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Lord gusto ko lang pong makilimutan siya. Gusto ko lang naman pong mawala yung sakit kasi hindi ko na po to kayang mag isa. Pero iniwan niya kong mag isa. kahit dito man lang po pakinggan niyo ko. kahit ngayon lang. Gusto ko lang naman po mawala yung sakit. Hirap na hirap na po ako. Ang sakit sakit na po ng dibdib ko. Gusto ko rin pong mawala na pero naisip ko mahal ko maghulang ko. Ayaw ko silang umiyak dahil sakin, Gusto ko lang naman po mawala yung sakit. Parang awa niyo na po kahit eto lang.

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You don't know how many times I have to endured the pain. You don't know how many times I cried in my room. You don't know how many times do I escape taking my life. You don't know my pain. Because if you do, you will not hurt me this much.

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Congratulations for passing your board exam. I hope you're happy. I am really so proud of you. I will always be proud of you. I hope you reach your dreams in life. Get to set up a new business for all the hard work of your dad. I hope you get to finance for the study of edrick and I hope you'll be able to reach your dreams. I am happy to see you become the person that you aspired to be. I will always admire that about you. I will always remember the things we shared planning for all of those. You will be forever in my heart Ariana. I will always love you.

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It is been 5 months and it still hurts the same

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I do. Unconditionally.

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Let them wonder that I am really mad at you because that is how it appears to them. You are making me hate you too. But two souls who understand even if words are left unsaid are phenomenal.

I know you do love me so much. I love you so much too. I understand that you are a mess. You do not have to explain. But I know, you will change and find your way to yourself. :) My soul will never stop believing in you.

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I loved you so much it almost killed me

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In this time of the night. I am still having dark thoughts. I hope I get away with it throughout the day. If I'll die I just hope it'll be in my sleep. No more pain again.

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My thoughts are so heavy right now. I was thinking why do all people leave? Why do all people love me then make me suffer like forever. I was thinking of buying a blade to cut my wrist and die peacefully at my room. I hope I will survive the voices in my head before the day I no longer hear them.

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I am literally heartbroken and super stressed so I bought a freaking expensive headset and my friends be like

"Ang mahal niyan gago. Wala kang work diba? Magtipid ka tangina mo"

I am sorry i'm so broken so I might as well be broke so there's unity. EHE

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Promises are always mend to be broken.

You promised you’d never leave me..

So where are you now?

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Is it fair that life was really unfair?

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Pagod na pagod na ko masaktan. Can I just die????????????????

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Nagpapanic attack nananaman ako in this time of the day?

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My Heart will forever be yours. Prolly looks like I only want you but every cell in my body needs you. Always.

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Hindi naman ako nawala sa tabi mo. Lumayo lang ako kasi ayaw ko masaktan ng sobra. Pero yung tiwala ko na magbabago ka. Na mababago mo lahat sa sarili mo andun pa din. Kahit ilang beses kong sabihin sa sarili ko na ayaw na kitang paniwalaan. Idk I still believe and trust you so much. Because I know you better than you know yourself. I trust you, more than you trust yourself.

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I hate it when I am really sad, I just want to disappear and never be seen again. Forever.