delightfulnerdcat

[delightfulnerdcat]

Happy birthday..

It's getting close to being nearly the worst one yet. I'm so depressed and feeling so low at the moment!

There must be something I can do!

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I'm not happy..

I feel so used, I've been talking to a lady for about 7 months now. I just found her online. In America 🇺🇸 she said she likes in London. I've been talking to her sister and seen her mum.

I found her online this morning. As someone else. I'm done now. Everyone on all the apps is fake. And I've had enough!

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Tired....

I've been absolutely shattered all day today. I've had two one hour sleeps, and I'm still shattered.

I think it's going to be another one of those days today... things are falling apart in front of me. Without me lifting a finger.

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What another horrible night's sleep...

One has had less than an hour so far... I think I'm going to struggle tomorrow at this rate!

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That's not funny....

I've only had two hours of sleep again last night.

I wish I could get a decent night's sleep. It's not that I'm not doing too much. I finally dropped off about three fifty, but I've been awake since five (I just got another 30 minutes), but I'm still shattered.

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I'm shattered...

I did sleep better last night, waking up at 10 am.. I didn't get to sleep until nearly four.

Credit...

I'm still haven't issue on getting credit for the fun side of life. I'm not giving up (it killed my phone through the morning trying). I have money in the account, I'm just having issues connecting to the PayPal apps.

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Another try to add a private post...

Another self-portrait.

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Christmas day...

Is drawing to a close. It's been a strange one this year. Luckily, my sister had us all over, so it turned out ok.

Another ten minutes, and it'll be midnight. I've just gone to bed, but I don't think I'll be asleep anytime soon.

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Fed-up...

I've been trying for days to open a PayPal account to get some things. Unfortunately, it's failed every time I've tried. I have a friend to help but I won't be in contact for another month! I will just have to wait.

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Sleep, what sleep...

Last month, I've had less than two hours of sleep per night. Last night was even worse... I slept for about 15 minutes, then woke up with a startle. That happened about six times. Now I don't want to go to sleep.

It's now two thirty, and I'm still awake. I'm absolutely 💯 shattered, but I'm still going!

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Things need to change...

One is not handing things too well at the moment. Especially as it's coming up to not a good time of year for me. I hate the winter since a good four hours ago or so? I never liked this time of year, but it's been competely shit since I was in my teens.

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Dribbling...

I've been thinking over this lady for weeks now. The amount of pre-cum that's been ouzing out is mental. I must have had about twenty erections in the afternoon, never mind the evening and night. It's certainly got me going. I've also started to have vivid dreams again... not about anything in particulate, but there's been a lot.

I'm hopefully seeing her tomorrow... it depends on what's going to happen. If I had my way it would be her.

I know she wouldn't take any chances with unsafe sex... but I'd love to try her out and see how far she'd push things. I have been extra flirting with her, especially tonight. She doesn't seem to drink much... I even went onto coke tonight (although I'd had a good six pints again). I'll see what happens over the next few weeks.

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India...

One met a lady called India a few weeks ago. She is younger than me, but is very, very fit.

I'm not pushing my luck, but she's wonderful, and I'm looking forward to seeing her again. even if nothing becomes of it.

It can't be as bad as the last two relationships I've encountered in the last three years.

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Merry fucking christmas...

This has been the worst ever week. So many things have gone wrong. I've liked a ladie on here for a good two weeks. But she was only here to scew me over. I'm so fed up with trusting people at the moment... it may never happen again.

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It's nearly Christmas...

The trees and decorations are all up, in the livingroom' and the bedroom. It looks really festive this year. I will only need a few more bits, but that will wait until next year. I've over spent this year x.

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Cold coffee...

I've got into a habit of having cold coffee...

I make it with the intention of drinking it in about five to ten minutes. Unfortunately I'm busy doing things and keep forgetting them. I've had at least five haft mugs this week!