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Useless Veilguard fact of the day: Day 206

Even though Solas is a temporary companion that joins Rook during the final mission, he still has a follower file. In that file, his faction is set as Inquisition.

Check out the tag for more useless facts: #useless davg fact of the day!

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Hurt flashed in her eyes. "Fine," she said, her voice brittle.

He hated that brittleness more than anything he'd ever encountered. Hated himself for causing it.

How is it that Lorcan immidiately notices Elide's brittle voice, but Cassian doesn't notice Nesta's vacant and carefully blank face, her thin and brittle voice, the bruised and pained look in her eyes, the giant wave of raw emotion that she could only suppress by raising that wall of steel in her mind to protect herself from him?

This probably makes me a toxic person, but I hope Cassian hates himself next book. I hope he realizes that he's broken Nesta and hates himself for it. I hope he realizes that Nesta is a shell of who she once was and hates himself for causing it. I hope he realizes that he caged her, clipped her wings, ripped out her fangs and claws, and hates himself for it. I hope he realizes that all his family wants to do is control his mate, and I hope he hates himself for allowing them to try and do that.

When Cassian finds out that Nesta no longer feels safe around him, I hope it shatters him completely.

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The Empress

She’s finally finished, my Mythal tarot card ✨

Hope it was worth the wait!

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Nesta ended her "healing" arc not feeling worthy of love. Not feeling worthy of friends. Not feeling worthy of Ataraxia. Not feeling worthy of her power.

That mentality is not healing. It's what causes people to commit suicide.

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Nesta needed an Emrys to keep Cassian in line in ACOSF

All Cassian did all book long was beat Nesta down, insult her, abuse her, and belittle her when all she needed was for someone to show her some love and kindness, someone to compliment her, and someone to meet her in her darkness and walk through it with her.

Aelin healed because of Rowan. Nesta healed in spite of Cassian.

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"I was dragged into this world of yours, this court." "Then go somewhere else." Her mouth formed a tight line at the challenge. "Perhaps I will." But he knew there was no other place to go. Not when she had no money, no family beyond this territory. "Be sure to write."

ACOFAS, Chapter 21

Hmmmm... the woman I suspect is my mate is helpless, alone in the world, and entirely dependent on the goodwill of her sister/my High Lady and also my brother/my High Lord, who I know severely dislikes her. Shall I help her? Nah. I shall instead suggest that she do what I know she cannot.

ACOFAS was the death knell of Nessian. This re-read is brutal.

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Tamlin telling Nesta in ACOSF "You are just as nasty as your sister said you'd be", is such a rage baiting exchange between them for me. It very clearly highlights the way that Feyre victimizes herself to every single person she meets, to the point where every character that she interacts with before her sisters comes away thinking that Nesta is the person that should be held responsible for everything that Feyre has gone thru. In doing so, Feyre basically lays the groundwork for all the negative interactions that Nesta has with anyone that Feyre gets to first - because everyone ends up tripping all over themselves to become one of Feyre's many revenge proxies. Tamlin, Rhysand - and by extension the Inner Circle - all of them get the same sob story and all come away with the same conclusion about Nesta. It's not their mother that gets any blame, or their father and definitely not Elain, it is ALWAYS Nesta.

And if this isn't a huge sign to the reader that Feyre is not only an unreliable narrator but that she is a very bias one, I don't know what is.....but most people still do not get it! I was calling bullshit from Book 1, but I guess I'm some kind of anomaly.

Just about the only thing that ACOSF got right was to point out that anyone that Nesta met in the series outside of Feyre, likes her and gets along with her fine..., but it also felt like too little to late for me.

And I'll add this - and this goes out to the "as an older sibling, I would never" crowd - I have 3 siblings, and the way that we treated each other growing up makes the Archeron sisters look like saints. We said and did some really wild things to each other growing up. One thing I never did and will never do, is bad mouth my siblings to anyone that I just met. The last thing I would ever want or would allow is for someone who barely knows my siblings at all to treat them negatively on my behalf. That is a very hard line in the sand that I do not allow people to cross.

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ik so many people are excited about acotar 6 but I cant help but feel reluctant and like im bracing myself. like I had been so excited for SF and then when I got it my heart broke in the worst way possible. Nesta was beaten down and abused and we were supposed to applaud the IC for a job well done. I worry for Lucien and what SJM is going to do to him. She already treats him horribly and up until now hes barely been present. How bad is it going to be once hes front and center

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crazy after hlta when you go over to dorian and he’s like “so we absolutely cannot tell anyone about what happened when we went into the fade, they’ll just see it as a challenge” and your inquisitor is like yeah for sure and then you go over to cassandra and she’s like “i’m writing down an entirely truthful account of us going into the fade for the public record because these events cannot be lost to myth and guesswork again” and your inquisitor is like yeah for sure. i guess i’m just letting that play out. staying in my lane

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When Cassian asked Rhys if Feyre could transform herself into an Illyrian to give birth,Rhys told him that it would be dangerous for the baby,not Feyre.This means that the child could be lost,but Feyre would live.Why wasn't this an option?Why wasn't Feyre informed of this?Why the life of the child was more important than the mother's?They could try again,if that baby was lost,so many women,queens included gave birth to stillborn children in the past and provided an heir later, nonetheless.

