daphneh

[daphneh]

my dumb ass realizing i do not have my multi or sideblog for kate in my pinned so @mythdoomed and @viscouentess

[daphneh]

…━━━━━·♥ it lives in her chest, it is so alive that at times it is unbearable as her heart is lit aflame. She truly does burn for him, in all the ways that should matter. Love is a fire, a flame and it may not have started with much for them, the deceit the lies but now it burns so purely and passionately in her chest she simply can not think of a life without him.

Visions in her head of what their life could be, their family all shattered due to the distance, oceans between them and yet the situation they find themselves in forcing the closeness. To put it simply be it what she desires or not they are now twined together like a cross-stitch.

 ❝You are foolish as you are smart. I do not care of the bloodline, what I sought was a love match and you are just that to me now. ❞

Perhaps she must compromise on the rest of her dreams, on a family like hers but if she felt loved, held and as if her world was full of love. Compromise, if she had learned anything in the time of their relationship it was that. It was important not only for friendship but for that with the one you love. Unless you are Anthony of course, simply as he did not believe in love.

But perhaps this was how it was always meant to be, her mother had said she would simply know when love was there and it was. To be frank she knew long ago, back staring at that painting. The ache to touch his hand, be close to him.

❝His legacy is not yours, it is not cemented into this world like a house or a tree. You can change it, you can be more and you are choosing to be full of anger and hate. ❞

The last bit gets the better of her. Temperament is not always that of what it should be. She can not help herself he fills her with such passion, such rage and love, such adoration and frustration. It is this that makes her so sure it is love. A moment, to close the ocean a few steps and she is nearly face to face with him.

❝All I want, all I desire since that dance, is to be with you. I do not know when the act stopped, but it has and now all I can think of is this time with you. ❞

he has stopped in his tracks, unable to continue moving from her. internal devastation has presented itself to him as he allows it to rip him apart. to deny himself such love — placing a great distance to ensure he breaks his father's wish. those letters return to his frame of mind, a great disdain as flame in his soul; haunted past reveals the collected dust within that writing desk. HE DOES NOT BELIEVE IT MATTERS. SUDDENLY GONE ... as he looks at her now. what is so shameful, when it comes down to what they both have been stepping around. simon could only focus on what he has done to her, outstretched feelings — how she must think he's gone back on his word.

"I could never truly give you, what you desire..." the words escape him, partial falter as he takes in her expression. there they are, a distance apart; wanting nothing more than to destroy that voice hammering the back of his mind. his father, as it was laughable ... never stood close to example of that role. " You would want someone who could give you everything ... without burden of a terrible man's broken legacy," the promise echoes in his mind as he remembers it; sworn to never allow that legacy to continue into fruition. simon reveled in the power he felt as those soulless eyes fade into nothing. as he finally felt free. attention soon returns to him, and he takes one small step forward.

" He does not deserve to be a lingering thought, nothing more than the evil presence that once was. I ... cannot imagine you would want anything to do with this bloodline."

@daphneh spoke from the heart : ❛ i want to be with you. it is as simple, and as complicated as that. ❜

[daphneh]

[ HIGHLY PRIVATE & SELECTIVE ] independent 𝓓aphne 𝓑ridgerton from Netflix's Bridgerton with influences from The Duke & I book as it is read. this blog will contain spoilers & mature content PERSONALS DNI

A Study In: being the eldest daughter, the meaning of love, how secrets can bind and break people, the art of understanding society, to follow your heart, to embrace others, the meaning of family despite tribulations, the power of womanhood. [ eurydice, 24+ she / her ]

mains & affiliates: TBA rules under the cut

[ 001 ] : this is a private + selective writing blog for daphne bridgerton from the netflx series: bridgerton, as well as carrying some influence from j quinns the duke and i, that being said my daph is also very headcanon based. this is a mutuals - only blog, please dni if i haven't followed you back. and dni if you are a personal

[  002  ]  :  BASIC RP ETTIQUITE IS EXPECTED. any form of hate, bigotry or nonsense will not be tolerated.  any form of racism, anti-semitic, ableism, aggressive posting / duplicate bashing, vaguing , petty callout posts. any gross behavior , i dont tolerate any of this on my blog spaces and will most likely block and unfollow in these situations.

