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i honestly prefer to kick a man when hes down. its the easiest time to do it

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Belladonna of Sadness (1973) dir. Eiichi Yamamoto

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meet  kaede aratani. lunaris' very own thirty - five year old alpha who belongs to the northern pack. she is a scout / ranger, and the moon goddess has blessed her with the special ability of electrokinesis. i hear she is secretly against the mating ceremony's return. you didn't hear it from me, but kaede is a secret child of an elder. knowing it's forbidden, she was adopted into a trusted ally's family and has been posing as their child.

❛ ⸻ BASICS .

name: kaede aratani.

nickname: kae.

birthday & age: october 13th, 1990 & 35.

zodiac: libra sun, scorpio moon, capricorn rising.

positive traits: brutally honest, prudent, relentless, unflinching, unyielding.

negative traits: angry / aggressive, bitter, emotionally repressed, guarded, and destructive.

occupation(s): scout / ranger. ex - guard.

ability: electrokinesis — the ability to generate, absorb, and manipulate electricity. kaede can channel this into precise strikes, short bursts of speed, or to overwhelm tech - based traps or tools. her control is tied closely to her emotional regulation, which … is complicated.

gender & sexuality: woman & bisexual.

❛ ⸻ AT A GLANCE .

A FUSE THAT IS BURNING TOWARDS SOMETHING EXPLOSIVE. THE DAUGHTER OF A LINE THAT NEVER SHOULD HAVE BEEN. HER POWER CRACKLES JUST BENEATH THE SURFACE — BEAUTIFUL, VIOLENT, BARELY HELD BACK. ANGER THAT IS NOT A PHASE, BUT AN INHERITANCE. A WOMAN THAT WALKS THE SHADOWS BETWEEN GREATNESS AND RUIN. SHE DOESN’T WANT REDEMPTION. SHE WANTS CONTROL. NO LONGER CONTENT TO BE A WEAPON. SHE WANTS TO BE THE ONE WHO DECIDES WHERE IT STRIKES.

❛ ⸻ BACKSTORY .

kaede arasaka was raised among shadows — not out of humility or service, but necessity. the daughter of an elder and someone forbidden, her very existence was a threat to the rigid purity of northern pack hierarchy. to hide her, she was quietly adopted into a loyal ally’s household and raised under another name, another bloodline. but kaede was never one to be invisible. from a young age, she displayed unusual strength, tactical brilliance, and an alarming ease with the brutalities required of an alpha - born. she earned her place among the northern pack’s elite guards — and soon after, the impossible honour of protecting the royal family itself. for a time, kaede had purpose, station, and loyalty to something greater than herself. until it all fell. kaede survived the fall of the royal family, but not without cost. the guilt of their deaths haunts her; she blames herself for not saving them, not seeing the betrayal coming. that failure broke something in her — or perhaps, simply revealed what was always underneath. she's since returned to work as a scout, patrolling the pack's borders, running solo missions no one else will take. but it's not enough. she’s bitter. resentful. furious that her bloodline is a secret she has to swallow. that she’s denied the legacy she was born to. kaede doesn’t want to serve power anymore. she wants to hold it. she wants the truth to come out — no matter what it costs. and as her electrokinesis grows harder to keep contained, the storm she’s kept inside is threatening to break.

❛ ⸻ HEADCANONS .

kaede’s electrical ability often manifests involuntarily in moments of emotional instability — static prickling her skin, lights flickering, the air going sharp with ozone. she’s mastered stealth, but not suppression.

she’s been quietly testing the boundaries of the elders’ power structure for years. she hasn’t decided if she wants to burn it down or claim it for herself.

her closest relationship is with leo, who is one of the only people she trusts. he balances her, but she fears he’ll abandon her if he ever learns the truth about her parentage.

kaede still performs old royal guard drills at dawn — out of ritual or penance, it’s hard to tell.

her “loyalty” to the elders is entirely performative. she obeys to collecting knowledge — and names — for a time when she won’t have to kneel anymore.

her relationship with her adoptive family is complicated — there’s love, but also the quiet tension of knowing it was all built on a lie. her older brother still hasn't been told the truth ( wc on main! ).

she has vivid nightmares of the royal family’s final night. she also has dreams of fire and blood, of a northern pack ruled differently — by her.

kaede’s idea of affection is showing up uninvited with fresh - killed game or fixing a loose roof shingle in silence. words don’t come easy.

despite her bitterness, kaede still protects her patrol routes with brutal diligence. somewhere deep down, she still wants to be someone worth following. if she can get there is a different story.

