darkthoughtsoftears

[darkthoughtsoftears]

"Inzy winzy spider climbed up the water spout

Down came the rain and wash poor Incy out.

Out came the sunshine and dried up all the rain, and incy wincy spider climbed up the spout again."

I can relate much to this song, cause every time I see hope I tried to stand and climb that wall, but then dark clouds filled the sky and rain starts to push me down.

Every time I tried to make things better, every time I tried to make up for my mistakes, someone will always push me and remind me of my place.

Every word feels like knives cutting through every piece of my skin.

I hope to end this suffering, cause living feels like dying.

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Will it be a sin if I ask for someone to listen?

Will it be a sin if I hope the pain to lessen?

Is it a sin to express? When in this society expressing is for those who afford it and Attention seeker for those who can't.

This is reality in this kind of society

There's no serenity in this world of filthy.

[darkthoughtsoftears]

More boring days to come,

Hope new things will open up for me to explore.

Hope I see the light soon.

[darkthoughtsoftears]

I keep asking people if theyre okey.

if they are sure if they can still go on.

if they can still handle the pain.

while no one even notice that i needed that question the most.

[darkthoughtsoftears]

hows the feeling of being hurt?

its feels like im shattering to pieces.

its feels something scratching my heart.

the saddest part,im good at pretending to be okey.

thats why i keep hurting,without them knowing

[darkthoughtsoftears]

Feels like god made me just to see me struggling to live.

[darkthoughtsoftears]

Im trying to be positive,its just so hard when im sorrounded by negativity.

when even breathing is getting tiring

when even living feels like dying.

[darkthoughtsoftears]

I just want someone to listen

But why i always end up being a drama queen for them?

is it hard to listen?

is it hard to believe me?

is it easy if i choose the easy way out for me?

is it worth it? if i end everything because no one listen?

[darkthoughtsoftears]

They have eyes but blind

They have ears but sealed

They have lips but sewed

Three personality of a person why i keep this darkness for so long.

[darkthoughtsoftears]

I always look at the sky,hoping to see the sign.

but everytime i look above,only dark clouds filled my sight.

[darkthoughtsoftears]

I hope to find peace in dreams

I hope i can sleep as i please

I hope to rest in peace.

[darkthoughtsoftears]

will i find peace? by cutting my wrist?

wil i be relieved seeing my blood flowing out of it?

is it worth my time? cause if its worth pleasure is mine.