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muggle au where they all raise baby harry together and it's chaotic af.

they just got out of college. it all starts with a drunk one night stand. lily has to postpone grad school, james hates the degree he chose. sirius wants his own tattoo studio and is obliviously in love with remus, who's struggling with money and juggling three jobs. regulus shows up at sirius' door one night with nothing but a bag and a cry for help. peter is accidentally dating four people at once and has no idea how to fix it. dorcas is trying to open her own restaurant and marlene is pretending she's not a lesbian. mary's modeling career is sucking the life out of her.

they're confused and there are no established couples at first because everything is so messyyy (could be jily, jegulus, marylily, pandalily or even jeguily endgame u guys suit urselves).

they're all shitty young adults trying to pretend they're not hungover while bringing harry to a playdate in the park. big fights in the living room, stopped by the baby taking his first steps. monthly birthday cakes celebrated on the floor of an apartment that barely has furniture.

at least five of them showing up for harry's parent-teacher meeting at preschool. remus hyperventilating because harry cut his finger and it's covered in blood. sirius' hair becoming harry's favorite toy.

they're great with him. and they're so messed up with each other. they fuck things up so bad. and so many times. they're so lost.

please please please who's gonna write it

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hi. fuck ice. here is how you can help families affected by unlawful deportation

edit: and FUCK LAPD. here is how you can help bail out protestors who are in the trenches, facing mass arrests and putting their bodies on the line.

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I just read The Cadence of Part-Time Poets in its entirety. I had to stop and read even though i can normally finish it in like a day. It was genuinely one of the most beautifully written fics i have ever read ??? I am so enamored by the story building and i just couldn’t bear rushing through it like i had to savor the chapters and characters. Pls pls read @motswolo hand in marriage pls rn

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Read All the Young Dudes in 18 hours for the first time ever and need more wolfstar fr like itching and feigning for some more

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There is no stronger force than that of a girl’s desperation to write about her male hyperfixation.

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so real

overheard someone say that lesbians don’t have male icons the way gay men have female icons…. baby you have not logged onto tumblr dot com. the lesbians are dedicating blogs to men who look like the default mii

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Make you feel my love pt. 2 (remastered)

A/N: Hey y'all sorry for the late updates a lot has happened. I wasn't happy with the last chapter so it was rewritten. I def prefer this version better. I look forward to releasing part 3 soon! Hope y'all enjoy! Thank you all for the insane love you have been giving the story!

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6 years, 9 months and 15 days before… 

The room was quiet. You and Ellie laid in her bed giggling at another stupid pun. You ended up snorting at her jokes which only egged Ellie on more. When she looked at you it felt like the world was only you two. You felt like the sun revolved for her. She looked so pretty when she laughed, it always made you giddy. You liked her so bad it hurt. You were so scared to tell her, you knew Ellie liked girls but you grew up with her. She saw every version of you, and she loved every version of you. 

You would constantly doubt the girl’s affection for you. You somehow always chalked it up to your friendship bond. There’s no way Ellie could look at you like that. She always followed around other girls but not someone like you. You hated the way your skin started to feel tight. You felt so ashamed of it. You wanted to peel it away and start fresh, to be someone prettier for Ellie. You wanted her to look at you like she did with the other girls so badly. But, she was already looking at you. She was always looking at you. 

“Angel” Ellie cooed her hand on your cheek felt hot. Your breath quickened. You felt warm. You were too nervous to look into her eyes. You were afraid of what she would see. You just nodded in response. It was hard to look in her eyes during these moments. You felt like if she looked in your eyes she would see everything. You always felt bare under her gaze. 

“You know I can always tell when you’re thinking all crazy” she moved close, almost too close. Your eyes widened as you looked up at her. She laughed at your face, she loved your eyes. You were so adorable she thought. She loved the way you looked up at her. She just loved it when you looked at her. 

“Yeah angel. Mind telling me what’s going on hm?” she asked softly. I’m in love with you, that's what’s going on. Instead you shook your head. She scooted closer. Suddenly the energy started to shift. 

‘I’ve got something to tell you. Please don’t go away once I say it. You have to promise angel. Please promise.” she said with need. Her breathing got deeper as she watched you. 

“Ok Els, I promise to never leave.” you whispered. It felt like just saying it was too loud, like it would ruin this moment. You held your pinky out to reassure her. She locked fingers with you paying extra attention to your lips as you sealed it with a kiss to your hand. 

“I- I um, fuck” she stuttered. Her nerves were getting the best of her. She wanted to tell you so fucking bad. She was so scared. She had a crush ever since she saw you move in next door. She remembers begging Joel to take her to go say hi. She remembers your pretty hair all done up in two braids. She remembers following you around every day after that, completely starstruck. You’ve had her hooked since day one. She’s practically gone insane for you. There was only so long before she exploded. Maybe that’s why she needed to tell you now before her heart exploded out of her chest. She needed you to be her girl. She needed you. 

You looked at her. Her eyes just stared right into yours. Her eyes flickered down to your lips. She bet they tasted like cherries. Fuck. She wanted to kiss you so bad. You saw her staring and practically whined. You were hopeless. You needed her. She needed you. You both needed this so bad. 

Before you knew it, the space between you two became so small you could feel each other’s breath. You pulled away too scared to go any further. You quickly sat up. It was too much. Ellie sat up, she was pushing down her disappointment. 

“Let’s go bug Jesse and Dina yeah?’ She asked quickly standing to go grab her converse. You smiled nodding. It was always nice to have a distraction. 

2 days 6 hours and 36 minutes after…

Ellie felt the air leave her lungs. You don’t remember her. You don’t remember anything. She had to swallow back tears. She took too deep of a breath. 

“I’m Ellie. Ellie Miller. I’m your girlfriend.” she said awkwardly. She hated this. There was an awkward silence that seemed to swallow the room. Only the soft beeping of the machine brought Ellie a consistent comfort. She grabbed the cup of water next to her, swallowing roughly. Her fingers toyed with the frayed edges of the old flannel. 

You just nodded. Ellie brought you a sense of comfort although it felt misplaced, maybe even a little forced. She looked like a kicked puppy standing in front of your hospital bed. You felt a twinge of guilt looking at her. Something deep in your soul wanted to comfort her yet you stopped yourself. It felt too soon for that. It wouldn’t be authentic. You did the next best thing. 

“Do you want to sit down?” You gave her an awkward smile attempting to smooth over the tension. It hung thick in the air. Ellie sat down just looking at the floor, silently counting the tile. She wanted to avoid your gaze, it burned her skin. You wanted to look at her. You wanted to stare into her eyes and find the answer to this mess, to yourself. You needed more than the cliffnotes of your life. Your heart is beating fast. 

