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at times it gets difficult to breath right? it gets difficult to see a way out, to imagine something different, to just... dream. something we were very likely so good at as kids.

it's very hard, but please don't give up on yourself. don't give up on your dreams and on your desires. take a moment away from your environment (be it people or anything, even more if it's your thoughts spiralling) as soon as you can. take a breath. go back to yourself and try to ground yourself through breathing (slow deep breath, with long exhales).

try to remind yourself this fear it's only in your head, cause this you are in right now is a very known situation and whatever different from it, it's just too scary to bear with. that's your unconscious mind trying to play with you. hug yourself, hold yourself, and tell yourself that staying in places where you cannot grow, you cannot be free, and you cannot be yourself, it's just useless and toxic. not what you are here for. you can change that, you won't have to end up in another similar place cause you're more experienced now. trust yourself and what you know. and remember how strong you are: you dealt with so much and look at you still standing there. you can deal with something unknown as well and come out as a winner.

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I hope 2023 is good to my mom

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i think waiting together is a love language. wait for the train with me, so we can talk a little longer. wait for dinner with me, we can slow dance in the kitchen. wait for me until i can talk after crying my eyes out, hold me, we will figure it out. wait for me when it gets rough, i know i can get through this (with you). wait for me in the car, this song is too good to not finish listening to it. wait for the first snow with me, cold red noses and bright eyes. lets wait for each other, i love you.

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good things to pay attention to more often

the color of trees

clouds and how they look different throughout the day

the different colors the mornings can have. sometimes it's an orange hue and sometimes pink and sometimes it's too misty to tell

pretty color schemes in random places (the trees and your neighbors wooden patio and the color of their car)

the states of the vehicles passing you by, dents and scratches and the different trinkets suspended from their rearview mirrors

the sound of silence

the shadows the lights cast in your home, like how sunset looks different than sunrise, and the shadows the sun casts look different than those of your lamps and candles

pretty details in buildings and houses like certain types of windows or doorknobs or archways

the movement of things in the wind. flags, leaves, flowers, people's hair and coats

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To those afraid of aging: don't be. You will find yourself, you will slowly find your purpose as you age. Give yourself time to process what happened to you when you were younger. Don't pressure yourself to be at the same speed as everyone else, don't compare yourself too much.

If there is something you wish to do, you should find the courage to do it, to follow that career, that dream, that relationship. Achieving things takes time, and everyone has their own timing.

Before you're 25, your brain isn't fully grown. Please don't let other people push you into making decisions that should impact the rest of your life while you are so young. Don't pressure yourself either.

The thing about adulting is that everyone is just winging it, no one is any idea what they are doing, not even your parents, or grandparents. We are all just living, trying to deal with the unpredictability of life.

It is okay to change your mind about who you are, what you want. It's okay to feel scared of the future. It is okay to want more. It is okay to fight to achieve what you want. It's okay if you don't care about achievements. It's okay to be lost when you're not even a full grown adult. Because most adults are still lost, but less than when they were younger.

It does get better. You get more freedom, you can make your choices, you figure out what you like and what you can't stand, then you start molding a life according to your needs, your happiness. Please remember life is here to be enjoyed.

I spent my teenage years and early twenties so anxious about the future, and it didn't help me prepare for all the absurd stuff that happened in my life. I have had to spend a long time just healing from the past and figuring out the present.

You can only learn about life if you live it, by going through it. Let the future come, just one day at a time, you don't need to rush into anything. It's an amazing journey, but please be patient, kind and forgiving with yourself. You are still growing and figuring it out. And you will.

You have to live a bit so you can figure out who you are, what you want to do, how you can change. Don't be afraid of throwing yourself out there just because you're not perfect or you are afraid of failing. Just because you have failed, it doesn't make you a failure, it makes you a student of life. You didn't know it before, but you know better after failing. Don't be so afraid of judgement from others, live the life that feels most authentic to you by being honest about who you are.

Embrace life, it is here to be enjoyed, you are here to figure stuff out and heal and find yourself and you will! These things take time, but you will! Life is a beautiful journey of self-discovery, it will continue to surprise you until you die. There is always so much to see, to learn, to grow, to become. And you will get there.

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maybe the purpose of life is to fill it with as many positive things as you can. regardless of how bad life gets, don’t let it steal your personality, your hobbies, your style. after coming home from a bad day at work maybe you need to sit down and read a nice book. after studying non-stop for so long, maybe you should finish that crochet project you’ve been putting off because you’re so busy. maybe we should prioritize the things we love, the things that make us happy, and not just the things we’re forced to do to survive. in this society, a little peace from the outside world is important. don’t give up on the things that make you happy. don’t forget about yourself.

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what are your twenties if not an endless string of the ghosts of who you thought you would become

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Ladies, build your foundation first.

visiting a derm/investing in skincare > buying tons of make-up to pile unto problematic skin to hide the issue

investing in quality (and yes, potentially expensive) shoes > hoarding piles of cheap shoes that last a few months or a season

intentional therapy sessions to take accountability over your self > dating anyone who comes along and victimizing yourself/blaming others over the bad relationships you attract (aka accept)

acting (intentionally choosing the life you wish to have) > reacting (only responding to whatever life throws your way).

In conclusion, quality over quantity. Focus on building a strong and healthy foundation first, and focus on the rest later, otherwise you're repeating the same cycle to your own detriment (financial or health wise).

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Serie of things I like, for no apparent reason:

1. Kitchens

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Halfway—2021.

Two Filipino indies lead the Letterboxd Top 25 at the 2021 halfway point, as the coronavirus pandemic continues to shake—and reshape—the film industry. Jack Moulton and Gemma Gracewood take stock.

Cleaners, Glenn Barit’s photocopied, hand-colored, stop-motion feature about high schoolers in the northern Philippines city of Tuguegarao, is the highest-rated 2021 film on Letterboxd at the halfway point of the year, with a weighted average of 4.3 out of 5 stars. Ode to Nothing, by Barit’s fellow countrywoman Dwein Baltazar, is in second place, and Shaka King’s two-time Oscar-winner Judas and the Black Messiah rounds out the top three.

Last year was a transition year in many ways: for the world, a pandemic-led move away from cinema screenings to at-home virtual theaters and streaming-first releases; for Letterboxd, a move away from US-led release dates in our annual calculations. This has opened the way for notable films from around the world to be included on our lists far sooner than their oft-delayed American releases (which had resulted in, for example, Brazil’s Bacurau not making the 2019 Letterboxd Year in Review).

Both of these factors help to explain why we have two Filipino independent features leading our midway Top 25. “Cleaners and Ode to Nothing are exactly the kind of small Filipino films that would have struggled to get national distribution in theaters in the before times, despite the buzz that they garnered,” writes Manila-based film critic Philbert Dy in his companion essay to the Top 25, in which he explains how the Philippines’ particularly long and harsh Covid lockdown has “led to smaller, quirkier films being made accessible to more Filipinos, whose consumption of cinema were once beholden to the whims of conglomerate cinema owners”.

‘Cleaners’, written and directed by Glenn Barit.

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Be direct i love that shit

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Mindsets and energy attract me more than your physical appearance

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doing more of what my soul needs

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This is exactly where I am right now

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I let whoever think whatever. My peace is more important.

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GETS TOO COMFORTABLE THOUGH

I think the best compliment you can ever receive is someone telling you that they feel comfortable in your presence. you know how rare that is? you know how that feels?