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September 5th, 2021 Sunday 5:02 am

So holy shit lmao

So it’s been 2 years and nine months. As I’m sure you can figure out.

Can I just say I got distracted? Busy?

Nah because i definitely forgot haha

So where do I start? I can’t really break it down month by month can I?

So year by year it is (jk nvm I’m going into detail)

2019

Honestly I don’t remember this year all too well.

I went through my Snapchat memories to remind me of what happened and I’ll clarify by saying it wasn’t exactly and uneventful year. Just by comparison of the other years to come you kinda forget.

January- was doing college stuff as usual for winter quarter, house was getting renovated, and I was still with that gage kid. (He was still new at the time but spoiler alert he sticks around for a fat minute) but otherwise nothing too crazy that I can’t remember at least.

February- more school stuff. Had to deal with business week (if you don’t remember what that is we ran a business as a highschool) and we did not do well at all we didn’t get a single prize and that made me sad. It snowed during that February and I was just basically doing nothing but school. Although if memory serves me right, the tennis season was starting soon so I’m sure I was looking forward to that (even though gage didn’t really want me doing it but I did it anyway cause it was something I really enjoyed). I also learned the Marie Kondo folding technique which I still use to this day when I’m not being a lazy bum about it.

March- still doing school things and all that. Tried to do more art by doing art challenges with Alicia. And just hanging with my family more. Also the Kia was “given” to me aka to use as my car for the time being. Not legally mine.

There’s so much to cover so ill just go off tangent

My life is good currently. I got a lot of thoughts regarding my future including where I am going to live and what am I going to do with my life. It makes me incredibly anxious but I think I can cope.

I failed nursing school once already and I am going back this winter. Not sure if I want to but I’m not sure what else I can do with my life so I’m scared to back out of it because then I’ll have a million and twelve decisions to make all at once if I do.

I love my now long term boyfriend gage.

And life it just crazy right now I think I can cope but who knows.

Andy like always it was good reading this again. Looking back on the entries is why I love diaries but I’m too dumb to ever keep up despite how badly I want to.

Im suddenly feeling sad and nastolgic. Or however you spell it.

Life is hard and it’s only going to get harder

I wish you well future Katelynn reading this however many days into the future you are from when I posted this.

And thinking about it I probably should put the time I post the post instead of the time that I start writing it. But what can you do

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December 4, 2018 Tuesday 2:50 pm

I can’t believe in my last post I forgot about dance team whoops so I guess instead of the relationship post it’s the dance team post lmao

So I tried out for dance team and made the team (big shocker honestly) and it was a pretty intense tryout but some how I made it which is wild.

We practiced and learned the dances for our first performance that we got from a video/videos and we did really good I think for that and it felt like a good team except the drama which made me want to die because it was stupid as fuck but whatever

Then things started to fall apart.

The team wanted to come up with their own dances and moves to be original because people said we were bad cause we didn’t come up with original things but like honestly??? Who gave a shit? I didn’t but everyone else did and it was a stupid fat mistake cause we suck at coming up with dances and had a bunch of half finished things and it was dummbbb

And the second performance was awful, under practiced, unprepared, last last second changes, terrible performance and yeah I cried after super hard from all the anxious feelings and thoughts and it sucked hard core it was awful.

Then less and less people started coming to practice until one day it was only me, Ethan, and Alicia who showed up and no one else could be bothered apparently and that was the day I decided to quit the team but I’m doing the last performance with the group cause the team is gonna be disbanded cause no one did jack shit on the team

So yeah the last performance is on the 8th at the Filipino Christmas party and yeah rip me

But yeah that’s been my experience with the dance team, it’s been all over the place but yeah it’s an experience to look back on

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December 2, 2018 Sunday 10:52 pm

Dear Diary iiitttss been a while,

Three months roughly and boy oh boy has a lot happened. I looked back at the other post I wrote that was after a few months and it summarized what happened then and I was like “hmm okay yeah maybe I’m not a daily diary keeper I’m more of a every few months Diary keeper lmao” so that might just become my motif on here plus it will be easier to go through everything in the future

