didsomebodybreakyourheart

[didsomebodybreakyourheart]

Jungkook is a trainer at the gym you joined. He's sweet and you hit it off.

Notes: this is dumb and self-indulgent and I'm extremely embarrassed to have written it.

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"Are you sure you've never done this before?"

"I'm. Sure." you finally managed to get the words out. You were out of breath and dizzy, even the core of your soul was sweating and here comes this kid to question the legitimacy of your un-fitness.

"You're a natural then!" he said excitedly and smiled. He's so pretty. His eyes turned into the cutest little arches with the smile and he had been so sweet since the beginning of the session.

He was cute. So cute you couldn't stop a breathless little laugh from escaping. "Jungkook, I swear, I'd never even gone up the stairs before today. My first time going up stairs was to get here from the first floor." you managed to say in an attempt to make him laugh and actually got a full body laugh out of him.

"Well," he started again, smile still in place, "you're doing amazing." He caught hold of your shoulders and adjusted your position, before looking straight into your eyes with the sweetest, most earnest look and said "please come back next week?"

"Jungkook... I--"

"I mean!" He took a step back "it doesn't have to be this class, just, don't give up on exercise, ok? I barely had to adjust your position at all today and you're having fun so. Uhm. You are having fun right?"

This was officially too cute to handle while trying to hold your entire body weight on your arms. Still. You decided to try and be playful.

"Are you sure you're not trying to bribe me with compliments to come back to you class? Because. If you are, it's definitely working, I'm not gonna lie"

Cue full body laugh again. "Nah I really mean it." He said before raising an eyebrow and getting a dangerous little smile. "But if it gets you to come back to /my/ class, I can step it up."

You shook your head, feeling almost fluatered from that one. "You don't have to do that, Jungkook, I do like this class. You're great at this." You said honestly.

"Thank you." He replied and you questioned when you started to think people's teeth can be cute.

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So your first meeting with Jungkook was at his TRX class six months ago. In the following months you really did keep going to his class and you had become more and more friendly with each other.

He was adorable, is the thing. He was sweet and nice and so very into his job that is was inspiring for his clients. He loved being physical so much, you often caught him spending his free time at the gym attending a boxing class or just using the equipment.

Meeting him at the gym when he was off was always fun. He has all his best friends there and yet he always seemed to want to spend time with you when you were there.

Which is how you might have developed a small unimportant absolutely-no-big-deal crush on him. On your gym instructor. Who's four years younger than you. And who's so hot he's off the goddamn scale, let alone being anywhere near what you considered your league.

It's fine. You kept telling yourself. It'll fade away just like every other silly crush you've had. It's fine, it's fine.

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"Oh come on, I haven't seen you in so long"

Adorable. "Jungkook, I am literally in front of you."

"You missed class last week"

"This again?"

"Yes I kno- wait, no, don't let your elbow jut out like that, here, yeah, keep it in line, perfect-- I know you couldn't make it but now you'll be missing two weeks in a row."

"Which is why I'm here now, using the gym equipment with you in the middle of the night."

"This isn't my class, i’m not even working right now!"

"And yet here you are, critiquing my form!" You said with a small breathless laugh "Being friends with a gym bunny is such a pain"

"Elbows in!!" He said and moved to hold your elbows where he apparently wanted them. "And this is literally my career, you can't call me a gym bunny what the hell. I'm a professional."

"A professional pain in the ass bunny" you said as you finished your last set. "Ok I'm done with this, please can we just shower and leave now"

He frowned. "We should war--"

"Please Jungkook, it's the middle of the night, please can we just leave this place."

He laughed and shook his head. "Fine" he said and crouched over your seat, caging you in the machine you had been using with his arms. "Only if you walk home."

He's. So close. Why was he always so close to you. "Noooo, Jungkook, it's late, I hate walking this late at night, I'm--"

He crouched down further "I'll walk with you" he said interrupting you and staring right into your eyes.

