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So, so tired, of it all.

My brain is overwheledm. It has been since 3:00, nearly 4 and half hours ago. I couldn't stop it. Normally I just watch youtube, but I swear that the amount of youtube I watch is what causes everything to not feel enjoyable anymore, so I don't want to watch youtube.

And now it's finally broke me, and I'm crying. And I'm tired. It's so strong, the urge to just watch something so my brain can reset, not be full of 4 different things at once. But I don't want to. I don't want to watch a video. I don't want to play the game that I've been playing nonstop for the last week, that I spent every minute of my day playing (And that's not an exaggeration, I legitimately have been on the game for the entire day for several days now).

I'm just tired. At least I'm not contemplating ending my life now, even as the idea slowly grows tempting. I can stop myself from even considering it, though.

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Y'all want to see how Harlow crashes out?

Y'all haven't seen anything.

So then after that video imagine Harlow sounding exactly like that. (Not necessarily how she looks like)

She's really only ever done this twice. Once when J left her to die and two when Jonah cheated.

Jonah doesn't know about the latter.

(yeah so no one's really seen her crash out)

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Honestly feel like every now and then, all my knowledge of how normal people act completely vanishes.

What do you mean you can't think of something a person would be doing at home other than just sit on the couch?

Ugh, I'd like to blame the fact that I myself rarely ever leave my bedroom desk, and when I do, I leave the house entirely.

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While ago, I had an entire thing when realizing Workers don't have the same shaped hips as Disassembly Drones.

TDIL Worker drones have a triangle on there hips

It is hard to see but it's there

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And it's booked.

Honestly, I didn't think people would take it seriously. Felt kinda heavy on the phone call, but I'm smiling, so there's that.

Also nervous as fuck.

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RB if you think CD drives in computers are not obsolete, but in fact still necessary, despite being artificially phased out

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One's true self is revealed when at their weakest or something I dunno.

After hours.

(+16. Borderline Smut)

Jonah came back from work, opening the door with a sigh.

"Harlow I'm back." He said, looking for his girlfriend.

She peeked out from the bedroom door before coming out and walking up.

"Welcome back. How was your shift?" She said casually, leaning against the countertop of the kitchen.

He smiled softly. "It was pretty chill. Thad gave me an earful about not carrying around a railgun in public like there is an active raid going on."

She crossed her arms and smirked. "Yes I agree with him. It wasn't your brightest move."

He raised an eyebrow and suddenly leaned forwards, their visors almost touching.

"Oh yeah? And what about going all assassin mode and crawling through the vents."

Harlow blinked at the sudden movement and her breath might have hitched a tiny bit.

She coughed, trying to hide the slight tint in her visor. "Protective instincts. Much smarter than terrorizing the drones."

His eyes darkened just a fraction. "Mmm. Then maybe you should stick to the smart stuff. And I stick to making you blush." He murmured, going closer to her neck and breathing hot air and making her flinch from the sensation.

Harlow's eyes dimmed in turn, but her blush brightened a whole lot. "W-what?"

Jonah's grin widened. "C'mon it's been sooooo long." He said drawing closer to her face now, their lips brushing ever so slightly.

Harlow leaned in closer despite herself. "It's only been six hours" She murmured in a exasperated tone. But she then pulled him into a kiss a few seconds later, her arms and tail wrapping around her boyfriend's body.

Jonah relaxed into the kiss at first, wrapping his hands around her waist and leaning her back. But after a few minutes Jonah wanted more and by the way that Harlow was starting to press her tongue into his mouth, so did she. So he leaned in deeper and this time he swept his tongue into her mouth, tasting her.

Harlow gasped and arched into him slightly, gripping him tighter. Jonah just grinned into her mouth and kept going, his tongue exploring her, slipping over her tongue while she moaned quietly into the kiss, her hands fisting his hoodie.

She then started to reciprocate his touch by pressing her tongue into his mouth and making him shudder slightly.

"Fuck Harlow..." He mumbled, going deeper his tongue dominating hers.