So now I guess it’s life summary time ayyyy

August-

So where I left off in August it was before I went to aunt Jennifer’s house so I’ll pick up there. We went to aunt Jennifer’s and did the usual, play board games, watched big brother, went to north west trek this year which was fun and I got some good memories from that. But the biggest thing that happened while I was there was I! Got! A! Boyfriend!!!!! Insane I know well technically not a boyfriend but we confessed our feelings and yeah haha but I’ll get into more detail about him in the next post lol but yeah then agust finished in a chill way it was a good month nothing to memorable happened near the end which is okay

September-

On the first I officially got into a relationship so woo! But other things that happens this month was going to Disney land!!! It was awesome and California was awesome. I’m gonna go through the Disney land trip in bullet points

We took a plane there and it was crazy we flew super high and the landing was easily the scariest part for me

We took an Uber for the first time as well a lot of firsts in Cali

The hotel was nice and had head boards that lit up with the Disney castle

The hotel swimming pool was ultra salty like wtf was up with that and not very deep at all smh

It got very hot in Cali even in September so that’s a scam pretty much

The rides were really fun but fast passes are 100% necessary otherwise all of your time will be spent in lines

My favorite rides in Disney land was the boat tour ride, space mountain, Nemo, and thunder mountain

California adventures was just as fun but had better rides in my opinion it was fun

Favorite rides from California adventures were the rollercoaster, gaurdians of the galaxy, the inner tube ride, sky tours, and the cars ride surprisingly enough

All the food was really good

I got a really cute small back pack with Minnie Mouse bows on it

It was a really good time I loved it the heat was hard to deal with and mom and dad fought but it was really really fun

And that was Disney land I highly recommend going other things that happened in September we’re going back to school again but lucky for me they were all pretty easy I took statistics, technical writing, and macroeconomics. So yay that was nice. And that’s really it for September

October-

The fam realized that the heater was broken and it turned out to be that the motor wouldn’t work any more so now we are getting a heating system and the heater guys are coming tomorrow December 3-6 and that’s totally fun rip. School was fine in October which is always nice not too much happened that month. We handed out candy for the first time which was fun. Dad was really excited about handing out candy so I felt bad for him when we barely got any trick or treaters only two groups of kids the first one being two kids, then the next group three kids , and at like 10 some adults came for some candy which dad didn’t like I felt bad for him but not much I could have done. I worked out with krissa near the end of it tho so nice

I’ll continue this recap tomorrow cause I’m getting a headache byyyeee

Continued December 4th 1:09 pm

Okay sorry I died I had finals and I got...sidetracked... with gage last night lmaoooo

Anyway

November-

Was also chill school was tolerable, no super big mental break downs oh wait there was one when my laptop flopped on me and i broke down cause I had an entire paper due the next day and zero percent of it done but it got there. Thanksgiving was sub par in my opinion in regards to food and hanging out with fam was also eh the best part was when me and krissa drove to pick up Eddie but before we actually got him. Though I did look cute as fuuuuccckk honestly it was The cutest outfit Eva it was my hamilton dress and boots and coat and my make up was on point so woo on that

December-

It’s only been about four days of December but ya know why not share my life lmao but yeah finals are upon me had my first one today and my last two tomorrow and I’m gonna like flop my macroeconomics final so rip me on that but after it’s done I’m done forever and let’s just hope I don’t fail macro lmao but yeah that’s been my life so far

Some future plans for me, katelynn, is doing better at school aka not procrastinating. I’m gonna use a planner for 2019 and hope that helps me keep track of it and ooo yeah my boi gage is probably gonna be coming soon but more on that in my relationship post.

But yeah thats my life update so woo I’ll see you in another three months probably lmao but yeah you know I always try to be consistent and then fail then come back so yeah byeeee

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August 13th, 2018, Monday 7:01 pm

So today started off with my parents coming into my room and making me get out so the construction guy can do what he needs too. And mom getting mad at me for it because my room was a mess. I washed my parents car. Chilled for a bit. And as I started painting my nails my mom said “go clean your room and don’t come out until you’re done” so now I’m stuck in my room.

