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WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!

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dino family

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looks like the government is doing something about cults

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SO weird to me that the default assumption in modern fandom is that you must be attracted to your favorite characters. nah man those are just my funky little guys and gals i want to study them under a microscope. i want to put them in a mason jar and shake it and see what happens

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Anyone who uses the excuse "My Autism, ADHD, Bipolar, etc" for being a poorly socialized jackass as an adult isn't worth your time.

Like girl, I get it. You were cast a lot that makes learning certain things harder. But they aren't a fucking shield and it's ablest as fuck to just state because you or someone else is neurodivergent/mentally ill means they can't change. Empathy is a skill. Active listening is a skill. They can be learned by anyone with enough time and effort.

I'm an ADHD haver and high school drop out. Being employed has not been easy for me. I had zero social awareness and felt like a fucking feral human until my late 20s. I never thought I'd be in management because of how much difficulty I've historically had with people. But I made my mistakes and learned. It was painful and awkward and I hurt a lot of people I didn't want to on the way. That's just the cards I was dealt. I made the best of what I had and continue to try and improve my social skills.

Please for the love of god stop using this shit as a shield for personal lack of wanting to improve. And especially stop self diagnosing yourself with autism so you can specifically use it as a shield. It's infuriating.

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Pack Animal, now with color!

Compared to a brahmin, a well trained pack-deathclaw is worth its weight in caps, as they often only need to eat once a week. Caravaneers often proudly display little tokens on their valuable beasts of burden - those who wander off can be easily identified.

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Official Monster Hunter Rise Sunbreak concept art: Turf wars

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Ayami Kojima for Rose Cult (a doujinshi magazine)

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being anti ai is making me feel like in going insane. "you asked for thoughts about your characters backstory and i put it into chat gpt for ideas". studies have proven its making people dumber. "i asked ai to generate this meal plan". its causing water shortages where its data centers are built. "ill generate some pictures for the dnd campaign". its spreading misinformation. "meta, generate an image of this guy doing something stupid". its trained off stolen images, writing, video, audio. "i was talking with my snapchat ai-" theres no way to verify what its doing with the information it collects. "youtube is impletmenting ai based age verification". my work has an entire graphics media department and has still put ai generated motivational posters up everywhere. ai playlists. ai facial verification. google ai microsoft ai meta ai snapchat ai. everyone treats it as a novelty. every treats it as a mandatory part of life. am i the only one who sees it? am i paranoid? am i going insane? jesus fucking christ. if i have to hear one more "well at least-" "but it does-" "but you can-" im about to lose it. i shouldnt have to jump through hoops to avoid the evil machine. have you no principles? no goddamn spine? am i the weird one here?

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Something I threw together quick for a client using some models I already had lying around. Wyvern Rex and Keptos, two extinct concept creatures from Monster Hunter artbooks now resurrected as fantasy paleoart with a confusing diegesis.

Both monster models are my own creation; the ground assets are some random photoscans I had lying around from somewhere.

Based visually on a piece of 2D art who's original source I unfortunately cannot seem to track down, but if anyone recognizes what this is referencing and can give me the artist's contact info I'd love to have it!

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I think a lot of people who make mpreg jokes do it because they consider pregnancy something that 'tames' a person and 'knocks them down a peg'. They think pregnancy is something that marks a person as inherently submissive. Getting pregnant means being submissed to them. They also think that male pregnancy is a feminist concept not because it recognises trans and intersex men as men, but because something 'feminine' and 'submissive' is forced upon a man. Because that's what pregnancy is to them - something that is done to a person. They think pregnancy is emasculating. Remember this meme?

To people like this it's a feminist line because a woman dominated a man by impregnating him. This is an incredibly fucked up and misogynistic view of pregnancy, and it also reveals the shallow understanding of feminism a lot of people have: masculinity is dominance and femininity is submission, so the idea of a man in a feminine position is inherently feminist, because he is submissed. Especially if he was put in this position by a woman, because then the switch is complete - the woman is the dominant one by forcing him into something.

