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Just now realizing that I made everyone in the DAMN Crew black to some extent EXCEPT DAMIEN!

It’s literally;

“You are freaking African-Americans… plus Mark!”

I’ve been laughing for the past five minutes because I was redesigning Freelancers hair style and wanted to compare everyone, just to remember he doesn’t even look like them in any capacity

Now, he is a POC… he’s just not black😭

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Guy Collage

"OHMYGODTHEYWEREROOMMATES-"

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So. I have a fiancé. A real life one. A guy who I love very much and will marry in 2026. I’m deeply, deeply in love.

When we started dating, I was emerging from a very abusive home life. I had learned through many, many years of experience that sharing my emotions with others was dangerous. That it would get me hurt. That it would get me hit.

So for a long time, I didn’t share when I was feeling frustrated. I didn’t tell him when I was upset. I didn’t tell him about the things that were bothering me. Either from home or work or whatever. It culminated in me experiencing those emotions and experiencing them on my own. It culminated in him knowing I was upset, often upset with him, but knowing that I wouldn’t talk to him.

By the time we had been together for a few months, the only times I was expressing any emotions to him were when everything bubbled over. I would burst into tears and sob or hours. I would yell. I would do everything I could to protect myself, even blame him for problems that I caused, because I had learned that vulnerability=danger.

A number of times I told him that being in arguments made me feel like I was going to die. That was not an exaggeration. The vulnerability of it made me feel like I was about to be killed.

But I owed it to my partner and to myself to try and reach a place where I could be emotionally vulnerable. He deserved someone who could access their emotions, share when they were struggling, and be emotionally intimate. If I was incapable of that, then I wasn’t ready for the relationship.

All of this to say: we DO owe our partners emotional vulnerability. If we say we want a deeper relationship, if we say we want to be closer than FWB, then we owe the relationship that. And if it’s shown to be a consistent problem that somebody can’t be emotionally vulnerable, then I think the other party gets to push. Or at least express their discontent.

This idea that Treasure violated Porter’s consent seems a little… immature? I don’t know. It feels like the musings of one who hasn’t had to navigate the back and forth of a real relationship.

Porter owes Treasure the vulnerability he claims he wants to give them. It’s okay if he doesn’t know how to do that. He has been hurt very deeply. That isn’t his fault. But the reactions that his trauma causes in him and the impacts they have on others are his responsibility. He is allowed to not be perfect at this. But he has to try. At least that. If he can’t, then maybe he’s not ready for them.

Treasure owes Porter the space to grow, the space to try in a safe way. If they can’t do that, if they’re too focused on their own hurt to recognize his extraordinary circumstances, then maybe they’re not ready for him.

But yeah. As someone who has Been Porter… maybe Porter is a lil in the wrong. And maybe he’ll get better. I did.

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I want a Redacted listener who has a partner that is bothered by something but doesn't want to talk about it and the listener RESPECTS IT AND LET'S THEM BE

In fact, HAVE THE WHOLE AUDIO BE ABOUT THE LISTENER FINDING DIFFERENT WAYS TO SUGGEST TO THEIR PARTNER THAN THEY CAN DO TO DISTRACT SAID PARTNER FROM WHATEVER IS BOTHERING THEM (Like going on dates, movie night, eating out, snacking, etc)

NONE OF THAT "Come on, you can trust me" OR "I wanna help you" OR "You saved me, it's only fair if I help you"

JUST. MAKE. THE. LISTENER. ACCEPT. A. NO.

PLEASE, I WANT THIS

ESPECIALLY AFTER CUTIE, ANGEL, AND TREASURE

I LOVE THEM BUT I WANT MORE RESPECTFUL LISTENERS PLEASE

(I forgot but I think Freelancer is the closest to a listener that actually accepts when their partner doesn't wanna speak?)

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Did Erik just stab me?

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HELLO?????

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guys im just a choll guy

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the view difference hurts me

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there are two wolves inside of you, one wants a happy wholesome ending to your favorite asmr series and the other wants them to end in death and destruction

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hey so maybe don’t do this to me?? pretty please??

Oh you kin angel???? How’s paying attention to every small detail of those around you knowing that they don’t put in anywhere near the same effort to know you??

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It’s so weird having my physical health tank when my mental health is the best it’s ever been.

Like whenever someone asks me how I am I’m just like “well my bones hurt, and my muscles hurt, and I can work maybe 3 hours a day before I collapse from chronic fatigue. But like the world keeps on turning, so I’m vibing dude B) ”

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🏳️‍🌈❓

gay vampire ex situationship rivalry u will always be famous

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Baaabe walks through the door, looking at Asher through half-lidded eyes. They sink to their knees, slowly unzipping his pants.

And all they see… is this.

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if i had to see this so do you

We all have heard of "The Redactedverse is a story/screenplay made up by Guy" but have you heard of "The Redactedverse is a dreamscape created by Elliott after Sunshine died in captivity because Blake fucking starved them to death and Elliott now lives in a fake perfect world, slowly losing his sanity as well as his corporeal form because who fucking knows what happens to you when you stay inside a dreamscape for years without breaks"?

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könig ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Darlin and Freelancer' (the besties ever)

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I was thinking about something…

What if the early David made Angel cry once and that made him start to change his actions.

So a few days before the wedding David screamed just for pure stress and that made Angel cry because they never heard him rise his voice, so that scared them and when David saw the tears his soul left, he started apologizing, telling Angel if they wanted him to cook something tasty for them or buy something wile hugging them.

In the same day when they are in bed ready to sleep, David ask “do you… still want to marry me?” :(