What should I talk about? I think I got an A in all my classes but I’m not sure at the same time. People think I look old now. Like We went to visit Stacie the other day and she said for a second I looked like I was 25 so that’s wild. My friends are still chill we watched a movie the other day called the Darkest Minds and it was good. We also went to the extreme fun center which I think was more fun than the actual movie with the crew but I digress.

In two days we will be heading to aunt Jennifer’s which is exciting. Oh I forgot to mention this last post but like Krissa ran away and found the next day on Kelly’s graduation. So she’s been on lock down. She kinda changed, lost her virginity, smoked weed. Idk I thought I had a solidary person in the fam but I guess not. Which sucks but it’s whatever.

Oh and a guy kinda hit on me the other day. Not actually the other day but you know what I mean. He came up and we started talking and he asked my age and all and when I said “yup I just turned 16” he was like “oh if you were about to turn 17 I would have asked for your number” crazy I know. Had me shook.

I’ve been driving quite a bit actually which is nice. Idk what else to talk about but I really should get to cleaning sadly. So see ya bye

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August 13, 2018 Monday 1:24 am

Dear Diary, what up lmao

Look I told you I was terrible at keeping diaries. This is just more proof. Anyway maybe I should catch you up on the past what? Four months?

May-

I’m pretty sure I was still doing school stuff. Living life. Stacies baby was going good which was nice lmao. Idk if it was this month but Stephanie had a party and said she was pregnant again, the baby did not make it sadly. My sister had her last ASL concert and Dru had a dramatic performance. My sister turned 18, gross I know. Tennis was still a thing and still a thing I sucked at sadly. Life was going alright.

June-

In the first week of June I met a kid named Gage from Ohio on Omegle. He was chill and sad that his girlfriend (fiancé? He proposed and she said so I guess lmao) broke up with him. My sister graduated, mom wanted her to join the military, I turned sixteen, I got out of school, watched Incredibles 2 (it was great). Also I slept over at a friends house for the first time in years (it was Alicia’s House). It was announced that our fam will go to Disney land in September wooohooo. I had to prepare to go back to school sooner than later tho because I was signed up for summer college classes. Life was going pretty good.

July-

July was hard, not gonna lie. School was a thing again and everyone knows school sucks a lot. And it kept sucking because I was signed up for speech, English, and psychology. I had a speech due every week, an essay due basically every week with increasing sizes in length, and I had quizzes and assignments due every week in psych. It’s was high key stressful. I couldn’t do anything or I felt like I shouldn’t do anything because I should have been working on work but even when I didn’t do stuff I still procrastinated. Not to mention when I didn’t get 100% on something I always felt like a disappointment. Now that that’s out of the way let’s get through what else happened during this month. Mom got depressed in the beginning. No one wanted to do anything for Fourth of July which got her sad so we did nothing. I did go to Trenitys sleep over for her birthday which was fun. I hanged out with more people than I expected too which was nice. School became worse as the month went on and more stressful. Mom was upset most of the time especially with my dad. It got to the point where she told me she wanted to move out and she just kept saying over and over how she hates this house and she doesn’t like dad. Idk it got really bad. July was not a good month for me or mom. Kelly was barely there and dad didn’t really talk to me about things. July sucked I hated it I’m glad it’s over the only good thing that came out of that month was that I got my own drivers license.

August-

August did not start off great, it started off terribly. The badness kept going to the beginning of August and it mellowed out until the water heater. The water heater broke. No hot water. The plumber didn’t come, dad ripped a hole into the wall because dad had no clue what he was doing when the plumber told him what to do. Mom was upset with everything. But then it got fixed. We need a new one tho cause the one we have now is old as shit. When the water heater was broken, mom took everything out of the computer room and she taking the chance to fix the foundation and redo the back of the house entirely. Mom decided she hit a “reset” so her mood has been better which in turn made me feel better because then her mood was no longer making me feel bad. In other news, I finished school. I gave my last speech, did my last paper, last quiz it was all completed. Which is the biggest relief in the world. Weird thing tho is that this one girl gave her final speech and said “when I came into this classroom I knew I knew no one and I thought I was the youngest. I was shocked to find out she (she being me) was younger than I was because I thought she looked like she was 21” and lemme tell you that had me shook. Anyway I’ll get into the details of the past two months in a different post. Stacie had her first child named Riley Grace Leech. Stacie calls her Grace tho. She’s cute. And today (technically yesterday) was the first time I held her lol.

