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What’s It’s Like Being an Overweight Ana

(From my own experience and mutuals)

Fitting into old clothes is never a milestone because while a normal or underweight Ana can be like “I fit into my 6th grade dress!” If I did that, it would be a gigantic failure because, besides my birthweight, this is the lowest weight I’ve ever been in my life. Yeah, I’m smaller than I was in middle school, but that’s because I was morbidly obese and now I am just overweight.

I don’t feel empowered or “dainty” when I get smaller portions at public gatherings or deny a second helping. I feel like I look and sound fucking ridiculous. It feels like people are looking at you like, “I know your fat ass eats more than that.”

We are your reverse thinspo, and that just sucks

For reasons I’ll never understand, the higher your weight, the more calories your body requires to maintain itself. If you restrict, for example, 50% of your intake, it’s still a higher limit than normal weight anas which leads you to constantly doubt your disorder because you can’t survive on 200 calories a day (I mean, no one can, but you get my point, competitive sickness and all)

Normal and underweight Ana’s can have one or two friends to confide in if they get into dangerous territory, but nobody will believe you have an eating disorder, let alone being able to get hurt by it. Who’s gonna force feed us a fast-acting carbohydrate when our heart begins to freak out? Oh yeah, nobody because they’ll assume it’s probably the adverse effects of obesity.

If I begin to feel sick, or like I am going to faint, I have to put all of my effort into hiding that shit because if something happened, people would think I am being dramatic for attention.

Compliments on your weight loss are great, but you’ll never completely enjoy them because that just means everyone noticed how fat you were before.

Being unable to see your ED as a bad thing because as debilitating that it is, it saved you from obesity

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Gimme a hey if you silently resent your parents for not showing you a healthy lifestyle, which ultimately lead to you having the exact same unhealthy habits as them.

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If I could time travel

I would go back to 2014 and find myself and lock her in a room for 2 months so she can lose the weight BEFORE her skin is 80% stretch marks.

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Being a dirty text relationship

TBH It’s mostly saying something 2% suggestive in hopes the other will jump on it and make it sexual.

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no offense but…..i’m tired of like……………not being stunningly beautiful

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Swishing water in ur mouth almost feels like eating.

Started doing this to get food from by my wisdom teeth after surgery and it’s 👌

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Shout out to heart break!

For being some real good motivation to stop being such a fatass. -duble finger guns-

In better news i lost 10 pounds in 1 week. -lil depression dab-

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Finally did it ppl

BMI is no longer obese. Y’all looking at a technically overweight bitch now. 😎

Now to get to the Normal range and then maybe just a bit lower for good measure. ✨

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Sleeping and going on the scale is the best part of my day. (Except for when the scale tells me I’m fat)

Honestly, not eating isn’t the hard part for me. It’s the waiting. Every moment of the day I just want it to be over: so I can go to sleep, wake up, and get back on the scale, so it can tell me I’m one step closer.

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Don’t call me out 😰

Big ana mood: dig in trash ‘cause you forgot to look cals on the package

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Naw son I’m too fat I’m just making healthier life choices. Pasta is just the worst.

you think you’re faking this? ok. prove it.

delete tumblr. delete myfitnesspal. delete any and all calorie tracking apps. go into your kitchen. right now. get up and walk into your kitchen. now make a pot of pasta or spaghetti. or make a salad with chicken or a smoothie. or make a few eggs with some potatoes. or heat up the leftovers in the fridge. don’t count it. don’t measure it. don’t look up the calories. then sit down and eat the whole thing. don’t cut it up small, don’t wait until a certain time, don’t stare at it for forever before you eat it. cook it, put it on a plate, and eat it. maybe scroll through instagram or watch a tv show while you eat. like a post on your explore page about loving pizza without thinking of the calories or feeling fat. when you’re done eating, don’t go to the mirror, don’t go to the scale, don’t go to the toilet to throw up. then go on with your life without thinking about what you just ate or when you’ll eat next. now do that every time you first feel hungry every single day for the rest of your life.

if you can do that, fine. i’ll believe you. you’re “faking it”.

but if even one step of that sounds like your own personal hell, shut up because you’re absolutely not fake and your problems are beyond valid and you deserve to recover right now right where you are.

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From 290 to 220. (Ignore the fact I’m wearing a pad in the first picture) i felt like I had to post this because body dismorphia is REAL and today I was 2 pounds heavier because I ate like shit yesterday and I was certain I was morbidly obese again. I’m still not where I want to be but by my birth day (in the spring) I’m gonna be a SKINNY LEGEND!!!! 💫✨🌝💀👌

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Every day can’t be a good day but every minute can be a new start.

Make better decisions right now instead of later.

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With a starting weight of 295 I relate but I’m at 220 now! I’ve lost 75 in 4 and a half months! Keep going for your health and savor the moment you get to a healthy BMI. But don’t give up then either! I’ve got at least 80 lbs to go I’m half way there!!!!

problems of anas starting at an actual obese weight

-your lowest weight is other peoples highest.

-people never noticing that you don’t eat due to your weight.

-ACTUALLY being medically fat, not just feeling fat.

-having legitimate problems working out (knees can’t handle all the weight, asthma, etc)

-”you probably shouldn’t eat that, should you?” when taking your first bite of a remotely unhealthy food in MONTHS.

-losing over 70lbs and still not be close to ‘thin’.

-thinner anas looking down on you because you’re not skinny enough. (actually happened)

-thinner anas telling you to ‘stop starving yourself’ or ‘turn back before you get sick’ when you’ve actually been doing this longer than them.

-MORE SIDE EFFECTS!

-being petty and offended when people half your size call themselves fat in front of you, well knowing you weigh twice as much as them. (this is a personal problem but still)

-actually being happy to be at a NORMAL weight for once. 

-”MY BMI IS FINALLY UNDER 25!”

-lower chances of actually hitting your ugw because your body literally can’t lose more.

-LOOSE SKIN. L O T S OF IT. 

-knowing you’ve lost more than most of the fellow anas, but not being able to talk about it because your cw isn’t low enough just yet.

so shoutout to all the bigger people with anorexic tendencies, because they deserve way more. because they’ve gone through this pain for so long without enough recognition. because within the ana community, they’re often not even acknowledged. because THEY ARE VALID TOO. 

i started at over 250lbs and hit my first plateau at 149, so i do have a right to complain, thank you very much. (i’m just over 5′4. just imagine.)

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yeah, if i could just cancel my subscription to my appetite? it’s pretty expensive and i’m not really enjoying the content

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Tbh I’ve been isolateing myself bc I want ppl to hella notice the weight I’ve lost.

a friend: whoah, we really need to catch up, why weren’t you calling me lately?

me: sorry, I was too busy having an eating disorder