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no personal space

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Based on a twt post @YaoiSpongebob made about og Hikaru watching the events of the TSHD series unfold via livestream in heaven

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"you're not hikaru, are you?"

Wallpapers/Support me @ Kofi | Instagram | Twitter | Commission@vGen

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Aftercare

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stabbing is a love language <3

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nervous?

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it’s probably the autism but the idea of “If I stop messaging my friends first I think they’d stop talking to me, so I’ll stop messaging first and see what happens” still makes no sense to me.

Like, if your concern is “I’m worried I’ll stop being friends or hanging out with people if I stop messaging them first” just- don’t stop messaging first?

But if the problem is “I feel like our relationship is one sided” or “I’m putting more energy into this than I can afford” or “I’m feeling unloved” these are things you can resolve with the friend.

“Hey is it okay if we chat about our friendship/relationship? I’ve been feeling like I’m always the one to message first or suggesting we make plans and it’s making me feel [tired, neglected, insecure.]” and if they respond positively, congrats you can work on your relationship! And if they respond negatively, congrats they probably weren’t the right friend for you and now you know that.

I’m not making this post to shame anyone, because I know these feelings can be really strong and anxiety inducing and hard to untangle. But never underestimate the power of just talking about your feelings in your relationships. Everyone always talks about how they forget to respond to messages for ages, but it never seems to come up that that can be applied to your friends too.

Be kind to yourselves.

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Marking

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cling

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I saw a post saying Dazai’s hands grew when he got taller and I agree. Chuuya had that one win before it was ripped away from him 😔

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Can’t wait to not sleep at all on September 11th

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it’s fucking wild because one day you’re like i guess i’m not dying tragically young and you go to the store and you buy dental floss, ingredients for soup, and a bath mat

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Shout out to Yoshiki for experiencing like 5 consecutive panic attacks a day

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🥀🥀🥀

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The summer hikaru died

"Hikaru" 😁✌️

Yoshiki 🫩

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the jennifers bodyisms of tshd have bewitched me