Anyway thoes are like the biggest things that happened. I’ll talk about more of the other details in a different post tomorrow (later today) cause I’m tired so good night see ya

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April 27, 2018 , Friday idc

Fuck marvel, im so sad how fucking dare they

I can’t stop crying

Bye

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Sunday, April 22, 2018 7:05pm

Dear Diary, what up

So I went to State for Mathletes, going was fun. We got food, chilled with my friend Brie and had a good time with the other girls Jessica and Savannah. The guys there were nice but I didn’t really interact with them much besides Trevor and Kai cause they road with us girls to and from the event place. There was a pool at the hotel with a hot tub and that was nice.

I just like traveling with people a lot. It’s one of the most fun experiences is when you travel with people. When it’s people you don’t really know it’s weird and could be terrible or fun and it was fun for me this time so yay.

The actual competing sucked ass however.

We lost. One from our school won anything and I felt Supremely Useless™️. I did a Adhock thing for team topical which is where I was paired with two kids, a freshman named Evelyn and a Senior named Emeline who were from different schools. And like I couldn’t do anything and that was awful, I felt really useless then.

And Team Project, oh boy.

We had to present to the entire building and what not questions to our pictures and explain how we found the answers to them. It got to my turn and yikes, I was shaky and sweaty and before hand my pulse was going wild and my breathing became really heavy. When presenting, I read a number, thought I read it wrong, then said it again even though I said it right the first time. My face was bright red and ugh it was awful. Brie kinda saved it cause she was super casual about it and like heck mate am I envious about that. Most people get nervous before and then it just sheds off of them when in the spotlight. And I’m just like, why can’t I do that? I know not everyone can but like still.

Which brings me into my next point. In a weird ironic way.

After it all and we lost, I was just kinda dejected. Like, some stupid, naive, idiotic part of me was like ‘it would be really cool if we just won cause we were able to pull through and do everything and win the team Project section’ but we didn’t. And then it got me to thinking ‘I’m not great at math. I’m a tiny bit above average at best. I’ll never be fantastic at anything. I’ll be stuck living my life as completely average and nothing better ever.’ Which sucks and makes it like “why exist if I’m just gonna be forgotten anyway? If I live a normal life and die a normal way and be completely forgotten never making a mark on anyone or anything. Is it worth it?” Objectively I’m like ‘there are so many reasons to be alive. You don’t really want to die, stop being dramatic.’ But like, idk fam.

But the thing is this. I think I might be depressed? But also I don’t. Like was the whole “what’s the point in existing” thought just brought out because I lost? I mean it went away for a while later that day cause I was happy, and then it came back like earlier today. It just fades in an out and how am I supposed to know when it’s real or not. If I’m really sad and depressed before I go to bed but not really when I wake up then which one is the truth? Doesn’t everyone get sad and emotional when they are tired? So that would mean I’m being dramatic right?

Or like I’m just having these thoughts but I’m not actually depressed. Cause like I shower, I eat (maybe too much I’m not sure), I hang out with my friends, I have good relationships, I go out side, I participate in sports, I try to be happy. Idk

I like being alone and I hate being alone. I love the peace of being alone but I hate the loneliness of being alone. My ideal situation is where I’m in a room filled with people who are talking. At any point I can ignore them and do what I want, leave, not say anything, go on my phone, listen to music, listen to their convo and not say anything but still being able to jump in and out of the convo whenever I want.