"What... No you don't have to do that. It's late for you too."

He smiled and straightened up again holding out his hand. You took it and he pulled you up. "Come on."

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You usually never showered at the gym, feeling way too uncomfortable to shower with other people around, but this time it was late and there wouldn't be any hot water at home so it made much more sense to shower there. Besides you, Jungkook and the receptionist were the only people there at this time of night, so it was really no different than showering by yourself.

It was nice and quiet, since the music that usually plays in the gym during the day had been turned off earlier. You had closed your eyes and were enjoying the feeling of taking all the dried sweat off your skin when you heard it.

"It's been a looong tiiime, without you my friend and I'll tell you all about it..."

You opened your eyes and turned the water off, trying to concentrate on the sound. It was. God. This was Jungkook, wasn't it. You stayed frozen in place trying to keep listening to him sing.

His voice was. Amazing. Not a single mistake in tonality, and so so sweet, it felt like it could reach straight into your heart. You could really only just stand there and listen, feeling softer and softer with each phase he sang. Jungkook was just lovely, wasn't he. He'd been so friendly to you from the beginning, had supported you so much, had made your new venture into exercise so fun and interesting and. And just. He's so beautiful. And so sweet. And he can sing like an angel. Even the very fact that he was singing at all was endearing to you. The fact alone that he was in good enough a mood, having stayed at the gym past his shift to hang out with you and having promised to walk you home, to sing right then was so sweet to you. You really thought you might just start tearing up if you thought too hard about it.

You shook your head and finished your shower, always keeping an ear out for Jungkook's voice.

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When you finished getting dressed and stepped out of the women's locker room, you found Jungkook waiting for you outside holding two steaming paper cups of tea in his hands. He smiled and offered you one and you wondered if it was possible to die from severe waves of affection for someone.

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The walk home was nice. You both lived relatively close to the gym, your own house being about a thirty minute walk from the gym and Jungkook's being just a bit further away.

You were mostly quiet, catching up about work, you complaining about that one coworker that keeps giving you trouble and Jungkook being only slightly annoyed at the gym for not paying him on time.

You desperately wanted to mention his singing, but didn't want to embarrass him in case he hadn't realized you could hear him. In the end you blurted it out.

"I didn't know you could sing like that" you said and waited to gauge his reaction.

"What?"

"At the locker room just now" you explained. "The locker rooms share a wall and it was so quiet, I could hear you" you said looking at the ground. "You sound amazing."

"Aish, that's... Ah... I... Hadn't realized you could hear me, that's embarrassing!"

"No, Jungkook, that's what I'm saying, you sounded beautiful. Your voice is amazing, I almost couldn't believe it was you. You're just so amazing, man, I just. Hope you know thar." you said. God late night conversations made you a hundred percent more expressive, you waited to see how badly jungkook was cringing.

"It's not. Like. It's nothing, I just sing sometimes. When I'm happy or. You know. When I'm feeling good, it comes out. Sometimes."

"Being at your workplace in the middle of the night, past your own shift too, makes you happy?"

"Yeah it's. That wasn't work." He said, avoiding making eye contact with you, keeping his eyes at the ground. "We were hanging out that's. That's not work."

"God, Jungkook, you're so sweet sometimes. I can't believe you're so nice to me."

He looked up at you at that. You gave him a small sincere smile and kept talking. "I really don't think I would have stuck with the gym if it hadn't been for you. Sometimes my only motivation to come to your class is to see you." You said only realising how bad that sounded after hearing yourself say it. "Ahh I don't mean that in a creepy way just. We're friends, right? And seeing you mak--"

"I always look for you." He interrupted suddenly. "I always look for. Uhm actually. ah, can we please just. sit for a bit?" He asked and pointed at the staircase in front of the house you had just walked past. You followed his lead and you ended up sitting next to each other. Your heartbeat had skyrocketed since he suggested it and you felt numb down to your fingertips but you tried to keep a calm facade to avoid making a fool of yourself.

