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https://www.tumblr.com/ko-existing/787662538590584832/do-you-ever-grieved-for-the-dream-once-you?source=share

how so?

You're "grieving" because there's still misidentification happening — a sense that you, the person, are watching something meaningful slip away. But if it’s really seen that it was never real to begin with, not even for a second, what’s left to grieve? It doesn't matter if you use the words 'illusory''. It doesn't mean you see it like that.

It’s like realizing a shimmering oasis in the desert is a mirage. Once you see clearly that there was never any water, do you walk away heartbroken? Of course not. There’s nothing to mourn because there was nothing there. Just like you wouldn’t wake up from a dream where you were famous or in love or flying and grieve it the next morning — it was a passing appearance. It never had weight. It never actually happened.

The phrase “I grieve the illusion” sounds poetic, but it doesn’t make sense when it’s seen clearly. If the world is illusory and the person is illusory, what is grieving what? It’s just thoughts looping on themselves, trying to find ground in something groundless. The grief arises only if it’s believed something real was lost.

But here’s where a big misunderstanding shows up for a lot of people — especially if they’re just reading and reading without truly seeing it for themselves: they start thinking I’m saying you should feel nothing, like you should become some robot or mountain monk detached from all emotion, sitting silently in the Himalayas next to a snow lion or something. That’s not it at all.

Look — feelings come and go. Happiness, grief, laughter, joy — they appear, they stay a while, and they subside. That doesn’t mean they’re “real” in the solid, lasting sense. They’re just part of the play, like weather passing through an open sky. No one needs to suppress anything. No one can — because there’s no person doing it to begin with.

I mean, just yesterday (actually not even 24h ago) I found a rare jacket I’ve been wanting for months, and I was grinning like someone who solved a centuries-old math puzzle. If it had sold out before I could grab it, I would’ve been devastated. That’s how it plays out sometimes. It's all spontaneous and planned at the same time. One big Paradox for no one experienced by no one. The difference is: none of that touches what 'I Am'. The joy or devastation is a movement within the field, not evidence of a solid “me” living a life. "Awareness" isn’t being stoic or detached. It’s not a monk. It’s not a robot. It’s not even something you become. It’s simply what is — beyond description, yet effortlessly present.

So — PSA for everyone, not just that anon — stop turning this into some mental maze. People message me all the time saying “I’m so sad my family isn’t real,” or “so if I’m real and the world isn’t, what’s the point?” But that’s not it either. That’s still personal identity trying to survive by splitting reality: “I’m the special one and the rest is fake.” No. If one thing is unreal, everything is. If one thing is real, everything must be. It’s not pick-and-choose. This is total. Either the whole dream is a dream — or none of it is.

And yes, it can be very simple. People don't believe that when I say it didn't take me long. They ask, “Then why does it take others years?” How would I know? Go ask them! Maybe they keep reading instead of seeing. Maybe they overcomplicate. Maybe they want an experience. I didn’t. I wasn’t even lurking on Tumblr or endlessly scrolling. I just stopped and looked.

So stop thinking reading will save you. You’re not trying to collect information — you’re trying to notice what never stopped being here. And for that, no books, posts, or teachers can do it for you. Just look.

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How you stop seeing ND as a method to manifest your desires

ND feels so foreign yet comforting at the same time because after being in the LOA community for so long all that I've learnt is to resist my circumstances

So when I found ND it's such a relief because it's like I can finally stop trying to control my world and the whole affirm and persist thing which is so tiring and the root of my suffering

but I've been noticing a pattern where I go back and forth between the two like "oh no if I don't persist I won't get what I want I have to DO sowmthing" and the next minute it's like "okay but I'm not the mind or the body so why does any of this matter"

Sorry for the long ask I just generally feel so lost like Im doing something wrong and I felt that maybe if I wasn't exposed to LOA, ND would have been much easier to "understand"

I understand where you are coming from. What I want to ask you is that, why does it matter? No matter what the thoughts say, why do they matter? They can imply most contradictory of things, and it won't matter because they're nothing but EMPTY appearances like everything else.