I don’t even know what I like. I don’t know who I am. I’m just sad? This is a rant at this point. I’m just trying to get everything out but then I can’t get everything out cause then I get sadder until there is a void in my chest and my head starts to feel fuzzy. And at these points are

I’m stopping here. None of this makes sense. I’m not depressed. It might feel like I am but I’m not actually. That’s okay. Maybe. I make myself feel depressed is the point of this and now bye

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Thursday, April 19, 2018 9:11 pm

Dear Diary, what up

So I gotta pack for State. Its for mathletes and I’m gonna be gone two days. Free food tho and a pool at the hotel so worth it? Not sure.

I need to finish my zen doodle which is due tomorrow also but what I DONT need to do is my vocab which is nice. We gotta assemble the board at the hotel and due note cards for the presentation. All by tomorrow. Also a piñata has to be done and ready tomorrow. Lowkey stressed and I’m procrastinating but writing about what I need to do instead of actually, idk doing it??

Anyway, mom and dad are in Vegas, hope they don’t die cause that would suck. I probably jinxed it :/ okay okay I’m gonna go now and do the things I need to so see ya.

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Wednesday, April 18, 2018 8:51 pm

Dear Diary, what up

I PASSED MY DRIVERS TEST!!! WOOOO!!! :D

I missed 6 on my written and you are able to miss up to 8 out of 40 questions. And I got 98 out of 100 on my skills test. Btw I suck backing around corners but that’s okay!!! I’ll avoid it at all cost, I’ll never back around a corner unless it’s outta my drive way or a parking spot.

So that’s lit but you know what’s not lit? The tennis game tomorrow. Cause only varsity is gonna play cause Centralia is only bringing their varsity cause they are stupid. But it works out anyway cause my parents wouldn’t be home so I wouldn’t be able to get a ride home and I asked Stephanie but then I told her never mind so I’m just gonna go home after school. I might go to the game tho cause Alicia said she might be able to give me a ride home after. Idk but what I do know is that I got some homework (aka vocab to do) but I’ll be able to finish it later so no big deal.

And yeah that’s all the big news for today

Seeeeee yaaaaa faaaaammmm

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Wednesday, April 18, 2018 7:43 am

Dear Diary, what up

So it’s been a fat minute since I’ve been on here. Apparently I keep up a diary for shit. But then I read the entry before this one and I was like “I reall should keep this up cause that was a wild read”.

Anyway tennis is going good. After my first game, it went: tie (playing against my own team), loss, win, partner change to Alexis, and loss. Not sure how I feel about my new partner yet.

I gotta sign up for the college placement test. I took it and passed english but not math. I’m taking my drivers test so that when I turn 16 I can basically instantly get my license. I’m gonna be studying a lot today.

I’m behind on English work in ms. Portman and last week wasn’t my best, I don’t wanna check my grades.

Also I realized I’m probably gonna die alone, or like I just wanna be in love lmao.

That’s all for now bye

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Friday, March 16, 2018 11:59pm

Dear diary, what up So we had our first tennis match today and WE WON!!! It was so close. The game points were tied 7 all and I was the one serving for the last game point. I messed up a lot. I think one of the main reasons we pulled through was because Isabel was pretty good at serving. At one point they had 30 and we had nothing. Then we are some how able to catch up. It's tied, 40-40. I make my first serve and it doesn't go in. So we are down on the wire. I serve the second time and bam, it goes in and the final, game winning point, match is in session. We hit it back and forth for a while before the other team hits it too hard and it goes out of bounds. Which means WE WON cause we didn't add(?) which I'm pretty sure means that we didn't have to win by two points or something. That was like the big thing that happened today. The ride back home on the bus was lit and I learned that Alicia has listened to Sincerely, Me from the Dear Evan Hansen soundtrack. Which shook me to my core. The ride there and back was fun, also just being able to chat with Izzy while waiting for our turn to play. The entire away game experience was amazing. It's like the experience of a road trip condensed into like a day. Idk it was fun and I'm excited for my next away game. Idk what else is going on. Today felt like a good day. Tomorrow I'm going to practice some tennis with the crew as long as it doesn't rain. I also gotta clean my room and do my homework so that's a drag but I've been putting it off for too long already. Uughhhh responsibilities suck. But anyway I'll see y'all later

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Thursday, March 15, 2018 10:03 pm

Dear Diary, what up

I got a lot to say cause a lot has happened in the past like two days and I need to catch you up.

