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thinking about the way that vex's first death alters her because in so many ways it's when she first loses her brother, when anything else comes before her to vax, even though neither of them want it. he has a duty, now, an obligation that he took on for her, and she resents him as much as she loves him and she loves him so much it makes her wish she stayed dead. guilt and anger and love love love love love, above all else love, so much she doesn't know what to do with it all, so much that she knows that the grief might kill her for good someday. and at the same time that first death is a sort of freedom that the twins never would have had otherwise: it gives them permission to really wholeheartedly love something else in this world because they know that, sooner rather than later, they are going to lose each other. i have to get back into the stream (and experience my favorite moments w her and percy from the briarwood arc over again) but rewatching the show has me almost in tears while i'm at work.

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"hey ani whatcha thinkin about" i am thinking about the twins i am thinking about how vex has spent so much of her life telling herself that her brother is the only person in the world that she can really trust (with her life, with her feelings, with her mind) whether or not she actually believes that, and i am thinking about how badly she wanted her father's approval long after leaving him. i am thinking of vex's family becoming smaller, slowly, slowly. i am thinking about vex making the active choice to love and trust in spite of this. i am thinking about vex's ability to recreate herself and choosing instead to remain someone who loves wholeheartedly and who trusts her friends and who forgives forgives forgives not only herself but the people around her. i am thinking about V E X now n always thanks for your time

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ANYA CHALOTRA as YENNEFER OF VENGERBERG THE WITCHER — 3x01: “Shaerrawedd” (2023)

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they invented romance btw

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list of things i’m desperate to see animated, #1: hot girl intimidation tactics

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ANYA CHALOTRA as YENNEFER OF VENGERBERG (The Witcher 3.02 “Unbound”)

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hi i'll be here soon june was just very rough and extremely exhausting and i'm finally getting some energy back. i miss vex i love her i can't wait to watch more cr & write more of my beloved

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they invented romance btw

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*plays wasteland, baby by Hozier*

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@xfindingtrouble said: ❝ sometimes we need the cold light of death before we can see reality. ❞  from percy,,,

She wishes she knew what to say to that.

Tragic, isn't it? There's no easy answer, no clever quip waiting at the tip of her tongue. She doesn't have anything to say to that and certainly nothing to take the weight out of it. A hand moves, and she only recognizes it as hers when she feels the soft skin of his ankle under her palm. Her fingers curl against the back of his heel, and she strokes her thumb across the top of his bare foot, her expression thoughtful, her silence deliberate.

"Sometimes," Vex acquiesces finally, and her hand slips up to curve against their calf. She is near overwhelmed by the sight of them, sometimes—the tousled white hair, sticking up at odd angles from the desperate ministrations of her own impatient fingers, the same ones now so gentle against their skin; the green of their eyes, almost startling, always beautiful; the crooked curve of their lips when they know something she doesn't and the crease between their eyebrows when she's said something deliberately wrong, just to get them going. "But—for what it's worth—I think, perhaps, we were inevitable."

There is a rage inside of her that is never quite quelled, located in the scarred chamber of her heart where she feels her brother's oath the most. There are scars across her body she can trace to map out a timeline of death and pain. There is a spot behind her left ear where Percy kissed her yesterday, one of his hands gathering her hair over her right shoulder and the other settled on her side, and his breath warm on her neck when he let out a chuckle at her yawn as she made peace with the morning. There is a section of skin where she has no sensation, the result of an exploding arrow that went off too soon and burned her fingertips while Pike was away. There is a hollow in the pit of her stomach when she thinks of Scanlan, and his silence, and her own guilt. There is a small cluster of freckles on her back that Percy traced when he climbed into bed beside her tonight, finger feather-light as he made out a shape that he swore was a constellation. There is agony inside of her, dulled only by years of learning how to swallow the pain she felt and let it burn her from within.

There is more love than she knows what to do with, sweet on her tongue like the taste of their kiss. Vex leans into them, and at once, they press their heels into the mattress so she can rest her weight against his thigh, her hand moving back to settle at their thigh.

"Almost losing you made me understand how badly it needed to be said." Her concession is quiet, thoughtful. "But even without that, I would have told you. I doubt I could have stopped myself if I tried."

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Song Lyric Writing Prompt #4: Until the Levee by Joy Williams

I saw a ghost out on the water.

I swear it had my face.

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Darling, take off the mask.

THE LEGEND OF VOX MACHINA | 1.12 - The Darkness Within

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@xfindingtrouble said: ❝ that was a bit over the top, don’t you think? ❞   from vax but it's a compliment

The corner of her mouth quirks up and her eyebrows lift, all cool disdain—save, of course, for the mischief in her eyes, the real amusement in that crooked smile. "Bold words from a man whose kill I had to finish," Vex answers smoothly, and she reaches to the quiver at her back to draw and nock another arrow. But their quarry is dead, thanks to the accuracy of her last hit (what more could be expected from an arrow that strikes the exact center of someone's open eye?) and she lowers her hand again and offers her brother the kind of smile she'd describe as satisfied and he'd no doubt describe as shit-eating.