"When you joined " he continued in a quiet voice "I was so excited to have you there. You were so cute and funny and so nice. I liked that you were so honest with me about how inexperienced you were and." He trailed off a bit. He looked so small. His voice was quiet and he kept avoiding eye contact with you. Your heart was almost breaking to see funny, smiley Jungkook look shy and breakable. "People always try to play off like they don't need help but you were so honest and you looked at me like you needed me. And I really liked that." He took a deep breath. "And when you kept coming and getting better and better, -you really are a natural, you took to it so well-" he interrupted his own string of words with that, looking up at you to say it, before turning away again "ah right, so, I thought eventually you wouldn't need me as much or you would get bored of my class but you kept coming. And it made me so happy to have you there. I love talking with you, you always take me seriously and when we're joking around it's still so comfortable. People can be... weird sometimes, when I try to joke around with them. But you always made me comfortable." He trailed off again and hid his face in his palm. "Ahhh I'm sorry, is this too much? This is too much, I'm sorry"

"Jungkook no don't apologize." You tried to confort him and hesitantly put your hand on his shoulder. "I feel comfortable with you too. I still, even months later, I still feel out of place and awkward at that gym without you there. And you know, sometimes it's not even that!" You said and gave his shoulder a gentle squeeze to get him to look at you. "Sometimes I just want to see you. Regardless of the context. I just. I like. Uhm. Yeah."

You trailed off and ended up breaking the eye contact you had initiated, second guessing yourself.

Jungkook reached up to the hand you had on his shoulder and took it in both of his own in his lap. He gently played with your fingers. "Your fingers are shaking" he whispered.

"I'm sorry."

"No." He shook his head and squeezed your hand in his. He breathed out an imperceptible laugh. "I'm nervous." he said.

"Yeah me too."

"It's. Sometimes it's difficult for me to not be a try-hard, you know. I take things too seriously and I get in my own head and I... But. I get so excited and happy when I'm with you, it turns all the shitty things in my head off. I don't even get the chance to overthink things when I'm with you."

"Jungkook..."

"I like you." He said in the end and held eye contact with you this time. "I just like you a lot"

He's so handsome. He's gorgeous. And he's so sweet. And young. You felt like crying. "That's sweet, Jungkook. It's nice of you to say." God your eyes really were watering. You took your hand back from his lap and looked away to hide it.

You knew you were confusing him, but hearing the words and knowing he could never ever mean it the way you want him to, was kinf of hitting you right where it hurt. He's too good for you, always had been. You'll be his friend, of course you will, but that's how close people like you are allowed to get to people like Jungkook.

"Don't cry." You heard him say. You felt his arm coming around your shoulder and gently pull you close. "Please don't cry. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make your sad."

He's sweet. He's so so sweet. You let him pull you close to him, hiding your face in your hands and letting your head fall on his shoulder.

" I'm not expecting anything from you, I just wanted you to know." He said gently, bringing his other hand up to stroke your hair. "We can just be friends, nothing has to change, please don't cry because of me."

You shook your head. "Jungkook." You managed to say. "Of course nothing will change. You aren't into me. And that's fine, it's fine I just" you paused "I really do like you. So much. So so much."

He pulled back at that, seeming startled at the confession. he felt him take a moment and shake his head as if to gather his thought before crouching down to touch his forehead to yours. God you'd never been this close to him and you like him so much. He's so warm. You wished you could stay like this, with his arms around you and his sweet voice in your ears forever.

"Hey, shh. Come on. Baby. Shh, it's ok." he said, the pet name startling you out of your thoughts for a second. He noticed. "Come on, please don't ll be like this. Please, baby, can you show me your pretty eyes? Hey. " He sounded lighter, less small and shy but instead closer to his usual self. "You just made me so happy, telling me that you like me, baby, why are you crying now? Come on." He tried to pull your hands away from your face and you let him. He gently placed his hand on your neck. "Hey. There you are."