“So we were dating?”you asked almost sarcastically. Of course you were, the girl just told you.

“Yeah.” Ellie nodded, still not looking your way. She wanted to leave. She needed a drink. 

“How long have we been dating for?” you asked curiously. You needed more. She needed more. 

“About four years.” she responded dryly, rolling her eyes.  She found herself pissed at the situation. She wished she could laugh at this moment. Here she was with the girl she was planning to marry who now could not remember her or anything for the past 19 years. 

You pressed your lips in a tight line. You understood her anger, you felt it yourself. You knew this was hard for her. You looked at her with such a pitiful look, she hated that. She didn’t want pity, that’s all she’s been getting. She wanted her girl but life wanted to laugh at her. She knew that the irony of the situation couldn’t get better. She saw how everyone looked at her. Even her own sister, Sarah could barely look at her. Ellie knew she wasn’t handling the situation as well or maturely. The flask in her pocket ensured that. Her hair was disheveled, she looked like she hadn’t slept in days. She looked empty. You wished you could help her. You wished you could give her an ounce of hope. But the truth is that the girl in front of you was a stranger. You didn’t feel anything for her. 

“I’m sorry” you apologized. You looked down ashamed. Ellie just nodded and stood up. 

“ Me too” she said before she walked out of the room before she could cry in front of you. She felt pathetic. 

1 year and 3 months and 6 days before… 

Ellie stared straight ahead. She felt frozen. Everyone came up to her, Sarah and Tommy giving their condolences. She nodded curtly and quietly said thank you as she shook their hands. She couldn’t feel anything. Time was passing and she was stuck. 

The ceremony was tame. It wasn’t much but it was enough for Joel. She knew he would have liked for it to be simple. She let Sarah handle most of it, she just didn’t have the stomach for it. Plus Sarah had better taste. Yet, in this moment she wanted nothing more than to curl under a mountain of blanket and drink her sorrow away, 

The guilt in Ellie ate her up. She wished she was stronger. She wished she had more courage to face this. But, this was the scariest thing for Ellie. The man who she grew to rely on was gone. He was always there to hold her hand, to guide Ellie on her path, to keep her in the light. He helped her endure and survive. But, he was gone. He left Ellie alone, she had to fight her own battles now. She had to look for the light. Ellie bit the inside of her cheeks hoping to stifle any sobs coming from her mouth. She didn’t want the attention, the babying, she didn’t want any of this. 

Ellie looked down at her beat up converse carefully examining them as the preacher spoke. The casket only a few feet away from Ellie felt too real. She was terrified of looking at it. If she looked at it then it was real, then Joel was really gone. She opted to look at everything but the casket. The preacher seemed miles away as he went on about heaven. Sarah wanted a preacher, she practically insisted on the entire ceremony whereas Ellie and Tommy would have preferred a much more low-key service. It was still nice. 

“Now we call on Joel’s youngest daughter, Ellie to speak”

Ellie’s eyes shot up wide, suddenly snapped out of her trance. She forgot that she had to speak. Sarah had requested that each one speak on Joel’s behalf. Her mouth ran dry. Ellie had spent the week trying to write about Joel, looking for the right words to say yet whenever she wrote anything it ended up crumpled up in the trash. 

She stood up and approached the podium, the preacher giving her a kind smile of reassurance. As she turned, her eyes caught a glimpse of the casket. It was now in her direct line of vision.She couldn’t ignore this. Her eyes watered. She could always be the loudest smart ass yet here she was speechless. The eyes of the church only added salt to the wound. Ellie tried to speak yet the words seemed to be caught in her throat. She couldn’t stop staring at the casket. It felt taunting. 

You saw Ellie struggling, you silently stood up and walked towards her, meeting at the podium. You smiled small, “I’ve got you” you whispered. Ellie looked at you wide with tears overflowing. She just nodded. She laid her head on your shoulder sobbing as you began to read her speech. The memories of Joel consumed Ellie both good and bad. Memories flashed in her mind, some so fast she could barely process. She remembers when he told her that they got approved for adoption. The pure joy on both of their faces. They walked hand in hand to the comic book store, a gift to welcome her officially into the Miller family. By the time you finished Ellie’s words you were sharing tears with Ellie as you guided her back to her seat. She refused to let go of your hand. You didn’t mind though. You both clung to each other. 

You both sat on the cool oak bench holding hands. Even once the ceremony was over, the church empty, you both sat there staring at the casket, The silence all consuming. You wondered if you would ever get your Ellie back, or if she died with Joel. The two of you sat there. 

“Always?” she whispered softly. 

“Always.” you confirmed. 

7 months and 13 days before… 

You heard loud bangs coming from your living room. You carefully got up grabbing the bat you and Ellie kept by your dresser. Your chest filled with anxiety, your mind racing with the possibility of a stranger being in your home. 

Slowly you made your way down the hall to find a very drunk Ellie stumbling in the dark. You sighed as you slipped the switch on the wall halting Ellie’s movements. She bashfully turned around to a very pissed off you. 

“H-Hey Angel” she hiccuped. You rolled your eyes agitated. 

“Again Ellie, it’s 2 in the morning.” you said annoyed. 

“I just grabbed a drink with Cat after work babe, no big deal.” she nonchalantly said. No big deal my ass. This is the fourth time this week. 

You huffed. “I’m tired of you drinking like this all the time Ellie. It’s not good” You looked at the girl in front of you. She looked like the girl you fell in love with but she wasn’t. 

“You can’t keep doing this Els. I know you’re still upset about -” you were cut off rather rudely by Ellie. 

“Don’t” she said. Her moods changed so quickly it almost gave you whiplash. 

You looked at her with sympathy. It was no secret that she was struggling. You just wished she would talk to you. You felt her pulling away more and more. 

“Baby” you softly lulled. You began to walk towards her. Cautiously you put a hand on her cheek, cupping her face. You looked into her eyes trying to find her. You so badly wanted to find her. 

“I’m here for you bubs. Don’t shut me out.” you whispered. Ellie’s tough exterior began to melt. She found your eyes. She was with you at that moment. She was carrying so much pain. 

“I miss him too” your voice wavered. Ellie began to cry as she pulled you close nuzzling into your neck. 

You held her close as she cried. Her sobs ripped through your heart. 

You were scared a piece of her died with Joel. 

4 days, 3 hours and 14 minutes after… 

Ellie entered your shared apartment. It felt cold.  