The one who's effortlessly aware of these feelings and thoughts, is it affected at all? Are YOU affected at all? Look deeper and closely;

The One Who's Aware of everything there is, the one who's actually watching, YOU, is it affected by anything that's seemingly going on at all?

See for yourself. Notice that changeless screen, the endlessly vast silence between every thought.

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https://www.tumblr.com/verdantude/767958617916899328/keep-things-simple-because-they-are-dont?source=share

what do you all mean by "it already is". that is the only thing i dont get. when you say everything is perfect rn as well

also, you are aurie? omg hii

Idk who this is but I’m glad you also followed me from before, hello! ☺️🤍

There’s no games or mazes, there’s nothing to get or not get, there’s no you!! Peace is already here, infinity is already here.

I just had a conversation about this with ru, what a coincidence too haha.

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Relax!

"What if things don't go my wa-"

Relax 🧘‍♀️

"But I'll be doome-"

Relax 🧘‍♀️

"You don't understa-"

Relax 🧘‍♀️

"You bitc-"

Oi. Relax 🧘‍♀️

What can you do by panicking? Nothing. What can you do by asking multiple questions? Nothing. What can you do by Cursing the bloggers out? Nothing.

I might feel a bit hurt though. Probably. I guess.

Just relax. THIS is already IT. The immeasurable entirety of LIFE. The unfathomable entirety of YOU.

This moment is INFINITE. This is all there will ever be. This is where you'll always be, no matter how hard you try to teleport yourself into past or future. Why? Because the past and future doesn't exist. It's just a thought.

So, Relax. Sit back. Watch. Observe. Be still for a moment. Declutter your head and take a deep breath. Not in a "You need to empty your head of thoughts" way, but in a "Just let it all Be" way.

It's been so long since I was Actively here. Here's a reminder for you, a simple pointer.

Relax.

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I have been seeking for a while now idk wht to do to notice my true nature n get out of this misery

You do NOTHING. Literally. Stop trying. Stop seeking. Whatever you're looking for is right here, be still and notice. The silence will give you more answers than any words can ever even attempt to.

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So.. how do I get XYZ?

Someone asked me if " '' has any method, practice, or way to make XYZ appearances show up as they'd like—and the answer might be simpler than you'd think.

" " doesn’t operate through methods, steps, or tricks because there is nothing outside it that needs to be achieved. Whatever is perceived, noticed, felt—no matter the appearance—is just " " showing itself, in real time, right here and now. There's no delay, no waiting for some ultimate experience, because each experience is the " " you’re looking for with no end, in every moment.

The mind's narrative, its ideas of waiting, achieving, resisting, this, that, are just part of the play, a dream within the dream. Nothing the mind produces is an obstacle or an enemy; it’s simply another appearance within " ", just like everything else. Think of it like watching a movie: each scene appears in perfect clarity on the screen. You might get caught up in the story, but the screen itself is never altered, changed, or delayed by the movie’s plot. The mind’s impressions are no different—just flickers on the infinite screen of " ".

This is the playful nature of " ": no barriers, no steps, no 'outside' and no 'inside'—only the endless play of itself, appearing however it appears.

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https://www.tumblr.com/clochettesworld/766342007478157312/httpswwwtumblrcomclochettesworld766329382229?source=share

hey i think i get it now

💡🤓☝

av = pointers = concepts = words

no concept = absolute truth = actuality = " "

so in conclusion,

av is just a concept to conceptualize the "no concept" ??

i understand about the analogy part. you guys use the clay as example but really it's not a real clay you guys just use it to describe limitless and formless

because at the end of the day the one and only who is indescribable cannot be described whatsoever

No concept doesn't equal absolute truth. Nothing is. No concept is ironically still an idea like I said, but anything that seemingly comes from the mind can't be taken as absolute truth because the mind itself is "made of it."

It's not easy to explain because all explanations are actually baseless. There are no words, you can only be it

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"The whole World is an appearence of Brahman, and you are Brahman. If you realise that, it solves all the problems. Because it's not just one "object" that is an appearence , the entire Universe is your appearence, now what objects will you desire ? Or what will you hate ?

