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World of Warcraft is the only game I’m exited for. I mean I’m exited for Halo 6, but it doesn’t exist yet. Other than that... Metal Gear Survive, some medieval simulator, pubg, I don’t feel anything. No emotions at all. 2018, what’s up with that?

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Also daytime moon, but it was near full and so bright, like the mini-sun, so the photo turned out like black and white. 

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Took a nice clear shot of the daytime moon. This is fantasy in real life, you can see the different world in the sky.

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Hello there. That’s me. Glad to meetcha.

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About Dorian Harker. Long read alert.

Greetings! So who the hell am I, anyway? I tend to use three words as of late: writer, artist and supervillain. Yes, I'm on the Dark Side, baby. It all started way back when I was watching Transformers: Beast Wars, when I suddenly realized that my heart lies with Megatron and team evil. I cried when Darth Vader died. My favorite scene in The Lords of the Rings is this awesome battle where Sauron shows everyone who's the boss. "But the power of the Ring could not be undone".  Boom-shakalaka! Get'em Sauron! Get'em! You get the picture.

That's probably not very Dale Carnegie of me. I mean, I gotta make a good first impression here, right? Plants. I like growing plants. Leon style. How's that? Still weird? I would include a photo of myself with a dog if I could, but I'm allergic to pretty much all mammals, so... Green thingies. I care about them. See? I'm all right. Everything's perfectly all right now. We're fine. We're all fine here now. Thank you. How are you?

For your information, when I talk to people I tend to have about 3 separate lines of thought and I switch between them back and forth, and if I have enough room to talk, I can go on for long time about some little detail just so I can better highlight the major topic of a conversation. Actually, I saw a description of something pretty similar on wikipedia, somewhere in "mental disorders" section. But I prefer to think about it more as a writing quirk. Sooooooo... remember Sauron? Let's continue from here. Fantasy and sci-fi. I love them! Video games are in my blood since 1997 (my first ever game - Imperium Galactica, 4x space strategy, awesome stuff). I was a modmaker during Warcraft III era, went on to win a map-making contest hosted by a local game developer, and first set my foot inside a "gamedev" office and left my signatures on contracts when I was 14. But the dream life of a leathercoat-wearing teenage mutant ninja developer didn't happen for me. It was only a decade later when I actually got a real job in gamedev. That was... a disappointment. Managers give you shit, managers of these managers give you shit, "deadline" is everyone's favorite topic of conversation, crunches suck the soul out of you, and... woah, that's got too depressive too quickly. But don't worry. I know a magic word for such occasions: "Anyway"... Imaginary worlds. I was  always fascinated with them. Dune. Legacy of Kain. Vampire: the Masquerade. Thief. Trinity Blood. Planescape. Dark Sun. Warhammer 40k. I dreamed that when I grow up, I will create stuff like that. The idea was that it will probably happen inside some gamedev company. But even before I got there, I started writing my first fantasy book. I always took writing very seriously, but I had these game developer ambitions to be a part of something on Bioshock/Mass Effect level. Making games is hard, but it's not just rocket science, it's a psychological state that requires you to sacrifice everything. It was holding me back from what I really wanted to do. Imaginary worlds. MY worlds.

Writing took over. I finally figured out what I need to do to align with my childhood "when I grow up" dreams. Of course, writing turned out to be even tougher than making games, you have to motivate yourself, fight the all-devouring self-doubt, no one is paying you salary, you live only for as long as you have savings, and when the money starts to run low food rationing comes into play and... ugh... Anyway...

Lemme see... Writer, supervillain... Ah! What's up with this "artist" part? Well, I've been drawing since I was 6, but I had lacked education. Then I discoreved that I'm the absolute devastator in the realm of 3D graphics. I used to compensate my poor drawing skills with making cool 3D. Then, by accident, I started sketching in subway on my way to work/from work. And the nature of going to work is (BREAKING) 5 days a week, every week. After a year since I started doing subway sketches, I realized: "wait a minute... this looks pretty good..." So now I'm in the middle of drawing and painting everything that I wanted to draw and paint since ancient history. It's hot and sexy girls, mostly. Why that pacticular topic? Because female body is the most beautiful thing in the world. I do appretiace the male physique, too and male anatomy is on my "to do" list, but for now I'm focusing heavily on my ladies. I'm also into achitecture, fashion, big-ass Warhammer armor, mecha, dinosaurs, but I already tried to spread myself thin as a kid, that didn't work. So, ladies. Yes, sometimes naked. With naked boobs. I hope you don't have a problem with that, because I sure don't. So be advised. I haven't written any sex scenes yet, but I outlined them. I don't want to make a big deal out of it, it's just in my fantasy world, people have sex. I also say "fuck" a lot. My characters are not different. Stevie King once wrote about writing that "you have to tell the truth". And the truth is, I find that swearing is fucking hilarious. It's a positive thing for me. Oh, dear. That's all definitely not very Dale Carnegie of me. Plants. Green thingies. Leon. About a week ago I put this onion in a glass tube filled with water, just water, no soil, but the roots just keep growing! True story.

I hope you enjoyed this little piece of writing. That wasn't easy, writing about this regular dude, who's just trying to make his way in the universe. I don't usually do that. I write about magic! Explosions! Power of black holes in a wizard's hand. Stick with me, if you're interested.

PS: Oh, if any Deception loyalists are out there, let me know. Total Domination of the Universe! All hail Megatron!