It is a twin's privilege, she knows, to make the other utterly miserable, albeit lovingly. Vex turns to Vax and inclines her head, mimicking a gracious acceptance of victory, as if she's ever been gracious about anything like this. She doesn't enjoy the kill, and certainly doesn't crave it, but she can't pretend not to enjoy a display of her skills. (She can't pretend not to enjoy the compliment, from the only person whose approval really matters.)

"I believe," Vex says, with all the dignity she can muster despite that smile, "that saving your ass means you're buying, dear brother."

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moon knight (show) starters

❝ still wake up every morning still feeling like i got hit by a bus. ❞   ❝ i need you to listen to me very carefully. ❞   ❝ what’s the worst that could happen? ❞   ❝ you look scared. ❞   ❝ every time i learn something new about you, i think, “that’s it. there can’t possibly be any secrets left between us.” ❞     ❝ do you want to know the truth? there’s chaos in you. ❞   ❝ darkness. sometimes it hides in our very hearts. ❞   ❝ it’s like we’re in heaven. ❞   ❝ call me sentimental, but i worry about you. ❞   ❝ you were nothing more than a corpse when i found you. ❞   ❝ you’re a liar. i don’t believe you. i don’t trust you. ❞   ❝ tell me what it is you are. what are you? ❞   ❝ you know i’ll protect you with everything i have. ❞   ❝ it’s like i’ve not known you at all. ❞ ❝ oh, god. is that fresh blood? ❞ ❝ i don’t need protection. what i need is honesty. ❞ ❝ i need you to keep an eye out, because i’m being followed. ❞   ❝ this has to be a dream. this has to be a dream. ❞   ❝ i thought that you were in danger, or kidnapped. ❞   ❝ that thing’s about to break through the door. we’re out of time. ❞   ❝ i didn’t do that on purpose. ❞ ❝ i only punish those who have already done harm. ❞   ❝ this would be a great time for you to say something. anything. ❞   ❝ it’s maddening, isn’t it? the voice in your head. relentless, forever unsatisfied. ❞   ❝ no matter how hard you try to please, it devours you until there’s nothing left but a hollow shell. ❞   ❝ oh, my god. you’re alive. ❞     ❝ i don’t care what you can offer. i don’t trust you. ❞     ❝ do not let the pain of the past control you. ❞   ❝ sometimes we need the cold light of death before we can see reality. ❞   ❝ i’m sorry it had to be this way. ❞   ❝ i’ve heard it all now. ❞   ❝ this doesn’t need to happen. this was all so avoidable. ❞   ❝ i’ve never been able to just talk about everything. ❞   ❝ do you see the spiral you put me through? ❞   ❝ are you asking me out? ❞   ❝ why fight, knowing you will fail? ❞     ❝ tell me to spare you, and i will. ❞     ❝ why do all men like you feel it necessary to be just so condescending? ❞ ❝ not worried you might’ve burned too many bridges? ❞   ❝ you weren’t supposed to see any of this. ❞   ❝ it’s a hard thing, exhuming the pain of the past. it’s easy to get stuck. ❞   ❝ you’re not so innocent anymore, eh? ❞   ❝ there can be no progress without understanding. ❞ ❝ that was a bit over the top, don’t you think? ❞   ❝ just leave it. get out. go away from me. ❞   ❝ time has been cruel to you. ❞   ❝ i can’t believe it worked. ❞     ❝ i can’t believe you live in this mess. ❞     ❝ i survived because i knew i wasn’t alone. ❞     ❝ you’re looking pretty rough. ❞     ❝ i cannot allow you to proceed. ❞         ❝ i feel the pain inside of you. ❞ ❝ you’re lying. you’re just trying to upset me. ❞ ❝ everything reminds me of my past. ❞ ❝ i only punish those who have chosen evil. ❞     ❝ i was supposed to die that night. ❞   ❝ what the hell are you doing here? you shouldn’t be here. ❞   ❝ it’s just you and me, and the open road. ❞   ❝ you can never contain me. i’ll never stop. ❞     ❝ i know i’ve made you angry. i’m sorry. ❞   ❝ you’re in danger, and i can save us. ❞ ❝ i can’t have you interfering in what i have left to do. ❞      

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something something there is something to be said abt how, in the moments after vax is brought closest to death in this fight, when the only things saving him are keyleth (who got there first solely by initiative roll) and vex (who was on her knees at his side and probably had his blood on her hands), both the twins reached out to the person they loved most besides each other: vex reached up to grab percy's hand and anchor him to the world ("are you okay?" "i'm fine." "darling, take the mask off.") and vax confesses himself to keyleth ("you know i'm in love with you, right?" and i kiss her). they don't turn to each other. i think this might be the moment when they start allowing themselves to have roots outside of each other, not just in theory but in practice. vex reaches out to someone on the brink of self-destruction to pull him back (after he's already admitted word for word that if he was planning to end his own life, he wouldn't tell them) and vax reaches out to the person with whom he wants a new beginning (knowing that she'll be angry, and understandably so, that this happened again). if one twin dies they both die, as far as they're concerned at this point, and yet when that very nearly happens they allow one another growth in a new direction.