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Current daily workout 10-2022

Wanted to keep a record of my workout progress, it's something that's been going on since early 2020 but has definitely evolved since I first started. I just want to see how this grows as I go because when I first started I could only to the 30 minute exericse before being completely useless and spent.

Read below the cut to see what I'm currently doing on the daily....

Chris Heria's 2022 Ab routine

100 pushups

60 continuous reps

break

20 continuous reps

break

20 continuous reps

112 tricep focused pushups

15 elevated pike pushups

15 bench dips

6 (each side) cross tricep extensions

20 skull crushers

20 tricep extensions

20 diamond pushups

15 pseudo pushups

80 chin up variations

30 minute exercise (either HIIT or Strength training)

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Daily Rundown #3

I went to work today and one of the first things I was hit with was yet another breakup update. Within the work environment, I think there's not really much else to say other than I'm sorry. What really resonated with me when we were talking was the amicability of relationships and the whole open communication aspect of it. She mentioned that it was important to them both to have open conversations about where the relationship was going which made it easier for her when it did happen because she knew to expect it and….the biggest thing? It ended amicably. To the level that they're still going to be talking and friends afterward. I suppose my youth and naivety when I was dumped in my last relationship didn't leave room for this type of friendship to last but its definitely something that I'll remember moving forward because it's always a shame to lose people in your life that have made an impact, even if things don't work out romantically it'd be great to keep them in your life even within a friendly capacity. I don't know, it was what was intended when my ex and I ended things but that obviously didn't happen. I still speak to her sometimes but it's not the same unfortunately I don't think we'll ever get to the point of being friendly again. I guess that's just a reality that sometimes needs to be accepted.

Aside from work and that conversation with my coworker the day was pretty routine, went to work, came home, and got started on uni assignments. On that note, who would have thought that what we watch on Netflix does have applications in academics. I made a decision over the weekend on what my topic was going to be and the whole premise of it is based on a documentary I watched on Netflix a couple years back which should be interesting to write about. At least this time digesting the journal articles and research papers won't be as boring because I'll have a bit more of an idea of what they'll be talking about as I read them unlike how I usually consume academic articles.

Bit of a short one today, but the workday was tiring, but I still wanted to try and keep these consistent so here you go.

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Daily Rundown #2

I spent a good hour looking for a live stream for the Blackpink concert last night. It's crazy how the world of Kpop girl groups has sucked me in and has me by the chokehold without any chance of letting up. I eventually stepped away from it because the audio and picture were so blurry, for a good thing too, after the concert was over I was able to see full clips with better audio of the songs that were performed. This is doing nothing to help me convince myself not to buy tickets when they get released here. (I've been saving up for a couple months now so this is a blatant lie, I have not veered off the concert path in any way). Before I go down the road of just rambling on and on about this hyper fixation (I'll say this much, Rosé, wow, I would love to see her perform live). An observation I have made over the past few weeks about my hyper-fixations is that when they do happen, they stick around for a long time. I've been completely engrossed in this world for the entire 2022 period and the fixation hasn't waned. If only the me from 2 years ago could see me now, I never would have imagined this being something I'd ever obsess over.

Aside from just pouring over youtube to watch these clips on repeat, I spent my day split between trying to relax and getting assignments done. I managed to cram in some last-minute law essay drafting before getting distracted. So, today was filled with fine-tuning and getting started on the body and structure of the essay. I got the plan done for the first two paragraphs and the introduction done before I proceeded to get distracted with youtube. Oh, a tip! Something that I have found to help motivate me when I start getting distracted like this is to watch one video between each of the paragraphs, this way I get my paragraphs done but I also get to satisfy my desire to watch random Youtube videos whilst I'm at it.

Trying to relax is the key thing here. I went out to initially just have lunch out at the local shopping center with my family but ended up venturing to a car dealership with them and buying a new standing desk with them. The day really flipped on its head from what I had initially planned to do.

