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Update: apparently the nurse was Not Supposed to Tell Me That. So now everybody is being really cagey about whether or not I have epilepsy because apparently they're not supposed to tell me anything until the doctor looks at it in two weeks

Just had a seizure during an eeg for the first time and, suddenly, it's like all my problems are gone. I had a seizure! And they saw it! There was clear seizure activity!

For the last two years I've been convinced that I was somehow faking it against my will. That my body was just being dramatic and shutting down for no reason. But there it is! Proof!

I'm finally going to get treatment and be able to live my life again!!!

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Just had a seizure during an eeg for the first time and, suddenly, it's like all my problems are gone. I had a seizure! And they saw it! There was clear seizure activity!

For the last two years I've been convinced that I was somehow faking it against my will. That my body was just being dramatic and shutting down for no reason. But there it is! Proof!

I'm finally going to get treatment and be able to live my life again!!!

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current little side quest:

fox paw key chain 🦊

I am debating on giving the white background an orange border but also considering inverting the colours on the other side - so excited how this will turn out. I've had this idea for a while!!

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has this been done

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To be clear, the responsibility does not lie on the funeral home. There's a lot of people in the notes talking about how terrible it is for funeral homes to charge their high prices but, unfortunately, it's a lot of work to prepare a body and people need to get paid. And they're not even getting paid that much; the people who do this work do it because they're passionate about helping the dead and their families, not for the money.

Unlike in ye olden days when you just paid for a shitty coffin and for a random guy to dig a hole, now we have things like embalming and permits and whatnot. Much like how the quality of life has gone up, quality of death has as well; our standards for how we treat our dead have risen astronomically, which ends up effecting how much we need to spend.

Instead of Peter the Town Carpenter building a coffin that will eventually break down, it's made internationally and it's built to last decades. Instead of just plain wood, there's a mattress and a pillow and frills that an actual human being had to sew. And then that coffin gets delivered, and now we have to pay for gas and pay the delivery driver, as well as an import tax.

Instead of just letting the body rot, now we fill it with chemicals to preserve it. We make it look like they're still alive. Makeup is applied to make them look the way they were before, but now we have to pay for the makeup, and the embalming fluid, and the mortician needs to pay rent.

A venue needs to be rented for the funeral, flowers need to be delivered, people fly in to say goodbye to a corpse that was made to look just like how they remembered it.

In order to keep up with today's standards of death care, you might end up spending tens of thousands of dollars, and you may not have any other choice.

Even if you're going the cheapest possible route, you NEED to pay for the coffin, you NEED to pay whoever dug the grave, everybody involved needs to be paid enough to survive.

In short, yes, universal death care is necessary. But, also, the return to a simpler form of death care would greatly reduce the cost; and I think that if the government is going to pay for anything it would be the most basic burial/funeral possible, and that's not necessarily a bad thing.

I think the best case scenario would be government owned, non profit funeral homes. Any government subsidized death care would be as streamlined as possible, meaning no embalming (better for the environment) and basic plain wooden coffins (would break down quickly which, for me, counts as a plus).

And, of course, there would likely be group cremations. Which is a bit of a complicated issue. Personally, I'm not necessarily for or against them. While I find the concept wildly dehumanizing, I'm of the opinion that corpses should be treated like corpses, and that trying to create the illusion that they're still alive is the reason for insane funeral prices.

To summarize, yes I think that there should be free options for death care, but it would be pretty much impossible to uphold current standards and still remain cost effective.

Anyway, sorry for the essay lol

It's a topic I'm very passionate about, and it's something I could talk about for hours!

truly just as we have universal health care we need to have universal death care. dying is not optional and funerals should not be a financial burden for families.

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Me: I need a service dog because I have constant seizures and I've lost all independence. I think if I have to go another day in this house I'm gonna kms

My parents: Nuh-uh

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king do you have any good transmasc music recs? like music made by transmascs who arent singing about bugs or other virgin shit

no its all bad im sorry

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You don't figure it out until 30?!?

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I want to own a house and have a garden in the back and a fruit tree in front and I want to tell the neighborhood kids that they can come pick the fruits when they want as long as they leave some for others, and I want to host dinners for friends and make too much food and make everyone go home with some leftovers, and I want to grow vegetables in my garden and beg my neighbors to take all this zucchini off my hands or I'll have to eat zucchini for every meal for the next few months, and I want to give and feed and love but I need more goddamn money first

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the thing about Chappell Roan is she's just acting like a normal human lesbian woman but everyone fucking hates lesbian women

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"Sometimes you're doing really well, then, after three or four years, everything inexplicably crashes like a house of cards and you have to rebuild it. It's not like you get to a point where you're all right for the rest of your life."

Patti Smith

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This post is very clearly talking about accidentally reblogging a normal post from a problematic person which I feel like pretty much everyone has done??? Like almost nobody is checking every single user they're reblogging from and to expect that is kinda insane. All this post is saying is that you shouldn't feel bad for accidentally reblogging something normal from a problematic user. Maybe work on your reading comprehension and stop being a dick?

there are many things tumblr as a whole has to learn but one of them is “someone can reblog a post without them endorsing every action the op has ever taken, we are not beholden to do background checks on the producers of every shitpost on the internet”

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Imma be real, for a second I forgot about crown of candy and I thought I was just WAY behind on candyland lore

Currently thinking about Saccharina Frostwhip and how her very nature means that she cannot exist unless her little sister is dead.

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I'm high and I made this :)

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I'm a total shopaholic, I love buying new stuff, but I REFUSE to buy new tech/appliances until the old ones are no longer working for this very reason. The new stuff is just so BAD, any updates just take up space and don't improve anything.

Anybody else have a growing fear of updating their tech cuz everything seems to be getting worse and worse