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i forgot the context of this but this apparently happened on his birthday

now this is just sad but it takes time so what else can i dooooo

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i havent spiraled this bad since august 1 this is sickening

another depressive episode literally what the fuck is new

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another depressive episode literally what the fuck is new

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now this is just sad but it takes time so what else can i dooooo

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i lied. with you it was so easy

and maybe ill never get used to being vulnerable in general

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and maybe ill never get used to being vulnerable in general

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i can be patient but that doesn't really dismiss the loneliness that creeps up on me hahsjajajah

its okay i just have to be patient 🥹🥹 i need to ground myself because i want this one to last

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its okay i just have to be patient 🥹🥹 i need to ground myself because i want this one to last

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thank god i was worried for nothing 🧍‍♀️

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its me and my parental issues against the world

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honestly labels r so annoying in a sense (it's not. it's a necessity when it comes to defining your relationship) likeee wdym we need to decide on what we are ??? i cant just say "i love him very much" and js be happy with him ????

label is such a hard thing to talk about i might just cry

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label is such a hard thing to talk about i might just cry

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sulking is backfiring rn goddamn but ill trust the process a bit more

i cannot sulk anymore. pls talk to me again my pride isnt allowing me to approach you first pls just text ne again GUSTO KO LANH NMN KASI NG LAMBING ☹️☹️☹️🤣🤣🤣🤣

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i cannot sulk anymore. pls talk to me again my pride isnt allowing me to approach you first pls just text ne again GUSTO KO LANH NMN KASI NG LAMBING ☹️☹️☹️🤣🤣🤣🤣

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🥹🥹🥹 sadness felt inaccurate until i realized i was rarely sad these days bc im together w this silly nerd (i asked him to graph my emotions)

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having a date despite having busy scheds is such a bad idea bc deadass i just miss him more now aaaaaaa 🥹🥹

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honestly theres times when idk if he rlly acts diff towards me but then i get reminded of the fact that he rarely talks to anyone but is a huge yapper to me 🥹 bc tbh with u things never changed for us !!! like we didnt rlly change the way we talk to each other (though i tend to get all flirty now when i get an opportunity) so sometimes i wonder if anything rlly changed between us ??? but he really wouldnt just call someone up at 11 in the evening then yaps about taylor swift albums, genshin banners, and greek mythology 😭

in short i just terribly missed hearing his voice when he was on that boracay trip. we did nawt call during that it was so sad