dearest-erika

[dearest-erika]

I’ve never felt this sad in awhile. I just want to be around company and low key sit in silence. Or just be able to talk to someone about my issues. But most of all I’d rather not pay attention to my problems but rather listen to someone else so that way I can avoid my own. 

[dearest-erika]

reflection s u n d a y

Today is a day to reflect on the past week. To look and your wrongs and rights. To make things better,and most of all to 

c h a n g e 

things. 

[dearest-erika]

a bird apartment

[dearest-erika]

Today is the day to be thankful for a lot of things.

1)For many: equality of marriage has been legalized nation wide. Congrats to the LGBT community, today is for you. #loveislove :D

2)For my friends: Thank you for keeping me grounded, for advising me on what to do when times hit the fan. For being my partner in crime whether it is just to the mall or to grab coffee. For telling me things I may not want to hear, but saying it anyways out of love. (as stubborn as I can be). Your company and friendship have given me a different perspective on how I view things, and I'm forever grateful.

But yesterday made me realize a lot of things in life, and being able to escape the worlds problems for just a few hours and focus on the people around me was something that I can never forget. Thank you guys for yesterday. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

You all have a wonderful day.

[dearest-erika]

slowly but surely.

I’m learning to speak up for myself and having my voice heard. I’m tired of hearing people telling me what to do. I respect your opinion, but please don’t try to control me because you’ll definitely here back from me. 

[dearest-erika]

Sometimes all you need in life is a someone to talk to. Whether it is a friend to vent to, companionship, an activity to keep your mind from thinking the unthinkable. Sometimes all you need is reassurance that everything is going to be okay. 

[dearest-erika]

Be who you are, and say what you feel. Because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.

Dr. Seuss 

[dearest-erika]

late night thoughts...

It’s been a good minute or maybe two since I last spoke of this thing. I can’t really sleep at the moment due to the fact that I am not tired. Although I should be since I woke up about 730 today. Nonetheless, my vacation is AMAZING! Words cannot describe how it makes me feel to get my #sweetescape. 

Hawaii, or more specific the island of Kauai is by far one of the most peaceful places I have visite(ed). The ambiance, environment and amount of free spirited people has given me a enlightened me to see the world from a different view. The atmosphere is slow pace which makes you appreciate the things you do have versus the things you don’t have. It makes you realize the importance of family and how hospitable and welcoming they can be when visiting them. 

I’ll probably write a little later since I’m getting tired... 

Cheers to a good night. 

[dearest-erika]

I AM GROOT!

Free Crochet Pattern: Potted Baby Groot from Guardians of the Galaxy

[dearest-erika]

When your scared to do so something because your scared of the outcome. That & rejection I guess. 

[dearest-erika]

Nineteen things I’ve learned before I turned nineteen. 1. Always carry $5 and a lighter with you (even if you don’t smoke). 2. Ask every person you meet how their day is going. Genuinely ask with the soul intention of learning how their day is. Ask the coffee shop employee. Ask the person next to you in line at Walmart. Ask your distant friend. Ask everyone. 3. Take many photos of yourself. Take photos of yourself when you’re happy. Take photos of yourself when you’re sad. Take photos of yourself because there are millions of trees in the world, and we all look at the same sky, but there is only one of you. 4. Stay in contact with your parents. Try not to hate them. They are the reason you have the ability to feel anything at all. Try not to hate your parents. 5. Opening your skin will not set your demons free. Open your heart. Open your mind. Open your hands. 6. Nobody knows anybody completely. That’s okay. 7. Be gentle, but be aggressive. Take a stand. Nobody hears your voice if you stay silent. 8. Respect everybody. We are all humans trying to survive. We all deserve respect. 9. Wearing black will ALWAYS make you feel better about yourself. 10. Always give tips, whether it be a couple extra dollars or a piece of mind. You never know how much you could be helping someone. 11. Change is the only thing consistent in life. Do not allow that bother you. Embrace chance and move with life, whichever direction it chooses to take you. 12. Smile often. Smile at strangers. Smile at your friends. Smile when nobody is looking and you’re alone in your bedroom. Smile when somebody is rambling to you. 13. Body image means nothing. Your body is merely just a seatbelt in the car. Your body is here to protect you. You choose the direction you go, and your body will not hold you back. Only you can hold yourself back. 14. Don’t hold grudges. Don’t allow yourself to hate anybody. Forgive them. Learn to love them for the person you never got to see them to be. Believe that a beautiful human exists in that person. Wish them well. 15. Drink orange juice. Lot’s of it. 16. Don’t allow the opinions of others to choose your destiny. We are all simply trying to live our own life. 17. Sing all the time. Sing off key. Sing in a silly voice. Sing like you’re on stage. Sing no matter who is around. Singing is breathing for the soul. Sing. 18. Take time to think. Write your feelings down. Write letters to the people you love. Texting is overrated and not as heartfelt as a nice handwritten letter. 19. Live for yourself. Breathe for yourself. Do everything in your life for nobody but you. This is your life. This is it.

Katey Chrest (via acidicmoons)

[dearest-erika]

waking up to this song feeels AMAZING! Happy Thursday everybody!

[dearest-erika]

Take me back to edc2013! Throwback for sure! See you in a week Vegas (;

[dearest-erika]

That obligatory picture with friends @budder_b &&& @raquel_r #memorialdayweekend #vapeallday

[dearest-erika]

Look what came in the mail today!!!!! #edcpackage #edc #onemoremonth #firsttimer #someonemakemekandi #EXCITED

[dearest-erika]

My birthday present came a little earlier than I expected #cherryblossums

[dearest-erika]

Japanese curry of nom nom!