She walked towards your couch and sat. She could smell your perfume on the blankets. She gripped them tightly as she cried. 

She lost another person. 

4 days, 5 hours and 25 minutes after… 

You were scrolling through your photo album. You came across a video of Ellie throwing you into a lake. 

You both were squealing and laughing. She looked so happy as she held you close before jumping in. You smiled. 

You wanted that person. You felt guilty that you didn’t miss her.

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I FEEL SEEN

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I LOVE THIS AHHHH

— 𝐯𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬

ellie williams x fem! reader

synopsis: a fun night with ellie and joel leads to something much more between you and the girl when she walks you home.

a/n: hi! another unposted draft from some time ago, haha. I hope it is enjoyed by some people. this is my 2 fic for ellie that i’ve publicly published so opinions would be great. thank u all<3 I hate this one w a burning passion. tell me if u wan’t a second part maybe?

not proof read !

tags - embarrassed! ellie, nervous! ellie, sweet! reader, Soft! reader, Joel and Reader are platonic close friends, ellie and reader are close friends, kissing, descriptions of beginning sex, more idk lol

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the familiar laughs that echoed off Joel's front porch caught Ellie's attentions immediately.

her eyes shook from the two conversing Jesse and Dina to the unseeable side of joel’s house, her brows scrunching in the process.

You had said you were heading to sleep, excusing yourself a little more than a hour ago, at 7:30— and Joel had been in his house since around 6:00. Ellie swallowed nervously when she looked back to her two friends. “I’m gonna go, guys. I’ll see you tomorrow.” she announced, earning two smiles and farewells. “Okay, see ya’.” Jesse smirked, glancing to dina who rolled her eyes.

Ellie walked off, a little more speed in her step than she anticipated— the sound of laughter from afar got louder and louder with each passing of her foot in front of the other, creating her curiosity to become unbearable.

finally, after what felt like a millennium, she finally reached the side of the porch.

You sat beside Joel, smiling wildly and laughing as your eyes were trained on a leather book in the palms of his hands; he was pointing something to you— and amused smile on his face as well.

Ellie’s brow rose, an unexpected drop of sweat collecting on her forehead before she took a step onto the wooden floor.

The creak of the old wood attracted both your and joel’s attention to the cause of the sound; and having both of your eyes on her so suddenly send the single ball of sweat to turn into a tsunami engulfing her body.

“Ellie! we were just talking about you.” you said softly, sending joel a mischievous glance when he drown his smile out by taking a sip from his Coffee mug.

“you were..?” she skeptically asked, stepping forward and closer to you both, reaching the railing and leaning on her hip.

“Yes, Joel was showing me some things from when you were younger,” you amused, brushing some hair out of your face in a pitiful attempt to hide your widening smile.

Ellie’s heart dropped. She knew she was an.. interesting fourteen year old, and the last thing she wanted was her crush to see her in that time.

“huh?”

“Joel was showing me some cute pictures of you from when you were fourteen.” You laughed, cheeks turning rosy from the look on Ellie’s face.

“Now— she asked, alright? I only did it ‘cause she asked.” Joel confirmed, clearly trying to defended himself from Ellie’s possible wrath. you laughed loudly, covering your mouth shortly after. “I did ask; guilty. But ellie, you were so cute!”

Ellie covered her eyes with her hand, ducking her head to avoid eye contact as she huffed.

“It’s late— shouldn’t you guys be asleep already?” she murmured out, not missing your laugh.

“oh ellie, now you sound like joel!”

At that, she uncovered her eyes and sent you an unamused look, causing your smile to only widen. “But she’s right, I have patrol in the morning so i should probably check in with Jesse and head to sleep.” You remarked, sending joel a happy smile as you sat up from your chair.

“We should do this more. for an old man, joel, you’re fun to hang out with. definitely more fun than these kids.” you point to Ellie, and joel laughs.

“I’ll see you both tomorrow.” You say, waving bye and walking of his porch. Ellie sent joel a glance before following after you, catching your shoulder. you turned to her, hands intertwined behind your back as you both locked eyes.

“Can.. I walk you home?” she questions quietly, you smile, nodding. “that would be nice.”

The silence between you both was awkward, hearts beating in an unknown rhythm- yet comftorble, warming.

You tried to ignore how every few seconds you could see her head turn towards you, seemingly tracing your face before quickly looking back down. trying to contain your smile didn’t work in your pleasure when a small laugh escaped your lips upon catching her staring.

“what’s so funny?” ellie snarks, a blush raising to her cheeks, you could tell she was trying to make it seem like an angry flush.

“You.”

she groaned, her hands coating her face quickly, though failing to hide her beat red face. You nudged her shoulder once your house came to view, smile twitching.

“You spaz.” you laughed out, watching intently as ellie continued to walk blindly. “will you.. ugh.” she huffed, uncovering her face and angrily crossing her arms.

“relax. I’m here, anyways.” You announced, pointing to your house who’s coming to view from the trees. “Thanks for walking me, els.”

Ellie swallowed harshly, nodding quickly. “Actually— it’s.. more polite to take you to the door, right?” her fact came off more as a question, voice trembling nervously. You rose a brow, eyes staring through her. “Polite? what happened to ellie? where’d she go?” you teased, playfully checking behind her and behind yourself, joking going down the drain when you only received an eye roll from her instead of a laugh.

“oh— shut up.” she pushed your laughing form, quickly walking past you. You caught up, reaching her pace and arriving at your door rather quickly.

She stood beside you, her lips squeezed shut awkwardly when you reached for the door handle. “Thanks, ellie. Goodnight.” you said, smiling at her.

“wait—!” your attention flew to her again, as she stopped you from entering.

“I.. I have to tell you something.” She announced, sweat falling off her like melting ice, blush coating her face whole. you tried to fight the grin at her obviously nervous nature, simply wiping off your smile smoothly and nodding for her to continue.

Ellie inhaled; fiddling with her two hands, her eyes darting anywhere but you. Yes, ellie was awkward— excruciatingly so, yet, you’ve never seen her like this.

“I.. I..” she was completely tongue tied, her brows furrowed, lips being licked over and over, her teeth biting her cheek. you watched; suspicious.

“are you.. okay?” you question, stepping towards her, eyes scanning her. “Yes!” her head shot up, eyes meeting yours before darting down upon seeing your surprise face. “Yes, i’m fine, i just.. I just want to get this off my chest..”

you nod, your arms crossing. another inhale came from ellie before she straightened her back, a view cracks could be heard— you held back a grimace.

“I.. I like.. you..” she confessed, her jaw so tight you were surprised she could speak.

