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if they didn't want me to think John Sheppard was gay, they shouldn't have written him like that

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Smirk

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happy birthday @rodneymckays <3

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one day you'll wake up and think, "life is okay". it'll happen gradually. you'll start to notice flowers blooming in a new light. your evening shower will be a sweet refuge. your morning coffee will warm your soul. things will seem bright and beautiful, and you'll wonder how you ever wanted to leave such lovely things behind

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so in the return part 1 when sheppard and mckay are one the phone, at the end of the scene mckay says ‘Hey, you know I..’ and sheppard hangs up

juxtapose that with when they’re in midway station and sheppard ends landry’s message saying ‘that way I won’t know what he was gonna say.’

well do i need to say anymore

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Stargate: Atlantis 2.06 “Trinity”

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been tagged by my wifey @lisan-algaib. thanks lovey! spoiler alert: it makes no sense “put your spotify (or non-spotify equivalent) on the 'on repeat' playlist, shuffle it and then share the first 10 songs. then tag 10 people.”

1. white america, eminem 2. heaven's gate, fall out boy 3. josephine, chris rea 4. intentions, macklemore ft. dan caplen 5. now that we don't talk, taylor swift 6. this is america, childish gambino 7. juke box hero, foreigner 8. bump heads, eminem ft. tony yayo, 50 cent, lloyd banks 9. gottasadae, bewhy 10. karate, baby metal

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It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

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everyone saying “i wish ten minute all too well was out when…” has anyone stopped to think that if lexie grey had it in 2011 she would have burned civilization to the ground.

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sheppard you do not have to clarify ‘in the way a friend cares about another friend’ when rodney asks if they all love him - no one was thinking about it that way apart from you my guy

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I'm only halfway through but here are my notes for The Ring

Lilah's hot as hell

Lilah Morgan could step on me, and I would thank her

Lilah's fucking hot.

There needs to be more jennylilah fics

I don't care one bit that Lilah's evil

She should be the main character

I'd watch her show in a heartbeat

Lilah's really pretty

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Happy 29th birthday, Meg!

All our ships (minus findaryen) featuring Anathema's Untouchable Part. 1. We've been on board for so long, captain! Love you with all my heart, my dearest. ♥

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Stargate Atlantis "The Shrine"

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i cannot stop thinking about this single moment, and yes I did make gifs just so I could scream about this.

Of all the things John could've said here. Not allowed, nope, not gonna happen, you can't, etc etc all of that. It's I can't.

LIKE HE CANT??

He can't what? Let Rodney do this? Let Rodney go and give himself up to the wraith knowing first hand what that pain feels like (not even getting into the fact that this is the same wraith that fed on him). Can't sit there knowing what Rodney will go through and what Rodney is willing to give up to save his sister, and I wonder if part of him is wondering how they got here. If he's to blame for Rodney willing to give up his life to save someone else. (he's not tbh, Rodney always been that brave IMO, he's just finally in a situation where he knows people have his back ((looking at u hide and seek my brave little toaster)))

I realize that hes saying "I can't" to Rodney asking permission to go (which, once again. is another thing I don't want to get into of Dr. Rodney McKay PhD PhD asking permission from his team lead to do this) but its' just. So insane to me that this was actual dialogue in an actual scene.

John can't let Rodney do this, and he won't let him do that and if John "orders are made to be ignored" Sheppard has to pull fucking rank to do it, then he will.

But he sure as hell won't meet Rodney's eyes as he does it. Not until Rodney says please and John lifts his head, meets Rodney's eyes, does an epic bottom lip wobble and then says he's sorry. look at the lip wobble and misty eyes people because I had to stare at this a lot when making another gif and I am FERAL over it. A+ acting JF, seriously. 10/10 gold stars for you.

John knows what it feels like to be fed on by a wraith, and he knows that pain. And maybe it's my little mcsheppy heart, but at the end of the day the pain is one thing. What John really can't do? Is let Rodney sacrifice himself.

He can't let Rodney go.

But he sure as hell has no issue letting Wallace go, knowing that pain, knowing what that feels like and knowing what it feels like to be so close to death, but Wallace doesn't get the happy ending. Wallace doesn't get his time back, and John (and the marines so hello I have more questions about them as well) watch it happen.

Because John can't let Rodney go.

And I'll never not want to scream about it.

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["And] in my option they are making a real connection and it’s a connection in such an impossible circumstance because of what they are - two enemies looking at each other across the battlefield knowing that they could really never possibly be together, but they wonder if they could, and so I think they have a powerful thing with each other.”

- "she's been a flame in his heart for a long time." Alexis Denisof talking about the relationship between Wesley and Lilah.