darkxdevils

[darkxdevils]

feels like all of this isn't worth it. its all just random spur of the moment decisions which which eventually lead to my downfall. might be true, might not be. nobody knows right? you have to try it out and see for yourself. no one, and no fucking soul cares about you as deeply as yourself. no one is going to do things for you. yes, people might help you out, but only you have to take the final step. you have to cross the fucking boundary, you have to face your darkest realities and fears. you are the one who cares about yourself. no one else will.

hey, it's me again. i think I'm going crazy. im having thoughts which never happened, and i think im a little stressed out. but you know what, it's all for nothing. death feels like a better option now. it's so freeing. the fear of dying is always there, but if you die, its eternal bliss. what about those people who try to cope but can't? should they be kept alive against their will? what about that? i need an answer.

[darkxdevils]

being desi is cringing so hard when people say 'chai tea' or 'naan bread'.

[darkxdevils]

im just gonna wing it and write some dark stuff honestly

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5:13pm: it was a lazy afternoon. you and Kageyama both had some snacks, binged a fuckton of movies. literally, you had lost count. honestly, you didn't even care.

8:30pm: he was sitting on a chair. you were sitting on his lap. facing him. not that y'all had something in mind either. felt nice. you hugged him. you felt enveloped and secure. it was pretty cool.

9:01pm: he was choking you. with his large, veiny hands.

"huh? you had sex on this chair with that ex huh?"

"y-yea"

"fkin slut. look how you're dripping just cuz of some hands around your neck."

[just something random that was bugging me and i HAD to write it down]

[darkxdevils]

Ukai Appreciation

He deserves more recognition I love him 😩

[darkxdevils]

why do I need to choose between ukai and ukai sr when I have two hands

[darkxdevils]

you tease him. you tease him all day. about almost everything.

his exes, his dorky ways of eating ice cream, him choking on his own saliva, tripping over his shoelaces, having weird cravings at 3am at night.

but you didn't ever think of the outcome. you never thought the idea of getting punished by him would make you cum.

after all these years of teasing and spending time as friends, here you were. with him, on his roommate's couch, getting railed to slow rock music.

his pace kept getting sloppier. you knew he almost reached his limit, and even if you denied, you know you did too.

"I'm cumming!" he said and bottomed out inside your dripping hole. both of you came together. nobody, no one at all, had fucked you so good. but you had something to talk about.

"hey, Suna?", you asked.

Suna lighted a cigarette.

"yea", he replied with a tired and raspy voice.

"what are we then?"

"nothing, i just like that sweet pussy o' yours."

"cool, yea, just clearing stuff out. I don't want you to fall in love or something."

"im not gonna, dumbass."

but you knew, that you had fallen in love with him way back. on the first day you two had met at the game.

it was love at first sight. all you could do is hope he never found out.

would he ever see you again, if he did?

you had to find out.

[darkxdevils]

aphrodisiac (coach ukai x y/n)

Everything was blurry.

All you could see was Coach Ukai in front of you. Looking at you with a stare which meant only one thing.

The next moment you’re in the closet, with him. He’s kissing every nook and cranny of your body. You’re completely vulnerable and exposed. He knew you were insecure in your own skin, and he in turn loved every inch of it. He made sure to not leave any part of your exposed skin out while worshipping your tender breasts. Ukai was your only aphrodisiac.

“Are you going to get them off or do I have to do it for you?” asked Ukai with an eager expression. You nodded and took off your shorts.

“Well then, where were we?” he asked and propped you up against the wall. The smell inside the room was musty, but you could care less. All you wanted was him. His blonde streaks of hair, his muscular yet delicate build, the cigarette stench coming out of his lips. Everything about him drove you crazy.

Ukai spit on his fingers, and with a devilish smile on his face, thrusted two of his fingers inside you. You responded with a moan which made him go even faster.

“Coach please-“ you whimpered.

“Please what? Use your words, baby” said Ukai with the smile still on his lips.

“Please make me cum.”

That was what he exactly needed to hear out of your mouth. He thrusted his cock inside your throbbing hole. It kept getting better with every thrust, every slide.

In a moment you could feel yourself coming undone as you came. You felt very tired all of a sudden. Your eyes started to droop; you lost all balance.

“y/n? Y/N!”

You could hear Ukai calling out your name.

Everything was blurry again.

“Y/N? Are you okay?”

You woke up from the nap you had been sneaking into your schedule that day.

“Y-yes.”

Out of everything, you wished your dream came true.

But all you could do was fantasize about having sex with your coach, because it wasn’t going to happen ever.

But can’t it happen, like ever?

[darkxdevils]

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

03: Do you regret anything?

04: Are you insecure?

05: What is your relationship status?

06: How do you want to die?

07: What did you last eat?

08: Played any sports?

09: Do you bite your nails?

10: When was your last physical fight?

11: Do you like someone?

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

14: Do you miss someone?

15: Have any pets?

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

18: Are you scared of spiders?

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

26: What are you craving right now?

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

30: What’s irritating you right now?

31: Does somebody love you?

32: What is your favourite color?

33: Do you have trust issues?

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

51: Favourite food?

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

54: Is cheating ever okay?

55: Are you mean?

56: How many people have you fist fought?

57: Do you believe in true love?

58: Favourite weather?

59: Do you like the snow?

60: Do you wanna get married?

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

62: What makes you happy?

63: Would you change your name?

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

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おしゃかしゃま [MAD]

[darkxdevils]

Send me asks, thirsts, or anything you’d like me to write on. I wanna write but my mind’s blank. All ideas are appreciated <3

(also should I write some steamy Haikyu boys content?)

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Reblog if you've found friendship because of your fandoms.

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Kageyama Tobio.

Tw: Su*cide. Scroll if uncomfortable.

387 words.

Song:

It was a gloomy night. You could hear the sounds of the last cars on the roads since your room had a view of the busiest road ever.

You had plans today. Well, not sitting at home with your most revealing dress on, you had a date. With the great Kageyama Tobio. But he canceled it at the last moment. You made sure you weren’t leaving anything behind, got dolled up, made sure your windows and doors were locked, not that anyone would rob your small residence, but a little safety never hurt anyone. And here you are, sitting and listening to songs that make you feel worthless devoid of his existence.

It all started in the last year of your high school when you met Kageyama. He was non-expressive, a milk lover, and an athlete. His whole life revolved around volleyball and nothing else. But you thought that you could change him, help him be a little more social and loving, and help him project his emotions. But could you?

You did. At least, you tried your best. The dates you’ve been on with him, the times you spiked for him when Hinata wasn’t there, the times when you stayed by his side when he lost a game. He wasn’t your boyfriend ever, but it seemed like it to everyone around. Eventually, you all graduated and never looked back. But after almost 6 years, he decided to call you out on a ‘date’.

You were happy. You were. You thought that finally, everything was falling into place. Even if you couldn’t spark anything in him, you could at least be friends.

But here you are now, crying your heart out to songs about love.

The news flashed on the screen of the TV. Your teary eyes somehow made sense of the hazy letters on the screen. It said, “Famous athlete Kageyama Tobio had committed suicide this evening.”

He canceled your date, and you weren’t happy about it. You thought you could, just could try to rekindle the small ray of light between you two. You knew you could stop him if you came back home together from your date.

But is it your fault if he cancels it and escapes somewhere else?

Is it?