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Yes I've played Otome games before

Whenever I say I love playing visual novels I mean stuff like Katawa Shoujo and Your Turn to Die. HOWEVER... I've played a few otome games too because I'm a curious teenage girl and that's not a crime. Tbh otome games kinda suck but don't even take my opinion with a grain of SALT because I'm completely biased. The first otome game I've ever played and I mean like EVER was diabolik lovers. And diabolik lovers is... interesting... I have a friend who's just like me except when she says she loves playing visual novels she means A Date With Death and The Kid at the Back. I know that friendship kinda contradicts itself, but I swear we're chill with each other. I even sacrificed some of my sanity to help her download the game in English on her computer!! (IM SUFFERING HELP ME) My first interaction with this franchise was when I got recommended it on a peak anime site (RIP animeflix.gg) when scrolling too far down in the search. I remember the TERRIFIED expression that washed over my face as I giggled and sent a screenshot of it to my friend. Next thing you know she's asking me to help her get the game in English... Being the awesome friend I am, I fell down a very odd rabbit hole getting this game for her. Now that I'm educated on this topic, I can say with confidence that Kanato is the best character and Laito should be kicked in the balls until he can't use them anymore. Moving on from my traumatic experience with diabolik lovers (and having to watch playthroughs of each game to continue yapping with said friend) otome games arent THAT bad. Ppl used to hate on them so much before love and deepspace came out. "Omg those ppl who play dating sims are weird..." Same person pre-lads release. I'm pretty sure love and deepspace was so many ppls first otome game and I respect the hell out of it for paving its way for the otome game lovers of the world o7. Without lads, ppl like my questionable friend would have to hide their itch.io accounts and remove the icons of their games when they download them :C. Kind of like how ppl would react to you saying you were gay before 2016. Not everyone was okay with it, and majority of people would have a negative reaction hearing that from you, but nowadays it's just the people that don't know how to mind their business and care too much to have a negative reaction. And I know no one asked but if it's a purple haired character from an otome game, they're automatically my favorite and probably the best character anyway. I got a rafayel keychain at an alnst pop up cafe i went to a while ago and ive never plays lads before. My friend said that if I did, rafayel would be my favorite because he's also an artist anyway, so go figure. Uh yeah that's kinda all I wanted to talk about and I'm getting kind of tired and need to go to sleep soon anyway. Moral of the story, I can play otome games without out of curiosity, I still play normal visual novels like everyone else at the end of the day.

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Why wasn't I born pretty? :C (Tw: swearing/body dysmorphia/ED/mild sewerslide talk)

God I wish I wasn't 127 pounds of pure ugly shit and im not even fat im just not thin enough to feel pretty. i hate how i look and everything about myself. im not even an interesting person, i have so many hobbies but im not good at any of them. a boy at my lunch table this year told me straight to my face that i have no talent and that im a boring person and even though i know all of that was true it still hurt. and who the fuck is he to talk when he talks about anime and "jokes" about hentai all fucking day? I FUCKING HATE HIM AND HIS STUPID UGLY FUCKING FACE. hes so ugly too why does he get to call me a biggie because i weighed 130 pounds?? i hate myself so much and i cant help but let people who address things im insecure about get to me. ive been eating less and less lately on purpose to try and get thinner but honestly its just making me more tired and i dont know how much longer i can do this. i lost 3 pounds in the last 2 weeks and i dont even think ive gotten thinner ive just felt like a bigger piece of shit. so many people have probably complained about the same shit as me but i hate feeling this way so much. and everyone around me just says "oh but youre pretty" whenever i make a joke about my ugly appearance. AND I HATE IT SO FUCKING MUCH WHY DO THEY FEEL BAD ABOUT ME ENOUGH TO LIE TO ME ABOUT HOW I LOOK?? I HATE THEM ALL. i wish my life was like a fairytale or novel where in the end i live happily ever after and dont have to worry about how fucking big my arms and legs are as well as my stomach. i hate myself more than anyone else in the world and i wish that didnt bother me that much :C. i dont even want to die i just want to be pretty but ive done literally everything, makeup, hair, clothes, i cant fucking take it anymore. im so ugly and fat it hurts me so much. i wish i was thin and more talented. especially talent i fucking hate how useless i am. i love drawing, playing the violin, practicing taekwondo but i suck at all of them. i love doing theater so much probably more than i love playing violin but i hate my new teacher so much and all of my other classmates are better than me im never going on stage again next year. im not good or pretty enough for anything so what do i even do at this point? i wish no one ever spoke to me again and i spent the rest of my life in a hole. i cant joke about this with my friends anymore i cant joke anymore about how badly i want to be more appealing and smarter or about how much i want to disappear one day and for the ground to swallow me whole. i want to crawl out of my own skin and find someone else to be i really do i wish it was possible. i wish i wasnt such an annoying friend too im convinced none of my friends like me. ive been at school with them for just one year and even in the beginning i made an effort to ignore them but we ended up becoming friends anyway and i find it impossible to believe that any of them care about me when theyve been around each other for years i feel like an invasive species that needs to be kicked out or left to die. why do they even stick around me when i make stupid jokes and just so fucking ugly and hideous to look at. i wish i could talk to them about this kind of stuff without feeling like a burden for having made them aware of any of my life problems as a matter of fact i bet they already think of me that way and think that i probably cry to myself every night about this and now they feel bad and wont leave my side. even kids in my class look at me weird and my teachers probably all hate me especially my art teacher he probably hates about how i talk about art with him all the time and want to do animations in highschool he probably thinks im so annoying and would prefer it if i dropped out of his class so hed have less annoying kids to deal with. im starting to talk more about how other people think of me and now i feel like an angsty teenager typing this up so im probably gonna cry for a bit and then go to bed please ignore this post i just need to let out my emotions for a bit in a healthy way.

