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I love this version , for the first time I see Chuck as a true partner to D instead of a background player …

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D… i have a lot of affection for you , you know that .I can’t fathom the pain you and your mom are in right now . I am so terribly sorry for your loss and if I could I would give you a huge hug .. lord knows yours have always made me feel cared for . If I can offer you at least a small portion of that .. it’s yours . I had a lot of affection for him too and I will miss him ..

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DC … je t’aime .. tu le sais .. j’ai beaucoup de peine pour toi et ta maman .. je pense à vous deux telemt fort tu ne peux pas imaginer . J’ai aucune idée à quel point vous étés en douleur .. j’ai pas mots pour te réconforter mais saches que je te prendrais dans mes bras pour te donner le plus gros des câlins que je peux . A ma façon , je m’ennuie de lui aussi et je me demande en qui j’aurais de la confiance pour la suite des choses ..

❤️❤️

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I have made a decision , I refuse to be bullied about how I feel or what I say here .. we are all allowed to have opinions and we don’t have to agree with each other ..

So I’m going to write what I want and how I feel and if you like it , cool .. if not cool ..I’m done looking for approval/feedback from anyone .

i have the right to feel what I feel and I won’t be ashamed for it .

im going to take a break from posting for a little while and let things calm down while finding some new inspiration .

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You couldn’t stay a little longer

Wish you had been stronger

Didn’t see your pain

You were under strain

If only you’d let someone in

Guess you didn’t know where to begin

You brought light to my life

In this world full of strife

Tried to tell you so

If only you’d seen your light show

It cast its glow on me

Wish I’d been able to make you see

Farewell my friend

So sad this is the end

I’ll miss what we shared

Hope you know how much I cared

Who will teach me now ?

I’ll figure it out somehow

Hoping you’re at peace

Your body at rest and your soul free

Love, laughter, your musical poetry

And your three beautiful children will be your legacy

Through them your light will glow eternally .

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I’m not sure where my writing will take me .. I do know that I will share less of myself here and keep my feelings to myself . I know that a lot of people here had various opinions of Chuck and I don’t begrudge them that .. it’s their business . I feel like I have lost a friend who mattered to me and will never know just how much . For those who have inquiring minds .. I have reached out to both D and Cerina in my own way so what they are going through matters to me and I can’t fathom how deep their grief is and would never try to . I’m just trying to excorcise mine so that I don’t fall into the dark place that took Chuck from us much too soon. I feel for those closest to him and I would like to think they would understand my feelings in return . If you don’t like my blog .. move on .. I won’t hold it against you .

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I changed my URL and I won’t be writing anymore .. at least not publicly .. so anyone that has a problem with it can leave me alone about it …

Like it or not he was my friend and I have feelings about it .. some people don’t care so I will keep them to myself..

✌🏼

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“I loved my brother so much. And I know he loved me. Right out of the womb, he was my instant, ready-made best friend. And from that moment on, we absolutely loved being together. “Charles & Darren” were an inseperable, dynamic duo. We shared nearly everything and looked out for each other. He was my confidant and companion as we discovered the world together. As we got older, music became one of our greatest bonds. And as an artist, he possessed a raw, inimitable talent that never ceased to inspire me. A distinct voice and songwriting style that I greatly admired for its singularity and sincerity. His impressive skills as a musician mixed with his poetic observation of the world yielded a prolific amount of music that was endlessly unique, clever, fun, intriguing and beautiful to me…A fitting metaphor for his very soul. We were each other’s culture & comedy brokers. Nostalgia & adolescence witnesses. Video game & basketball buddies. Unwaveringly supportive audience members. He was my favorite playmate, schoolmate, bandmate - and I am so eternally grateful that I got to share the adventure of growing up with an older brother like that. My life is better for it.“ - Darren Criss Rest in Peace, Charles ”Chuck“ Criss (April 15, 1985 - February 2022)

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Im going to stop sharing my lyrics hear .. not many are interested and I’m not sure I’m going to continue writing at this point …

😞😏

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A fitting tribute from his fellow members of FLW. I particularly love the comments regarding the tall grass.