I did manage to get some exercise done in between the busy day. I decided to give pilates a go today. God, is it hard. I have no idea how people can do this and make it look effortless. It was difficult keeping my body still in those positions. Nevertheless, it was fun and I think I'll slowly try to integrate this into my workout regime as time goes on. I also found a video of a girl commenting on a Live that Jungkook from BTS had held, specifically his workout routine, and thought, why not? Let's give this a go. Honestly not that bad, but if I say I'll add this to my daily routine I think I'll be exercising for at least 2 hours a day and that just does not fit into the current schedule, but we can dream. We just want to rock these muscles and nonexistent abs.

Today was a pretty chill and relaxing day, despite the unplanned car dealership visit but all in all a pretty good day!

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My posture is absolutely atrocious, or at least it feels that way because I sit and look at computers botth for a living and as soon as I get home to relax. To try and avoid/prevent any further poor posture practices I’ve started trying this out. 

It’s been 3 days so far and from what I can tell my back has definitely gotten stronger, or at least the muscles feel like they are being engaged a little more. The biggest thing that I’ve noticed is that immediately after doing this exercise I can feel my back default to standing up straight without thinking about it. It’s a shame that this only lasts for 30 minutes before I have to consciously make sure I’m standing up straight but its progress!

I think this is pretty cool, I’ll keep at it for now and see whether this truly does make a difference to my posture as time goes on. Think it might be a little too soon to say

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Daily Rundown #1

The first of these. Let's see if we can keep this consistent...

Today was pretty so and so all in all. I didn't think I'd be talking about this type of stuff this early into this blogging/journalling journey...here we go. 

Nothing really prepares you for the heavy things in life: 

I was hit with some pretty big news last night and haven't been able to fully process it quite yet. All I know is that the people that are affected, I hope they're able to and can continue the moments that they do have together. Because things can happen that put things in retrospect. 

When I got the news, all I could think was Woah. Nothing can ever prepare you for bad news and there really isn't a one size fits all type of reply or response that we can have to this. No one can really prepare you for hearing that someone is dying. 

All I know is that I want to uphold the underlying request my friend had as they were telling me all this: 'don't let this change the way you treat me, I don't want things to change'. I intend to keep this and have tried to keep things, whilst being sensitive to it, almost as they were. I guess time will tell how this goes, and what will happen if things get worse. 

Less is more when we want to respect people's space:

To step away from the morbid, I received news of a sudden breakup earlier today.

Another one of my friends had let slip that she had broken up with her, I guess the term is 'situationship'? I'm not quite sure how to put it but I know that the guy was nice, respectful, and good to her. Not too sure how someone would react to this, I just did what I thought was the right thing in the moment and asked if she was doing ok, no reply just yet. I think I may have been ghosted but this is a normal thing in our friendship so I don't think I should read into it much just yet. Regardless, she deserves some space to sort through how she feels before talking to others about it. At least, that's what I found when I was dumped a couple years back...

One for the notes then, not asking a barrage of questions after someone drops that news on you is probably the best, and least invasive way to go about things. Or is it? I'm not too sure...still figuring this one out.

Dogs are great companions:

I know, a deal breaker for some. I have a little dog myself and I help walk a friend's when I get the chance. Today is one of those days. 

We did a loop of the neighborhood and it really helped clear the head. I had been working on assessments and math questions all morning and needed to step away from it or I'd be sucked into the youtube procrastination whole for hours. Deciding to be more productive rather than not I thought, it's sunny, it's a great day let's go on a walk. 

Let me tell you walking your own dog and someone else's is quite interesting. My dog trails beside me and walks when I do, the other one is off in his own world sniffing everything and anything. I could feel the exasperation coming off of mine when we stopped for the umpteenth time to smell yet another bush. He was adorable though so I won't hold that against him. 

What I will hold against him, and in part my dog is the smell, to spare you the TMI I'll just say this: the smell is not pleasant (it's literally shit).

Despite all this, it was a great hour away from it all and I think if I can motivate myself I can probably keep walking him because his mother is away for work, leaving him with her parents for a couple months. Favors for favors in this world, she did me a solid walking my dog when she was in the city so I'll do the same. 

Distractions can lead to new interests:

I was being the best student in the world yesterday. Translation: I was absolutely terrible and shopping whilst in a lecture.

Whilst shopping I found several pages of just watches on sale and was so fascinated by the different styles that they had available and the different vibes they had that I started looking into watch collecting.