"If everthing has been falsified, [...] , if it is you shining AS the Universe, if you ARE the infinite, is there anything that you need to add to yourself ? What will you desire, what will you hate ? "You are ONE with the entire Universe" (and more) -Swami Sarvapriyananda

"Whom to praise or whom to blame ? Praised or unpraised, blamed or unblamed, all are ONE. - Swami Vivekananda

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https://www.tumblr.com/ko-existing/766126477214367745/hi-can-you-help-me-understand-this-so-awareness?source=share

Hi koda. Thank you for answering. 💛

I think I finally understood what it really is. There is just a labeleless KNOWING. But then mind_ an appearance or effect of THAT_ interpret that with labels like person , physical, world, tangible, imagination....

But All is same. Just awareness. Aware of itself. There is no mind. This is a label that "mind" put on itself. Actually, now I understand why you call it appearances. It is not what it seems.

I can't believe it was so simple, but because I was dealing with labels all this time, I couldn't see what it is.

Thank you .

Yes, exactly—"mind" is just a label that "awareness" seems to give to its own effects, creating this whole appearance of complexity.

It’s direct, simple, and always right here. Once you see that labels are just appearances themselves, everything gets a lot clearer 👐🏻

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https://www.tumblr.com/clochettesworld/766167826523406336/its-a-practice-to-just-be

No I’m serious !! I've just seen an ask from koda’s anon and what she answered "it might help to try sitting with your thoughts in a more observing way… And no, IT IS NOT A NECESSITY. It's a help to watch without getting lost in thoughts but it is NOT A MUST." And the same with noticing and that there’s other options, but I thought that when you guys say ‘just be’ it means to just be aware ? Like what we’ve been doing but now knowingly ? Idk anymore, I’m tired and lost now

What?

You lost me too

There is nothing to attain and no practice to be made to attain it. The post was about how it can help with excessive thinking and calming the mind. Wich is not a necessity. It was not about getting something /becoming " " or getting better at noticing. The last part of her post is important too.

It doesn't matter. You are also thinking too much apparently,it's okay

Just be mean just be. It's not a method to gain something

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you just posted a blog where you explain that we shouldn't trust pointers. I abandoned the obligations thinking that at some point I would achieve absolute knowledge and finally change my experience, but that never happened. I've had the wrong perception this whole time, right?

a hug!

you've been seeing it through the lens of a person gaining something or reaching “absolute knowledge,” which only reinforces the idea of separation, lack and continuity. The point is not to attain something, but to see that experience itself, and “who” experiences, aren’t separate. It’s not about abandoning or achieving but recognizing that everything you’re looking for is here

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You guys would say that physical and imagination are just illusory, or collapse the duality when you imagine something, then you instantly experience. It is no more different than remembering that my phone is charging <- or me imagining that experience... That they are the same and illusory, but the thing is, this is a tangible experience and it does not make sense that I imagined it, there I experience it.

"both" “physical” experiences and “imaginative” experiences are simply appearances within "Awareness". Both arise in the same way, within the same "Awareness". Whether "you" "remember" something, "imagine" something, or "experience" it “physically,” it all shows up within "Awareness", and this is what gives them their apparent reality.

Think about it like this:

the seeming "act of remembering" your phone charging and the act of looking at your phone charging are both experienced through & within "Awareness". The content of these experiences may seem different—one might feel more “tangible” and the other more “mental”—but they are both appearing within the same "Awareness". The effect of the mind categorizes one as “real” and the other as “imagined,” yet they’re ultimately the same in the sense that both are experiences happening within "Awareness" and as it.

Regarding tangibility: when we perceive something as “tangible” or “solid,” that sensation itself is still a perception in "Awareness". The feeling of tangibility is just another experience arising within "Awareness"—you think it feels real, yes, but “real” here simply means that it’s an experience happening in this moment. Whether it’s a thought, a memory, or the feeling of holding your phone, all of these are just different effects or expressions of the same "Awareness".