Your eyes blew wide, jaw surely falling open. you? You’ve liked ellie since the first week you had the blessing of meeting her— her auburn hair, her snarky personality, beautiful eyes and strong nature, it allured you, like moth to a light.

“what?”

“I like you— I.. never mind.”

she went to chicken out and run away, but this time you caught her arm. you grabbed harshly, whipping her towards you— and before she could protest, you smashed your lips to hers— a surge of passion, tender yet fierce, overwhelmed you. Ellie surrendered to the intoxicating pull of desire, melting into you as your lips molded together. It was a kiss that spoke volumes without uttering a single word, an intimate language that only you two could understand.

In that moment, nothing else mattered. The world outside ceased to exist as your souls connected, and you found solace and completeness in each other's arms. Ellie’s body shook, not from fear, but from the sheer intensity of emotions coursing through her at this moment. She had fought to suppress her feelings, but now, the floodgates had opened, and your love cascaded like a mighty waterfall, uncontainable and unstoppable.

she grabbed your waist, you reaching for her cheeks as you were deep inside a gaze— clinging to each other as though your lives depended on it.

but it quickly became desperate, heated breaths heaving from you both as your hands became clingy, searching for more than just a single place to rest. Ellie reached behind you, harshly opening the door— pushing you inside your house before slamming it. Your lips didn’t disconnect once, the kiss too deep to back out now. She had been to your house countless times, so her feet knew the rhythm to follow to reach your ocuch.

You got the idea, feet syncing with hers and before you knew it your back met the familiar cushioning of your sofa, yet this time it wasn’t as cozy and sweet as you remembered.

Her hands were roaming— exploring every crease and crevice on your body in the mere time between each desperate breath of air that was forced into your lungs before her lips connected once again to yours.

her hands began to undo your shirt, the pink buttons of your blouse disconnecting from their home.

“fuck..”

you hadn’t expected this to become as heated as it has, but the way her hands were on you— you had not choice but to comply.

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i loveeee make u feel my love i just read it and seemed to come at the right time i cant wait for the next part!

Stoppp. I’m so happy you love it 🥺

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Make you Feel my Love pt. 2

Ellie Williams x Reader

Modern AU

TW: Angst, sexual situations, cursing, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, mentions of death.

Summary: You and Ellie were best friends growing, practically attached by the hip. One day you finally become more and never look back. Your life seemed perfect until a crash turned everything around. Will you and Ellie be able to navigate this new terrain or will everything you have built crumble?

Chapter Two: I need you now

WC: 1.8K

A/N: Thank you so much for the love that this story has gotten. I seriously am so happy you all love it so much! Thank you!! Please let me know if you would like to be apart of the taglist!!!

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Part One

6 years, 9 months and 15 days before… 

The room was quiet. You and Ellie laid in her bed giggling at another stupid pun. You ended up snorting at her jokes which only egged Ellie on more. When she looked at you it felt like the world was only you two. You felt like the sun revolved for her. She looked so pretty when she laughed, it always made you giddy. You liked her so bad it hurt. You were so scared to tell her, you knew Ellie liked girls but you grew up with her. She saw every version of you, and she loved every version of you. 

You would constantly doubt the girl’s affection for you. You somehow always chalked it up to your friendship bond. There’s no way Ellie could look at you like that. She always followed around other girls but not someone like you. You hated the way your skin started to feel tight. You felt so ashamed of it. You wanted to peel it away and start fresh, to be someone prettier for Ellie. You wanted her to look at you like she did with the other girls so badly. But, she was already looking at you. She was always looking at you. 

“Angel” Ellie cooed her hand on your cheek felt hot. Your breath quickened. You felt warm. You were too nervous to look into her eyes. You were afraid of what she would see. You just nodded in response. It was hard to look in her eyes during these moments. You felt like if she looked in your eyes she would see everything. You always felt bare under her gaze. 

“You know I can always tell when you’re thinking all crazy” she moved close, almost too close. Your eyes widened as you looked up at her. She laughed at your face, she loved your eyes. You were so adorable she thought. She loved the way you looked up at her. She just loved it when you looked at her. 

“Yeah angel. Mind telling me what’s going on hm?” she asked softly. I’m in love with you, that's what’s going on. Instead you shook your head. She scooted closer. Suddenly the energy started to shift. 

‘I’ve got something to tell you. Please don’t go away once I say it. You have to promise angel. Please promise.” she said with need. Her breathing got deeper as she watched you. 

“Ok Els, I promise to never leave.” you whispered. It felt like just saying it was too loud, like it would ruin this moment. You held your pinky out to reassure her. She locked fingers with you paying extra attention to your lips as you sealed it with a kiss to your hand. 

“I- I um, fuck” she stuttered. Her nerves were getting the best of her. She wanted to tell you so fucking bad. She was so scared. She had a crush ever since she saw you move in next door. She remembers begging Joel to take her to go say hi. She remembers your pretty hair all done up in two braids. She remembers following you around every day after that, completely starstruck. You’ve had her hooked since day one. She’s practically gone insane for you. There was only so long before she exploded. Maybe that’s why she needed to tell you now before her heart exploded out of her chest. She needed you to be her girl. She needed you. 

You looked at her. Her eyes just stared right into yours. Her eyes flickered down to your lips. She bet they tasted like cherries. Fuck. She wanted to kiss you so bad. You saw her staring and practically whined. You were hopeless. You needed her. She needed you. You both needed this so bad. 

Before you knew it, the space between you two became so small you could feel each other’s breath. You pulled away too scared to go any further. You quickly sat up. It was too much. Ellie sat up, she was pushing down her disappointment. 

“Let’s go bug Jesse and Dina yeah?’ She asked quickly standing to go grab her converse. You smiled nodding. It was always nice to have a distraction. 

2 days 6 hours and 36 minutes after…

Ellie felt the air leave her lungs. You don’t remember her. You don’t remember anything. She had to swallow back tears. She took too deep of a breath. 

“I’m Ellie. Ellie Miller. I’m your girlfriend.” she said awkwardly. She hated this. 

You just nodded. She felt familiar but you couldn’t place it very well. You offered her to sit which she obliged, limping to the spare recliner in your room. 

There was an awkward silence. You both just sat there awkwardly looking at anything but each other. You felt shaky. You dated this girl? It should feel natural. It doesn’t. You feel like you should make an effort. I mean the poor girl limped her way across the hospital to see you, it’s the least you can do. 

“So we were dating?” you asked in a poor attempt to break the quiet. 

“Yeah.” Ellie nodded, still not looking your way. 

