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Hi please read. This is from my new blog. Fuck the TCC.

I said what I said 😌

(Really hope I don’t lose followers for this but here we go.)

As someone who was in the True Crime Community from 2017-2018 (I went by dahmershandsaw but my account was deleted thank god) I want to say that it was by far one of the most toxic “fandoms” I was ever involved with. 

I was going through a very hard time in my life in 2017, my dad cheated on my mom and I became hateful and numb to everything because of him. I was an edgy 15/16 year old who thought that romanticizing serial killers was edgy. I even became an alcoholic. I became so desensitized to death and I thought making light of the atrocities committed by Jeffrey Dahmer, Dylan Klebold, Eric Harris and Ted Bundy “wasn’t that bad.” I even thought that Jeffrey Dahmer, Ted Bundy and Dylan Klebold were Attractive for Christ’s sake. I even thought it was cute and quirky to have BPD (which yes, I actually have.) I made stupid posts and edits, hell, I even considered buying a “WRATH” shirt that Dylan Klebold wore on the day of the Columbine Massacre. 

I AM NO LONGER THAT PERSON

I honestly think that The Beatles, Stranger Things, and going to a new therapist brought me out of that toxic mindset, and as cheesy as it sounds I think that they truly helped change my life. I’m no longer an alcoholic (I’m a stoner now though lmao.), I see things in a more positive light and I let go of my toxic behavior. Please, if you’re someone in the TCC who romanticizes killers, get help. Talk to someone. Take the time to think, “Why do I think this way?” Get new hobbies or something- I just know that the TCC can be a very toxic place. I don’t see myself ever going back to that “fandom” or that mindset ever again. 

It felt nice to finally get that all of my chest.