danmiles

[danmiles]

i want so badly to be a person again

[danmiles]

my body is kicking my ass. can i have one normal day please

[danmiles]

Going to explopde ive been trying to hold off taking pain meds all day cause i dont wanmt to lose my brain function but uyrghh i hurt so fucking bad. and it' wont stop raining

[danmiles]

i say this all the time but sorry for being so distant i try so hard not to but its all i can manage to juggle the 2 ish interpersonal relationships i am maintaining. i want to be more social again but (and not to be cringe) i have like no spoons everr i'm so exhausted and i dont want to bethe most boring person to talk to ever i want to have convos with people i want to be a friend but i am hardly managing to be a person

[danmiles]

my mom is maybe one of the most unhinged people i know

[danmiles]

im done crying im going to take like 1/4th of an edible and play video james now

[danmiles]

ok so having no emotions and feeling nothing was really bad but i'd prefer that over this. this is dogshit

[danmiles]

i feel that i am fundamentally a selfish and useless person and no matter how hard i try to change that i can't. i'm tired

[danmiles]

authors of our fates orchestrate our fall from grace poorest players on the stage our defiance drives us straight to the edge a reflection in the glass recollections of our past swift as darkness cold as ashfar beyond this dream of paradise lost

[danmiles]

i want my ability to draw back. whyyyyyy

[danmiles]

ive been so depressed the stupid amitriptyline my dr prescribed me (while Knowing it interacts w my lexapro) made me so numb. obviously i came off it as soon as i noticed but im only barely starting to have emotions back

[danmiles]

weed run with my mom....And munchies aquired. Let's fucking gooo

[danmiles]

gah. these new meds are making me so emotionally numb i do not like it at all

[danmiles]

Sorry gor only complaining lately but uuuu. i want to explode.the pain is so bad dude

[danmiles]

ok i had a bit of a temper tantrum because of the pain btu then i talked to lucas and took pain meds and things are okay now. I still hurt so bad though

i dont know how to even describe the pain im in and i know i should jsut stop complaining but i dont know what else to do . nothing is managing my pain at all i cant even sleep all day because my pain meds wear off and i just lay around in agony. what am i supposed to do it's reached far beyond the threshold that i'm able to withstand without going insane

[danmiles]

i dont know how to even describe the pain im in and i know i should jsut stop complaining but i dont know what else to do . nothing is managing my pain at all i cant even sleep all day because my pain meds wear off and i just lay around in agony. what am i supposed to do it's reached far beyond the threshold that i'm able to withstand without going insane

[danmiles]

i dont want to be pathetic and useless for the rest of my life. i dont want to be in excruciating pain all the time. i want to be able tp look back and say i did something with my life besides lay around and be miserable