You smiled weakly. "Hi, Jungkook."

"Do you really like me?" You nodded and he smiled wide and so so handsome. "Ahh you're making me so happy. Why are you sad?"

"Jungkook. People who look the way you do, don't "like" people like me."

"Gross, stupid looking guys don't like gorgeous adorable girls?" He said with a confused frown. Handsome. So handsome. You like him so much.

"Jungkook, don't."

"Hey." He started and put your hair behind your ear. "The first thing I thought when I found you in my class for the very first time was how gorgeous you were." He sounded so sincere. He can't mean it, of course he can't, but he's so sweet your heart aches with it . "You gave me all of your attention, you followed all my instructions so well. You kept looking right at me. Focusing on everything I was doing. I kept showing off in that class." He laughed. "It was so obvious, my friend gave me so much shit for it. But I wanted to keep your eyes on me.” he shrugged “In the end i was so excited to see how good and nice and funny you were, I couldn't keep it up. But, baby, sometimes when I catch you looking at me, it feels like my blood turns hot."

"Jungkook..."

He shook his head. "Do you really not know? Being close to you right now, having you in my arms... Baby, I wish I could keep you here forever."

He's so close. You reached up and touched his hair and he turned his head and kissed the palm of your hand softly. "Please, baby" he whispered.

Feeling numb you reached up again and crossed your arms behind his neck. He felt so strong and solid. You lightly pulled him even closer, your chest touching his now. You brought your face close to his softly nuzzling at his cheek, tracing your lips on his skin. You felt him exhale shakily.

He moved both his hands to the side of your waist, touching at your ribs with a gentle controlled force, like he'd been holding back. Like he's still holding back. You want him so much.

"Baby" he whispered, his voice sounding shaky and just a touch of desperate. You could feel his whispers on your skin.

"Shhh, baby, I know" you whispered back. You started kissing his cheek with tiny dry kisses, just a press of your lips against him. In return, he snaked his arms around your waist and pulled, bringing your chest even closer to his. His palms were open, fingers spread wide on your body as if he was trying to touch as much of you as he could. He turned his face to the side, so that his nose was touching yours and you felt his breath right on your mouth. He angled his face towards you and his lips nudged yours. You followed his movement and did the same, your bottom lip catching on his own top one. You felt his breathing stumble and you did it again more deliberately this time. You kissed his top lip and he made a frustrated noise. He moved one hand behind your neck, holding you still and finally, finally, kissed you for real.

He leaned back on the wall behind him and used his hold on you to pull you on top of him as if you weighed nothing. He's so strong. His chest was so hard and solid, you wanted to keep touching him forever.

Feeling breathless and realising this was way too much to be doing in public you made a small noise and pulled back just enough to look at him. "Fuck, Jungkook, this is." you laughed. "Fuck." You kept laughing and after catching his breath he laughed with you.

"Why are we laughing, baby?" He asked between giggles and you shook your head.

"I'm just happy. And emotional." You said and hugged him close to you, burying your face on the side of his neck. "Jungkookie, I'm so happy."

He just laughed and stroke your back. "I'm happy too. But also. We're making out in public on some poor stranger's doorstep so." You laughed harder, but he was right, you had to move. You pulled out of his arms and he frowned so you ducked back in to give him a small kiss on the cheek again.

"Come on, baby, we have to move." You said with a smile and got up. He didn't. "Come ooon, Jungkook, move!" You said with a laugh. He smiled at you and extended his arms for you to pull him up. He's so cute. You pulled him up and he followed the forward movement to hug you again. You hugged him back with your hands around his waist.

"Baby." He just said and gave you a chaste kiss on your cheek. "You'll be with me now, yeah?"

You shook your head. "Ah Jungkook has anyone told you you're adorable?" You squeezed him tight. "Yes, baby, I'll be with you now."