicine but i plan to try and get my activity back up this weekend!! sorry and thanks for everyone who stuck around 💔

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thinkingggg new one liner call !!

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little hiatus continues for another weekish, holding out for my meds 🙏🙏 i hope you've all been doing well here 💜💜

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@vilence

Warmup sketch

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↪ 𝑫𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝑺𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑬 𝑨𝑻 𝑴𝑬 . ( a collection of lyric starters from an assortment of billie eilish songs . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

you scared me to death .

there's nothing left to save now .

i don't think i caught your name .

i like it when you take control .

you're sacred and they're starved .

how dare you ? and how could you ?

one of us is gonna lose .

i don't even really know how it happened .

i'm out of sympathy for you .

just let me hold you .

don't talk about me like you might know how i feel .

try not to abuse your power .

i wish someone had told me i'd be doing this by myself .

it's not like me to be so mean .

you just want what you can't have .

would you like me to be quiet ?

i haven't slept since sunday .

i don't want to want you .

it hurts , but i know how to hide it .

i'm the only one who does it how you like .

you better keep your head down .

a lot can change in twenty seconds .

why aren't you scared of me ?

i thought that i was special .

you're looking at me like i'm see-through .

you were a hero , you played the part .

i never really know how to please you .

see what you wanna see .

gold's fake , and real love hurts .

no way , i'll call the cops .

maybe you should leave before i get too mean .

i just wanted to protect you .

you only listen to your fuckin' friends .

they're never gonna give you love like ours .

all you wanna do is kiss me .

don't you know too much already ?

it's weird that we care so much until we don't .

i didn't change my number , i changed who i reply to .

i don't know what feels true .

did you really think this is the right thing to do ?

i would hate to see you go .

i'd never treat me this shitty .

i'll only hurt you if you let me .

you made me feel like it was my fault .

now i know what you are .

i feel more and more like i was made for you .

you wanna kill me ? you wanna hurt me ?

don't try to make me feel bad .

wait , you know what ? maybe just forget it .

was i made from a broken mold ?

you want me to be yours , then you've gotta be mine .

tell me "nothing lasts" , like i don't know .

wait a minute , let me finish .

you know i'm not your friend without some greenery .

my demands aren't high to make .

stop , what the hell are you talking about ?

we both know i'm worth waiting for .

you ruined everything good .

you really know how to make me cry .

your love feels so fake .

i wanna be alone . alone with you , does that make sense ?

spit it out , what is it exactly ?

i'll never let you go .

if we were meant to be , we would've been by now .

you can pretend that you don't miss me .

just fucking leave me alone .

don't say i didn't warn you .

it's pretty cool , right ?

i think i might have fallen in love .

i tried not to upset you .

do you even feel anything ?

don't ask questions , you don't wanna know .

i've been walking through a world gone blind .

i just wanna make you feel okay .

i know you don't care , but can you listen ?

don't you know i'm no good for you ?

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difficult person test .

tagged by : @officrnolen <3 tagging : @sinaeter @gildedmatron @jinxe @madamescissors and tbh steal from me idk who all hasnt done it, sry if u have been tagged already <3

Callousness is characterized by lacking empathy or concern for others. People high in callousness typically have deficits in genuine social sentiments and are often experienced by others as coarsely uncivil. In other words, they often make people feel uncomfortable.

Grandiosity can be described as having a grandiose sense of self-importance and the thought that one is better than others. People high in grandiosity often tout their abilities and their accomplishments while downplaying the contributions of others. They tend to put themselves on a pedestal and have a sense of entitlement about them.

Aggressiveness is the tendency to behave rudely and with hostility toward others. Aggressiveness may be doubly hurtful to others if combined with callousness, since the aggressive person may thus be both intimidating and unfeeling in their demeanor.

Suspicion is the tendency to harbor a strong and unreasoning distrust of others. Suspicious people often question the motives of even those who act loyally and devotedly toward them. Such people are often reluctant to open up to others and may interpret kind-hearted gestures as attempts to deceive them.

Manipulativeness is the inclination to exploit others to derive benefits for oneself. Manipulative people take other people for granted and use them to realize their own wishes and goals, thinking little of interpersonal reciprocity or the rights of others. Such people often exhaust and frustrate those around them, since they give little in return for the services and favors they extract from others.

Dominance is the tendency to put on airs of superiority and talk down to others. Domineering individuals have a strong desire to be seen as leaders and often react with combativeness when they cannot get what they want. They frustrate others by meddling in their affairs and with their attempts to control the decisions of those around them.

Risk-taking is the propensity to engage in risky behavior for the sake of experiencing thrills. People high in this trait impulsively seek sensations to overcome boredom, and often get pleasure from shocking others with their adventures and stunts. Risk-takers often make those around them ill at ease since their actions may have consequences for others as well as themselves.

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cancel post for @vilence @officrnolen because they kept driving away from me in Fortnite every time I tried to get in the car

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@sinaeter . . .

' I'm sorry — I haven't seen anyone fitting that description . Do you know where she might be heading ... ? '

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@gildedmatron . . .

' Why are you so interested in what Ambessa told me ? I don't believe you're entitled to that information , despite whatever association the two of you may have . '

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@hextehc . . .

' I don't know what I was thinking — I feel so stupid , Jayce . '

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@vilence

oil and water

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@knowthings . . .

' What else am I supposed to do ? Everyone is looking to me . '

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@dcgfight . . .

' I won't be upset — just be honest with me , please . '

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again inspo from pic 2

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Ocean Vuong, “A Letter to my Mother that She Will Never Read” The New Yorker, May 2017 

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all of this and still losing is crazy. anyways mel gaming