[  003  ]  : the easiest way to write w me:  asks are always the easiest! i am pretty plot heavy despite this and often scream in the tags. on that note i do often ask for patience. i run a few other blogs and also work full time and i am getting married in less than a year so i am often VERY busy. just be polite about it!

mains / affiliated: i am open to both and while mains will always get priority in replies it is important to note in most cases those i am affiliated with are the other muses that daphne mentions as they are more integral and we have a closer relationship both ooc and ic i typically do not do exclusives there is one situation which i have made an exception to that recently but outside of that i typically dont but am open if the vibes are there

[  004  ]  : shipping in relation to this blog: while i am not expecting there to be a lot of shipping given that this rpc is based around a show with really heavy importance on the pre-established relationships. I am also incredibly partial to the duke and daph but am open with plotting to other things. i am also the biggest fan of daph being a girls girl and supporting every other character and am all about platonic relationships so bear that in mind!

[daphneh]

LITERARY  QUOTES  FROM  PINTEREST ;

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❛  i  love  you  because  the  entire  universe  conspired  to  help  me  find  you.  ❜

❛  it’s  not  what  we  think  or  feel  that  makes  us  who  we  are.  it’s  what  we  do.  or  fail  to  do.  ❜

❛  everyone  has  a  darker  nature.  good  men  fear  it,  and  evil  men  embrace  it.  ❜

❛  he’s  more  myself  than  i  am.  whatever  our  souls  are  made  of,  his  and  mine  are  the  same.  ❜

❛  there  is  some  good  in  this  world,  and  it’s  worth  fighting  for.  ❜

❛  perhaps  we  do  not  want  to  be  loved  so  much  as  to  be  understood.  ❜

❛  it’s  no  use  going  back  to  yesterday,  because  i  was  a  different  person  then.  ❜

❛  the  world  breaks  everyone,  and  afterward,  many  are  strong  at  the  broken  places.  ❜

❛  crying  does  not  indicate  that  you  are  weak.  since  birth,  it  has  always  been  a  sign  that  you  are  alive.  ❜

❛  society  exists  only  as  a  mental  concept;  in  the  real  world  there  are  only  individuals.  ❜

❛  the  world  only  exists  in  your  eyes.  you  can  make  it  as  big  or  as  small  as  you  want.  ❜

❛  happiness  in  intelligent  people  is  the  rarest  thing  i  know.  ❜

❛  when  you’re  born  in  a  burning  house,  you  think  the  whole  world  is  on  fire.  but  it’s  not.  ❜

❛  neither  of  us  is  happy.  neither  of  us  wants  to  leave.  so  we  keep  breaking  one  another  and  calling  it  love.  ❜

❛  you  have  to  be  a  bit  of  a  liar  to  tell  a  story  the  right  way.  ❜

❛  isn’t  it  funny  how  day  by  day  nothing  changes,  but  when  you  look  back  everything  is  different.  ❜

❛  expectation  is  the  root  of  all  heartache.  ❜

❛  you  will  never  be  lovelier  than  you  are  now.  ❜

❛  it’s  the  questions  we  can’t  answer  that  teach  us  the  most.  ❜

❛  i  want  to  be  with  you.  it  is  as  simple,  and  as  complicated  as  that.  ❜

❛  nothing  is  so  painful  to  the  human  mind  as  a  great  and  sudden  change.  ❜

❛  the  smarter  you  are,  the  more  things  can  scare  you.  ❜

❛  there’s  no  freedom  quite  like  the  freedom  of  being  constantly  underestimated.  ❜

❛  the  best  lies  about  me  are  the  ones  i  told.  ❜

❛  i  hope  to  arrive  to  my  death  late,  in  love,  and  a  little  drunk.  ❜

❛  you’ll  understand  why  storms  are  named  after  people.  ❜

❛  it’s  easy  to  believe  in  something  when  you  win  all  the  time.  the  losses  are  what  define  a  man’s  faith.  ❜

❛  people  generally  see  what  they  look  for,  and  hear  what  they  listen  for.  ❜

❛  all  are  equal  in  the  grave.  ❜

❛  talk  sense  to  a  fool  and  he  calls  you  foolish.  ❜

❛  half  of  seeming  clever  is  keeping  your  mouth  shut  at  the  right  times.  ❜