This whole pregnancy plot was a really bad idea.I imagine that if the book was to be published,after Roe vs Wade was overturned,publishers would probably not allow it, because of the controversy it would generate.It was published in 2021,though and Roe vs Wade was overturned in 2022.I personally read it after that, though and seeing such a thing in an American book disgusted me. Stories of women,who couldn't get abortions,while their babies had serious genetic diseases have made international news. Still,anti abortion fanatics didn't start existing in 2022, publishers and editors should realize how problematic,how controversial this was.I hear that the editor of Acosf decided it would be best to cut a threesome scene between Nesta,Cassian and Azriel, because it would be too much.(Nesta ends up just fantasizing about it).They didn't see any problem with the reproduction abuse Feyre goes through,though .Nesta,who grew up under conservative expectations for women acting on her sexual fantasies was too much,Feyre not being able to decide about her body and her life wasn't a problem.

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in all honesty what are we expecting Nesta to do when Cassian and Rhysand (CANONICALLY) start shit with her? Just sit there and take it? make excuses like feyre? clearly we can't have a woman defend herself with mean words so what, exactly are we wanting Nesta to do when Cassian and Rhysand goad her and taunt her

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the Fandoms relationship with Feyre and the Race to Innocence to defend her poor actions and war crimes across the series whether that be to the innocent spring court and summer court citizens or the poor and authoritative actions torwards her sister and their strained relationship

this Fandom has decided Feyre is an eternal victim, she's selfless, she's kind, she's a feminist, shes-

Feyre has committed war crimes that have gotten countless people killed due to a personal vendetta. She has made fun of Lucien and the Band of Exiles and have undermined what they wanted to do. She has locked up her sister and taken away her freedom in the name of "her learning how to control herself" and to "help her" in a very similar way that was done to her- to which she justified the destruction of thr Spring Court in order to further Spurn tamlin

and quite frankly you can also see it when Feyre does not do anything about helping the Illyrian Women, despite donning their wings and using them in a way they are prohibited from using

you can also see this in her not doing anything to help anyone, especially the women and children, in the CoN. Keir asks for freedom for his people and she responds with questions about his comfort level. And when he, rightfully imo, ignores her, she blames it on being a woman

Events from the first book, especially around her and her sisters and their father, are often used as a way to undermine the impact and destruction Feyre has brought on people around her

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You remember one of the reasons why Nesta hated her father? Because of this:

“He let Mother die— he had a fleet of ships at his disposal to sail acros the world for a cure, or he could have hired men to go into Prythian and beg them for help. But he let her waste away."

"He loved her —he grieved for her." I didn't know what the truth was—-perhaps both.

"He let her die. You would have gone to the ends of the earth to save your High Lord."

-Acotar chapter 30 pg 266-267

I’m just thinking of how she was willing to die for Cassian in ACOWAR. She would’ve gone to the ends of the earth for him. Would’ve killed for him.

And then again in ACOSF

How triggering it would’ve been seeing Rhysand withhold information from Feyre, letting her risk her life and almost dying whilst pregnant.

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krem possibly the only convincingly competent person in the inquisition

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"The Night Court does what it wants," Tamlin said. "They live by their own codes, their own corrupt morals."

Chapter 24 acotar pg 217

Pretty much sums up Rhysand

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I just want to see a fic where eris and Nesta become a thing(mating bond with Cassian still in tact) and Cassian feeling like crawling out of his skin, like he can’t breathe because he managed to push away the one person he’d waited all his life for. I want to see him suffer the heartache of not being able to have the thing that is supposedly so rare that he realistically shouldn’t of been able to have it in his lifetime.

I want him to see the light in Nesta’s eyes when she’s with someone else and see how she glows when she’s treated with respect and love. I want him to feel jealous that he’s no the one to do that for her.

I want him to look at Mor and realise she has only ever used him as a buffer because she can’t tell the truth

I want him to realise that he could’ve had all that Rhys and Feyre have if only he hadn’t been so focused on wanting Nesta to be her sister.

That his loyalty towards the inner circle was the thing that made him sabotage what could’ve been.

I want him to sit in the house of wind and realise how cold and empty it feels without her there.