“How long have we been dating for?” you asked curiously. 

“About four years.” she responded dryly. She found herself pissed at the situation. She wished she could laugh at this moment. Here she was with the girl she was planning to marry who now could not remember her or anything for the past 19 years. 

You knew this was hard for her. You looked at her like a kicked puppy. Her hair was disheveled, she looked like she hadn’t slept in days. She looked empty. You wished you could help her. You wished you could give her an ounce of hope. But the truth is that the girl in front of you was a stranger. You didn’t feel anything for her. 

“I’m sorry” you apologized. You looked down ashamed. Ellie just nodded and stood up. 

“ Me too” she said before she walked out of the room heartbroken. 

1 year and 3 months and 6 days before… 

Ellie stared straight ahead. She felt frozen. Everyone came up to her, Sarah and Tommy giving their condolences. She nodded curtly and quietly said thank you as she shook their hands. She couldn’t feel anything. Time was passing and she was stuck. 

The ceremony was tame. It wasn’t much but it was enough for Joel. She knew he would have liked for it to be simple. 

She hated this. She wanted to disappear. She was with him when he died. She knew he was dying and she couldn’t do anything as he looked into her eyes. He was scared too. She was a pussy who just cried as he faded away. 

Ellie looked down at her beat up converse carefully examining them as the preacher spoke. Sarah insisted that there was one. Ellie didn’t care much for the details. She just wanted the whole ordeal to be over with. Sarah wanted each of them to speak about Joel. Ellie spent the whole week crumbling up papers. She had no clue what to say. 

Her eyes watered when she stood up at the podium. She could always be the loudest smart ass yet here she was speechless. Everyone staring didn’t make it any better. She wanted to run. 

“Uh Joel was my dad. He uh” Ellie’s voice wavered. Her vision began to blur. She couldn’t do this, not without him. He was always there to hold her hand. Now he wasn’t. 

You walked up to the podium. You grabbed Ellie’s hand and held it tight. You sadly smiled at the auburn girl. 

“I’ll help you” You smiled through tears of your own. Ellie nodded thankfully. Her tears were running down. 

“ Joel didn’t have to take me in. He didn’t have to be my dad yet he chose to. He saw something in me even when I didn’t see something in myself. He loved me when no one did.” you softly said. Ellie was fully sobbing at this point. 

“H-He has truly changed my life. He taught me that contractors are the best. But most importantly he taught me to endure and survive. I’ll carry that with me forever for you. Thank you. I’m sorry” you finished. At this point you were sharing tears with Ellie as you guided her back to her seat. She refused to let go of your hand. You didn’t mind though. 

You both sat there holding hands. Even when everyone left. You sat with her. You would always be there for her. You pinky promised and you never break a promise. 

7 months and 13 days before… 

You heard loud bangs coming from your living room. You carefully got up grabbing the bat you and Ellie kept by your dresser. Your chest filled with anxiety, your mind racing with the possibility of a stranger being in your home. 

Slowly you made your way down the hall to find a very drunk Ellie stumbling in the dark. You sighed as you slipped the switch on the wall halting Ellie’s movements. She bashfully turned around to a very pissed off you. 

“H-Hey Angel” she hiccuped. You rolled your eyes agitated. 

“Again Ellie, it’s 2 in the morning.” you said annoyed. 

“I just grabbed a drink with Cat after work babe, no big deal.” she nonchalantly said. No big deal my ass. This is the fourth time this week. 

You huffed. “I’m tired of you drinking like this all the time Ellie. It’s not good” You looked at the girl in front of you. She looked like the girl you fell in love with but she wasn’t. 

“You can’t keep doing this Els. I know you’re still upset about -” you were cut off rather rudely by Ellie. 

“Don’t” she said. Her moods change so quickly it almost gave you whiplash. 

You looked at her with sympathy. It was no secret that she was struggling. You just wished she would talk to you. You felt her pulling away more and more. 

“Baby” you softly lulled. You began to walk towards her. Cautiously you put a hand on her cheek, cupping her face. You looked into her eyes trying to find her. You so badly wanted to find her. 

“I’m here for you bubs. Don’t shut me out.” you whispered. Ellie’s tough exterior began to melt. She found your eyes. She was with you at that moment. She was carrying so much pain. 

“I miss him too” your voice wavered. Ellie began to cry as she pulled you close nuzzling into your neck. 

You held her close as she cried. Her sobs ripped through your heart. 

You were scared a piece of her died with Joel. 

4 days, 3 hours and 14 minutes after… 

Ellie entered your shared apartment. It felt cold.  

She walked towards your couch and sat. She could smell your perfume on the blankets. She gripped them tightly as she cried. 

She lost another person. 

4 days, 5 hours and 25 minutes after… 

You were scrolling through your photo album. You came across a video of Ellie throwing you into a lake. 

You both were squealing and laughing. She looked so happy as she held you close before jumping in. You smiled. 

You missed her too.

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Summary: You have always loved Ellie but she has never shown you any interest, until now.

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Make you Feel my Love

Summary: You and Ellie were best friends growing, practically attached by the hip. One day you finally become more and never look back. Your life seemed perfect until a crash turned everything around. Will you and Ellie be able to navigate this new terrain or will everything you have built crumble?

Chapter One: Lovers

Chapter Two: I need you now

Chapter two: i need you now (remastered)

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Make you feel my love Pt. 1

Ellie Williams x Reader

Modern AU

TW: Angst, sexual situations, cursing, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, mentions of death.

Summary: You and Ellie were best friends growing, practically attached by the hip. One day you finally become more and never look back. Your life seemed perfect until a crash turned everything around. Will you and Ellie be able to navigate this new terrain or will everything you have built crumble?

Chapter One : Lovers

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1 hour and 15 minutes before…

‘You are so fucking unbelievable, do you know that?” 

Ellie rolled her eyes and scoffed. “Just fucking relax for one in your life y/n, you always are pulling this dumb ass shit” Your eyes widened at the ridiculous accusation. It did sting but your blood began to run hot. She always does this. She never wants to make a big deal out of her drinking. Yet, here you are at another stupid house party where she promised to stay by your side sober. 

About an hour into the party, you caught her slamming shots down with Cat. You had watched her with tears welling in your eyes. The betrayal hung thick in the air, you felt it weigh on your chest. She told you she wouldn’t do this. She promised.  Your face felt hot as Jesse and Dina stared at you with pity. You ran up to Ellie pissed, this isn’t how you wanted to spend your Saturday night. 

