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You're joking right? Now you're mad at me? Why? Because I said 'I have nothing nice to say' and said as such? I thought communication was what you wanted, but not too much- even though you yelled at me for months to open up and then when I did finally it was immediately told that that wasn't allowed anymore. Forgive me for being a little upset that this is the third fucking month in a row that you said that you would find a way to cover my fucking credit card that I had to max out for your stupid fucking car. This was never supposed to be my responsibility and yet it is anyway so you can take your hurt feefees and shove them up your hypocritical ass. You're just like our parents.

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I know my life will end in suicide. I'm sure of it.

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Playing a fun game called "Watch how quickly everyone forgets me when I don't reach out first."

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Life is stupid and I can't wait until my brother in law has a job too so I can have the house to my self and be able to actually fucking do to without the risk of being interrupted. I don't want to be alive anymore. I'm too broken for it.

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SINNERS (2025) dir. Ryan Coogler

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I'm still here. Just broken

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I feel so betrayed. They could have asked. They SHOULD have asked. I don't remember giving them permission to use my credit card, especially when they can't pay it for me. Why are they trying to destroy my credit?? I did everything right for them. I would have been okay with it if they'd just asked. How I supposed to fucking pay it

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I think tomorrow I might actually do it.

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Okay so I don't get into discussions about religion, but I think it's funny as fuck when hateful Christians try to say I'm not "good" because I've never been to a church service. I've been to church, but only to volunteer at the food bank it ran. I've been to church, but to help people. Not for the ancient words of a God people use to justify outward cruelty.

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Ah. So it's fine for you to imply I am the type that would spring a divorce on you, but I can't imply that you might possibly be capable of doing the same to me.

I was fine talking about the eventual prenup, I don't care about it either way, but you're the one who started to act defensive when I said I'd get my own lawyer to review it so I am also protected by it before I ever sign. I am doubling down on that for sure now, since I was under the impression that OUR plan is for me to NOT be the primary worker and instead be the SAHP for the first few years of our childrens' lives.

What the hell am I supposed to do if you decide I'm not sexy anymore and you divorce me? The prenup would likely say "In the event of a divorce both parties get what they brought in" which sounds innocent in theory but is also WAY TOO VAGUE. Let's say, for the sake of hypotheticals, you DO fall in love with someone else- It would be as simple as you being careful not to cheat and then filling the paperwork: then you walk away with everything, including our children since I am trans and disabled- the disabled parent is always less likely to succeed in a custody battle.

Your concern is I will take your money, my concern is that you will take my life (not in a literal sense).

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Tbh I hope they don't alert us when the nukes go flying. I don't want to die afraid

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Hm. It's almost like I tried to skip that episode of Dr. Who for a reason. I wanted to get to the actually interesting episodes but no- WE ABSOLUTELY HAD TO WATCH THE EPISODE I KNEW WOULD TRIGGER YOU, YOU FUCKING MORON

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The urge to change my discord status to "if I don't reply it's probably because I've killed myself" is very intense and real today

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what will it be, boss? the comfort of misery or the pain of change?