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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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the human mind is prone to catastrophizing when left unoccupied. And that’s why it’s important to always have a little Blorbo to rotate in your head. It acts as a protective charm of sorts to redirect your imagination away from harmful spirals

thoughts without Blorbo: oh my god I was so cringe in seventh grade why did I do that

thoughts with Blorbo: I haven’t considered the interactions with bleebus; I must rectify this immediately

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don’t kys, you never know when a new type of wet pathetic character is about to be introduced to you via tumblr.com/dashboard thanks to your mutuals

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everything in this life is temporary. except that fandom hyperfixation from when you were 14. that thang will be with you forever there's no escaping.

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i just need to have more rules for myself. more rules and limits. surely that will help me

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Making Daniel Molloy an old man was such a sexy move. They didn't need to at all, but they did and the show is 1000% hotter because of it. Yeah it's also a subversion from vampire romances typically fetishizing eternal youth, but it's also just sexy to have a 70 year old man in your queer gothic romance. Can't wait for his romance arc, I'm going to go feral.

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call her ai the way she makes me generate slop

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The Original Broadway Cast celebrate 10 years of Hamilton at the 2025 Tony Awards (full performance)

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just watched the hamilton 10yr anniversary performance from the tonys pls respect my privacy at this time

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We are overwhelmed by the amazing response to this project so far!! We have raised almost $700 for a wide range of charities.

As promised, here is a sneak-peek of our cover art designed by @ladyofthecreeddraws

There are five more days to pre-order the digital version of Devil’s Minions Minions. Submit your proof of donation today to receive access on release day, June 10, 2025: http://bit.ly/43AjZuZ

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Zijn we weer y’all

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Happy Pride!!! 🏳‍🌈

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🖤 Contributor Spotlight 🖤

As we get closer and closer to our release, we are so excited to share our remaining contributors. First up is @dextrousdemon! Illustrating not one but TWO of the stories being featured in our upcoming release, their contribution to the 'zine has been amazing! We can't wait for you to see their work

Tumblr: @dextrousdemon | BlueSky: DextrousDemon

Don't forget - You can not pre-order your digital copy of the 'zine to check out all of our contributors. For more info: http://bit.ly/43AjZuZ

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You know what I love? When characters are almost unconscious, but not quite.

Slumped over, a complete ragdoll in the others’ hands, but alert enough to groan softly at different sensations, eyes hooded and glazed, just wide enough to gather a blurry image of their surroundings. Though they’re dizzy and their limbs feel like lead, they gain comfort in the others’ touch, unconsciously leaning into them, eyelids fluttering in hazy relief at the soothing, concerned gestures. 

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sorry i never replied. everyday is blending together and im losing sense of time

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(crawls on all fours with blood drenched on me) I have to do arts and crafts