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“No matter how damaged you are, there will still be love for you. No matter how unlovable you think you are, you will still be loved. You will always be loved.”

— Lukas W.

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“I know why am stronger today. Because they weren’t there when I needed them then.”

— Smriti Pandey

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“When you’re too close to people, when you spend too much time with them and love them too dearly, sometimes you can’t see them.”

— Tana French

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“For you, I was a chapter. For me, you were the book.”

— Tom McNeal

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On Thursdays and Coffee [Now brewing]

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“I am hopelessly in love with a memory. An echo from another time, another place.”

— Michael Faudet

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I miss him. And there’s nothing I can do about it unless he does something. I just keep waiting and waiting for him to do something. But everyday, there’s nothing. I miss him with all my heart. He’s all I think about. He’s the only person who can make me daydream with just the thought of him. He’s the only one in my eyes. So what do I do? How do I heal? How do I move on and forget about him?

c / nothing

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I'm sorry that you suffered a lot because I thought giving all of me will make you happy.

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Pinili kita kahit sa panahong hindi mo na ako kailangan,

pinili mo ako sa panahong ako na lang ang nandiyan.

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“I stayed longer. Longer than I should have. Trying to teach you how to love me. When I didn’t even know what that meant.”

becoming.

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Gusto kong malaman kahit alam ko na rin naman ang sagot.

Whenever I would miss you, I would look at all the photos and videos I had of you. Looking back at all the memories we’ve made together would make me the happiest person in the world. Now looking back at those makes me question if it was all even real or not. Was your smile real in that photo? Did I actually make you laugh in that video? Did you actually feel something when you looked into my eyes? Did you actually love me or did you love the idea of me?

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From A Gentle Reminder

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Sapagkat naiwan ako sa pagitan ng pagpapatawad at pagtanggap,

ng sariwa at naghihilom na sugat,

ng mga akalang maibabalik pa sa dati ang lahat,

at ng pag-asang mananatiling sapat.

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Kung nasaktan ka nang dahil sa pag-ibig,

huwag mo itong isisi lang sa hindi mo nagawa,

o huwag mong gawing dahilan ang hindi niya naipakita,

hindi lamang dito umiikot ang pag-ibig,

kung bakit ka humantong sa puntong ito,

balikan mong muli ang unang beses na tiningnan mo siya,

o ang unang pagkakataon nais mong alamin ang buong pagkatao niya,

alalahanin mong mabuti ang kagustuhan mong makasama siya,

dahil bago pa kayo dumating sa puntong masaya

o nagkakasakitan na,

nauna kang humanga sa mga bagay na hindi mo pa lubos nakikilala,

malaking bahagi nito ay ang iyong mga pasya,

kaya nga't habang tumatagal,

lumalalim ang noo'y mababaw na pakiramdam,

bumibilis ang tibok ng puso,

o kumikirot sa panahong di na nagkakaunawaan,

tandaan mong nagsimula ka sa munting paghanga,

pinili mo itong palalimin dahil gusto mo nang higit na pagtingin,

hanggang sa napagtanto mo nang

hindi lang pala saya ang dulot ng salitang 'crush kita',

dahil pinili mong mahalin siya,

at kung nasasaktan ka na,

tanggapin mo ito,

sapagkat ang taong nasasaktan,

ay totoong nagmamahal.

Pasya

2022.04.04

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Sariling likha.

Sariling akda.

Sali-saliwang gunita.

Pamagat

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Habang lumilipas ang panahon, mas mauunawaan mo ang mga bagay-bagay, mas lalawak ang pagtingin mo sa mundo, magiging rasyonal ka at darating sa puntong kahit nagawan ka nang hindi mabuti, maiisip mong may dahilan sila sa kabila ng kanilang mga kilos. Ngayon ko pa lang nauunawaan. Hindi na ako galit dahil maluwag sa puso ko ngayong tinatanggap ang aking kapalaran.