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I suck at this disorder

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i want to share some sources that weren't on my other post. decolonize palestine is a good website that explains the history of palestine and offers lists of books on palestine. this post has some ways to contact your representatives. jewish voice for peace also has ways to contact representatives and plenty of articles on ceasefire. bisan owda is a palestinian journalist who has been giving updates from gaza. bds movement has listed what to boycott as consumers.

please stay educated on this genocide. over 11 thousand, which nearly half are children, have already died. white phosphorus is being used and power is constantly being cut. several hospitals have been bombed. there is very little water and food. people have been bathing in the sea and drinking rainwater. an entire school year was ended because so many children were killed. now is not the time to give up or lose hope. keep being loud!!

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Israel blows up Gaza's "Palace of Justice" compound which housed the Palestinian Supreme Court, the Court of Appeal, the Court of First Instance & the Magistrate. 100,000s of vital case documents are gone. Deliberately targeting civilian infrastructure is a War Crime!

Israel's soldiers took victory images inside the Palestinian Supreme Court before blowing it up into pieces. This proves the facility constituted ZERO danger to the Israeli military & no militants were hiding inside it at the time it was destroyed. Again, a war crime!

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i’m getting emotional at the amount of time i’ve spent feeding my eating disorder.

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food log (24/04)

2 sweet potatoes

sweet potato fries

mackerel

banana chia seed pudding

soy milk tea

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fell off

when i went home I fell out of my routine! I’ve been eating lots of sugar since but I’m going to do no added sugar starting from tomorrow :]

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losing weight again! basically just replaced sugary foods with starch and veggies and i don’t crave them as much anymore. i also do 20-24 hour fasts which work so well for me. i’m gonna eat my easter chocolate tomorrow.

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purging relapse

i ate too much and felt disgusting . did my old routine . feeling terrible. i need to stop eating period. im so serious

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low res and late if vs high res and early if

i’m going back to low res after a walking 28km over two days and eating junk. i’m thinking of doing later intermittent fasting, eating from 2 to 6pm. i think the reason i want to do this is to train myself to eat smaller portions and calories again. i won’t have morning heart palpitations if i do it this way and there is no temptation to eat after my feeding period bc i could just go to bed.

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calorie dense, refined food

come monday i’m kinda giving them up. they are really nice but i find that they have too much sugar. i’ll treat them like special occasion food from now on. like on easter, birthdays etc. they’ll taste better that way

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i slept better last night

so i’ve been doing predominantly breakfast omad this week because for me it means that i don’t need to worry about food later. last night however, i had some vegan gummies with friends at around 5pm. maybe about 200cals worth.

I wasn’t really that stressed about it because I’ve been eating at bmr so it would probably just make me maintain. but after thinking about it i was like, I don’t really want to increase my glycogen stores, because they make you gain water weight. 

so I was ok, let’s try burn these calories off...

ik that’s an unhealthy ed mindset but i wasn’t gonna over do it. i was just donna do enough to raise my heart rate and make me warm. i have quite a lot of muscle already which is i’m not mad about because it makes me burn calories faster. I think i’m the type that naturally is muscular because i don’t workout that often.

i didn’t wanna do youtube workouts bc i don’t like them. and i didn’t wanna go to the gym or go walking bc it was 8pm at the time and honestly, i just wanted to stay in bed. i resorted to simply doing 4 songs worth of dancing with the little energy i had. i am not a dancer. i am just an audiophile so music makes me happy and such. i danced but also tried to do silly little workouts to the beat, like star jumps and standing crunches. i found it quite fun.

i went to be feeling ok and had an amazing 8ish hours of sleep? i woke up with no heart palpitations and 0.4kgs lighter, making my total loss this week 2.8kgs.

I think my body appreciated to glucose and the exercise. i’m gonna continue to keep my metabolism on it’s feet and continue high res, but alternate the types of exercise I do :]

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Black spo

pt twenty four :)

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eating at bmr

so this is the amount of calories needed per day to do involuntary body functions. it doesn’t take into consideration any other physical activity things like talking and walking.

for the past couple days i’ve been eating just below my BMR (~1000) and I’ve lost 2.1kgs. Water weight or not, I don’t care lol it’s working. Until bmi <15, I’ll be eating at around 1000-1400, which allows me to function pretty well and for physical activity, my body will just get the rest of the calories from fat and muscle tissue i guess. i think the reason this will be quite maintainable is because most of the calories is from food. also bmr doesn’t take into account thermic effect of food so high protein = more calories burned.

tbh calories are a scam but they are a good starting point to lose weight lmao

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losing weight again!

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new ugw: being the skinniest in the room at all times