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meet  rue holloway. lunaris’ very own  thirty - five  year old  beta  who belongs to the  southern  pack. they are a  second in command  and the moon goddess has blessed them with the special ability of illusion weaving. it seems the elders have arranged them in a courtship with  any fc 35+. i hear they are secretly  against  the mating ceremony’s return. you also didn’t hear it from me, but  rue is working as a spy for the elders, and she reports back everything she witnesses in each pack to them.

❛ ⸻  BASICS .

name:  ruth solenne wren holloway.

nickname:  rue. 

birthday & age:  feburary 7th, 1990 & 35.

zodiac:  aquarius sun, leo moon, sagittarius rising.

positive traits:  altruistic, deeply empathetic, insightful, playful, and quietly courageous.

negative traits:  duplicitous, guilt - ridden, overly cautious, resentful, and a workaholic.

occupation(s):  second - in - command for the southern pack.

ability: illusion weaving: can project subtle illusions — a sound, a scent, even a visual distraction — to mislead or protect.

gender & sexuality:  woman &  doesn't care to label herself. she likes who she likes and thats that.

❛ ⸻ AT A GLANCE .

ILLUSIONS THAT PROTECT EVERYONE BUT HER. SCUFFED BOOTS COATED IN ENCHANTED DUST. HALF - TRUTHS STITCHED INTO SILENCE. THE WEIGHT OF A SECOND - IN - COMMAND WHO NEVER ASKED FOR THE TITLE. MOONLIGHT CUTTING THROUGH MIST LIKE A WARNING. THE ACHE OF BEING LOYAL TO A PLACE THAT MIGHT DEVOUR HER.

❛ ⸻  THE STORY .

trigger warnings: n/a.

there’s a quiet kind of strength to rue holloway — the sort that survives by staying small, calculating, forgettable in a crowd until she’s not. she was raised deep in the wilds of the southern pack, a region long known for rebellion cloaked in kindness. her childhood was fractured — her mother disappeared when rue was just seven, and her father was a bitter man who loathed his own omega status. rue grew up learning to read the room before she ever learned to read a book, l earning which truths to speak and which to hide. she came of age during a period of sharp change. the southern pack, progressive and idealistic, outlawed omega suppression and opened its arms to outcasts from harsher territories. rue became one of the youngest betas to earn the trust of the southern alpha, her illusion weaving abilities became invaluable in both diplomacy and defence. kind, observant, and emotionally intelligent, she was made second - in - command at just thirty. but her power came with a price. several winters ago, rue was caught trespassing in a forbidden zone between pack territories. the elders found her first — and made a deal she had no choice but to accept. she would report everything she saw, everything she heard, every fracture forming inside each pack, especially her own. they threatened to expose secrets she couldn’t afford to let surface — her role in helping fugitive omegas escape, the illusion - bond she once cast for a desperate couple that may have broken sacred laws and expose them, even if her choices were made in good moral. now, she walks a razor - thin line. to her pack, she is a loyal and empathetic leader — one of the architects of the new southern vision. to the elders, she is a reluctant spy with no choice but to serve. her illusions hide her real loyalties, but the weight of the double life is eating away at her. rue doesn’t believe she’ll survive this war — but she intends to make sure the next generation never has to lie the way she does. and if she ever finds a way to break free from the elders’ grasp without endangering those she protects? they will learn just how dangerous a good woman with nothing left to lose can be.

❛ ⸻  HEADCANONS .

she’s a walking contradiction. rue speaks softly but thinks sharply. she’ll hesitate before killing, but not before lying. she believes in mercy, yet never forgets a betrayal. people often underestimate her — and she lets them.

her illusions don’t just trick the eye — they play on emotion. rue once made a grieving omega believe her pup survived just long enough to let them say goodbye. it was a kindness she’s never forgiven herself for.

her hands shake after every use of her ability. no one notices. not yet. — she hides it by clenching her fists or disappearing into the trees. the more complex the illusion, the more it takes from her. she views it as payment.

she keeps a small sketchbook tucked in her jacket. most pages are filled with surreal landscapes — distorted forest paths, moons with teeth, burning altars. a few are of wolves she’s loved or lost. none are labeled.

she has a soft spot for runaway omegas. especially the ones with bite. rue has helped more than a few fake their scent or status long enough to vanish into safety until she was caught by the elders.

rue believes she won’t live to see the future she’s building. but she builds it anyway. she sees herself as a tool — temporary, necessary, and disposable if it means others get freedom.

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ANNA SAWAI photographed by Mekhi Turner for Numéro Netherlands

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i’m like if an angel fell from heaven and got insanely fucked up from the impact

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margaret atwood / louise glück

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You Won’t Be Alone (2022)

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THE ENGLISH 1.05

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