So yesterday we had an assembly for the Every 32 minutes thing and it was sad. The people who “died” got up in front of the school and spoke about how it felt to be the people who died and have their eulogy’s read as they were being carted away. A lot of people cried, including me. I cried when a kid named Tyler spoke about getting a text from his mom saying she loved him right before he “died”. He also talked about how he also lost his brother to something like this and he cried and it was emotional.

Everyone was pretty silent and super respectful. It was emotional. The main person lady who is like a director for the program said that at most schools the people who “died” would speak into a microphone out in the hall with their picture in the projector. Our school was the first to have the people stand in front of everyone and speak about their experiences.

Every person who “died” got to speak and it actually went over the amount of time that was alotted for the assembly but everyone stayed anyway. After all the “dead” people spoke, everyone clapped and even gave a standing ovation to them. That shocked me but I felt as though that was a good thing to do.

Also there was a walk out at the school in honor of those who died in the Parkland school shooting the same day. People left the school for 17 minutes, one minute for each person that died. On Ethan’s Snapchat, my tennis captian Raquel (Rachel) said that “we just need stricter gun laws, not to just take away guns that people already have” and like yeah I get it but guns suck and if they weren’t there at all I think that would be better. But I digress.

I wanted to do the walk out but I was scared to do it so I didn’t. I’m sure one day I may regret that decision.

It was a half day yesterday so we got out early and I took a nap when I got home. Then I went on my final drive for drivers ed. I did alright, all I gotta do now is practice parallel parking and backing around corners. We got ice cream after so that’s lit.

Also I have a nasty cough right now btw.

Now on to today. Today I took the college placement test and I did very well for the English portion, now all I gotta do I retake the math because I’m not quite at college level for that yet.

Then tennis practice. That went well. I got in a great hit today. We were playing a weird rotational tennis game and the ball was fed to me, I hit the ball and it skims over the net just barely going surprisingly fast. The ball lands in and is out of the way before my opponent (who I think was Rachel) was able to get to it. I was so impressed. Like I literally said “where did that come from????” And Maray was like “I’m asking you that!” It was my proudest tennis moment so far.

Then there was the Running start parent meeting. Except neither of my parents could go. At one point, Lori (the presenter lady) said “just look over and see that your not alone and that you can rely on the support with you today.” And I was there alone at that point. I looked over to Alicia, then looked back over at the empty chair next to me and then she laughed at that. It was quite a moment.

And finally, when I got home today I applied for the college that the running start is gonna be held at.

I also tried to work on my English but I ran out of time :/

Oh and we finished a movie in Spanish class and at the end, the mother and the child who were looking for each other find one another and see them from across the street. They have to wait until the walk signal says it’s okay to cross. The last bit of the movie is the signal going from stop to go and then it ends. No emotional reunion, just the idea of one. That made me upset.

Okay I have my first tennis game tomorrow soo I should go to sleep now. See ya later

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Tuesday, March 13, 2018 10:21 pm

Dear Diary, what up

I had a lot of home work, there are like eight problems I didn’t finish because we have time to do it tomorrow and I don’t get some of the questions so yeah.

The book I’m reading in English is wild so far. It’s called The Poisonwood Bible and so far a family moved to Africa and started judging how they lived. It’s like chill no one asked for your opinion.

We had thing at school called “Every 32 Minutes” which is about how some one (mainly teens) die every 32 minutes cause of distracted driving. It was chill. About (they weren’t accurate with the time) every 32 minutes, some one would “die” and some one would talk about them over the loud speaker. That was kinda distracting but wasn’t like too bad. Then we had advisory for third period and we went outside and saw a fake car crash with like a car flipped over one another in a way. Adair got arrested, a kid died on scene, and another was put in the helicopter (thought I heard he didn’t actually and they took him off in secret but who knows for sure). I was really close to the helicopter which was lit cause the wind that thing causes is really cool. Then life went on as normal.