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Yansim fans should write the rest of yansim for groomerdev

Now I'm not saying that gro0merdev deserves it... But the yansim fandom has built so much lore and stories abt the other rivals from literal SCRAPS. ESPECIALLY the yansim male rivals fans TvT. Yansim male rivals visual novel when?? The male rivals fans will always be the funniest to me because there are already "canon" headcanons about all of them that the rest of the fandom just abides by. So much from one April Fools video... There isn't that much media of them though, but that's not who I want to really talk about right now. I'm talking about the people who make the gacha rivals react videos, the concept videos abt the future rivals, the (yuri) fanfiction, etc. Like where did this all come from?? We only have two rivals and honestly some of the theories and writings that fans made about Amai was 10x better than whatever the hell gro0merdev was cooking up. Osana is fine though, she's kind of like a tutorial rival which I guess sets the base of the game for the others. What baffles me though is the lengths some people will go to defend this game even though we KNOW the developer is a FREAK. I'm specifically talking about the people who defend the sister rival. I'm not gonna talk about Mida and Muja because genuinely how are you gonna stick up to a pedo but why aren't we on Hanako's case... Like the male rivals fans like to pretend that Hanako isn't related to Ayano in those AU's where theyre all being shipped with Ayano which is good and I respect that. But guys Taro and Hanako are canonically related... "O-Oh! B-But Dede-sama! She's a rival, she's just meant to get in Ayano's way of being with senpai!" THEN WHY DOESN'T GRO0MERDEV GO OUT OF HIS WAY TO SAY THAT... Until gro0merdev says something I'm gonna assume that Hanako's week is going to end in a love confession like every other rival. So uh to all the yansim fanfiction writers who write Hanako x Ayano or Taro/Yandere AU/Possible Yan-kun, let me know if you make them related so that I can stay away from you <33!! I love fanfiction writers for making those things that gro0merdev made obviously problematic or rewrite it to make it less weird. W to you guys.

p.s let me know if a male rivals visual novel ever comes out im running out of visual novels after finishing katawa shoujo for the 7th time :P

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Me need j*b because me need money :C

We need to bring back child labor /j

Okay but fr why does no one wanna hire kids anymore like yes im 14 idgaf i want a j*b T-T. And also I JUST NEED MONEY. I live in Texas so having money means going to Ross and dressing like the shoujo girl protagonist that you are. No money means going to the park and arguing with 7 year olds about who gets to use the swings. But yeah I also want some money for this super discreet game idk if you've heard of it... It's called Persona... So if I don't get a j*b soon I'm going to pirate Persona and cry as I go to Ross to window shop :C P.S. if anyone living in Texas has any j*bs that hire 14 year olds hmu...

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People who write character.ai intros and/or make the bots need to start writing fanfiction

SPECIFICALLY CANON X READER FANFICTION I don't use character ai but I keep seeing character ai bot intros on my tikietakie fyp (specifically for bungo stray dogs) and all I have to say is stop using ai and start using ao3. No one (outside of tumblr bc yall are a bunch of FREAKS jk i love you <33) writes canon x reader fanfiction anymore T_T. And I'm STARVING when I say starving I mean STARVING for more canon x reader fanfiction. And I don't even mean it in the romantic ship way, I just need more fics where reader is like a super parental character's child and it just explores that happy dynamic :C (ex: Kunikida and Aya from bsd). I DONT EVEN CARE IF ITS FREAKY !! We need to bring back the good old days when we were writing more canon x reader fics BECAUSE I SAY SO. Society took 23 steps back when we decided that self insert or canon x oc/reader was cringe. Be cringe and be happy guys. And if you've read this far you, yes YOU should write me a fic where Tsuchigomori from TBHK adopts reader/child because that man is a father of 3 and I STAND BY THAT.

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My intro !! ੈ✩‧₊˚༺☆༻ੈ✩‧₊˚

⧣₊˚﹒✦₊ ⧣₊˚ 𓂃★ ⸝⸝ ⧣₊˚﹒✦₊ ⧣₊˚ /) /) (｡•ㅅ•｡)〝₎₎ basic info abt me !! ✦₊ ˊ˗ . .╭∪─∪────────── ✦ ⁺. . .┊ ◟﹫ Name : Dede . .┊﹒𐐪 Age : 14 . .┊ꜝꜝ﹒Pronouns : she/her . .┊ ⨳゛MBTI : INFJ . .┊ ◟ヾ Nationality : Arab/Middle Eastern (im bilingual too :D) . .┊﹒𐐪 Hobbies : Violin and drawing (im not very good at them tho) . .┊ ◟﹫ Extra : I love playing visual novels ^^ (not the freaky ones !!) ╰───────────── ✦ ⁺. ⧣₊˚﹒✦₊ ⧣₊˚ 𓂃★ ⸝⸝ ⧣₊˚﹒✦₊ ⧣₊˚

Heya !! I decided to start a blog now that I'm out of school and summer has started bc who am i going to yap to?? A little bit more about me irl, I'm starting high school as a freshmen next year and im super excited >_< I'm in way too many fandoms to count but the ones im most hyper fixated on right now are bungo stray dogs (none of my irl friends know about it) and danganronpa (none of my irl friends know about this one either). The ones I wont yap about as much because more irl friends like it... PJSK (I LOVE YOU MIKU) and Alien Stage (hyuna is alive...). I'm super open to making friends here and I lowkey might start writing fics here too lol.

P.S. none of my irl friends know about this blog so i should be good (ᵕ ´ ∇ ˋ ˶)