The world of horology seems really cool. I've yet to really look into this world just yet but this is definitely something on the agenda to look into either tomorrow or sometime next week. I have a couple watches now that I wear quite frequently that would be a great way to kickstart this collection and this new interest. So if I do go through with this and get into it keep an eye out in the 'cool things' tag to see what else I have done/seen in this space. 

New interests are always exciting because I can never seem to focus on more than one interest at a time. I want to try and change this because currently, that one interest becomes my entire personality. 

By expanding my interests and hobbies I hope to bring more to the table than the latest updates on my latest hyper fixation. 

Math...isn't that hard when it makes sense:

The same could be said about everything we learn in school but I stand by this. 

Whenever there is a math test or something algorithm or logic-based, on the horizon I try to get started on preparations for these early. Reason being? I am notoriously slow at learning the basics and applying them in these exams. I typically look for online calculators and hope that they will be my savior for the exam. 

This time round though? The calculators for these types of problems are far and few in between so I had to knuckle down and really dive into the theorems and lemmas relevant to the topic and you know what? Upon doing the practice run I ended up getting a 90%! Absolutely shocking for someone who starts off with 0-10% on these exams. Turns out looking into theorems and dissecting them to the very bone really seems to help with math. Probably self-evident to people that are good at that type of thing but I have struggled with this subject for the longest time this is such a revelation for me. 

With this newfound confidence I've done a couple more practice exams and have actually put off my other subjects for it...probably not the best which is why I'm now scrambling to do some legal writing now before I get too tired to keep writing. 

I'm not sure how I feel about how these are structured. If I manage to keep this up do expect some changes until I figure out what works for me. If anyone reading this has any suggestions though happy to hear from you! Let me know. 

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Thought I’d never get into this Excel thing because it seemed to scary and difficult to use. The UI was always something that confused me as a kid but it turns out its not that bad. I’ve gotten a start on creating budgets and trackers for schooling using this and its actually pretty cool!

I was bored over the break and decided to look into things that I had always been hesitant to look at before. In comes Excel. I had seen the program being mentioned time and time again in job applications as something that would be good to have so I thought it would be a great idea to kill 2 birds with one stone and give it a go, get a budget set up and learn skills that would be transferrable to work if I wanted to apply for a position that needed it in the future. 

So I started in September, playing with the different conditional formatting tools and calculation functions that are on offer and just woah. There is heaps to do on this one program and I don’t even think I’ve scratched the surface here. To create my budget all I had to do was format cells, make them pretty colours and then duplicate them for the rest of the year. The COOLEST thing out of all this was the fact that you could link 2 separate (well more than 2 but just the fact that you could do this was so cool for me at least) excel books together and have them update accordingly. Consider my mind blown. 

I played with these tools and got so sucked into it I ended up making savings trackers, subject trackers for school and even a gross profit tracker for the year because I could.

Excel, not such a bad and scary thing once you get started. That being said, I still have heaps to learn here so don’t go askinng me to do things like vlookup just yet....‘this is intermediate, i’m just beginner’.

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Hello world

Some introductions are in order. If anyone ever sees this, hello! Feel free to read, interact, and learn with me. 

I’m someone who has been and continues to struggle with trying to work out how to get this human thing right. I’ve never really questioned or explored the realm of being human, whatever those experiences entail. 

Struggling with not being overtly blunt in conversations and sometimes with reading the room my human-ing needs some serious work. 

From what I know so far, there is a whole lot to learn and experience in a world I have barely scratched the surface of. That's obvious enough I guess but coming to realize that was something that took quite a while. 

I'll be trying to put myself out there, or just trying to see life outside of this basic routine I've gotten myself stuck into to try to work everything. 

Why? Well, I'll be honest, I'm stumped. I have no idea what interests I really have outside of the random hyper fixation here and there, Tumblr is a great tool for me to facilitate these hyperfixations, and I figure it would also be a great place to learn about things outside of them. 

What's the end goal here? What do I hope to learn at the end of this journey?

I want to become a better human. Isn't this what we all aspire to do? So come along for the journey and hopefully we can all learn something together.