And yes, I said the idea of a man in a feminine position is inherently feminist to them, NOT the man himself. The feminine position he is in makes him an object to be viewed and discussed, not a subject with thoughts and beliefs. The pregnant man is not a feminist, he's a feminist concept. That, I think, is the core of the problem with mpreg jokes - to people who make them, a pregnant man is an idea, a symbol, a fictional situation, instead of a real human being. They ignore the existance of actual men that can get pregnant in favour of the idea of them, because the first one has agency, and the second one has no agency (because he exists in their head). To people like that, pregnant men = blorbos jokingly impregnated by defying biology, or blorbos in ABO AUs, not the living, breathing trans and intersex men. They imagine pregnant men for many reasons: as a sexual fantasy, to make a joke, to declaw and tame them, but never to actually consider what it's like for real life men with uteruses. Pregnancy is just another situation they can put their blorbos in, not a real thing some men go through. So there's no space in their minds for the discrimination we face in gynecological and prenatal care, or the fear of being forcibly impregnated as a way to detransition us. Pregnant men are theoretical to them, just like catboys, so they get annoyed when we remind them that we exist and shoo us away claiming they're not talking about us.

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My life is so fucking funny sometimes.

Quit my job for stressed.

Grandma died

Moved back in with my dad temporarily and it's a little rough

BUT

Immediately hired on the spot first interview I have. Pay raise by 6 dollars. Perfect part of town for me.

Dog is super happy with a yard

Getting tons of time to chill and recenter

Then suddenly knee acting up.

BUT ALSO PARTICIPATED IN AN ART AUCTION AND MAKING AN INDECENT AMOUNT OF MONEY FOR MYSELF AND CHARITY FUCK HOLY FUCK

and then this morning I knock an ancient filling out of the one tooth I've ever had a cavity in L O L.

I'm not stressed rn at all, though. Injuries come and go. I can wait a while for insurance to kick in. Shit is overwhelmingly going well for me in spite of all the struggle. It feels good. I'm so lucky to have so many amazing and supportive friends. It's unreal to me how desired my art actually when it's seen. Like all these years of keeping steady and grinding have been worth it. Nothing has or ever will be easy, but it's made me stronger than I ever imagined I could be.

If you're out there at the place I was at the start of my personal improvement journey-- Unable to muster the energy to even stand up in the shower, unable to hold a job, lacking reasons to want to live... Listen.

You can fucking so this. Find something to live for and put all of yourself into it. For me, that was transition and independence. Some people start at zero, others less than that. It will take so much time and effort. You cannot do everything at once.

But my god once you are a decade in on making yourself live for you, you will look down that mountain you just climbed and be astonished at how much you can accomplish.

Be resourceful. Use the tools you are given. Change strategy if something isn't working, and always remember mistakes don't equate to failure unless you refuse to learn from them. But do so kindly. Be gentle with yourself. High expectations, low stress.

Anyway, I wish everyone as much happiness as I feel right now. It's certainly going to be more rough once I start working. Writing this all down so when it's bad I can still smile and appreciate the important things.

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Kalameet dragon art doll Commission

The head of this dragon is sculpted by hive_mind_3d and I made the rest.

Resin, faux fur, fabric, plastic+wire skeleton, acrylic. Neck, tail, and wings are poseable. Legs and loins are poseable as well.

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Nynx art doll

Commission

Resin, faux fur, plastic+wire skeleton, acrylic. Fully poseable.

Size: 58 cm full length

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final art fight revenges! the last two are woodburnings

had such an amazing year this year, thank you to everyone who attacked me i'm very overwhelmed with love and joy....never been so pummelled i really do appreciate it thank you <:'^) also managed to get 37 attacks done which is the most i've done since my first year i think? idk either way yippeee i'm feeling happy feeling good!! thanks for a great art fight!

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loafin'

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genuinely so obsessed with this twitter post