Tennis was good. The ladder was posted today and my partner was Isabel which is lit. She’s not the best at hitting but it’s whatever she’s good at serving. And I suck at serving but I’m okay at hitting. That works out well I think.

Had a lot of homework.

I’m tired.

I should sleep.

I’m arguing instead.

With Brie.

Cause I hate myself.

I’m gonna en md this here

Bye

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Monday, March 12, 2018 10:40 pm

Dear diary, what up

We got our new classes today and I’m feeling it. It’s going pretty alright. Then again it’s just the first day. I just remembered I have to get my dad to sign my syllabi. Yay *sarcasm btw*

Uh what else, tennis happened and the weather was okay, a little on the warm side but could have been way worse. Had GGs birthday party today and I didn’t get any work don’t that I wanted to do. Also Little Jason blew the paper off the straw right into my left eye and it hurt like a mother trucker. I’m gonna wake up early tomorrow and get stuff done hopefully.

So Kyson learned to walk which is crazy cause he just learned to stand like a month ago he’s growing up quick. Also Stacie is pregnant again. I hope she gets to keep it this time.

We are doing a fundraiser for tennis and I need twenty emails by tomorrow so let’s hope that gets done quick.

And I think that’s all for today. I’m gonna have to clean my room tomorrow. Ugh so much to do so little time. Rip me thats what I get for having to do everything this year just so I won’t have any regrets.

Anyway I gotta get up early so bye guys

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Sunday, March 11, 2018 11:24pm

Dear Diary, what up

Today I re-listened to In The Heights and it’s still lit af.

Tomorrow is the the start of the new trimester so let’s hope for the best. I cleaned myself and my room so this trimester is gonna be good I feel it. If it starts out new and fresh, as it goes on it will only go down a little. This is opposed to starting at the bottom and either staying at the bottom or going down farther. That’s my thought process on it.

My legs still hurt from squats and my throat still hurts from being sick and what not. But that won’t get in my way.

A lot of things are gonna start happening soon. This is gonna be a big year I feel it.

Speaking of, I have the college placement test on the 15th so soon sometime this week. Also I have to remember to bring a teacher/ invite a teacher to the tennis thing on Tuesday. Next year will more than likely be extremely stressful so this year I will live life as best as I can and get everything that I want done, done. I will leave no room for regrets.

Yes. Okay I’ll leave this here. I ain’t got much else to say. So bye bro :P

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Saturday, March 10, 2018 5:52pm

Dear Diary, what up

I’m watching Supernatural but I’m not too invested at the moment for this episode. I’m sick with like a scratchy throat and coughing my lungs out. Also it makes me sound like I smoke four packs of cigarettes a day. I played tennis with the team so that’s good, more practice before the first game, wooo I’m not stressed about that at alllllll.

I did some more practicing with Alicia after practice with the team which was also good.

Not much else went on today so I guess I’ll leave this here. Bye bye

[dear-diary-what-up]

Thursday, March 8, 2018 10:22pm

Dear Diary, what up

You know what I just watched today? Saving Private Ryan. You know what that movie was? Sad as fuck!

There are still tears on my face from it.

We were watching it in class and I missed a day so I decided to watch it at home to catch up. Tomorrow we were gonna finish it in class but I just thought to finish it at home.

I’m glad I watched it at home first cause I wouldn’t have been ready and I would have started crying at school. That would have been embarrassing.

Also yesterday the presentation at mathletes went horribly. We ended up in third place but there were only two other groups so that wasn’t good at all. Then I had to go to tennis practice that went iffy. Then I watched Kelly’s ASL thing which I felt guilty through because I should have been doing work. To make up for it I stayed up until like 11:28pm and ugh yeah it sucked. Then I woke up early today and finished it and had to do a whole bunch of last minute things. Also my shoulders, neck, and head have been hurting since yesterday so that sucks.

So the past two days could have gone better but hey, I could be dead.

I think that’s all I got so until later my dudes