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all my love to other autistic people who just know jack shit. the ones who have no "infodump" locked and loaded, nothing they can rattle off the top of their head. the ones who have a specific interest in certain things but still not knowing a lot about it. autistic people who will never be able to memorise fun facts about something no matter how fundamental it is to them as a subject. the point of autistic interests are not being a secret expert on random shit, you just like it a real big amount

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You can tell the disabled community on here has an ableism problem because any time a system dares to exist in those spaces the responses are usually some form of "yeah but one alter in your system had a good day 3 years ago so you're all basically privileged and fully abled and don't deserve to call yourself disabled or talk about your experiences at all". It's literally just repackaged "but if you did this before you can't actually be affected by your disability now so why can't you just do it without complaining?? You're just making things up, aren't you?" but yeah fuck systems I guess, no self-reflection needed here. The amount of times this happens makes me feel like I'm going feral. You are not immune to being ableist just because you are disabled yourself. Fucking hell.

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STOP LINKING ATTRACTIVENESS WITH MORALITY (“notice how the person with the bad opinion is ugly?”)

STOP LINKING WEIGHT WITH MORALITY (“lmao look how fit all the people with Good Opinion are, Person I Hate is Fat”)

STOP LINKING AGE WITH MORALITY (“people with Good Opinion just don’t age I swear!”)

STOP LINKING HEALTH WITH MORALITY (“Well xyz health problem is what Person I Hate gets for being shitty!”)

STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT

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The amount of people who try to sell variations of "if you're not getting better, it's just because you aren't trying hard enough to improve" as if it's some necessary but compassionate harsh truth everyone needs to hear and not just classic ableism is genuinely so tiring

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i feel like it'd be at least a step forward in destigmatising self harm if more people recognised just how many of their less than perfect lifestyle choices can be defined - and weaponised - as "self harming behaviours"

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sending acknowledgement to the developmentally disabled people who struggle with processing their own emotions. where having an emotional response to something itself can cause overwhelm and meltdowns. where even being too happy or too excited will be too much to process and end up causing distress. for every one of us with a frustration tolerance that's incredibly low. it's fine. that's just part of the disability.

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Worst feeling ever for most of my illnesses: trying to sleep in a room with a ticking clock.

Psychosis? Something about it makes me paranoid. Like I'm being timed. Or I'm in a horror game. Makes me more likely to hallucinate.

ADHD + autism combo pack? Not enough stimulation and it's repetitive as fuck to the point of rage.

Insomnia? Noise = keeping me awake.

I also feel compelled to count every tick for some damn reason which is also fucked. Bro can I please have a sleepover where I don't have to sleep with a CLOCK. WHY DO YOU HAVE CLOCKS IN YOUR HOUSE.

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(person who learned from childhood to make themself as small and unimportant as possible to avoid being a burden) yeah its okay we dont have to do my thing if you dont want i dont mind

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it's so annoying that mocking "crazy people" is so ingrained in culture. Referring to someone as being nuts and calling someone a mental patient. Someone says they think they heard something and it's Uh-oh are you HeARinG VoiCEs? Better get the straight jacket! hahaha

shut up

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Recovery from psychosis means relearning how to trust your own mind after everyone told you you couldn't and after you learned it failed you. Can't tell you how many times I ask "am I making sense?" in a day

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Jesus am I tired of Tumblr's gatekeeping of solidarity movements. If you asked someone at an in-person cripplepunk meet-up to provide a list of their disabilities to you so you could validate if they're the right kind of cripple for you, you're the one who gets kicked out, not them. Hell, if you asked for a list at an online meet, I'd boot you, too.

The idea that there's some hard bright line which exists between all disabilities of all other organs and disabilities of this one organ is bizarre and unhelpful. It also perpetuates the "but mental disabilities are different" mindset which leads to "oh but mental health coverage is optional, different, and can be shunted off into its own little box."

I have a disability where one of my organs doesn't function properly bc it doesn't make enough of a certain kind of juice, which makes it difficult for me to do certain things which I need to do to function. I have to adapt my life, change what I eat and how I move my body, take medications and rely on others for assistance with my condition. If I don't do that, this condition has been known to kill people. Is that diabetes or post-traumatic stress disorder?

I have another disability in which my nervous system doesn't behave properly, and that causes me great difficulty in my life. I have had to change what I eat, the medications I take, how much coffee I drink, how I rest, and how I deal with the medical establishment. This disability and its diagnosis has profoundly affected how I live my life, and I require assists and accommodations to live my life as I choose. Is that disability ADHD or physical damage to my spine from the tumor which compressed my spinal cord & left scars behind when it was removed?

Do anxiety and paranoia and insomnia and depression count if they're symptoms of celiac disease? If not, why not? They're disabling effects of an autoimmune disorder. And regardless, it's because body not act right so... wtf? How about my memory issues that come from damage from a medication used to treat the pain in my legs?

Solidarity movements are reciprocal, y'all, and I'm exhausted of "you must be this queer/this trans/this disabled to come in." Maybe I'm just too fucking old and too fucking tired to listen to this week's Discourse ™️ about who trademarked what term when while actual problems exist.

I know it probably seems like you're doing something productive to you, but I assure you, you're not. If your issue is "these specific people are being dicks," deal with those people being dicks, and don't ascribe their dickishness to their disability. The problem is they're being a dick.

If your issue is instead "but this isn't as disabling as what I deal with" or "I have that disability and it's not as bad for me as my other disability" or "but it feels good for me to draw a line between disabilities of this one organ and every other organ," then it is you. You are being the dick.

Perpetuating the non-existent line between "physical" and "mental" disabilities helps absolutely no one. It places mental disabilities by default in a "not as bad" category and an "all in your head" one, which ... like, do I need to explain to y'all why functioning labels and categories aren't helpful in disability movements? Why are we resurrecting this shit and giving it new polish?

To be clear, I am not interested in debating this, so trying to tell me how your no-brain-problems-allowed approach is right and good, actually, is a waste of your time, because there is absolutely no way to convince me that trying to keep certain kinds of disabilities out of a general disability solidarity movement based on the organ that disability centers in has any use whatsoever. The line between "mental" and "physical" disabilities is blurry as fuck and trying to fence off all brain problems is not okay, especially since y'all don't mean that because a lot of things which are caused by the brain acting in a non-standard matter are considered "physical" disabilities.

Jesus, y'all make me tired. This bullshit is the least punk thing ever.

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As soon as you realize how aggressively singletnormative the trans community is you will never stop being angry about it

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not to be disabled on main but have you ever fucking noticed how every god damn thing requires both time and energy

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happy disability pride month to people who aren't proud of their disabilities. to people who would do anything to be able bodied or have a 'normal' brain. I see you

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how it feels to be aware of your paranoias btw

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This disability pride month I'm BEGGING you to acknowledge and care about the people in this community who often fly under the radar when it comes to positivity and information. People who require equipment to live, like ventilators, pacemakers, and feeding tubes. People who are bedbound. People with visible differences. People who have disabilities caused by things like substance abuse, overdose, or self harm. People with conditions so rare that they've never met someone who has the same one. People who need full time care and have to have help to use social media.

If you want to support the community, that means supporting all of the community. Disability pride means being proud of every last one of us, and making sure everyone feels heard. Make sure to amplify the voices of those who need it this month, and ideally for the rest of the year too.