The confusion often comes when we try to understand this with the effect of mind alone, which insists on splitting experiences into “real” and “imagined.” However, when we’re talking about "Awareness", it’s not so much about erasing those differences on a practical level but about seeing that all experiences—whether physical or imagined—are equally just "experiences".

So, in the non-dual perspective, both the "memory" of your phone charging and holding it are simply appearances within "Awareness". They seem different because they have different qualities, but they’re fundamentally made of the same "Awareness". Recognizing this doesn’t deny the feeling of tangibility; it simply points out that tangibility itself is another experience arising within "Awareness".

In other words, "Awareness" doesn’t distinguish between “real” or “imagined.” It’s thoughts that categorize, while "Awareness" remains that, in which all of it—“tangible” or “illusory”—arises and dissolves.

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How could YOU observe THROUGH imagining if imagining itself is a thought OBSERVED by YOU ? Re read that if you can't understand at first lol

So that means we aren't imagining but experiencing? We just identify with the thoughts that say it is an imagination and not real aka I didn't just experience.

Honestly got confused and frustrated with observing/being aware of the desire. Like reading so much about it.

Some say when you know/aware ( have the idea of what you want ) you experience it. Some say don't imagine, instead be aware of it.

That's why it is all mixed up.

Yes

Stop reading you know there is nothing to desire

No matter if some say imaging, being aware of , all is the same. You're always aware. Like you said it's bc you think you're just imagining and not experiencing it .

No difference between being aware of desiring it, imaginining it, having it: all illusions . You remain still and beyond all of this , just BE

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https://www.tumblr.com/ko-existing/765610182974881793/httpswwwtumblrcomko-existing7656093608220753?source=share

idk anything tbh wht im supposed to do where im supposed to go wht im supposed to do with this life wht is real wht is not wht to believe wht not to I don’t even know wht I really want but it feels like I do want something but idk wht that is n then idk if I want to know even that i just don’t know anything I don’t believe except that im stuck here n i hv to go through this till im dead n even that is not true

The desire to know “what to do” or “where to go” is rooted in the (effect of the) mind’s drive to find certainty, purpose, or meaning. But the truth is, the search itself often creates the sense of being “stuck.” That doesn't mean that's the actual case. Notice that when you stop seeking something solid to hold onto, there’s a kind of spaciousness/openness in not-knowing—a freedom in simply being.

In fact, sometimes the deepest clarity comes not from finding answers but from letting go of the need to know. Just sit with what’s here, as it is, without trying to resolve it or make sense of it. In this, you may find that what you truly are isn’t bound by questions, purpose, or certainty. ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

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What you aware of is, is what you are experiencing --- if thats the case why are there moments that i am not aware of?

"why are there moment i'm not aware of?"

-> if you’re able to notice a moment of "not being aware," it means there’s already an underlying "awareness" that’s aware of even what seems to be "absence". Otherwise, how could you recognize it at all?

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Beyond Concepts:

In the end, every concept is a layer, a filter over the simplicity of what already is. Words and ideas are attempts, gestures pointing towards something that can't be captured. No concept—not even “no concept”—holds any ultimate truth. They are all placeholders, things that falls away when the mind lets go.

Notice the habit of seeking definitions, identities, frameworks. This habit, although seemingly, results in circling in thought, looking for something solid where there is only openness.

Ask yourself: what remains when you stop grasping for something to understand? In this "space" beyond ideas, you don't find answers, yet there’s nothing missing. You don’t hold anything, yet everything is complete.

Release the need to label, to capture, to make meaning. What you are looking for is the very act of "seeing" itself.

Nothing more, nothing less.

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What do you mean that nothing is happening and that there's nothing?

those that get it, will get it:

"Nothingness" is All there is. "IT" is nameless, formless, without characteristics. Because of that, "IT" can seemingly(❗️) appear as anything but "IT" always remains "Nothingness". Whatever you think is happening, isn't happening. It's Nothingness playing around with ITself.

Nothing is ever happening, you just think there is. Eternal "Nothingness" is permanent.