❛  what  if  i  told  you  i’m  incapable  of  tolerating  my  own  heart?  ❜

❛  the  universe  is  exactly  the  size  that  your  soul  can  encompass.  some  people  live  in  extremely  small  worlds,  and  some  live  in  a  world  of  infinite  possibility.  ❜

[daphneh]

…━━━━━·♥ And as he speaks it is all to go in one ear and out the other. He does not understand, perhaps because he has not lived as she has. To not have love, to not have the fire that burns in your chest each moment you exist with the one you desire, the one you care for the most is a torture unlike any they could ever experience. That time where she and Simon were oceans from one another, he could not comprehend how she felt in that moment, what it was like at the very thought of love being lost.

 ❝I do not think you are being honest with yourself. To standby and only think of duty and responsibility is foolish. And you dear brother, despite the many flaws are anything but that.❞

A teasing nature, but a truth behind it. Despite often being at odds, there is a fondness between herself and Anthony that holds a special place in her heart. He is the one she trusts the most out of her brothers simply because they have been through the most together. Similarity in age, and at times in nature tend to help with that.

All of that aside she had seen what lovelessness did to Simon. She would not wish that upon even her greatest enemy let alone her own brother. It is preposterous for him to think she would not intervene as he had during her time on the marriage market, it was simply a must.

❝And that being said, while Ms. Sharma would be lovely to do the duties required of Viscountess. I do not find that you and her share a single thing that is common. What is it that you will speak of or do in times where everything is taken care of? Shall you simply sit and stare at each other in silence?❞

She can feel a rebuttal already coming a hand lifted and pointed at him for only a moment as she moved. Her place back onto the where the piano forte was as her hands began to softly place music. A distraction. It will allow at least a moments time for his brain to rest and actually sink in his words. That aside it gives her a moment to think of her next words.

Perhaps it is time to bring up the more important point, the one that would truly, or at least hopefully bring some sense to the nonsense that Antony keeps spouting. The constant swearing off of love in her presence, that being said she is more than keenly aware of why. Their father. It aches, she could not have been more one and ten or perhaps even simply ten. Her memories have begun to fade of him but she knows, she holds in her very heart how important the love she saw from him was. Anthony, simply is on the opposite side to her in that regard.

❝Father was a man of duty but also one that held more love in his heart than that we could even begin to imagine.❞

There is a moment of hesitation as she speaks, perhaps only because she can hear her husband in the back of her mind telling her she is once again taking things perhaps too far, too personally. She is not him, she could not understand and yet it was speaking that had solved all of their issues. Be it with Anthony, or Simon things had panned out simply because she remembered these things. Because they sought to hold onto that love and not allow themselves to let go of one another.

If only Anthony could see that, or feel it. Perhaps the only way he could was with a reminder of what brought this feeling to her. Her hands stopped the melodic rhythm of the music as she looked up to him.

❝Do you truly believe he would only have you seek to secure someone who can be suitable? If he were here now he would be speaking to you just as I and mother have.❞

" I think it makes perfect sense, " Anthony was slightly avoidant in gaze, as he knew this conversation was coming one way or another. Eyes that watched every movement that came from him, as they learn he seeks marriage ─  though not entirely in ways most understand. " A fortnight is what I spent, Daphne ... in search of suitability as love is not something I find particularly necessary," He looks at her now with a slightly worn expression, tired although true reason had not been spoken. It was their mother, and perhaps Benedict would press on half sarcastic about how he is a slight spectacle to the ton. Daphne was most unrelenting, though she understood him the most in this situation.

Anthony could not marry for love. Love could not be real, as societal constraints remained ... it did not matter. To be focused on his duty moving forward with practicality rather than something based on luxury, how immensely unprepared he was, never to succumb to the heartbreaking grief of losing someone close. Duality in equal torture he witnessed through their father's death ... and how their mother barely survived as she tried to continue on. That cloudy morning; one he cannot remember, one he cannot forget. Death by something so simple and small, instilled all of his worst fears within him. "I have responsibility here, and it hardly has anything to do with personal feelings."

@daphneh : ❝ do you understand how little sense that makes? ❞