“Are fucking kidding me Williams” you spat with venom. Ellie stiffened for a second, she knew she was caught and completely fucked but the alcohol in her system didn’t let her care all that much. She could always fix it later. 

Ellie stared at you blankly as if she didn’t just break your trust for the 100th time. You knew that no matter how ugly it got you would still end up in the same bed. “Can I help you babe?” Ellie giggled, she could really care less at that moment. Your face contorted into anger. Your breathing began to become more shallow as you attempted to soothe yourself. It felt like you were about to explode.

 Every single emotion that you stuffed down for the sake of your relationship was dangerously rising to the surface. You were scared that if you opened your mouth you would scream. It became too much. You always tried for Ellie so why couldn’t she? “Cat’s got your tongue baby?” she mocked. You couldn’t speak, your eyes started to well up with tears as Ellie and Cat began to laugh at you. 

Too many eyes were on you. The room was too small. It felt tight. You ran out of the house pushing people out of your way running to Ellie’s car. Your hands shook as you desperately searched for the keys inside of your purse. A hand tapped your shoulder. It was fucking Ellie the last person you wanted to see. You were hysterical at this point. Tears ran down your face in fat globs. Ellie pulled you close, holding you against her chest. You tried to push her away but her grip was too tight. She leaned down and whispered “M’ sorry angel”. You knew you shouldn’t. It felt good though. That was until you smelled the alcohol on her. That’s when you remembered. You knew that when she showed you her love when she was drunk. When she was sober she was often dismissive, somewhat cold. You just wanted to feel love. You just wanted her. Maybe that’s why you asked her to get in the car. Maybe that’s why you asked her to come home. 

10 minutes before… 

The tension in the car was thick. 

“Why?” you whispered. It’s almost as if you were afraid to actually say it. Ellie’s head snapped towards you. She didn’t have an answer. She knew that there was no excuse. Ever since Joel's death she’s felt this overwhelming darkness take her. She couldn’t find her way out of it. She felt stuck. She didn’t have any hope. She was lost in herself, and she was bringing you down with her. 

“I don’t know” she looked ashamed, any previous confidence left her body with the alcohol. She picked her jeans. She was uncomfortable with the confrontation. She hated vulnerability. She felt so exposed under your gaze. 

“Ellie please, baby please. Why won’t you let me in? Let me help you” you begged. Your eyes began to water again. The love of your life looked so broken. You just wanted to hold her close. 

Something in Ellie snapped. She couldn’t. She refused. Why couldn’t you leave it alone. 

“I can’t just fucking leave it alone y/n. You’re always putting your nose in my business. For once just fuck off. You’re so pathetic just following me around all the time!” She screamed. Her eyes staring into your eyes full of tears. 

“I JUST WANT TO HELP YOU.” you cried out desperately. You were sobbing at this point. 

“I don’t need your fucking help. I’m not someone you can use as a charity case y/n!” Ellie sneered. 

“You don’t mean that.” You shook your head in complete denial. She was still drunk, she couldn’t possibly mean that. 

“I mean every single fucking word.” 

The words took the air from your lungs. You began to shake and hyperventilate. You were starting to have a panic attack. Your heart was breaking. It was too much. You could hardly notice the tree right in front of you. 

There were sirens. Ellie was in and out of consciousness. She couldn’t see you. Her head hurt. She was being swept into the darkness. 

23 hours and 48 minutes after…

The beeping woke Ellie up. Her head was pounding. She felt something sharp in her skin. Her body felt sore. Her eyes began to adjust to the light. She stood up far too fast. Her chest began to rise. The monitor began to beep faster and faster. She couldn’t find you. “Angel!” She cried out. The nurses rushed in ushering her back to bed. She began to flail and cry. She begged and cried for you. She soon passed out. 

27 hours and 17 minutes after…

When Ellie woke up again she was much more calm. 

“What happened?” she croaked, looking up at the doctor. He looked at her with so much sympathy. It made her sick. She wasn’t a small child anymore. 

“You were in an accident. Your car wrapped around a tree. You’re very lucky to be alive. You do have a broken arm, bruised ribs and a concussion but we’re looking at a full recovery.” He said in an assuring tone. Ellie nodded nervously, chewing on her lip. 

“What about the girl I was with? My girlfriend.” Ellie asked. Her nerves were eating her up. 

“She is okay, we have her in the ICU. But, she is suffering from a more severe concussion. Her head went through the windshield. She has broken ribs, along with a broken foot. She could have been worse. We’re lucky she is alive.” He said cautiously. 

Ellie felt the air leave her lungs. You were hurt. Your head went through a windshield. You’re hurt. She picked at her skin. She was spiraling. Her girl. The love of her life was hurt and she couldn’t help but feel like it was all her fault. Only the doctor’s voice managed to snap her out of it. 

“There is one more thing, It appears that Ms. l/n is suffering from memory loss. We don’t know how long it will last. We will take you to see her in hopes that it will jog her memory.” 

Ellie just nodded. She had no idea how to process it. You couldn’t forget about her right? 

2 days 6 hours and 35 minutes after…

Ellie stalled as long as she could. Jesse and Dina had stopped by to check in. They heard the news and couldn’t help but to have pity. They encouraged her to see you. They had visited you already cautiously. You didn’t recognize them but felt calm enough around them. 

So here she was standing outside your door freaking out. She finally pushed through. She saw you there struggling with the hospital remote. She couldn’t help but chuckle. At least, you still had that about you. 

“Hey Angel” 

You jumped. Your eyes widened at the stranger. You scanned her figure. She was cute. Her green eyes, auburn hair and dozens of freckles. You couldn’t help but be nervous in her presence. 

“I’m sorry, but who are you?”

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Make you feel my love series

Ellie Williams x Reader

Modern AU

TW: Angst, sexual situations, cursing, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, mentions of death.

Summary: You and Ellie were best friends growing, practically attached by the hip. One day you finally become more and never look back. Your life seemed perfect until a crash turned everything around. Will you and Ellie be able to navigate this new terrain or will everything you have built crumble?

Chapter One: Lovers

Chapter Two: I need you now

Chapter Three: Should have been (COMING SOON)

Chapter Four: Angel

Chapter Five: Lay with you

Chapter Six: Make you feel my love

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Anything for you sweet girl

Jackson! Ellie Williams x Reader

Warnings: sexual tension, sexual situations. lowkey toxic ellie.

Summary: You have always loved Ellie but she has never shown you any interest, until now.

This is my first fic in a super long time, please tell me if y'all like it. Constructive criticism is welcomed!

