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Something I now understand about myself as an autistic is that I'll use idiosyncratic speech to explain my emotions.

Idiosyncratic speech is a way of speaking that is unique to the person. It's very common in autism.

Example:

"I feel cloud fluffy" to describe that you feel happy.

I did this many times as a kid, and it often got me picked on, even by family.

To describe the fact that I was feeling abandoned and left out of something, I said "I wish I was just a teddy bear on a shelf."

This was a running joke in the family for years because of how odd it was, but I always felt sad when it was brought up as a joke, and now as an adult I have the language to understand why.

Because I was trying to tell the adults around me that I felt something bad, and it was seen as cute and funny.

As an adult, I still use idiosyncratic speech, although I internalise it more as I understand that people won't understand what "I feel like a spikey ball" means.

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Yeah I just can’t get into male characters. Every time one shows up he’s always just the Male Character to get brownie points and make an obvious epic maleboss so the writer can feel better about themselves. Not to mention they’re always getting in the way of my cute yuri ship. I just rather go focus on women instead. They’re always the more interesting and better written characters than the one random man they decided to shoehorn in.

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Galactic latte

The English words galaxy and latte are etymologically related. Galaxy stems from the Ancient Greek word for 'milk', gála, which has the same Proto-Indo-European ancestor as Latin lactem, which became latte in Italian.

The Milky Way was named after its milky glowing band in the night sky. Galaxy used to mean 'Milky Way', but it became a word for any star system when it turned out ours is not the only one in the universe.

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I love when fiction makes the audience feel guilty about their role as the audience. When something fucked up is treated as a joke but later it's recognised how fucked up it was and the audience feels guilty for finding it funny. When a character breaks the fourth wall to plead for help, and you can't do anything so you just watch. And you know that the characters pain isn't real, but they're begging for help and you're not helping because their suffering is entertainment for you

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*tries to roll dodge and falls into the 1 water*

autistics who are bad at their video game special interest rise

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“…you’re afraid you don’t fit in, you’re afraid you’ll be alone. Great news! You share that with all of us, so you’ll never be alone and you’ll always fit in.”

“You’re stronger. You’re better. You have friends. No, screw that. You have a family.”

[insp.]

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I think you are really weird, Abed. And I think the wrong person just left.

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the only reliable, effective way of "protecting children" is education. but people don't want to hear that because they don't actually care about protecting children, they care about protecting a mythologised ideal of innocence

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an interesting linguistics find! so I'm reading this text from 1908 and it keeps referencing "hp" in the context of "not being at full hp" "applying your full hp to a task" etc

and I'm like....... okay that is a perfectly normal way to describe energy and reads totally clear to me, but I KNOW you don't mean hit points/health points which is the first place my brain goes, so what are YOU using hp to mean

and it's not explained in-text, which means it was common enough to not warrant explanation to the 1908 audience, so gotta look elsewhere

horsepower. turns out it's horsepower.

and I'm absolutely FASCINATED that a commonly used initialism from 1908 now stands for something different AND YET the contextual meaning is still the same to a 21st-century reader

I could hand this guy my nintendo switch and he'd be like, ah yes I understand, this ''''pokemon'''' loses horsepower throughout the fight

language is amazing

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I am gently taking your hands and begging you, BEGGING YOU, to understand that humans are not inherently harmful to the planet. We are animals who are part of the ecosystem. We belong here. This is our home. We belong here. You belong here. Yes, you belong here.

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Do you think Troy and Abed ever watched the Spider-Man movies and noticed how the guy in the bank scene in Spider-Man 2 looked exactly like Jeff?

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Hm i wonder why i feel so disconnected? *watches from afar* *watches from afar* *watches from afar* *watches from afar* *watches from afa

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social media needs to add multiple tiers of blocking someone

I should be able to differentiate between "you seem perfectly nice but I do not enjoy seeing your posts," "you view the world through an ideological framework that I find flawed at best and repellent at worst," and, of course, "I Am Killing You With My Mind"

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You’re accused of your favorite character or OC’s crimes. Are you getting arrested for this?

Ye

ye but for a little

naur

jail forever

DEATH SENTENCE.

esults

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Don't know if you wanted an answer, but I just wanted to be clear: this is absolutely not the benchmark for being noise sensitive. There's lots of ways for that to manifest, you don't have to be bothered by things other people can't even hear for your struggle to count and matter.

babygirl I'm bothered by noises you wouldn't even hear

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all my love to other autistic people who just know jack shit. the ones who have no "infodump" locked and loaded, nothing they can rattle off the top of their head. the ones who have a specific interest in certain things but still not knowing a lot about it. autistic people who will never be able to memorise fun facts about something no matter how fundamental it is to them as a subject. the point of autistic interests are not being a secret expert on random shit, you just like it a real big amount