They separated for air after a few minutes, and both were gasping and blushing hard. But neither of them wanted to stop. So Jonah leaned down and pressed open mouthed kisses into her neck, even biting gently in some of her more sensitive areas there.

This made Harlow arch fully into him, pressing herself against him and opening her neck for more access.

"mmmmh, Jonah~"

Jonah kept going, making her gasp and whimper softly. Her body was now starting to move against his, wanting more friction.

He smiled devilishly against the silicone of her neck and kept going until he had to stop when Harlow was really getting desperate and grinding herself into him.

"Please Jonah, do something." She managed to gasp out.

He looked at her and put her on top of the counter, and caging himself on top of her.

"I thought I was~" He murmured, looking at the way Harlow tried desperately for more friction.

"mmmh. Y-you idiot. T-that's not what I mean." She whimpered softly, getting frustrated at his teasing.

After looking at her struggle for two more minutes, he decided that he couldn't take any more of her essentially grinding into his lap and leaned closer to her audio receivers.

"You wanna take this to the bed?"

The answer was immediate.

"Yes. Yes please~" She managed to say breathlessly before he scooped her up and essentially sprinted to the bed and locked the door.

Suffice to say they didn't come out until much, much later.

(the poor neighbors)

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No.

Please, not again.

Please I'm begging you not again!

TDIL Worker drones have a triangle on there hips

It is hard to see but it's there

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t.he character s

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No way, I just left the theater.

Yeah, I thought it was like a Xenomorph for a while before seeing it has little eyes.

Dorothy is precious baby

Just watched Jurassic World Rebirth and that was the best nightmare fuel I've had in a while.

The D. Rex is gonna be haunting my dreams/silly/hj

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P v P ooo ~ I believe I know what they doing ~ heheh 😏

🍎Artist/Post from: https://x.com/ZaidaliciousXx

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Minding my business on the way to the movie theater.

Brain: Is BtU!Cyn a lesbian?

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The cage

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I can't give you a precise answer unfortunately. What I can say is that I am very much the same. I take medications to make my emotions more stable, but I still get angry easily. And I can tell when I'm angry. And just like you, it makes me, well, stupid. I actively work with the fact that when I get angry, I start being less coordinated, which leads to me doing shit like bumping into a doorframe, which just makes me even angrier and even less coordinated. I've got staff at my group home who basically have my life in their hands, and they're incompetent.

I was also very antisocial growing up, and still am.

So no, I can't give you a solid answer, and for that, I am sorry. What I can say is that I understand fully what you're feeling, because almost word for word, I have the same situation.

I hate being angry, it's so exhausting to maintain. Everything gets too warm and I say things that fuck up long standing positive relationships even when I know what I'm saying isn't even true.

I was angry a lot as a kid/teenager, It got me in so much trouble, even if the reason I was angry was justified, what I said and did was not.

A lot if it was me angry at adults or people with authority over me, because I could never seem to make them understand me. I realize now that they probably did understand me, they just didn't care because they were adults and I was a child so that automatically made my issues insignificant. (It didn't. I had autism and was overstimulated.)

Now that I'm older, I hate feeling that negative, anger doesn't solve my problems; ever. And often makes them worse or the task harder. And I'm... stupid; when I'm angry. Genuinely, I don't think as well and I sound like a toddler, I hate it.

But now, interacting with more people in real life and people online again I am reminded how easy it is to trigger that in me, something as simple as not being able to find my keys, or watching a troll online start shit, or someone trying to touch me during a migraine, or literally any minor convenience ever.

Am I getting worse? Or was I always this bad but just avoided people? I dunno.

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Waitwaitwaitwaitwaitwaitwaitwaitwaitwaitwaitwaitwaitwaitwait

I'm sorry...

"When?"

I'm just imagining when Harlow gets her wings she tests them out with that How To Train Your Dragon theme playing in the background.

Y'know the one that's called Test Drive :3

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Deltarune au is just this

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I don't know what paw pads are for in real life. XD

What's your OC's most useful skill?