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“Ain’t you just a peach?” You giggled as you handed the freshly baked loaf to Mr. Miller, you mean Joel. He was quite the looker, his salt and pepper hair, the big brown eyes, hell his smile was enough to make you swoon;  I mean every woman in town gossiped about the Millers. They were a lot of things, but ugly was not. 

“Is Ellie here?” you asked, giving your puppy eyes. You always knew how to reel them in. Now you didn’t use this kind of manipulation for harm per say. You just knew the talent you had. It was a gift that you had, such big brown eyes. You did have a habit of reeling anyone in with those eyes. No one could say no. Well maybe except for Ellie. 

“She’s outback sweetie.” Mr Miller smiled as he signaled towards the backyard. He knew of your crush on the certain freckled auburn. Hell everyone in Jackson knew. It all started back when Ellie came back from Salt Lake City with Joel. You saw through her hard candy exterior. She made your insides feel mushy. While for her you made hers twist up in knots. 

In school, you often chased her around trying to give her little daisies. Ellie always crushed them up, and you returned back with twice as many. This would just carry on and on. Running around town, chasing her trying to litter her in  kisses. All you wanted was to be close to her, to smell her skin, play with her pretty hair , and even count her freckles. But truth be told, you never understood your crush on her. She was the sun, you just revolved around her. 

Their house was no secret to you. Your nana always spoke with Mr. Miller, they would talk about it before. It turns out they loved those same action movies. Nana was always a bit unconventional. She was wise, she counted every flower petal giving each a kiss for luck. She passed that quirk down to you. 

While their house was no secret, especially Ellie’s bedroom. You always did have a certain fixation on their backyard. I mean, how could you not? Their backyard was your favorite. It was adorned with the prettiest wildflowers.  It was no secret that your incredibly green thumb was useful. Maria even had you on garden duty, believing that you're the only reason why the plants and animals are alive. There was a secret to this all- You made an effort to name each one. You always gave them such care. You spoke to each one, just like your nana taught you. That’s it. In your mind, plants and animals were your best friends, besides Ellie of course. Well more like Ellie is your best friend. But you were useful, you kept the flowers colorful, at least that’s what the entire town of Jackson said.  Everyone called you over to help keep their gardens alive. Or to ask what plants to use for whatever ailment they may have. You were basically the town apothecary, alongside your nana. You just had a certain touch or way about you. That very special touch was rumored to be gifted to you by mother nature herself. You were adorned with the nickname of little miss nature. Whenever told you always just giggled. Again with that fucking giggle. 

You thought that maybe if everyone else thought of you as useful so would Ellie, but you were wrong. In Ellie’s mind you're a nuisance. She believed you were weak. You couldn’t even hold a gun without crying. Not being able to defend yourself made you weak, helpless. So she could take care of you. 

So when Maria made everyone go through a gun safety course taught by Joel , you were off blubbering in the corner. It scared you. The loud boom was a no go. Ellie distinctly remembers mumbling “little bitch” under her breath, which earned her a nice smack over the head by Joel. Ellie was left with a serious scowl on her face anytime she looked at you for the whole week. 

The thing was you spent most of your life sheltered. Jackson was most of what you could remember as it was your nana who fought tooth and nail to get you there. You did try patrol once but you nearly killed yourself and Ellie. You had let your horse, Petunia roam and much on some fresh grass. While you sun bathed, Ellie was off ahead exploring some house a couple hundred feet away. She kept you far enough that she wouldn’t have to speak to you but enough that she could see your pretty skin in the light. You reminded her of a sunflower, always soaking up the sun. 

Well, while you're very necessary sunbathing you may have been too giggly because you did catch the attention of a stalker. It happened so quick- almost too quick. You were being pinned down by this creature. It’s snarls that were bordering animalistic. You could see its long tendrils slowly exiting its mouth. It only made you scream for Ellie louder. She dropped everything running as fast as she could, her legs never moved faster. She tackled the creature, repeatedly bashing its head in. It was left as a shell of whatever it was, whoever was. 

Her hands were rough as she grabbed you. Her fingers dug deep into your skin as she looked over to check for any marks. She was holding her breath the entire time.  You felt tears well up in your eyes. 

“Don’t you dare fucking cry y/n!” She huffed. Her voice was thick with anger and a hint of panic. You chewed on your lip nervously. You knew that you fucked up. You hadn’t seen Ellie this angry since the Valentine’s dance, when that boy tried to sneak a hand up your dress. 

“You’re so fucking careless, you always are doing stupid shit!” Your legs began to shake. You were internalizing her words. You knew better, right? You’re pathetic. 

“You’re so fucking stupid, do you want to die?! Do you wanna become like that huh!?!?” She was practically screaming in your ear as she grabbed your face and turned it towards the corpse, the shiny metal protruding outside of its “face” . Your face felt hot, the tears were running down at a rapid pace, leaving you blubbering. You stared at the creature no the person with wide eyes. You felt sympathy for them. They had a life. A family. They were someone. A small part of you wished you both had swapped places. 

The ride back to Jackson was quiet. Ellie stopped once she noticed he tears rolling down your cheeks in steady streams. She did feel bad, but she knew you had to toughen up and learn. You were just an accident waiting to happen in her mind. You weren’t taken on patrol after that. Ellie made sure of that. She couldn’t lose you. She refused to. 

As you approached Ellie’s shed, you heard little noises. It was like little gasps for air. You were worried Ellie had another nightmare, without thinking you rushed to enter the shed. Only to find Ellie on top of a girl. So it definitely was not a nightmare. They both halted their actions. Ellie’s eyes were wide and cheeks were as red as a rose. 

“Get the fuck out Y/N! “ She exclaimed. You didn’t need anything else. You quickly shut the door and walked off with red cheeks. There was a twinge of jealousy brewing in your belly. You almost wish that was you, no you do wish it was you. You wanted Ellie's little kisses along your neck. Your fingers grazed your neck almost to mimic the sensation of Ellie's kisses. You quickly shook the feeling off. Your cheeks still felt hot as you imagined every scenario with Ellie.

A few minutes later, Ellie rushed the girl out. She rolled her eyes once she realized you were sitting on the deck stairs waiting for her. 

“Yes y/n?” she said curtly, almost like she ate a sour lemon. 

Ellie didn’t like how sickly sweet you were. But it was a perk to have your cooking, it was the highlight of any party. She begrudgingly took your muffin, right before she practically inhaled it on her way to the stables. She was more than ready to escape your desperate flirting. It was practically routine at this point. You woke Ellie up with baked goods, followed her trying to desperately flirt. It was always “I brought this for you, I baked them early this morning!” you chirped as you handed her the fresh blueberry muffins.”Oh also this, it was made extra special” with a cute smile and wink  to top it off. She hated the same “oh you’re so brave” or “wow you’re so strong els”. She always pressed her lips tight when you called her that. It was better than you calling her pookie, she really hated that week. You had a habit of over-gifting Ellie. The muffins were already a lot, but lunch with a daily love letter was always pushing it. You always seemed to be bordering the line of desperation and love. 

Before you knew it, she shut the stable door in your face. Finally, some relief from you. Ellie hated how easily you got under her skin. It was too easy for you. You knew how to piss her off, with that stupid smile or with that fucking giggle. She hated you for it. She felt exposed around you far too much for her liking, She hated how you knew she was upset before she did. Why did you have to understand her so well? Why did you have to sneak your way into her heart of all the fucking places, of all the people. You chose her. She wanted to choose you but she couldn’t, she knew better, she wouldn’t make that mistake again. Never again. The last time she chose someone they died. She wouldn’t let that happen to you.

Your favorite thing to do was most definitely garden. There was something about your fingers being in the dirt that you loved. It grounded you in a world full of chaos. This was the one thing that you had control over. You adored each and every one of your sweet flowers. Despite some side eyes, you spoke to each flower with such gentleness. Your cat fluffy brushed past your leg purring. “ Oh hey there handsome” you giggled. You found Fluffy on the edge of Jackson being kicked around by some dumb teenagers. You rescued the kitten swiftly yelling at the boys which left them with wide eyes and red cheeks. When you saw Fluffy your heart ached for the kitty, he had one ear the other had been torn off and he was caked in mud and some blood. 

You promised to care for him that day, so you walked straight away to your house only to be stopped by Ellie, Dina and Jesse. “Hey there flower girl, whatcha doin’ with that?” Jesse asked, quite amused with the situation. “I found him at the edge of Jackson, I’m taking him home!” You chirped. 

Ellie rolled her eyes, clearly annoyed with the situation “Get rid of it, it probably has rabies and you’ll get sick” “No I won't, Fluffy and I are going to be great friends isn’t that right” you cooed at the orange tabby in your arms. Ellie clearly just walked away while you walked home happily. You grinned at the memory. Ellie said that she would cook Fluffy, which you knew she never would - at least you hope she wouldn’t. She never really liked him as he always hissed at her, he once attacked her head, they became sworn enemies after that. 

“I’m bored Fluffs, what do you say we go make some lemonade for Ellie hm?” You grinned widely at the tabby who was too busy cleaning himself to care much. 

Ellie and Joel rode back into town from patrol. It wasn’t bad but they did hit a bloater which almost killed Ellie. Joel had spent the whole ride back lecturing Ellie to be more careful. She was over it. She was a bit shaken but more so pissed. She hated how Joel still made her feel like that dumb fourteen year old still. She knew she would get more shit if she talked back so she just nodded her head, her ears turning red from a mix of anger and embarrassment. 

You came skipping along merrily ready to offer them some fresh lemonade. You had a lemon tree in your backyard so you had a plentiful amount leftover from your last haul. You gulped nervously as you approached the two. You could tell Joel was tired and angry as was Ellie, they both shared quite the temper. “Ahem.” You coughed, the duo turned their heads in your direction. Ellie’s eyes softened at your appearance. Your hair was down and it fell in to some nice waves, you had a daisy tucked behind your ear. You were wearing a flowy white top and some denim shorts. Ellie gulped hard at the sight of your bare legs. She thought you looked absolutely stunning at the moment, she wanted to show you how good you look. She opted to just roll her her eyes pushing past you causing you to spill the cool lemonade on your body. 

Joel now even more pissed at Ellie screamed after but she kept walking. Her fists clenching tightly as she walked past you. Fuck. She had to get away, she couldn’t look at you any longer, she was scared of what she might do. Joel in dad fashion gave you a sympathetic look and kind eyes “I’m sorry about her darling, how about this lemonade?’ He smiled as he took a glass, less angry but he was definitely going to give Ellie a talkin’ to. “It’s all right Mr. Miller, I’m just going to go clean up now, I’ll see you tonight for supper right? Nana is making her chicken. I’m making cookies.” He quickly assured you that him and Ellie will be in attendance tonight. 

The sun had set and you just finished the last batch of your cookies. You smiled as you pulled them out, happy that none had been burned. The was a quick knock at the door as you rushed over to answer it. You smiled as you opened the door to reveal Mr. Miller and Ellie, who looked bored beyond belief. “Welcome! Nana is just in the living room.” You beamed at them. They followed you both into your home, it smelled of fresh cookies and lavender. Joel went to go sit on the couch and talk to your Nana. They both shared laughs as they brought out the whiskey. “Ellie why don’t you go help out y/n in the kitchen”  Joel smugly told Ellie. Ellie clenching her jaw, stared Joel down for a minute, as if they were silently communicating before she rolled her eyes and followed you into the kitchen. The laughs resumed as you went down the hall. 

"I'm just finishing up the potatoes, if you want to plate the carrots and add a bit of salt to them.” Ellie nodded and turned to grab the bowl next to the carrots and began to plate them. “Uh where is the salt?” Ellie asked. “It should be in the cabinet right above me” You said just about to move out of the way when Ellie came right behind you. She lightly pressed against your back, holding your exposed hip for support as she grabbed the salt. You smelled her, she smelled like mint. She always smelled so delicious, you bet she tasted delicious too. You gasped at the cool contact of her hand. She chuckled as she pecked the back of your neck. You nearly moaned at the contact. Her lips were soft. You knew that you would stuff your hands in your shorts tonight thinking about this moment.

"What sweet girl, you can't speak all the sudden? Turn around and face me." Ellie gruffed. You turned so fast you almost gave Ellie whiplash. She smirked knowing you would fold so quickly.

She pressed your back against the wood counter as she leaned in. Her eyes stared into yours, you felt exposed at this intimate contact. She licked her lips as her eyes flicked from your lips to your chest. You thanked yourself for wearing a more low-cut top today.

"Els" you purred. Her eyes darkened at the sound of your voice. It was full of desperation but you could honestly care less. You wanted Ellie to take you right then and there. You both knew what you wanted. She began to lean in as did you.

"Is dinner done yet hun?" Your nana asked from up the hall. Ellie jumped back leaving you stuck in place trying to process. Your mind still fuzzy.

"Just finished!" Ellie replied, sending the all knowing smirk your way. As she walked out with the bowl of carrots leaving you with pink cheeks and wet underwear.

Fuck. This was going to be a long dinner.